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This blog is now an archive of my evolution; for better, and perhaps for worse too.

Interests, emotions, thoughts and words have changed. Deepened. Seeped into shallow crevices. Stagnant. Still, nothing to be embarrassed about.

Everything still rings truth, especially all that I have expressed with written words. I love them all. The ragged package of honesty and its authenticity and yearning at that point in time. The space I made and held for unknowingly and without much clarify.

But I now appreciate them. Grateful that I can still enter them and pause in remembrance.

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The position and the changing phases of the Moon above the peaks of the Cridola Group, in the Italian Alps, during a lunar month, called synodic month

via reddit

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Dance of the Nebulae Animation

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Soulmates are not your ~other half~, that’s just nonsense. You are a whole person already, not half a person. A soulmate isn’t even inherently romantic. A soulmate is just the other sock in a matched set. You’re still a whole, complete sock on your own, you are perfectly functional paired with any other sock, it’s just that it’s even better when you match. A soulmate is literally just the person who makes your soul go “!!! Same hat!!!” and wave excitedly.

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i love this

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this is literally the only interpretation of “soulmate” that I can tolerate or accept

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I am Chidi. Chidi is me.

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“I think the only way we can grow and get on in this world is to accept the fact we’re not perfect and live accordingly.”

— Ray Bradbury (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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“There is a failure with people. And that is why some people become so savage and tear at life and leave it in shreds and tatters. Because in gentleness there is failure so often.”

— Tennessee Williams, from Selected Stories; “Oriflamme,” c. January 1944 (via violentwavesofemotion)

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“To be able to be alone is an educational experience. Solitude is choosing a sort of pain, training to conjugate the verbs of the heart with the freedom of the self-sufficient, or being more or less detached from your exterior self and forced to plunge inside yourself without a parachute.”

Mahmoud Darwish, tr. by Catherine Cobham, from “A River Dies of Thirst,”

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First day of life up until 6th grade

Jumped all the way to Freshman year of High School

Then I cut my hair Junior year, why did I do that

Slowly it started growing back and then….

I finally felt comfortable to express myself (the picture on the left was my debut)

At this point in my transition I am 6 months into HRT

A year on HRT

Over a year and a half on hormones. My transition hasn’t been the clearest path but I am so happy that I am on it.

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Update:

2 years since my coming out

2 years on hrt

2.3 years on hrt

2 and a half years on hormones

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Its been a while since I’ve done an update so here it goes

At this point I am 3 years into my Hormone Replacement Therapy. I’m thriving.

These pictures were taken days apart and I am 3 and a half years into my medical transition (The picture on the right was also posted by Instagram on all their major social media handles attached with an interview I did with them for International Women’s Month)

During this time I was 4 years into HRT. Clearly living for it.

I am currently 4 and a half years into HRT, 5 years into socially transitioning, 6 years into when i first came out to my community around me and I’m loving life more than I ever thought I would.