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oliviamitchy

as you probably know, as of 16th October, Liam Payne has passed. i am heartbroken. a piece of me has died along with Liam. he was one of the brightest stars in the galaxy, and now, he has fallen. he is no longer shining, no longer laughing, but why do I still hear the echo of his laughter...

my heart feels heavy, like a hundred pounds in my body. a weight on my chest that I'm sure will never leave. i am numb, the only emotion i feel is devastation.

One Direction is what has got me through life, starting 2021. when I was under pressure, when I was lonely, they were there for me. those 5 wonderful boys. my heart aches for what Louis, Zayn, Niall and Harry must be going through right now. the shock and sadness they must be experiencing must be 1000 times more than what I'm going through. my heart aches for his mother, who lost a piece of her life. the pain a mother feels upon losing a child must be... i can't even imagine what it must be like.

i read somewhere... 4 of the One Direction mothers lost a son, 1 welcomed him. this broke me. when I said, that I wanted a one direction reunion, i did not mean at a funeral. we have lost all hope of a one direction reunion. it will never be the same. i will never listen to One Direction songs in the same way, ever again. that girl from 2021, who seeked comfort from One Direction, is broken, but will never fade. she is grieving, and it will definitely take her a while to come to terms with this.

I never thought it was possible to feel so much for a person you have never met in your life. i guess it's true what they say... nothing is impossible.

One Direction was and always will be a big part of my childhood, it still is a big part of my life, and it always will be. always. Liam, i will always love you. i'm happy you have found peace. know that you were loved by every single person around you. you were adoored. rest well 🥹❤️

thesegoldenwalls

weird how time keeps moving and we just have to keep up when everything feels numb.

weird how it's already been a week.

we miss you, Liam

rhetthammersmithhorror

eat-apples

stuckinapril

I really thought grief was just a constant state of catatonia but I’m entirely wrong bc you feel like you’re normal and okay for maybe most of the day but then it creeps up on you again and chokes you all out of nowhere and then you rebound and feel okay again and then there it is creeping up on you again and it literally never ends it’s like motion sickness

leeloooonfire

and sometimes it's like a slap in the face. You're sitting there, laughing with your best friend, eating ice cream and suddenly you remember. Its like grief punches you in the throat and there's nothing you can do but act normal, despite brain freeze, smile freeze, hands shaking, heart aching. Whiplash of guilt and sorrow and despair all in 0.0001 seconds.