The ocean is my home

Musing from a tired college girl (20)

[thoughts-from-ocean]

He just gets crushes on people easily he's just like me fr but idk if he likes me. There are a few moments where I think maybe he does but I'm not sure. Like today our other friend gave me a compliment on my sweater then he looked at him then at me and I looked at him and then at our other friend in sight confusion. Then they were talking about going to a bakery after they were done with their final but I couldn't go with them since i had to work on homework. I asked if he could bring me something from there and he said he kinda wanted to go home but was down to come by later (or something to that effect) and filled his head down and gave me a look. It was suggestive??? maybe??? I tilted my head slightly in confusion since I didn't get it.

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found out he has a small crush on a barista girl at a local coffee shop but i haven't lost hope since he literally saw her the one time and i see him twice a week. it's probably him just finding her hot. like going to the local coffee shop and when you go trying to see if the hot barista is there. but no matter what happens, i'm glad we're friends.

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Literally just bought more kitkats today so i dont run out of kitkats to give him anytime soon

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I care about you so much

I'm glad we got our short time together

You are such a good and kind friend

But what was the point of us being together

If we only got to meet up twice

I know it partially wasn't your fault

And it partially wasn't mine

I want to be together again

I want it to go back to the way things were

Your funny little comments on the snaps I sent

Now you just leave me on read

I'm guessing you're distancing yourself

So I don't get too attached

Cause you're leaving for your summer job

But we're still friends

And the little things like that hurt

I really want to talk to you again

But I know I should give you space

I just wish we had more time together

I can't wait to see your face

I know you're moving on to better things

And you're going where I can't follow

I just hope we can hang out again

Whenever you are free

I just hope it's sometime soon

And not in a year or three

With no awkward air between us

Just us chatting away about silly stories

Or me ranting about my problem of the day

I just hope we can go back to that

Maybe someday at your new place

I just want my friend back

Hopefully time will once again

Heal our friendship

Like it did time and time again

Back when I confessed to you twice

And you didn't feel the same then

Maybe one day we'll get back together

Or maybe one day we won't

I just want to have you in my life

And I hope you feel same

You're so important to me

And I'd hate to let you go

So, goodbye for now

One of my favorite people in the world

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^ looking back at this and fuck this hot mess of a loser that this poem is about lmaoooo

i deserve way better than he treated me

everyone say "FUCK YOU ****"

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literally only looking forward to monday to maybe being able to see my crush and giving him kitkats

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You're confusing me. So are you taking back what you said? Flirting is fun and all, but I thought you couldn't be the person I discover stuff with yet we're flirtng again?

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bruh why the radio silence? is this on accident or is this on purpose?

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part of me just wonders if you're ok and another part wants to just yell at you for making me feel this way

[mysuperlaserpiss]

Sonamy boom??!!....i miss thim

Me too broski 😔... I miss Boom! Eggman the most tbh

[choccymilk589]

☽✧    ✦    ✧☾ goodnight!

[thoughts-from-ocean]

I still miss you occasionally although thankfully the pain has faded away. Thinking about it now, how we are right now, we wouldn't have worked out anyways. But still, I would have liked a few more chances. At least we're still friends. Just please put in some effort. I'm tired of always being the friend that initiates conversations.

[thoughts-from-ocean]

I care about you so much

I'm glad we got our short time together

You are such a good and kind friend

But what was the point of us being together

If we only got to meet up twice

I know it partially wasn't your fault

And it partially wasn't mine

I want to be together again

I want it to go back to the way things were

Your funny little comments on the snaps I sent

Now you just leave me on read

I'm guessing you're distancing yourself

So I don't get too attached

Cause you're leaving for your summer job

But we're still friends

And the little things like that hurt

I really want to talk to you again

But I know I should give you space

I just wish we had more time together

I can't wait to see your face

I know you're moving on to better things

And you're going where I can't follow

I just hope we can hang out again

Whenever you are free

I just hope it's sometime soon

And not in a year or three

With no awkward air between us

Just us chatting away about silly stories

Or me ranting about my problem of the day

I just hope we can go back to that

Maybe someday at your new place

I just want my friend back

Hopefully time will once again

Heal our friendship

Like it did time and time again

Back when I confessed to you twice

And you didn't feel the same then

Maybe one day we'll get back together

Or maybe one day we won't

I just want to have you in my life

And I hope you feel same

You're so important to me

And I'd hate to let you go

So, goodbye for now

One of my favorite people in the world

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Nervous about making my twitch insta and my professional acting insta the same thing but well see how it goes

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I'm starting to like you again but I already know your answer to my feelings so what's the point of trying?

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ok so like i love my dad and i know that he's just worried about me but like sometimes... like dude. i get it but like... im 20. i've grown. i know i used to get infatuated with my crushes really easily (still do) but like i know now not to always look into the little things and thinks it's more than what it is. I know that there's no way for him to really know this since i just still feel weird telling my dad about my crushes (honestly what girl doesn't?).

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just got really tired right now and i wanna go to sleep BUT i have a paper due tomorrow that i want to finish tonight so don't have to worry about it and also won't have to rush it since i'm going bowling with my friends tomorrow too.

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Juggling college, work,homework, and a social life is getting hard and it's only week 3. I know eventually I'll have to sacrifice one to make more time for the others which sucks because the sacrifice will always be my social life. My friends are the ones who have been keeping me sane this entire time. I know I'll see my work friends but I want to also hang out with my other friends.