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One more sip,

and maybe I would have told you everything.

the dreams. the butterflies.

but the screens

the screens that close the distance.

they are too daunting

too intimidating

08/21/19

Such a big house

to feel all alone

in

06/20/19

I know you were no good for me.

so why do i miss you so?

why do i cry?

why do i always check for a new girl on your profile?

why do i care?

perhaps it’s simply habit.

i was so used to caring when you did not.

06/16/19

Why does everyone want me

except for the ones

I want

06/12/19

I dreamt of you again last night.

in it’s rose tinted chamber of sleep, we were lovers, we were happy.

in the harsh light of day, you can only talk to me

through the screens that close our distances

and sometimes i think i catch a glimpse of, a hint of some deeper craving of yours

but each time i talk myself out of the notion that you could want me, after all no one else ever does for long.

both of us are free.. perhaps my troubled mind is simply searching for something? but why you? night after night.

06/07/19

It’s funny

how sometimes

our gut feeling is correct.

i knew you would hurt me.

i knew you didn’t love me.

i knew.

yet i stayed.

why?

05/08/19

I wish she could love me

the way she loves

the younger ones.

I wish

she would

care.

04/20/19

I can’t stop thinking of you.

She’s not the one for you.

You know this now.

And I can’t help but wonder...

But I know it’s wrong

To daydream

When you are hurting so.

And when I am in another’s arms

03/17/19

Picture Perfect

We smile nice for the camera.

We sit prettily side by side on sundays.

We do the family dinners.

I smile proudly with your family as I see you acheiving your dreams.

But when I’m alone at night.

I cry.

Beacuse I know you don’t love me.

I am merely a pretty prop in your life.

And you will tire of me.

03/02/19

I know

I shouldn’t want you.

but for some reason

when you looked at her

I didn’t see love in your eyes.

and I can’t help but wonder..

what exactly is behind your eyes when you look at me.

i’ll never know.

03/01/19

one day, you thought

I was the love of your life.

yet the next, you would change your mind.

I let you in.

I cared for you.

while you blocked me out.

and showed me no care.

But you gave me more pain

Than I could handle.

and not enough love

to make me feel safe.

And you pushed me away

and you pulled me close.

You drowned me in your love.

then you would barely quench my thirst.

You gave me so much

and so little

That it poisoned me.

I think we both know

I’m not the girl I used to be.

I’m cold now

I’m dark now

I’m scared now

your indecisiveness

broke my soul.

#wordsbybelle #poetry #me

The girl

You fell in love with

Is not who I am.

I am not

As beautiful as you say,

As smart as you think,

Or as unique as you believe.

I am who I am,

But I am not who you are in love with.

You are in love with a fairytale girl

I will never be.

I am darker, harsher, deeper.

I am more complex than a princess waiting for

her prince.

I am the dark horse, the one the villain rides.

You fell in love with the rose,

But I am the thorns.

I am not everything you want.

I am everything but.

I am me,

I am beautifully broken,

But I didn’t see that.

I just knew I was broken,

And I thought your love would fix me.

But I do not need fixing.

And you do not love me.

You say you do.

You cry out for me.

You beg me to stay.

But I cannot.

I must go,

Because there are princesses in towers,

Waiting for princes like you,

They need someone to save them.

I cannot be saved.

I do not want to be saved.

So I must go.

#wordsbybelle #poetry #me

She hesitated to let him in

But some greater power seemed to

Assure her he was to be trusted

She didn’t know how

But suddenly

He became the center

Of her shattered universe

but he ended up

breaking her

even more

and she realised

you can’t always trust

what seems to be

#wordsbybelle #poetry #artbybelle #love

She knew

He was like poison

Slowly seeping into her impressionable mind

But whilst he poisoned her

He was the anecdote

Her safe haven

Her world.

His touch

Was like fire

But also a salve.

He was the death and

Revival of her

Simultaneously.

#wordsbybelle #poetry #me

Sometimes I envy

The simplicity of life

As a cat.

It sounds absurd

But there’s something

Appealing about

The ability to hide

In plain sight.

#wordsbybelle #poetry #artbybelle

She doesn’t

Remember

The exact moment

Everything became a blur

She can’t pinpoint

Precisely when

She went numb

But she quickly grew

Used to it.

#wordsbybelle #poetry #photobybelle

There is power

In a glance away

There is power

In a simple refusal

There is power

In having enough strength

To be weak.

#wordsbybelle #poetry #Me #submission

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