FUNERAL DREAM

IT COMES AND GOES IN WAVES.

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❝ if you’re done lying to me, then you should stop lying to yourself. ❞ ❝ it’s not going to be easy, you know. ❞ ❝ well, it sounds like you’re working for a nutcase. ❞ ❝ make sure that you’re safe. ❞ ❝ look, i wanted to tell you! i wanted to! but how could i? ❞ ❝ see? i’m not just a pretty face. ❞ ❝ i’m sorry for what happened to you. ❞ ❝ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. ❞ ❝ wait, wait, wait. something about this feels kinda hinky. ❞ ❝ what a warm and homey place, huh? ❞ ❝ i’m willing to forgive and forget. for old time’s sake. ❞ ❝ looks like he was killed. ripped to shreds actually. ❞ ❝ these guys have been tailing me for weeks. thought i lost them. ❞ ❝ should i be flattered, or worried? ❞ ❝ so with our luck, what’s the odds this volcano is going to erupt on us? ❞ ❝ i hope i don’t go to hell for this. ❞ ❝ i can handle this. i’m tough. i grew up with nuns. ❞ ❝ fair warning, last person who betrayed me wound up dead. ❞ ❝ you told me you’d say out of trouble. ❞ ❝ how do i know you’re real? ❞ ❝ don’t ever point a gun at me again. ❞ ❝ make sure that you’re safe. ❞ ❝ i have made a lot of mistakes. a lot. i’m not a perfect man. ❞ ❝ i had a lousy father. lousy childhood. ❞ ❝ sounds terrible. check his wallet. ❞ ❝ let’s not forget who walked out on whom. you don’t get to be jealous.  ❞ ❝ progress demands sacrafice. ❞ ❝ shut up. i really thought you were gone this time. ❞ ❝ i can’t leave you alone for one minute, can i? ❞ ❝ on a scale of 1-10, how scared were you that i was gonna die? ❞ ❝ i can’t walk away. i’m tired of walking away. ❞ ❝ even an enemy must be fed and sheltered. are you my enemy? ❞ ❝ we can still stop him. i can help you. ❞ ❝ gotta say, you have a real knack for breaking things. ❞ ❝ do as i say not as i do. ❞ ❝ looks like hell spit you back out. ❞ ❝ what’s your story, anyway? ❞ ❝ i don’t take big risks without a good payday. ❞ ❝ i guess it runs in the family, huh? ❞ ❝ you can’t reform the villain and save the day. it’s just not done like that. ❞ ❝ sorry, i just need to get my head back in the game. ❞ ❝ this isn’t our fight. it’s my fight. ❞ ❝ i won’t let them hurt you. ❞ ❝ skip the mind games. you don’t know me. ❞ ❝ no offense, but your ancestor was a right asshole. ❞ ❝ you’re unusually quiet. what’s up your bum? ❞ ❝ that was my last cigarette. ❞ ❝ okay, well, why don’t you just walk away? ❞ ❝ why this obsession? i’m just worried. ❞ ❝ i can’t…i can’t breathe…i just…can’t breathe… ❞ ❝ don’t touch me. get away from me. ❞ ❝ if you let these bastards win - after this - i will never forgive you. ❞ ❝ you’ve got your pride all tangled up in this thing. it’s making you reckless. ❞ ❝ any trouble you shoot first and ask questions later. ❞ ❝ dangerous to be out so late.  ❞ ❝ easy now. look at me. ❞ ❝ my leg! don’t touch it! i know it’s broken! ❞ ❝ are you going to join me, darling? ❞ ❝ this is my gig. you want your share, you play by my rules. ❞ ❝ we don’t get to choose how we start in life. real greatness? it’s what you do with the hand you’re dealt. ❞ ❝ i always felt that we were destined for something great. ❞ ❝ you should relax. you’ll live longer. ❞ ❝ i taught you better than that. ❞ ❝ so that’s a no? felt like a no. ❞ ❝ quit acting like you’re gonna lie down and die, all right? ❞ ❝ i have a spare bed.  ❞ ❝ is there no bottom for your ignorance? ❞ ❝ even cornered dogs bite back.  ❞ ❝ that one is my favourite. it makes your eyes twinkle.  ❞ ❝ admit it. you’re gonna miss this ass.  ❞ ❝ you think i’m a monster, but you’re no different from me.  ❞ ❝ how many people have you killed? how many?  ❞ ❝ you will not stand in the way of destiny.  ❞ ❝ you stick with me, i’ll teach you a few things. ❞ ❝ well, if you’d like, i can tell you where to stick it. ❞ ❝ face it, genius, you’ve been played. ❞ ❝ yeah, keep smiling, asshole. ❞ ❝ i got nothing to prove. ❞ ❝ don’t hand it to me. i’ve had everything handed to me ❞ ❝ you don’t know when to give up, do you? ❞ ❝ you stick your neck out, you’re asking to lose your head. ❞ ❝ oh, and now you’re blushing. ❞ ❝ just so you know, it’s not my first lost city. ❞ ❝ are you always this clever? ❞ ❝ i was trying to rescue you, as a matter of fact. ❞ ❝ you know, at this point, i’ve run out of words. ❞ ❝ what do you say we really ruin this guy’s day? ❞ ❝ whether you die or not, i don’t really care. ❞ ❝ i thought you…i saw you get shot. ❞ ❝ it’s like a camera. you just…point and shoot, right? ❞ ❝ god, who’s being unprofessional now? ❞ ❝ i always knew you were gonna make something of yourself one day. ❞ ❝ let’s just pretend i skipped all of sunday school. ❞ ❝ oh no you didn’t do that. that’s not funny! ❞ ❝ save the world, triumph over evil. ❞ ❝ are you trying to kill me? ❞ ❝ know what i love about partying with a bunch of crooks? nobody cares that you smoke indoors. ❞ ❝ you gave me a goddamn heartattack. ❞ ❝ i’ll die a thousand deaths before i let you win.  ❞ ❝ i didn’t tell you because i was afraid…of losing you. ❞ ❝ what ever happened to just living a normal life? ❞ ❝ even if you think you’re protecting me, you don’t have a right to shut me out like that. ❞ ❝ i mean… thanks for saving me. ❞ ❝ en garde, dickhead. ❞ ❝ i love you. ❞ ❝ come on! we can get out of here together. ❞ ❝ everything i touch turns to shit. ❞ ❝ how did you find me anyway? ❞ ❝ i’ve got my eye on you. ❞ ❝ you were going to sell me out, weren’t you? ❞ ❝ love to know what you’re thinking. ❞ ❝ well, well, well. get it? ‘cause you know, it’s a well. ❞ ❝ it’s a shame we’re leaving empty handed though. ❞ ❝ okay…yeah…how do i look? ❞ ❝ thank me after we get out of this alive. ❞ ❝ you’re lucky that i found you when i did. ❞ ❝ they’re just saying that because it gets to you. ❞ ❝ look, if you’re into shady stuff it’s totally cool. ❞ ❝ ha. that’s my girl. ❞ ❝ i made a promise that i was done with this life. ❞ ❝ listen, sunshine, the world doesn’t care. ❞ ❝ well, that’s it. now you know everything. ❞ ❝ don’t even think about not coming back. ❞ ❝ you know, i shot the man who told me that. ❞ ❝ i thought that i’d be satisfied. instead, i’m left with this strange feeling of emptiness.  ❞  ❝ as thrilling as the next adventure may be, in the end, you’re always left with that same feeling. ❞ ❝ you know, i didn’t think i could trust you either. ❞ ❝ i almost lost you once before. i just can’t do that again. ❞ ❝ don’t even think about not coming back. ❞ ❝ that’s it! no compassion! no mercy! ❞ ❝ sentimentality in this line of work will get you killed. ❞ ❝ i need your help…and you need mine. ❞ ❝ i kept your tears in a jar. ❞ ❝ i expected you to have my back.  ❞ ❝ tell you what. when i get back, pizza’s on me. ❞ ❝ death. it smelled like death. ❞ ❝ so they have beaten you, eh? your quest’s over?  ❞ ❝ you listen to your mum, okay?  ❞ ❝ trust me - your ego will mend.  ❞ ❝ i hope i live to regret this.  ❞ ❝ these men were all shot.  ❞ ❝ be a lot easier just to let go.  ❞ ❝ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say?  ❞ ❝ seems like i am always saving your ass. ❞ ❝ i never asked for any of your bloody heroics. ❞ ❝ the guys in prison used to say, ‘you can steal to eat or you can steal to get rich.’ i say, why not both?  ❞ ❝ you were never a chocolate and flower kinda girl.  ❞ ❝ i don’t have your luck. people like me know when to walk away from the table.  ❞ ❝ appreciate the update, captain obvious.  ❞ ❝ you made your choice.  ❞ ❝ don’t tell me you’re buying all into that supernatural nonsense.  ❞ ❝ i couldn’t sleep last time i saw that.  ❞ ❝ it’s actually nice working with a woman for a change. ❞ ❝ i’m lucky you’re on my side. ❞ ❝ do you really think all this really could be true?  ❞ ❝ you know, it’s kind of romantic down here.  ❞ ❝ just wish i’d brought something to read.  ❞ ❝ you can relax. we’re safe here. ❞ ❝ i am surrounded by traitors and fools.  ❞ ❝ just don’t get us killed. ❞ ❝ what are you shaking for? ❞ ❝ parents must be worried about you. ❞ ❝ i wonder what you’re really scared of…not bullets, or blood, or broken bones… ❞ ❝ i don’t need your bullet-ridden-corpse on my conscience. let’s go. ❞ ❝ yeah, i’m fine. oh, but - you’re bleeding. ❞ ❝ i do seem to attract the scum of the earth. ah - no offense. ❞ ❝ all this grandeur, hidden away from the world.  ❞ ❝ if we don’t make it out here, i just want you to know - i hate your guts. ❞ ❝ i’ve got a bad feeling about this place. ❞ ❝ that’s my blood. that’s my blood. that’s a lot of my blood. ❞ ❝ you should play the hero more often. it suits you. ❞ ❝ eyes ahead, don’t look down. ❞ ❝ here - grab my hand. ❞ ❝ no matter what it is, you’re supposed to come to me so we can work it out together… as a team.  ❞  ❝ you know nothing is ever truly destroyed. just purified and reborn.  ❞ ❝ you just - totally crushed that moment. you know that, right?  ❞ ❝ you’re a selfish dickhead.  ❞ ❝ i do speak a little bit of ____, you know. wait, what did you say? ❞ ❝ i know you. you’re no hero.  ❞ ❝ i wish you could’ve been there. ❞ ❝ hey, are you happy? ❞ ❝ you’re not gonna pass out on me or nothing, are you? ❞ ❝ look, i…um….i’m not good with the whole people thing.  ❞ ❝ i’ve had worse nights, believe me.  ❞ ❝ let’s find somewhere a little more private. ❞ ❝ hey, take it easy. you’ve been out for almost half an hour.  ❞ ❝ to rule people, you first must sow chaos.  ❞ ❝ it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with. ❞ ❝ take me with you. ❞ ❝ i’m left with this strange feeling of emptiness.  ❞  ❝ anyone ever tell you, you have a funny idea of romantic?  ❞  ❝ it’s nothing that years of therapy won’t fix.  ❞ ❝ no. it’s my turn to walk away.  ❞  ❝ nothing about our lives have been fair, but we’ve made it work. ❞ ❝ your people will beg me to save them.  ❞ ❝ we’re not on a first-name basis.  ❞ ❝ you know nothing about me.  ❞ ❝ do tell. maybe over some drinks?  ❞ ❝ we must keep to the shadows.  ❞ ❝ hey, you cool? ‘cause i need you to be cool.  ❞ ❝ you must be tired of these lectures. i know i’m tired of giving them. ❞ ❝ here, take this. you’ll catch a cold. ❞ ❝ is that a sin? i think that’s a sin. ❞

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MUSE DEMEANOR & MANNERISM GUIDE

EYES: avoids eye contact when nervous, maintains eye contact when nervous, avoids eye contact due to being neurodivergent, enjoys eye contact as a means to read and convey emotion, looks down when emotional, looks up when emotional, cries openly, wipes tears quickly, suppresses tears, wandering gaze when lost in thought, holds gaze while thinking, seeks out eye contact for reassurance, seeks out eye contact to gauge enthusiasm during conversations, eyes move constantly during conversation, expressive eyes, emotions only evident through eyes, uses eye contact to intimidate, looks up while thinking, looks down while thinking

HANDS: clasps behind back,  rests in lap,  fidgets with clothes,  twiddles thumbs,  chews at nails,  pushes back cuticles,  draws patterns on table/counter surfaces,  animated gestures while speaking,  only gestures to emphasize,  utilizes sign language,  speaks only through sign,   callouses,  scars,  smooth,  wrinkled,  worn,  soft,  delicate,  boney,  slender,  thick,  veiny,  touches others while speaking,  reaches out while laughing,  reaches out to comfort others,  reaches out to seek comfort,  places face in hands when exasperated,  places face in hands when exhausted,  places palms over eyes to hide when overwhelmed,  rests chin in hands,  taps fingers when impatient,  taps fingers when nervous,  taps fingers while thinking,  scratches scalp,  strokes chin,  rubs back of head,  toys with objects around them,  runs fingers over surfaces while walking by

MOUTH: chews lip, chews at inside of cheek,  licks lips,  bites tongue,  chews on straws,  resting frown,  resting smile,  neutral resting expression,  resting pout,  grinds teeth,  flexes jaw,  covers mouth when laughing,  covers mouth when shocked,  covers mouth when concerned,  hands to lips while thinking,  covers mouth when chewing,  chews with mouth closed,  chews with mouth open,  smirks,  grins,  subtle smiles,  wide smiles,  sad smiles,  intimidating smiles,  menacing grins,  openly smiles,  tries to suppress smiles,  bares teeth when angry,  lips quiver when emotional,  stutters,  speaks quickly,  speaks slowly,  good pronunciation,  poor pronunciation,  moderate pronunciation,  purses lips,  sucks in lips,  holds mouth open when shocked or confused

LEGS:  bounces leg when nervous,  draws knees to chest when sitting,  draws knees to chest as a means of comfort,  sits on knees,  sits with legs criss crossed,  sits with legs spread open in chairs,  crosses legs when sitting in chairs,  sits with one leg folded under the other,  places feet on furniture,  never places feet on furniture,  sits on counters,  sits on desks,  sits on tables,  sits on edge of seat,  sits hunched over with forearms on knees,  arches one knee up,  sits on the arm of chairs/couches,  feet on dashboard,  swings legs back and forth when sitting somewhere elevated,  wiggles toes when nervous,  wiggles toes as a general tick,  shuffles feet,  kicks foot into ground,  stomps feet,  loud footsteps,  quiet footsteps,  silent footsteps 

HAIR:  runs fingers through hair,  tugs at hair,  picks at scalp,  chews on hair,  twists locks of hair while thinking or nervous,  smooths out locks of hair while thinking or nervous,  prefers hair out of face,  prefers long hair,  prefers short hair,  wears hair back,  keeps hair down,  smooths back hair,  plays with other’s hair while talking,  plays with own hair while talking,  strokes hair to comfort others,  likes having hair stroked for their own comfort,  braids others’ hair while talking,  braids own hair while talking,  flips hair out of face,  pushes hair out of face,  leaves hair alone even when falling into face

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send me  ‘ hc ‘  + a word and i’ll write a headcanon about it regarding my character.

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CHARACTER SHEET ―

FULL NAME. anthony m. chainey‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ NICKNAME. chainey,‎‏‏‎ tony (hates), ‎‏‏‎ ‎beanstalk, skinny, jolly green giant, daisy chain ALIASES.‏ - ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ PRONOUNS. he/him, they/them ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ HEIGHT.‎ 6'8 ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ AGE. presumably seventeen, maybe eighteen. ‎‏‏‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ ZODIAC. libra‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ SPOKEN LANGUAGES. english (fluent), asl (basic, thanks to davey in later verses), italian (incredibly basic, mother was the primary teacher, mike never bothered continue teaching anthony when she died, and anthony never bothered learning more on his own)‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎

𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒 ―

HAIR.‎‏‏‎ naturally sleek, straight, and black, now reduced to a choppy, frizzy, black/white/blue mess‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ FACIAL HAIR. N/A EYES. once dark brown when alive, now gray and clouded over. his eyesight is incredibly bad; he used to wear contacts + keep a spare pair of glasses around pre-death. SKIN TONE. deathly pale with a bluish tint; uneven and mottled in some places. in life, his skin was more of an olive tone. BODY TYPE. lanky as hell, a bit underweight - he hit an insane growth spurt and clearly never got used to the extra height. VOICE. mid-range and a touch nasal, tends to crack a bit when he gets wound up DOMINANT HAND.‏‏ left POSTURE. slouches a LOT in an attempt to hide his towering height. tends to be quite stiff, as well. SCARS. one starting at the top of his right cheekbone and ending at his jawline. an open wound at the base of his neck, covered by his hair (presumed cause of death)‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎

𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐃𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐃 ―

PLACE OF BIRTH. HOMETOWN. sovereign city, oregon SIBLINGS.‎‏‏‎ ‎N/A PARENTS. ‎‏‏birth mother (deceased) and birth father (michael 'mike' chainey; alive; incredibly strained relationship when anthony was alive)

𝐀𝐃𝐔𝐋𝐓 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 ―

OCCUPATION.‎‏‏‎ student (former; was in his senior year of high school), unwilling test subject for the palmer institute of undead studies CURRENT RESIDENCE. an old, run down, sparsely furnished garage at the edge of the palmer institute’s property. nothing says home sweet home like a guarded and gated nightmare. CLOSE FRIENDS. jerimiah ‘davey’ jones, samantha 'sam' hyde, owen wright (pre-death + post-death in later verses) FINANCIAL STATUS. lol. the palmer institute does not pay him for his ‘services’. ‎‏‏‏‎‏‏‎ DRIVER'S LICENSE.‎‏‏‎‏‏‎ ‎‏yes (though it's no longer valid)‏‏‎ CRIMINAL RECORD. ‎‎n/a. VICES.‏‏‎ ‎‎easily jealous. used to have a bit of a drinking problem that spiraled out of control in the months leading up to his death.

𝐒𝐄𝐗 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ―

SEXUAL ORIENTATION. bisexual (slight pref for masculine people) PREFERRED EMOTIONAL ROLE. ‎switch, mostly - does enjoy being taken care of, though LOVE LANGUAGE. gift-giving, acts of service, quality time RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES. drawn to more outgoing/extroverted people, the kinds who’ll drive him out of his comfort zone. ‎falls hard and falls fast. ‎‏‏‎can be quite clingy‎, but ultimately will try to mold himself into whatever his partner seems to want/need at the time ‏‏. pretends to hate pda and won’t usually initiate it, but if his partner does, he’ll secretly melt. ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎

𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐎𝐔𝐒 ―

CHARACTER'S THEME TUNE. epic last song - does it offend you, yeah? / waves - dean lewis / swallow the batteries - ky vöss HOBBIES TO PASS THE TIME.‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎pre-death, he loved to cook and was quite good at it! post-death, he tends to go along with whatever davey’s up to that day, whether it be prowling the streets of sov. city, or clicking through the three fuzzy channels presented to them with the shitty antenna in the garage. SELF-CONFIDENCE LEVEL. in the gutter lol. he’s very good at brushing things off in the moment, but tends to take a lot of shit to heart and lets it fester after. constantly second guessing himself and is extremely self conscious.

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made the mistake of listening to two door cinema club and now i'm knee deep in mb hell (again)

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     ch..n..ey . . . a..nth..ny! w..keup . . . pl..sepleaseplea..beok..ay . . . st..ywi..th..m . . .

    STAY WITH IT, ANTHONY. 

    yo..ucou..ldve..k..lled..h..m! y..ouh..ve..t..h..lphimhelphimhelphimkilledhimkilledhimkilledhimkilled

    voices echoing around you. in these woods, it’s impossible to tell where they’re coming from. 

    where am i? ( you know exactly where you are. )

    YOU’VE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS, Y’KNOW. SO DAMN SERIOUS.

    s..aaaaam! s..to..y..rhu..rti..n..h..im!

    you were alive, once. anxious and messy and desperate for something bigger than you to make you whole again, but god, you were completely and painfully 

    ONE OF THESE DAYS,

    alive.

    w..ke..up..ant..ho..n..y . . . p..l..e . . .

    but now, everything is so

    YOU’RE GONNA WORRY YOURSELF TO DEATH.

    cold.

    a sharp inhale as dead man walking is reanimated once more. dull eyes snap open, and anthony is greeted not by trees, but by the cracked garage ceiling. dim light filters in through the singular grimy window, casting shadows across the pathetic excuse for a ‘bedroom’. vision blurs at the edges as he sits up, a spark crawling up his spine and blooming at the base of his skull. gaze falls to the bloodied bandages on his arm, and he remembers 

breakitbreakitsmashitbreakitdownsmashitdestroydestroydestroydestroyd e s tr o yd e s trrrrrrrr

#WYRDING SAID: s ta  y  w ith  m e,  an t h on y. . . 

    nothing.

    a sharp chillllllllchillcoldcoldcoldcold as his feet hit the floor. he has half the mind to lay back down, but davey’s voice on the other side of the curtain is 

    YOU USED HIM! YOU COULD HAVE DESTROYED HIM! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE BETTER THAN THIS, SAM!

    rising steadily with his temper. when davey gets like this, you’re the only one who can get him to 

    ' STOP. '

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so i try, and i scream, and i beg, and i sigh / just to prove i'm alive / and it's alright / 'cause tonight there's a way i'll make light / of my treacherous life vs there's a ghost in your eye / there is someone that knows more than i / but i'm quick to deny vs and all at once, i feel this / oh, how it clings to me / it reels and calls me towards it / confounding destiny vs -

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creemore, ontario david herzog + should have known better, sufjan stevens

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“I don’t want to hear anyone say my name. I’m trying to forget [it]. If I don’t think about myself enough, maybe I will forget that I am.”

— Henry Rollins, Black Coffee Blues

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havent edited them like at all but have you considered that he is so shaped

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them :pleading:

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me vs calling out from work

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jk i did call out</3

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me vs calling out from work

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     ‘ at least they used the right name. ‘

     head hangs low, gaze fixed on the freshly fallen snow at his feet, avoiding the tombstone a mere few feet in front of him. ‘ i know, it’s, uh. a little late for me to be caring- like, at all. and i know it makes me a massive fucking hypocrite. i mean, who am i fooling by coming here, right? ‘ not yourself, that’s for sure. cas is the one who said talking to him ( aka, the shell buried six feet under ) would help, somehow. now that anthony’s standing here, he isn’t so sure.

     gaze finally lifts to meet the grave before him, OWEN NATHANIEL WRIGHT etched into the stone. ‘ . . . i’m gonna be honest, owen, i don’t. know what to say. ‘ a shaky inhale, frigid air burning his lungs. ‘ i could say sorry, but that just feels stupid. it’s not like it matters anyways, right? sorry won’t change anything. it won’t stop me from leaving you. it won’t bring you back. ‘ and that’s the worst thing about all of this, isn’t it? knowing that there’s no way to fix it, no way to take everything back. knowing that you fucked up so tremendously, so irreversibly-

     you were so close to grabbing his arm if you had moved faster you would’ve caught him he’d still hate you but he’d be fine now he’d be alive what the fuck were you thinking he just wanted to talk you killed him what the fuck is wrong with you he was just a kid and now he’s nothing

     -knowing that this is entirely your fault.

     fingers curl, uncurl, curl, knuckles turning white as nails dig into his palms. ‘ i am, though. sorry, i mean. i know you hated it when i got like this, and i know it doesn’t even fucking matter because it’s not like you can hear me anyways, but i’m- ' tears are spilling down his face now, breath hitching on a sob. ‘ fuck, owen, i am so, so sorry. '

a lil summ for @adoranoia &lt;3

[ohisms]

↪ 𝑾𝑯𝑨𝑻 𝑯𝑨𝑷𝑷𝑬𝑵𝑬𝑫 𝑻𝑶 𝑴𝑶𝑵𝑫𝑨𝒀 ? ( a collection of sentence starters from the 2017 film . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

i like it . did you write that ?

haven't i already told you that ?

tell me , [ name ] , what's your secret ?

you're looking fresh as a daisy .

are you okay ? you seem ...

i'm just tired . tomorrow's a big day .

that's very important , do you understand ?

why can't you just accept that this is your family ?

this isn't a family , it's a repressive regime .

you're driving us all crazy .

this is our life , it is what it is .

you're burning up . you running a fever ?

shut the fuck up .

all these years , i've been trying to figure out your angle .

you're not interested in anyone .

[ name ] . i'm onto you .

you can't just vanish .

is there a problem ?

there's obviously been a mistake , can you please tell me what i'm doing here ?

what a pleasure to meet you .

i know who you are .

i'm amazed you made it this far .

this is ... this is all a big mistake .

for your sake , i wish that were true .

is there another way ?

i can't believe this is happening .

we can't just sit here . we gotta do something !

i don't wanna die . i don't wanna die .

you're gonna be okay , i'm here .

i'm sorry . i'm so sorry .

you're supposed to be the believer .

i don't know what i believe . i don't know who i am .

they won't suffer .

sometimes , i think " to hell with it " . to hell with everybody .

do not underestimate [ name ] .

make this a priority .

we always work best as a team .

somebody wants us to disappear . the question is why .

this isn't a game , [ name ] . don't lose your head out there .

what's it gonna be ?

playing dumb doesn't suit you , [ name ] .

get the fuck out of there !

that's not an option .

i wanted to , uh ... try something new .

hold on , we've got a situation .

all your big talk , and you've ... never been with anyone ?

trust me , we're doing them a favor .

i'm scared , [ name ] . what are we gonna do ?

shhh , we're gonna get you out of here .

we failed miserably as a species on this planet .

anyone who's willing to sacrifice their own flesh and blood can never truly be trusted .

you sold us out . how could you ?

i thought you of all people would understand .

what do you know about family ?

i did everything i was told . i did everything right .

i didn't plan this . it got out of my control .

i was a total fuck - up .

if i could go back and change it all , i would .

promise me you won't let them take them .

stay with me , okay ?

[jannwrites]

tv show ask meme : GUILLERMO DEL TORO’S CABINET OF CURIOSITIES (2022). (½)

a selection of lines from the horror anthology cabinet of curiosities. modified slightly for rp purposes.

LOT 36.

for some reason, they leave it all behind.

it’s bad luck for them, but good luck for you.

sometimes we roll up the door praying for a big score only to find a pile of shit on the other side.

may he rest in peace up there, down there, or wherever he may be.

you’ve gotta give me some room.

before we get to that, i wanna show you something.

remember, i’m the one tipped you off.

i’m sorry for your troubles, but they’re not mine.

i said, i hope you rot in hell!

don’t be a hypocrite like everyone else.

how the fսck do you bring that into every conversation?

i’ll take all the losses. but now it’s my turn.

you’re not the only one that feels fսckеd.

don’t be hostile with your big, weird eyes, and your bloody head.

i hate to disabuse you on your relative notion of good and evil, but this man knew and did evil on a scale almost absolute.

something tells me you traffic in the wrong, feisty side yourself there.

now we’ll find out why he came here every day.

follow my precise instructions, please.

if anything not from the natural world is found on the other side of this threshold, i have one piece of advice for you. do not make eye contact with it, do not speak with it.

it will be greedy for it, hungry. do you understand.

see, it took her face as a way in.

GRAVEYARD RATS.

i am the steward of this garden of remembrance from which you’ve so brazenly thieved.

nothing to say for yourself?

are you aware that the very foundations of society are built on the respectful interment of the dead?

we stopped being apes when we dug our first graves.

as you can see, i’m at my wits’ end.

i told you never to come here.

i need to know if you’ve got anything promising.

you don’t understand, this is a matter of life or death.

how many times have i assisted you in the past?

i pray you don’t one day count yourself among them.

forgive me, but he seems almost alive.

long is the way and hard, that out of hell leads up to light.

he’ll only be in the ground for a few hours before I reach him.

such a touching epitaph will remain with him forever.

that’s how you’re gonna beat them.

i will commit my heart to you and only you!

THE AUTOPSY.

you’re gonna kill us! are you fսcking crazy?

why don’t you tell me what’s going on?

what am i gonna find?

i think i’m cursed.

the innocent get punished and everything is just dust.

from the bottom of my heart, you’re not that special.

who are you to claim special qualities of sin from the rest of us?

well, open it! what are you waiting for?

this wasn’t animal work. it was knife work.

you got me confused with some other body.

you either had too much or not enough, my friend.

i’ll take you if you want to go as soon as we get through with this mess.

you’ve made your peace with this thing, then?

we’re all on the same conveyor belt, [name]. some of us fall off a bit sooner than the rest, but…we’re all heading for the same destination.

i’m having crazy thoughts with this thing.

are you sure you’re up to this?

i apologize for the indignity, my friend. if it’s any comfort, i’m right behind you.

forgive me, friend. my curiosity necessitates opening you up.

death was your escape.

we must not be understood.

put down the knife.

oh, fret not. you will understand what devours you.

come, let me rid you of it. i will love you.

you’re going to use your puppet there to pluck you out.

i know what i can and cannot cut.

you are truly self-deluded.

you’re nothing but a thief and murderer. a parasite. you’re pathetic.

your arrogance makes you stupid.

[name] knew you’d be blind and deaf once you were out of him, you sadistic bastard.

you are in your new home, but you won’t be occupying it for long.

THE OUTSIDE.

did you see anyone?

what if someone’s in the house?

get some sleep, hon, okay?

she’s on xanax 24/7 now.

oh, hey. i didn’t know you were still here.

i thought you hated those women.

oh, what do you mean, “someone like you”?

i mean, we already know what everybody wants.

he’s not gonna hurt ya.

sorry i ruined everything.

well, you’re sensitive.

it’s just me. i have a bad face. a stupid, ugly, bad face.

you’re talking to me. i can give you the brand-new you, and that’s not all. i can give you peace of mind.

you have a lot of healing to do, [name].

there’s nothin’ wrong with you. nothin’ at all.

everybody likes you. everybody wants to talk to you.

come closer. closer. come, let me see your progress.

does it hurt when they exclude you? when they stare at you? when they point and laugh and whisper?

you want to know what it feels like to be pretty?

it’s already growing, right there, under your skin. 

i’ll come down, but please don’t say anything, because i already know what you’re gonna say.

why can’t you just be excited for me, huh?

you don’t need to be fixed.

you gotta put your worries down sometimes.

then why do i want to take off all of my skin and throw it in the garbage?