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So, ibinuhos ko ang bag ko. Be, ang gulo. Hahaha ano nga ba ang laman ng black purse na yun? 1. Purple earphones 2. I.D. (matagal na sa bag ko yan.) 3. Sky Flakes (3 weeks na yan. Nagdadala ako q Sundays, di ko naman kinakain.) 4. Mirror and Liptint. (Para gumanda naman ako.) 5. Barya. (Ang dame hahaha) 6. Coin purse. 7. Hanky (di pwedeng mawala yan.) 8. 5 Star Cadbury!! OMO. Just in case I'll be needing sugar. At... may kulang. Baby Wipes. Baka naubos ko na. Haha An organized purse is boring. Charot. De, kasi konti lang naman gamit ko. Hehe :)

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Ako. Minsan, babae. Minsan, tinatanong kung ano nga ba ang sexual orientation dahil magaslaw ako kumilos. Ako, macho. Minsan sexy, hahaha. Pero ipaglalaban naman kita. Kaya ko kayang magbuhat ng 20kg ng bigas. Kaya kong magbuhat ng dalawang container ng tubig, yung blue? Di ko alam ang weight nun eh. kaya ko rin naman kitang buhatin kahit gaano pa kabigat yang feelings mo. I was trained for that. Kaya pala buhat ako ng buhat ng mabibigat, ng bigas, ng tree trunk, ng mga libro, kasi para mabuhat kita sa ere at lumipad na kasama ka. :)

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Dear X,

There will be times when I will need you to explain how you feel about me. There will be times when I will ask you if I matter or not. There will be times when I won't even talk to you because I feel like I will never be enough for you. I feel like shit. I wish you were here because I just need a shoulder to lean on. Umiiyak nanaman ako. Gusto ko lang ng yayakap sa'kin habang umiiyak ako. Para hindi ko maramdaman ang mga aspiling nakatusok sa puso ko. If you were here, would you stay until I fall asleep? Or just leave me alone becsuse you're getting tired of my shit? If you were here, would you wipe these tears away? Or are you just going to let them dry on their own? I'm tired. I just need someone to talk to. My heart is crushing again. My lungs hurt for breathing with a broken rib. I feel like shit. I feel like everyone's just using me for their own sake. No one has ever thought of me. No one asked me if I'm all right even if I'm already dying of sickness in front of them. No one wants to talk to me because I'm full of drama. My love, if you were here, will you get tired of me too? If I become tired of crying, will you take over the night and just sing me to sleep? That's what I need right now. I just need your existence. I need your heart beat, so mine will go along with it. I need to put my hands on your tummy because I'm freezing. I need you. What's taking you so long to arrive? Loving me will not be easy. I can't even love myself. Why do I even exist? Why do I even breathe? I want to get out of here, and go somewhere where no one knows a thing about me. If they will ask my name, I'll tell them that I am Zouis (zoo-wee). I am tired of being Denise. I'm tired of being sad, and nonsense and stupid, and everything annoying and infuriating. Loving me will not be easy. I will need your attention. I will need your warm hugs. I will need your patience because I will always be clingy, I will always ask you everything, I will always bug you and tell you how beautiful you are to me. We will talk about anything under the sun. Loving me will not be easy because.. IDK. I'm hybrid. As for now, I will wipe these tears on my own. Stay safe, wherever you are. Love, D.

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Pumunta kami ng Pampanga kanina kasi Bday ni Jae Jae. I have not eaten right in 3 days, kaya expected na mejo matakaw ako. Hahaha. Sheeet! Masakit parin ang tyan ko, bes. Ang sarap kasi nung BBQ and Salsa, atsaka yung chocolate cake. Juice ko. Ate Joy was like, "Jae Jae! 'Wag mong pagurin si Tita Denise! Baka magutom nanaman yan." Hindi naman talaga ganun karami ang nakain ko. Sakto lang naman. Pangnormal person. Ginagawa nila akong bata. Isa pa yung dalawang beses na yata nilang sinabi na magbakasyon ako ng 1 week dun. Bes!! Hindi na ako grade 6. Hahaha. Pero masaya naman. They're the closest family on the paternal side of my genogram. Hehe. K byeee. Review muna, at kailangan ng maubos ang tsaa bago pa lumamig.

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