Life is a fucked up thing

Hey, I'm Paulo, 23, Bi, Portugal

[triumphfern]

Steve Kelso

[keepthechesthair]

[underwear42]

[eroshaven]

[mothercain]

[themuscleblog]

[gamerism]

The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim ● Bethesda (2011)

[sandmandaddy69]

[donttakethering]

[mothercain]

thank you for all the love on punish ♡

i wrote this song after a drive down to miami on a very dreary day last december with my best friend. we had to get off the interstate because my tire was about to explode and wound up driving down the highway towards lake okechobee taking random side roads every now and then for fun. we stumbled across a tiny community called miracle village near the edge of the lake and it was a very eerie experience. i wondered what it must feel like, to live there alone on what felt like the edge of the earth with the most shame you could possibly carry as a human being.

i recorded half of punish on my phone. the piano, the creaks of a swing set in the park in the middle of the night, the backing vocals. i wanted it to feel up close and personal, almost inappropriate. i made quite a few different versions of it before i settled on this one. i’m glad it resonates with all of you. i took this pic the night i wrote it :)

thank u all for listening! ♡

[mothercain]

The problem is that America has beaten down its people for decades and gotten them weak and desperate and now promises a way out, a way to transcend and rise above, through selling out their fellow man. They encourage contempt and hatred as one way ticket to not being included with the masses being death marched to poverty or imprisonment or whatever other bitter end surely awaits the people they’re told are beneath them. An embarrassingly large chunk of white men are just straight up nazis these days as a way to dissociate from the rest of the carnage around them, even if they’re broke and uneducated and from an impoverished background themselves. They’ll vote for and align themselves with anything for a taste of power and control that makes them feel a little less helpless. The same goes for minorities. They’ll punch down if they think it’ll get them somewhere, even if in reality they’re punching sideways. I don’t know what else to say, really. Everybody is so incredibly hateful. We are a loveless, disrespectful nation. We are so spread thin by our government that we would sell each other out in a heartbeat for an ounce of relief. This is what we’ve come to.

It’s not even about Trump at this point. He’s gonna get in office and do whatever he does and it’s gonna be a mess but whatever. This is indicative of deeper problem. This is just the ugly consequence of the already present reality in this country that we all just despise each other. There is no solidarity and there is no love. Trump being in office or not doesn’t change the fact that America is a breeding ground for violent hatred. Trump has given people a shining example of how to give in to the worst parts of your human nature and make it the problem of everyone around them. I don’t even know what we’re supposed to do about that. I don’t know if that’s something we can come back from. And if anything COULD be done about it, Trump certainly wouldn’t do it. Honestly, Kamala probably wouldn’t have either. We are so deeply fucked.

However, I must say, if you voted for Trump, I hope that peace never finds you. Instead, I hope clarity strikes you someday like a clap of lightning and you have to live the rest of your life with the knowledge and guilt of what you’ve done and who you are as a person.

Love yall. Shit is so bleak but the world keeps spinning until it doesn’t, I guess. We can’t count on the government for literally even a shred of progress or hope so just keep up the good fight in your own personal lives. That’s literally the only thing to be done at this point. Stay safe out there. Maybe buy a gun.

[knightenly]

Book artwork

The Moon From Where We Stood

Words + drawings about feelings and thoughts from my final years in Beirut. A time plagued with the dread and the panic from the political and economical unrest.

I’d sit in shisha cafes and divulge my most haunting thoughts into my phone on docs and notes I wouldn’t see again for years. I’d sit there and draw things on paper cups or tissue paper. I kept all of them and retraced them digitally for this book, which I am very proud of.

It’s finally coming out worldwide on Amazon in October, and I wanted my tumblr followers to be the first to see the cover. Designed by yours truly.

Bladesman

[finalatomicbuster]

Virginia by Richard Renaldi (2002)

[stuckinapril]

I’m fine

[stuckinapril]

I need divine intervention

[finalatomicbuster]

[oscarorozcoorejel]

Say no to gentrification

[ghostbitch]

[lxscivia]

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