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“but i still can’t kiss my own neck”
I think Dean would have thought until the very end that his brother was alive
punished punished punished punished
one breathes life unto the other.
branded, baptised by your love and by your hunger. cracked and fractured, held anew and whole again.
can you contain my love?
'cause I will run through the fire to get to you.
don't give me up. don't let me go.
don't give me up. don't let me go.
don't give me up. don't let me-
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Featuring Sam Winchester and a recreation of this gifset. Not one specific skill I was practicing, just trying to show how different my gifmaking is :)) Though I did do a bit of a different layout ☝️
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*puts on my anakin apologist hat again* anakin as double-agent of the Force
The force created Anakin specifically to be the Chosen One (demi-god) bc it needed an INHERENTLY GOOD PERSON who was both powerful enough to learn and withstand the DARK SIDE and powerful enough in his inherent goodness to RETURN FROM IT.
It couldn't have been anyone else BUT Anakin. It had to be the most powerful force user in the galaxy who was so good his soul would withstand (& survive under) the Dark Side he was destined to shoulder for decades.
In order to full the Prophecy, Anakin had to essentially survive both years of torture (borne of the Dark side) and survive the GRIEF AND REGRET from falling (borne of the Light) without completely losing or giving up on himself and submitting to the Darkness eternally.
Someone weaker in the Force could never accomplish this because if they fell they wouldn't be strong enough in the Light of the Force to withstand a fall & return. they'd just fall. Essentially the Force, by creating Anakin, is saying no one else could have done it - not Yoda, not Obi-wan, no other Jedi, or person, or Sith. Only Anakin.
Anakin was essentially a "double-agent" of the Force. Unknowingly.
Padme was always right. There was good in Vader. She saw the truth. Obi-wan also eventually saw the truth, seeing good in Vader (perhaps eventually realizing it was Anakin mercifully freeing him from guilt in OWK), causing him to sacrifice himself in peace for Vader's destruction & Anakin's assured return.
The Force created Anakin specifically to fulfill the Prophecy of falling in both the eyes of the Jedi and Sith because it knew that his inherent goodness would remain in tact enough for him to destroy the Sith (Sidious), not claim the Dark throne for himself afterwards, and also hand control over to the Light (Luke).
BECAUSE he felt GUILT STRONGLY ENOUGH (his goodness) after ALL THAT TIME (20yrs) BURIED IN THE DARK (necessary as per the force to get palpatine in a vulnerable spot) to STILL RETURN TO THE LIGHT afterwards (by killing him Palps/saving Luke).
The Force put him in the hardest possible position because it KNEW that no matter what the dark could throw at him:
ANAKIN WOULD SURVIVE AND PULL THROUGH BECAUSE HIS true ALIGNMENT WITH THE LIGHT (as a demi-god) WAS THAT STRONG.
Anakin was a demi-god created to fulfill a Prophecy and was tortured and misunderstood for this by everyone, including himself, which is what absolved his human half and allowed him in the end to become a Force Ghost. He didn't see himself as a demi-god with free reign to create chaos. And thus he felt genuine guilt for his crimes.
He accepted culpability for them (despite being predestined) which is what makes him a tragic hero. It doesn't matter if it was a prophecy or destiny, if he could help it or not, Anakin still feels regret.
His genuine guilt for his misdeeds & evil and his acknowledgement of them in the end yet again proved what the Force knew to be true. Anakin is inherently good.
Through his young life Anakin didn't say "hey I'm a demi-god I can do whatever I want" he fought the Prophecy for a very long time. He longed to be a Jedi and dreamed of helping others.
Yet, when he confronts Padme on Mustafar he says exactly that! Exactly what an all-powerful god turned to the dark would say. "We can rule the Galaxy. Make things the way we want them to be," going mad for a moment with power. But then he mourns and regrets his fall for the rest of his life (even as Vader he mourns Padme, spares Reva, absolves Obi-wan, he is struck silent & numb by slavery in the Empire in the comics). With his guilt, he returns from the dark as predicted.
This, as per the Force, proves Anakin was good at heart and had to fall to destroy the Sith. He committed predetermined deeds but he recognized his deeds as morally wrong regardless and mourned, suffered, and burned for them as Vader in the context of the Tragedy. This was the Force "punishing" his human half despite making committing these deeds essentially his destiny.
He was absolved because he genuinely regretted it. He couldn't get off scott free despite being a demi-god because he is also half humanoid. He needed to suffer for his choices despite his situation being predetermined. That's another thing he endured. As Vader he was to suffer and "pay" for the evil as a human would by human standards. He fully believed he was deserving of this and damned himself continually.
Yet after all that he was still strong enough in the Light to withstand that suffocating darkness and emerge again - saving humanity alongside understanding the totality of the Dark Side (!!!), achieving universal balance (!!! inner and outer), and sacrificing his own soul to give the Galaxy future hope in Luke and Leia.
Vader was both his test and destiny - forging a true tragic hero who accepts the outcomes of his actions. A god of balance who lived a life realizing the truth of our souls is often in the middle, whether we our actions are good or bad.
Vader may have been the Force's destiny for Anakin, but he chose to make Vader/his actions his responsibility, and that is how he displays his inherent goodness and worthiness of the title Chosen One.
I mean, I knew/accepted all of this, of course, but seeing it laid out in such a manner makes me feel... humbled, I guess, and in awe of the sheer goodness that is Anakin Skywalker’s heart. He is such a good person, and I wish more people could understand that.
i cannot imagine anyone else but hayden christensen to play anakin skywalker. hayden christensen played anakin skywalker perfectly.
anakin to put is simply is a man struggling with his autonomy and trauma whilst trying to do good and help others. anakin although his actions are hugely ironic is unironically and unbashedly, a hero. anakin when you are presented is basically an abused, manipulated man groomed to become a sith apprentice because anakin is the only one who could defeat sidious. sidious wanted to avoid any threat to his power while rubbing salt in the wounds of the jedi.
anakin’s major flaws can be summed up in three ways - his deference, his fear and his inability to let go. the thing with tcw 2008 is showing anakin’s anger only when his anger, selfishness and greed is a symptom of the three major and tragic flaws i have listed above.
why does anakin defers till the point that he overrides his moral code? his slavery past where disobedience could likely get him punished and worse killed. anakin never truly left the slave mindset even when he became a jedi and a huge part is due to his unaddressed trauma that prevents him from moving on. anakin clings to the little thing he has for some sort of constant— there has always been this fear of losing since his mother and he could be separated against their will at any time. they lived in constant instability which lead to a constant fear staining his psyche and was never truly addressed other than to shame him.
injustices deeply anger anakin; it’s quite normal for someone of anakin’s background. it is without doubt that anakin wants to do good and he’s full of it not as a chosen one, not as a jedi but as anakin. instances i can list are the nelvaan arc, the mortis arc, return of the jedi ending etc. anakin, at his best, is determined, compassionate and sacrificial and willing to throw away everything just for what he believes in and people he loves.
anakin is every sense is a tragic hero. his story is a mixture of his own mistakes, other’s mistakes, his environment, his own tragic flaws.
anakin is a good person turned monster. and that is why it is so tragic. he is so potent with good even as just anakin. vader and anakin are the same person. vader is the show of how bright lights can cast long shadows of how someone so capable of good can cause so much bad because his power which is blown to mythical proportions and so powerful that a small mistake can have a big impact. vader represents anakin’s greed, apathy, selfishness, anger, mercilessness, cruelty, ruthlessness. and yet, all the wrong doings that vader commits is just anakin. all of it is all anakin’s fault and it’s atrocious and yet so mournful because he’s so potent with good.
and I feel hayden portrayed the conflict, his constant battle, his anger, his positive traits and his negative traits so perfectly and nailed down the emotional turmoil anakin was in and how his trauma shapes up what we know and see.
Do you know how shows always have teens taking care of a babydoll as some sort of homework? Like, I don't know if americans really do that. But Imagine if the Jedi do.
So they give the padawans these baby dolls to take care of for Idk how much time and Anakin, being Anakin, just...is unfairly good at it. He names the baby doll Jinn and imagine Obi-Wan having breakfast with Anakin who's pretending to feed the baby doll thing and just...staring because it's extremely uncomfortable.
Then Obi-Wan shares a tea with Quinlan or idk, any other Jedi and he's looking over at Anakin who is in the background with a damn stroller, while Quinlan's padawan (Ayla, if I'm not mistaken?) already lost one arm of her doll and just left it there on a corner because of course a normal teenager would find this boring. And Obi-Wan is starting to get desperate because "Is this normal? Is this because he wasn't raised in the temple? Is this a Tatooine thing?"
And then the day when the assignation ends finally rolls over and Obi-Wan is relieved because finally he won't have to see more of the absolute horror that is watching a young teenager acting like a great single parent to a doll. And for the first time so far, Anakin gets the best calification ever. But THEN they tell him to retrieve the damn doll and Anakin goes all puffy like "I CAN'T JUST GIVE JINN AWAY"
And the masters are like...trying to placate this teenager who suddenly is having the weirdest reaction they have ever seen and they call Obi-Wan because how they deal with a meltdown over a doll? But Obi-Wan being Obi-Wan just says one of these attachment speeches and extends his hand to ask for the doll and Anakin is already shaking while everyone is like wtf is wrong with this kid. And Anakin just...stright up starts running, that's right, he kidnaps the doll he has been taking care of for what, a month? two months?
So you have the hilarious image of Anakin running with a doll and Obi-Wan running after him yelling at Anakin because of course they would do that.
And I don't know how or what, but then they come closer to some shaft in the temple or maybe a balcony somehow and Obi-Wan tries again to tell Anakin is just a kriffing doll, padawan, isn't alive at all! And Anakin trips and loses the grip on the doll, so the baby doll falls down the shaft.
Cue to Anakin looking in horror sending waves of loss through the force as the babydoll falls while everyone else is just...confused, utterly confused.
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Inspired by the tags by @a-wisebear "#next morning EXTRA silent. anakin making breakfast for the doll and sighing at the empty seat"
So Obi-Wan puts a hand on Anakin's shoulder whom is eerily silent and still, just staring into the shaft where the baby doll fell and he's very awkward and goes "Those robot dolls are expensive, Anakin" expecting for Anakin to get angry and defensive like he usually does, but Anakin doesn't answer, in fact he does nothing, and Obi-Wan needs to guide him back to their quarters, they can deal with the class later.
But then, the next morning, is like an horror movie for Obi-Wan. Because Obi-Wan wakes up with to most nightmarish, and creepy sound ever: Anakin is fucking singing a huttesse lullaby while making breakfast (because I can totally see Padawan Anakin usually making breakfast for them both lol) and Obi-Wan massages the bridge of his nose as he readies to meet his padawan in the table and then....Is there.
The fricking doll, missing an eye and clearly a bit damaged, is in the baby chair, staring at him from the other side of the room while his fucking 13-14-15 years old Padawan clearly hasn't sleep the whole night doing who-knows-what to retrieve the doll.
Obi-Wan is frozen on the door frame as Anakin turns and happily greets him and serves them all the breakfast. And then just...talks about the doll or something like "Master, I think Jinn needs new clothes...and a new eye :("
"Anakin...did you sleep at all?" Ask Obi-Wan as he slowly approaches the table as tough Anakin is out of his mind, and he probably is. He's a jedi raised to view attachments and family stuff as a No-No. So this display surely must feel like a monk watching a satanic ritual.
They start eating, Anakin completely unaware of Obi-Wan's horrified stare , but he tries to rationalize it, maybe Anakin just wanted to retrieve the doll so the masters from his class don't get too angry, so he asks Anakin if he's going to return the doll after the morning light saber training.
And Anakin looks up, with a completely blank stare "What doll?"
Obi-Wan practically can hear the violins all psychosis style.
"This has gone too far".
Somehow Obi-Wan comes to the conclusion that the doll is Evil (tm) and just grabs Anakin by the arm and starts dragging his padawan (who in exchange, takes carefully the doll on his free arm) to meet the masters of the council because holy kriff he isn't ready to deal with a Teenager with Postpartum(???? psychosis over a doll.
This madness probably ends with the council having to use their magic wizard powers to lowkey jedi-mind-trick Anakin into breaking out of his delusion.
And failing badly the assignament because the whole point was to take care of something and not get attached to it and a very sourly and moping Anakin throwing screws and spanners at the walls because he's Angry (tm) and Embarrassed (tm) but quiet and unable to explain What The Hell Was That Anakin. Not that Obi-Wan really wants to know what was that. He just allows his padawan sigh as he looks at the empty chair.
In summary: This assignation broke his mind for a bit and if it wasn't foreshadowing for everyone witnessing it about how much this kid needs therapy, I don't know what it is Lmao
Okay but like what if Anakin also made modifications to the doll as well? Since the doll is a robotic one and it seems like something he’d do.
And Obi-wan would get creeped out because the doll can now call out for Anakin and can swivel its head to look directly at Obi-wan.
Omgggg
Watch out, Anakin will make that damn doll be able to crawl and maybe give it some sort of recorder so it looks as though is learning to talk by imiating everyone around
Obi-Wan is starting to lose his grip on reality as much as Anakin lost it
Please tell me i'm not the only one who sees some similarities between Jinx (Arcane) and Anakin (and also abit of Viktor), please tell me i'm not crazy
No, you're right! They've both got the same intense (kind of socially awkward) mechanical genius energy and get SUPER attached to a small handful of people.
There is a key difference in that the old man in her life (Silco) isn't a literal Sith Lord, and is sometimes just her dad (not a great one, but you get it?).
They both also have to deal with their BIG feelings, insecurity and paranoia that causes them to make rash decisions... often.
Ye ye!! I agree, I think it's because Silco is a much more,,,ehh, you know, a character with several sides and deepness. He sucks but he has small tiny positive traits. Palpatine is the ultimate evil guy (although I like to headcanon him as having a bit more going on for him than just awfulness 24/7 lol)
Also in Arcane they handed Jinx's struggles with mental illness much better, while Anakin's is more of a...in between the lines, if that makes sense? Like George definitely hadn't BPD on mind while writing Anakin (perhaps just C-PTSD in a very basic understanding).
Another similarity is the sibling figure and ultimate feelings of betrayal!
Breaking my heart over thinking how Anakin as a kid was such a bright, kind, and just caring child that wanted to help others, far too kind and nice despite being literally considered less than a person, and then he was groomed by the evilest man in the galaxy, became a monster, commited heinous crimes beyond comprehension, hurt and caused the death of the person he loved the most, then was constantly tortured for two decades by his groomer in ways that are literally impossible to accomplish on anything but a fantasy setting, and he still cared and loved his groomer, lost almost all of his own self and personhood. And then the only thing that made him break out of it was his son that he thought he killed.
Is so fucked up man, i'm crying here. I just...that poor kid, holy cow.
you know, maybe I'm wrong, but my interpretation of Anakin/Vader and Redeemed Anakin is that he pretty much is aware he's terrible. He pretty much thinks of himself as a monster even before becoming Vader, he considers himself one as soon as he had to leave Shmi to survive as a slave alone while he got to become The Chosen One and travel the stars (his basic understanding of love is self-sacrifice), he knows the tusken massacre was bad, he knows murdering disarmed Dooku was bad; he knew turning against the jedi and helping Palpatine was bad; he's extremelly self aware of his violence and hates himself for it.
I think it's easy to think of him as nonchalant or as sort of a shameless dick about it all because his General At War Persona was to be jokey and pretend he's having fun. He's very confident on his ability for Murder (tm), he (tragically) became one of the Best general jedis in the order by becoming good at murder, he's useful when he's being murderous at the right people; so he has no doubts on his abilities on this regard; that doesn't mean he isn't aware of how fucked up and cruel it is, but he keeps doing it, and it's all he knows; he was born in violence, raised in violence, taught to yield a extremelly dangerous weapon, groomed into violence, rewarded for violence, cheered for violence, with Ahsoka then he had to teach violence, and then violence just became something that ran in his blood, it came to him easily, too easily because he was never given the means to deal with such a extreme hyperviolent paradigm. So yep, he knows he's good at murder and little self-preservation.
And he probably despised himself for it, he saw himself as less than a being with human rights, he saw himself as a weapon and he hated not being seen as a person, and at some point he became apathic about it, the fight left him as soon as he had no future with a family. As Vader his hate and anger is just cold fury, is mostly apathy and a void of emotions, there's just pain and self-disgust and regret and old anger, there's not even trying to be something else anymore, it's all he's ever been good at and all he's being asked to do.
So redeemed Anakin (which canonically just means Ghost Anakin lmao) acting oblivious or playing the dumb or victim card it's just something I can't even imagine him to do; like Anakin is aware of being violent and messed up and Bad, but he is completely unable to concieve the idea of having been a victim because besides violence, Anakin's other big trait is that he never ever processes trauma and he horrifically has a history of blaming himself instead of the people who owned him.
This guy, when he was at his best as a Jedi, was pathologically prone to suicidal missions even when it wasn't a necessity, he thinks he's an asset, a means for his superiors to impose their stance and chose to own it, instead of blaming his superiors he just hates himself because he can't stop pathetically reliving when he left his mom behind, when he carried her corpse, when he retaliated against even innocents including kids, when he hurt Padmé, all the times he failed, and the he lived in his personal, fitly created just for him, inferno and had no plans to escape it until one certain sunshine farmer showed up, and all because he thinks he deserves the torture and the abuse and being owned because he's just good at murder and nothing else.
So yeah, no one probably hates him more than himself. Someone could tell Ghost Anakin he's a monster, the worst thing that ever happened in the galaxy and he would say "Yes." And no attempts at arguing or whatsoever, his dignity couldn't be lower if he tried, he would half-heartly agree if someone like Luke said the emperor did him wrong by, y'know, torture him? But then he would also say something like "Well, yes, but cruelty is the way of the Sith, what else could be expected", he's just terribly messed up and couldn't stop himself from defending, at least a little, his literal groomer and abuser and master, and he certainly won't expect forgiveness, like,,,,at all. He can, and will, make excuses for people directly hurting him, but he also would retaliate in terrible ways against anyone, guilty or not, if it meant doing it for someone he cared about.
So Anakin is just...used to being used, and falls easily into being used because it's what he knows best, freedom feels useless and uncertain after he lost padmé.
It's an increíble vicious circle: He worked himself hard to be useful because being useful it's what makes people like him and a means of survival, he then hates himself for being just useful and loosing his personhood, and because he hates himself and thinks he doesn't deserve any sort of...human rights, he keeps on being a mere weapon, an object, but what a good and expensive weapon at least, repeat.
So nope, this guy would be completely unable to even dare to play the victim or excuse himself, even less act as if he doesn't understand he did wrong.
#HOLY CHRIST I LOST MY MIND OVER THIS SEQUENCE #GALAXY OF ADVENTURES REALLY SAID #MAKE HIM COMPLETELY UNHINGED, INDESCRIBABLY DANGEROUS #AND THEN DIAL UP THE PRETTY TO LIKE A THOUSAND #ANAKIN SKYWALKER: THE MOST BEAUTIFUL OF THE ANGELS BEFORE HE FELL
Palpatine v sith!Obi-Wan will always end in ol’ Sheev getting his shit wrecked, not because sith!Obi-Wan would be necessarily smarter, more powerful in the force, a better fighter w/e than Palpatine (he probably wouldn’t be) but because unlike canon!Obi, any dark or evil version of Obi-Wan would have zero compunction about actively using the frankly insane levels of emotional, mental and spiritual influence Obi-Wan “all he’ll see is me” Kenobi has over Anakin Skywalker.
All of Obi-Wan’s canonical manipulative bastardness, his and Anakin’s legit mystical bond + codependence, Anakin’s deep seated insecurities, need for love and approval and obsessive tendencies, and an Obi-Wan with no ethical or moral hangups?
Nah mate Palps is getting the business end of Youngling Slayer 9000 in 3-5 working days.
(sooner if Obi-Wan puts out)
In my opinion adult Damian Wayne should be a powerhouse, in no universe the son of Batman, officialy 6'2/188cm and pretty much 220lbs/100kgs, and Talia, a tall uber athlete lady, and grandson of Ra's Al-ghul, 6'5/195cm and a powerhouse himself, would be slim.
BUT, I headcanon him has having a little to no hair at all, like, no beard, nothing on his torso, legs...Don't ask why, his body is bald.
he’s probably trying to get them all to come snuggle…he doesn’t care if he can’t fit them all under his wings
I headcanon that Bruce Wayne prematurely greys but still looks really young when he’s older. Like he gets grey hair in his mid-twenties but in his fifties he looks better than his twenty-something sons. He’s one of those people where there’s speculation that he’s a vampire just because of the fact he ages so gracefully.