The Chronicles of an Insomniac

tick・they/them・adult・interests: moomins, adventure time, laika movies, bungo stray dogs, the magnus archives, and much more・currently using this blog as a place to keep track of stuff i’m watching

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Out of Touch

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Out of Touch Thursday

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OUT OF TOUCH THURSDAY

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but im out of my head when you’re not around…

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Happy Out of Touch Thursday the 20th to all who celebrate!

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what happened to emo culture like i want to go to a house party where everyone is wearing black and lots of makeup and dance to classic fall out boy god dammit

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was scrolling back through my blog because i was doing some reminiscing and whatever and you know what? i’m so glad i’m not the same person i was 5 years ago. i had no idea who i was and tbh i still don’t but i at least have more self respect now. i’m allowed to have boundaries and i’m allowed to disagree with people and that doesn’t make me a shitty person. i can forgive myself for the shit i’ve done because i’ve worked my ass off in therapy to understand myself and why i behaved the way i did in high school and college and how to be better than that now. genuinely feel like i didn’t open my eyes to my own personhood until i moved out of my toxic ass family home this year. good riddance babey!!!!! haters can die mad because i’m moving on. i feel so shitty about so many things but hey at least that’s a sign that i’ve grown. at least i don’t need to be one of my own haters anymore.

anyways. the REAL reason i’m adding this on to this reblog is because hands down the best part of being my own person with my own interests and autonomy is the fact that emo nights are literally a thing!!! and i can just go to them!! i can buy a ticket and drive myself there and get hammered and have a damn good time. and i can leave early if i get overstimulated and come home to my loving partner who lets me lay in bed alone in the dark until i’m ready for a hug. i’m so lucky to have found people that listen to me and support me in the way i need. but that could never have happened if i didn’t figure out what the fuck my needs were in the first place. the grind is never ending but it’s the best possible thing i could’ve done for myself and i’ll keep doing it until the day i die (by story of the year)

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hi! youre the one who runs the harugo_eng account on twitter right? i was wondering if youre ever planning on translating the envy phantom lv as its publicly available now?

hi! yes that is me! i do plan on translating it eventually but i’ve been having trouble with my health and have needed to prioritize that. it’s also more difficult to figure out how to buy the lv since i am not in japan, and i haven’t found the spoons to sit down and do that yet. it’s definitely on my to do list though! thanks for your ask 💜🙏🏻

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okay first of all i am gay and it is an injustice that i can’t hold someone’s hand right now

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oh just imagine…. sitting together and watching the sun set over the ocean until the sky fades to dark navy blue….. it’s getting a little cold out but the virus has passed and social distancing is over so you scoot a little closer…. the stars are out now and you can start to trace the constellations, the same way he traces lines between the freckles across your nose….. he’s pointing one out now, and you move your head closer to see it from his line of sight….. you can’t help but be nervous letting yourself be close to someone again after so long, but…. you feel his breath on your cheek and it’s warm and for the first time in a while, you’re not afraid…. just imagine

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hey so uh… remember this post i made almost 3 years ago 😳 well uh. i’m. yes

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i fucking cannot find a position to lay down in that doesn’t Hurt i hate my flesh prison so much 🤩🤩

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EPISODE 118 IT IS ALL COMING FULL CIRCLE BABY OH MY FUCKING GOD THE FUCKING ANGLERFISH

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okay hold on. i just listened to episode 25 of tma and the hither green dissenters use the symbol of a closed eye which is similar to the peoples church of the divine host from the serial killer episode? and that church was founded by maxwell rayner who was the guy from the wwi episode??? from like 100 years ago? do i know anything else about maxwell rayner so far bc i feel like i should but i can’t remember

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wait no the guy in the wwi episode was joseph rayner. and i guess jonathan said that name sounded familiar but he didn’t know from where? so i’m good we’re in the same boat

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building on this, in the episode with the hither green chapel they were changing “ny-ålesund” which is the name of the northern most settlement in the world, located in norway. and then that place became relevant again in the alone in space episode bc one of the ppl funding it is based in that town

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there was another episode involving the serial killer after he was put into prison. there were issues in the prison with the plumbing which is just like the way the sink spat out black water in the original episode. he also was visited in prison by maxwell rayner which he was super disturbed about. he died when there was a black out and he got stabbed in his cell

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the other weird thing about this is that the blackout was more than just a blackout, it was like the dark was impenetrable. similar to the way all the streetlights went out in the original serial killer episode

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another episode with maxwell rayner: the chips were going to arrest him for kidnapping a kid, but when they got there everything was so dark their flashlights didn’t cut it and one of the police ended up dying. it definitely seemed like there was cult stuff going on there too (people’s church of the divine host?) rayner was like spitting darkness out of his mouth like fog too. ALSO one of the cult members who ended up dying was natalie ennis, who was the creepy religious roommate in the episode at hither green chapel.

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there was just another statement from the 1800s that talks about maxwell rayner. so he’s immortal maybe? also it said he was blind and was interested in collecting old documents or something. so this guy outbid him at an auction for some documents, and he was pissed and made a threat to the guy about the sandman. the sandman showed up in the night and was spitting black sand everywhere that swallowed all the light and he couldn’t see. so he took the sand and put it in his eyes which made him blind but it also allowed him to escape.

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on the day of episode 25 there was a solar eclipse in ny-ålesund

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whoa…… so in the boat episode the boat is owned by some guy Lukas, whose family is the same one that had the creepy funeral… but they also give funding to the magnus institute so they can’t investigate further for fear of losing funding….. interesting……..

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two new appearances of peter lukas: in the episode with a bunch of random statements, he showed up in the archives at the end and possibly took the guy that was there ? he was pissed that he couldn’t talk to elias or john or someone. and then he also was mentioned in the michael origin story episode bc he was the boat captain that took them to the island where the spiral was having their ritual

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lukas is back again he just showed up in the archives and asked martin how elias is as a boss, and martin is like tbh he fuckin sucks and lukas says he’ll talk to elias about it? weird

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there was a second episode about the vampire hunter (even though they thought he died after the first statement). he talked about this woman who came into the homeless shelters who he eventually followed one night and found out she was hollow except for spiders and cobwebs, which sounds a lot like what the cop was talking about in section 31. interesting

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THE SPIDER PEOPLE ARE FROM HILL TOP ROAD IT’S ALL COMING TOGETHER

to recap: hill top road is where that construction worker was remodeling. his father had schizophrenia but i’m beginning to wonder if it was actually something else bc he spent all his time drawing fractals, which maybe could have actually been webs like the creepy table. the house was owned by raymond fielding, who was very religious and ran a halfway house for troubled youth there. however some time later this girl agnes showed up and every thing got very weird, the residents started disappearing and raymond seemed afraid of her. he eventually died when the house burned down.

so this builder is there now renovating it but raymond showed up and very weird stuff happened (he should have been dead at this point?) so the builder went to the hospital and the nurse there called an exorcist, who ended up being the guy who peeled the college kids faces off and ate them. while the exorcist was working, the builder was outside and he started feeling hatred for the tree, which he hit and then pulled over with his truck. underneath it he found this ornate box with an apple in it, which once he touched it fell apart into dust and spiders.

THIS IS WHERE IT ALL STARTS TO COME TOGETHER. that box was what went in the square hole in the middle of the web table. raymond would have his residents all eat dinner around that table on sundays, and they could never remember what they did after. once a resident turned 18 they would be picked up be a government official and would never come back, which was weird. so this one guy giving the statement said once he turned 18, he was waiting to be picked up when he felt an urge to go back into the house in the basement. he got in there and saw all the previous residents wrapped up in web cocoons and like they were full of spider eggs. he felt compelled to pick up the box in the middle of the table and open it, and there was an apple inside. he was gonna take a bite but he was able to stop himself just in time and run away. that’s the same way the builder found the box with an apple inside. very weird and sus

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in the topic of vampires, it has also been confirmed that the police are aware of vampires and deal with them by taking them out into the woods and burning them to ashes

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just got to a statement of a guy who dated agnes for a bit. she would always come to the same coffee shop and order a drink but not drink it, and she has been going there for over ten years but never aging. she died at the same instant that the tree at hill top road got pulled down. also, she has some kind of power having to do with heat bc her coffee would always stay hot, and when she kissed the guy at the end it burned him really badly

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more spiderweb people omg

there was a psychology experiment in which people with arachnophobia would watch videos of spiders in one room, and see if their feelings would get transferred to a person in another room (annabelle cane). in the end she gained weird spider powers and when her head cracked open in the end it was full of spiderwebs

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bruh the vampire killer (trevor the tramp) is back and he’s traveling around with julia who is the daughter of that serial killer who was part of that cult

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EPISODE 106 I’M SCREAMING AND CRYING BSKEJFAJFSJVKD

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WHAT THE FUCK

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god the way that one contrasted episode 57 so perfectly…. both of them being in the same scenario, but the first being about fear that we are alone, and the second being about fear that there is something out there that is so impossibly beyond our comprehension….. mmm *chefs kiss *

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alright ALSO i just got to episode 32 right now and it’s titled the hive and i’m like 👁👁 i feel like this is gonna be a big one in terms of jane prentiss related plot and i’m psyched let’s goooo

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oh SHIT the statement is by the girl herself 🫢

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BRO that was SO GOOD the prose in that was just mm 😩👌🏻 i’m obsessed with the parallels between these two quotes

so jane prentiss found a wasp hive in her attic, and it scared her but also was alluring to her, bc though the wasps would just treat her body as a dispensable host, she knew that meant they were loving her in some kind of twisted way. so she came asking for help but also kind of doesn’t want help?? this is so interesting i love it omfg

and so now she’s infested and it spreads by the worms which are born from the holes in her body. that’s so fucked up and gross but also kinda cool tbh thank goodness that they’re killing all the worms they see. i wonder why jane wants it to spread tho? like is there something in this for her or..? also what the hell is jonathan on “it could just be a very aggressive parasite” are u kidding me boi have u seen her??? i feel like he’s finally starting to believe some of it tho which is good even tho the dynamic of ‘massive skeptic commentates on paranormal happenings’ was so very entertaining. character development love to see it

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so when jane prentiss was getting cremated she gave off this really weird smell that the cremator recognized. he smelled it once before when exterminating ants, and there was this guy there in a huge brown suit who was like oily?? and there was oily residue everywhere (very similar to that funeral home one). then he smelled it when getting rid of the wasps nest in jane prentiss‘s house. also when he did that the landlord was acting really sus and he was the one who burned the house down. lastly he smelled it when cremating jane prentiss. the guy in the big brown suit also kinda reminds me of the guy in grifter’s bone? but i’m not sure if i’m supposed to draw that as a parallel or not

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wait it was confirmed that that guy was the same guy as in the funeral home episode, john amherst

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hmmmm john amherst makes yet another appearance (possibly) in the tale of a field hospital. he kept dying of various illnesses but would always come back? the restless man story was pretty disturbing

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BRO MELANIE’S DAD FUCKING DIED IN THAT NURSING HOME

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this awkward tension between martin and john… dear god

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MARTIN HAS A CRUSHHHHHHHH

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there’s so much interesting stuff going on with gertrude too… like i just got to the episode with the cult shit in the forest and that was her photograph in there, and in the episode about the creepy dreams she was at the center of all the weird tentacles and the guy was saying she was gonna die…… i remember there was something that happened as well in the day of her death but i can’t remember what or which episode summary to look in

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NEW STUFF okay so to recap, gertrude’s body was found in the tunnels underneath the institute, and from that they found she had been shot aka murdered. she had a whole bunch of tapes too which jon is starting to listen through. from the tapes we found she is actually doing some under the table stuff, like recording statements off the books. she’s researching about the origins of the institute maybe? but she needs to keep this secret from everyone for some reason. john just broke into her apartment and found a laptop charger, implying she had a personal computer, which john is n now looking for. also she had cut all the eyes out of all the book covers. spooky.

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I JUST FOUND IT gertrude died on may 15th which is the same day there was a police report about the hither green chapel where someone heard screams but the police didn’t find anything. interesting…

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john is very agitated about everyone else at the institute and he finally confessed that he thinks one of them murdered gertrude. they gave him the cctv footage from the week of her disappearance and he concludes none of them could have done it so it must have been the entity in the tunnels underneath the institute

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john just found gertrude’s laptop underneath the floorboards!!

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contents of gertrude’s laptop: evidence that she was traveling a lot, receipts for petrol and lighter fluid and all sorts of stuff, and records that she was trying to buy leitner books. she successfully bought the key of solomon which was mentioned in page turner

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she was traveling around with gerard keay. it sounds like they were investigating some stuff in france (beetle episode) and then went to australia or new zealand? girl why

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she got arrested in chicago (?) after gerard died bc she apparently snuck into the morgue and was doing something to his body??? and she had a weird book????? funky leitner business i think

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EPISODE 106 I’M SCREAMING AND CRYING BSKEJFAJFSJVKD

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WHAT THE FUCK

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EPISODE 106 I’M SCREAMING AND CRYING BSKEJFAJFSJVKD

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there’s so much interesting stuff going on with gertrude too… like i just got to the episode with the cult shit in the forest and that was her photograph in there, and in the episode about the creepy dreams she was at the center of all the weird tentacles and the guy was saying she was gonna die…… i remember there was something that happened as well in the day of her death but i can’t remember what or which episode summary to look in

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NEW STUFF okay so to recap, gertrude’s body was found in the tunnels underneath the institute, and from that they found she had been shot aka murdered. she had a whole bunch of tapes too which jon is starting to listen through. from the tapes we found she is actually doing some under the table stuff, like recording statements off the books. she’s researching about the origins of the institute maybe? but she needs to keep this secret from everyone for some reason. john just broke into her apartment and found a laptop charger, implying she had a personal computer, which john is n now looking for. also she had cut all the eyes out of all the book covers. spooky.

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I JUST FOUND IT gertrude died on may 15th which is the same day there was a police report about the hither green chapel where someone heard screams but the police didn’t find anything. interesting…

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john is very agitated about everyone else at the institute and he finally confessed that he thinks one of them murdered gertrude. they gave him the cctv footage from the week of her disappearance and he concludes none of them could have done it so it must have been the entity in the tunnels underneath the institute

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john just found gertrude’s laptop underneath the floorboards!!

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contents of gertrude’s laptop: evidence that she was traveling a lot, receipts for petrol and lighter fluid and all sorts of stuff, and records that she was trying to buy leitner books. she successfully bought the key of solomon which was mentioned in page turner

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she was traveling around with gerard keay. it sounds like they were investigating some stuff in france (beetle episode) and then went to australia or new zealand? girl why

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this awkward tension between martin and john… dear god