A hop skip and a jump into immortality

[tiffulus]

Memory

You stay in my thoughts always Faded memories Gilded moments Our minds do not dwell on unpleasantness Thoughts any less than gold We highlight wonderful things, Erase despicable action "The good times" How right you are We don't recount ghastly detail It's too much to bear I've spun this Web of deceit for you The time you showed pure adoration I felt special, loved, invincible Dwelling not on the times I felt worthless Underappreciated Cast aside Under foot We don't take photographs of the yelling, The fights, The bruises, Only of blissful moments But even in those pictures Our smiles don't quite reach our eyes...

[endlessfreethrows]

But I don’t want small talk. Text me, and without saying hello, tell me why you got so angry at your sister this morning. Tell me why you have a scar shaped like Europe on the left side of your neck. Send me paragraphs about the time you spent at your grandmother’s house that one summer. Call me when I’m half asleep and tell me why you believe in God. Tell me about the first time you saw your dad cry. Go on for hours about things that may not seem important because I promise that I’ll be hanging on to every word you say. Tell me everything. I don’t want someone who just talks about the weather.

(via bohaemian)

[endlessfreethrows]

But I don’t want small talk. Text me, and without saying hello, tell me why you got so angry at your sister this morning. Tell me why you have a scar shaped like Europe on the left side of your neck. Send me paragraphs about the time you spent at your grandmother’s house that one summer. Call me when I’m half asleep and tell me why you believe in God. Tell me about the first time you saw your dad cry. Go on for hours about things that may not seem important because I promise that I’ll be hanging on to every word you say. Tell me everything. I don’t want someone who just talks about the weather.

(via bohaemian)

I love this

[sidnugget]

What is gonna happen if skinny jeans go out of style? Go back to boot cut jeans and act like we didn’t think they were disgusting for 6+ years?

[brothersbloood-deactivated20200]

my greatest fear

[tiffulus]

On the bright side now I might not look like a balloon. Bring back bell-bottoms!!!

[tiffulus]

So I made spaghetti last night for dinner and before I tell everyone dinner is ready I make mine and my daughters plates and then I make myself lunch for the next day. Dies that make me a terrible person?

[tiffulus]

Fading Away

A momentary silence of thought Knowing and needing  A fluid memory within the drought This thing that sent me reeling

My mind was a dessert  Slow and decaying in desperate need of change; to revert past, present and future all fraying

The ideas I once had hopes and dreams my inner child is now sad childlike wonder ripping at the seems

The fog over my eyes has cleared Blinding and bright The painful moments have been seared To the back of my eyes 

[tiffulus]

It's Too Loud

The hum of electronics constantly buzzing and whirring irritating my eardrums  The dial tones of calls  I can't bring myself to make Notifications I can't keep up with The repetitive harshness of songs I can't take Tablets Laptops Television commercials that are far too loud The brightness is turned up too high for my eyes The clicking of these keys is becoming obnoxious All these applications to keep up with Pulling my attention in every direction My thoughts are drowned out by all this noise It's Too Loud 

[tiffulus]

Moving On

There were so many nights I couldn't remember after that I remember seeing people I knew People we knew It hurts so much to laugh I'm trying so hard to forget you It's so hard to move on from this Drink after drink  Shot after shot

Light dances across my eyes People always move too quickly I can't follow them It's so hard to not cry Please just let me forget Please let me move on from this Drink after drink Shot after shot I stopped trying to piece together my blackouts The memory flashes just run together The ones with you in them They keep worming their way into my consciousness Why won't you let me forget you? Why can't I move on from this Drink after drink Shot after shot

This drink is the only comforting thing I have now I can't go out anymore I haven't been sober in months I finally forgot you But at what cost... Drink after drink Shot after shot Bottle

After bottle

After bottle

[tiffulus]

Sanctuary

With my headphones in I am free Give me a catchy soundtrack to life and a reason to live again I can drown out the monotony of living day to day The sounds of every day life that drive me mad The melodies that pound in my eardrums are what kept me alive all those years don't take my sanctuary from me this song I have on repeat  ive heard it so many times that ive begun singing it in my sleep its everything that I find meaningful  everything that I care about it means more to me than any single person could these bands i listen to are old friends of mine when I had no one else they were there for me giving me the push i needed to cry out loud silencing the screaming inside my head urging me to hold on to my sanity  to push passed the vindictive voices of my peers to turn up the volume of the positive voices and mute the negativity They taught me how to free myself

Now These headphones aren't for me anymore These headphones saved me  and now I pass them onto you Find that song that soundtrack that defines you never let go of it when you feel like you're about to lose yourself put these headphones on crank the volume until the world around you mutes

find your sanctuary

[tiffulus]

Just Thoughts

It's been a long time since I have written poetry and lately I have been thinking of picking back up. My life has taken a psychological turn for the worst; with no one to talk to I have taken my frustrations out on myself. I've bottled them up inside of me and it is affecting my overall mood and demeanor. My bottle of frustrations is overflowing and close to bursting if I do not release the pressure inside I do not know what will become of me if I let it go for much longer. It seems that life pushes many of our buttons on purpose, and it is this twisted game of cat and mouse that keeps pushing my dreams away from me. 

[tiffulus]

It begins...

My daughter just finished the Jungle Fury Power Rangers and she is fangirling so hard right now. She is so worried that there are no more episodes and she is basically summing up the entire season right now.