I weighed myself yesterday morning: 152 lbs! I'm almost at my next small goal, which is 143. 136 is my ideal weight, but I don't think it's realistic if I start building up muscle mass with heavier weights. But the fat will start to burn off, which is the most important. I'm just super big around my hips, butt and upper inner thighs, even though my legs and waist are pretty toned. I need to spot-concentrate on my butt more than the rest of my body, and blogilates has helped my a lot with that lately. Things are looking very good! And I'm going to the gynaecologist February 16 to get checked for cysts and see if I really have PCOS. I have most of the symptoms, so I think I do. I honestly hope he'll diagnose me with it, because I don't know what to do anymore. My testosterone levels are too high but the other hormone tests failed, so I've gotten new ones taken. I have extreme difficulty losing weight, especially in the aforementioned area, and I overall feel sluggish. My periods and cycles are abnormally long. The worst part is the hair - I am so hairy it's not even funny. On my stomach, down my thighs, on my lip... And it's started thinning in the sides of my hairline. My disordered breasts and butt acne (not really acne but folliculitis) could also be a result of the hormonal irregularities that PCOS cause, but I honestly don't know since I've had both for 7 years. I feel so horrible about my body. The cystic pimples on my butt, the scars from it and my sagging, tubular breasts with enormous areola. I feel like I'll never be able to show anyone myself or be loved.


















