Perpetually Confused

Percy / 24 / it/they + kit/kits / ko-fi

[timeskip]

A poem created from the titles of all of Tempest's current literature on Toyhouse:

Under the Clouds in a dream In Isolation, in Adoration Dinner with a God; Something Lower Turmoil Ghosts two halves, The World Ends.

[nondelphic]

writing is all fun and games until the scene requires a location

[lizardsfromspace]

She was an American in a fanfic written by someone British; I was a Brit in a fanfic written by someone American. She came to me and said "will you help me with my maths? I need to get a good grade to stay on the American football team"; I told her "I'll bloody well help you parse math".

[a-silly-poll-side-blog-yay]

your pfp is your roommate now! how is it going?

good

bad

great

awful

fire everywhere

it's me lol

perfect

freaky

impossible

results

Remaining time: 6 days 12 hours

[lumi-lex]

prev is ____ coded

deer/doe

bunny/rabbit

cat/kitty

dog/puppy

sheep

other (put it in the tags)

Remaining time: 6 days 9 hours

[baba-yaga-lifestyle]

Israel drops more bombs within the last few years than were dropped during the entirety of ww2 and its significantly impacted the entire planet, warming more of the atmosphere and hastening this process for what little there was achieved during the 2020 quarantine when emissions sank. One of the worlds largest polluters is the united states military, with emissions and waste rivaling the entire output of industrializing countries.

[ri5k]

the replacement of websites with apps sounds so backwards when you actually describe it. like hmm you have to download an entire program onto your device each time you want access to a portal, where it takes up storage indefinitely. somebody should invent an app where you can "browse" any portal just by typing in its address... 🥴

[timeskip]

Thinking about what kind of OC art I'd commission if I had the money to spare and making myself sick with longing

[queijac]

Entrusting wishes to the sky

[auspex]

*thinks about OCs* *Thinks about OCs* *thinks about OCs* *thinks About OCs* *thinks about OCs* *Thinks About OCs* *thinks about OCs* *THINKS ABOUT OCS* *thinks about OCs* *thinks about OCS* *thinks about OCs* *THINKS about OCs* *thinks about OCs* *thinks ABOUT OCs* *thinks about OCs* *thinks about OCs* *Thinks about OCs* *thinks about OCs* *thinks About OCs* *thinks about OCs* *Thinks About OCs* *thinks about OCs* *THINKS ABOUT OCS* *thinks about OCs* *thinks about OCS* *thinks about OCs* *THINKS about OCs* *thinks about OCs* *thinks ABOUT OCs* *thinks about OCs*

[blorbo-posting]

[yellowtrinity]

say never my name, thou darling love

[timeskip]

One thing that's struck me while rereading my old OC writing is just how ANGRY my OCs were. I write about their difficult moments, their breakdowns, the friction between the characters, so obviously some anger is inevitable, but they snapped at each other a lot in moments where if I wrote it today I would never have made them snap. And it really does reflect how much anger and other difficult emotions I was holding inside myself when I wrote it, and how I saw the world as a teenager. yknow?

It's hard to explain but I was just. extremely emotionally dysregulated. Side effects of literally all my mental illnesses and autism and ADHD piling on top of each other at once made things hard for me. My OCs were an outlet for that, Caelestis's breakdowns are based on my own breakdowns for example. And I guess it says something about me that I'd forgotten his anger? Even though his isolation (based on my own isolation) mirrors the ways I kept other people away with anger sometimes simply because I couldn't handle being around people in that state... And I've gotten so much better with that. It hasn't been like that for years. idk. It's interesting to think about. I don't know about being "happier" right now but I can at least be happy that I'm "less angry" or maybe even "less emotionally dysregulated"

[timeskip]

Wanting to Post about my mental state while knowing the Ever Looming Anxiety is caused by medication side effects (which should go away soon I hope) is so stupid bc no obviously I can't just say things like "everyone hates me" that's not true and I know it. But The Anxiety Says So.

[ackee]

what it is like being on tumblr.com actually

[maybells]

nurse them and make a fire

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

always some new bullshit in the ocean

[local-demon-in-your-area]

Why is it always orcas or dolphins

Why can't a salmon do some bullshit for once

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

worry not ☝️ they're doing coke