hiraeth .

i see it shining plainly, the happy highways where i went and cannot come again .

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❝ past a certain point, you stop being able to go home . at this point, when you have got this far from where you were, the thread snaps . the narrative breaks. and you are forced, pastless, to invent yourself anew . at a certain point, this stops being sad -- but who knows if any human has ever reached that point . ❝

#​🇹​​🇮​​🇲​​🇪​​🇸​​🇹​​🇷​​🇺​​🇺​​🇨​​🇰​ ; a study in yearning, in the tight hold that grief keeps one in, in grieving a past one cannot return to, in doing anything for a spare moment, in fighting and kicking and begging to go back (you can't), in the terror of facing your future, and the regretful neglect of the present . in mourning something you can never return to .

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an independant, semi-selective animation/anime multimuse ft a small variety of grief-stricken losers . loved by beetle, he/him + 18 . read rules before following . doc

heavily affiliated with: @brdcge, and @composedinthecosmos.

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hi chat! putting this blog on something of an official hiatus ! i apologize for lack of content over here, but i haven't really been feeling muse for any of the folks i've got on this blog . hiatus will be lifted one my spark's back, though! until then, i'm pretty active over on @passingeternity and trying to start up @aimfound, where i will hopefully soon be somewhat active! feel free to hit me up over there, we can plot or whatever :)

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sorry for the radio silence, been taking care of stuff on my other blog, but none of my drafts over there are scratching the itch so i shuffle over here for a while

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omikuji (fortune telling).

Giyuu has pulled out a clean, white strip of paper from the fortune telling box, reading : [大凶], Extremely bad luck..

Giyuu, your wish will be fulfilled if you try harder.

In terms of studying, the best option is to tell your thoughts to somebody.

A lucky item to carry around would be a/an lip gloss.

.. damn .

[distrxst]

tumblr gets my bullshit too

[mcflymemes]

"THIS PLACE WILL BECOME YOUR TOMB" BY SLEEP TOKEN PROMPTS *  assorted lines from the album, some slightly reworked to suit a roleplay format, adjust as necessary

call me when they bury bodies underwater.

it's easier to try not to eat.

anything to get me to sleep.

i woke up surrounded.

they know, they don't understand.

i'm trying not to crush into sand.

wash away the blood on my hands.

don't wake me up.

lift me out.

leave nothing left.

take everything.

make me bleed.

give me all that i want.

you know you hypnotize me aways.

i have waited.

i know that you can see that you will be mine.

did you not say we were made for each other?

there is a new intention.

do you like that?

i stumbled into your trap.

i fall into your eyes like a grave.

keep the freak show talk to a careful minimum.

i'll find a different harbor to lay my anchor in.

i'm still full of the love you want.

i reach for you on faith alone.

seems your heart is locked up and i still get the combination wrong.

are you simply waiting to save your love for someone i am not?

maybe you believe that in the end, you will be better off that way.

won't you fall for me?

my insecurities surround me like lions in the den.

i feel like i'm losing touch with what i am again.

i remember why i cannot pretend.

i never think of you and all this screaming silence.

oh god, i wish you were here.

i am yours to the end.

every once in a while something changes.

you're changing me.

it's too late for me, i am altered.

i'm caught up in your design.

i see a different light.

let's talk about chemistry.

i'm dying to melt through to the heart of your molecules.

either way, i'm into it.

i can tell i'm falling further again.

i won't turn away. it's far too late for me.

i am broken into fractions.

it's too late for me.

just take it all.

you just don't feel the same.

you can't recall my name.

i've been left no choice.

don't you see that?

you come crawling back to me, but i'm already on the ground.

we all know the talk is cheap.

you don't wanna be around.

what would you do for me?

i won't repeat what i have said beforehand.

why don't you just say what you wanted to say for once?

you guide me in to safety and silence.

this is the start of something new.

your eyes and your limbs are instruments to pick apart.

let the tides carry you back to me.

my arms are open.

for the time being, i will still avoid my own questions.

you know, i can hold my breath forever.

you are still a perfect reminder of what all of these scars on my arms are for.

if i can hold myself together...

it seems my hell is your high water.

i'll smile through the agony for you.

i will admit my defeat again.

i will accept that i can't pretend we will ever be together.

i can't hold myself together.

i'd give anything to borrow your indifference.

it still makes my blood run cold to remember what they did before.

worry not.

my polite advances won't last for long.

i'd give anything to fall asleep without you lying next to me.

[mrsterlingeverything]

Many are not familiar with what is called a diva moment. Youre about to learn

[whooooomp]

quickly we need more guys who are SO terrified of loss that they sabotage every good thing that's ever happened to them

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑺𝑯𝑰𝑷𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑯𝑬𝑬𝑻.

send 🚢 or ( 'SHIP' ) if you ever considered shipping our characters romantically and want me to fill out the following form for our muses. bold all that definitely applies, italicize what could potentially apply. feel free to add more if you think certain options are missing or you just want to add more.

do i ship our characters together?: yes | no | not yet but maybe soon

would i like to ship with you?: yes | maybe, i'm willing to try | no

type of relationship i could see: childhood or high school sweethearts | exes | engaged | married | long-term relationship | crushes | unrequited love | fling | long distance | online relationship | just dating | new relationship | toxic lovers | friends with benefits

tropes i'd enjoy writing for them: friends to lovers | enemies to lovers | exes to lovers | fake relationship / dating | forbidden love | grumpy and sunshine | star-crossed lovers | surprise pregnancy | second chance | soulmates | amnesia / mistaken identity | forced proximity | secret relationship | slow burn relationship

would i rather plot first or jump right in and see where it goes?: develop their relationship first | jump right in | something in between ( what specifically? )

what now?: let's plot something | send me shippy memes | i'll send you shippy memes | write me a random starter | i'll write you a random starter

anything else i want you to know about me / my character / my shipping habits: ( put whatever you want here )

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hey chat !!! uhh small update to my rules kinda sorta relative to shipping go check that out

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because i'm still reeling from last nights win here's a few of the teams across a couple different sports i think modern/gakuen giyuu would like. this is purely self indulgent tbh. put under a read more just cause it's generally nothingburger but i like expanding on small things okay.

in terms of (american) football, i'll be including it just cause it's started gaining more popularity around the world, so he'll have assignments for two teams (both a japanese and american team because i think he started watching both leagues after japan beat america's ass last year). but he likes the lixil deers (he trusts they will break top 5 (they will not)). the deers aren't bad! they're ranked pretty damn good at 6th in the league out of 30-ish teams,, it's just that they aren't getting any higher than that. arguably mediocre in comparison to the top five.

and surprisingly? cowboys fan. no real explanation for this one other than it feels right. he saw one good cowboys game and now has to watch in devastation as they continuously fumble so bad. it's why he's so gloomy.

he watches the world kendo championship, but i don't think he roots for any particular competitor. he just likes to watch it. and see japan win.

in terms of soccer i think he tends to stick to the national leagues, and i think he follows both the men and women's league (s.amurai blue and n.adeshiko japan respectively) but for the J1 league he'll root for the k.ashima antlers. to continue the deer joke.

not a team but rather a small hc playwise i think he's joined a local hockey team before,, and i think he'd be pretty good at it! he plays on the defensive which is probably for the best. he's a varsity ragebaiter at heart i feel he has been the cause of a couple rink scuffles before. you'd think it's "starting a fight with a guy because he's hot and i want him on me," and in part that is true but giyuu tomioka ragebaits for the love of the game.

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was thinking a little bit,, and considering i don’t have any on the blog rn,, like this to get a relations/dynamic tag,, just specify characters okay,, lalalala

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okay ! going to go work on a few things over on bugmazed and maybe fishmaimed before i do anything else over here feel free to bug me okay

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🪲for muichiro? i wanna see the tiny :D

and you get a bug !

[pillarflame]

giyuu was already included so ignore this but im sending it in spirit okay 💋. for the sake of it

he cant do it hes still too nervous

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let  me  handle  it,  just  for  a  minute. // sabito for giyuu >:)

where it hurts // always accepting .

it's only natural to worry, yes . he's aware . more than aware . only natural when he's in much worse shape than he should be, far more bloody than a hashira should be . it's carelessness on his end, and his fault he's bleeding out . how horribly familiar of a feeling . it's only natural to worry,, but it doesn't mean he likes it any better .

" don't . last time you did you - .. "

giyuu forces those words back, cuts the sentence off before he has a chance to finish it . it's unfair of him, unfair to lay that kind of blame on sabito . but he can't pretend it isn't a worry, one that eats away at him now . it's giyuu's own fault for not pulling his weight,, and sabito is the last one he'd wish the consequences upon . but he knows, knows sabito is just as brash, just as stubborn as he himself is . giyuu knows well enough how his friends worries .

and so he frowns, conflicted, but he's realistic enough to know when to quit (he's an adult now, giyuu is no teary-eyed teenager,, not any longer). and so he does, but not without a little reluctance .

" a minute ." it's dramatic . of course no one's keeping track of time . still, he emphasizes it; he'll be up soon, as soon as he can staunch the wound . soon . " i'll take care of this, and then i'll be able to help . don't strain yourself . "

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just cause it's on the brain and i'm sorry this isn't threads or anything,, but send a "🪲" to my inbox and ill draw ur muse in my h.ollow k.night au okay,,, a little doodle