Deb

pro-r3covery but not for me, 21 so MDNI pls Also, I talk about Ana and sui on here so TW

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Feels like I should make a proper introduction so here it is ^^

My name is Deb ~ she/her

I’m 21 (22 in November) ~ ✨🇫🇷✨

Im mostly active in the €d community, though a lurker of the $h community too >.<

I have a strict MDNI ! I know this is a safe space for all but I really don’t want to be a bad influence ! I just wanna have a place where I can speak and not fear hurting others…

That’s all, folks !

Enjoy my rotting mind :3

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Sometimes I act like a b!tch so that people feel less sad when I’ll kms. Maybe that’s an original experience lol

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Sometimes I’m sad I don’t have a gvn to literally clear my head…

Sometimes meaning literally rn

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Since I’ve gained weight my bf stopped telling me my body was perfect like I long for the compliments about me being PERFECT and not the reassurance that I’m still « pretty »

Um fasting thoughts ig

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A friend tried to cheer me up by telling me « you see you’re at a totally healthy weight »

Made me want to fast 48hrs fr x) Like wdym I’m healthy ??? Just say I’m fat already

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Head spinning so much I feel like I’m gonna pass out at every cig lol

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I never want to 34t again :( Like it’s actually so disgusting when you think about it, no ?

Also might go for a 48hr fast but we’ll see ^^

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Been getting into the 24hr fast then cal deficit day cycle and I kinda like it ! Bonus point to the fact that nobody worries if I « don’t eat » anymore cause they believe I’m just not hungry :p

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Just hung out with a friend of mine and it was so nice ! I kept my fast going and I’m proud of myself for not giving in to the snacks he offered :D

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Yea I’m tired of faking it till I make it

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Weighing myself everyday is gonna make me lose my mind.

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Gosh I hate Melanie Martinez but why do her songs have to resonate so much with me ? :(

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What is the easiest meal to omad for u guys ?

For me it’s definitely dinner, cause I have trouble sleeping on an empty stomach + my night meds make me sooo HUNGRY >.<

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I kinda flaked out on my last therapists’ appointments so I’m doing therapy by myself to check, and yep it still doesn’t help :3

Btw, special mention to my mom for advising I stop taking my meds to lose w3ight 😭

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Talked about it with my bf and he was mortified 😭 Omg he doesn’t know how crazy my family is, cause that was like a funny anecdote to me :c

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It’s so pathetic I actually failed at the easiest thing to do, might try to finally succeed at something soon…

Well, if I weren’t so fvcking chicken :(

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I kinda flaked out on my last therapists’ appointments so I’m doing therapy by myself to check, and yep it still doesn’t help :3

Btw, special mention to my mom for advising I stop taking my meds to lose w3ight 😭

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I tried to be aesthetic byyyyyyye 😭

(Coke zero with star shaped ice, my sugar free gums and cigs- don’t take this as an exemple of a good habit tho !!)