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“What exactly do you have in mind when you say let’s party?”
Kinda hard to get muse for a character that stops existing.
[ Derek is going through his room, looking for any clothes that might lie on the floor, just to put them on and head down to the guy’s apartment. But as he hears the voice of the other one, something really odd goes through his had. Why does this guy sounds so nervous? Did he do something? ]
„ Did I damaged anything down there? I mean, I haven’t got much money, but I’d come up for damage if there is any. “
“It’s not your fault this place is a bust. I’m sure I’ll get some form of compensation from the education board if there’s any damage, just-- Help me clean the rest of it up.”
Realizing that the other was unphased by his state of undress, Danny relaxed his vocabulary and stepped back from the doorway to pry his eyes away from the upstairs mate. There was one detail Danny finally clued in to that allowed the guy to be so calmly half-naked in the presence of a male stranger. Not everyone knows right away that you’re day, Danny. The guy was certainly used to the strange looks he was given when a guy in a locker room thought that he was checkin’ him out, but it seemed this ridiculously dense dude whose far too long shower flooded Danny’s flat had no reason yet to be put off by a kid who was just distraught over his electronics. Let this be a chance for Danny to actually check out the bloak without being caught then.
“I need more towels. And then plastic bags to clean them all up.”
The assassin could tell that Danny was just trying to keep him from spying on the screen. That’s what any normal person would have done, considering there were tons of empty computers scattered throughout the room and Garrett decided to use the one right beside another student. He didn’t have an excuse, really, and he was glad nobody was curious enough to ask him why he chose that particular seat, but then again, who really cared about anything in Beacon Hills? Except for Scott McCall, of course.
Garrett knew temptation was bound to latch onto the other lacrosse player. Anyone would have been itching to steal a glance or two at their neighbor’s computer –––– in hopes of what? Finding something suggestive? Finding something interesting? It was a way of digging into someone’s personal bubble from a distance, and Garrett knew everyone had to give into inclination. Oh, and he was right. Soon enough, Danny was sneaking a small peek at the blond’s screen, and there really wasn’t much to see. He could have been researching his last murder, as usual. Though, it wouldn’t have been so obvious. Garrett read articles about the murders, about how the police said they had leads, when they really didn’t. He saw right through all the lies. The evidence was pathetic, and it was mostly just stuff that wasn’t easy to trace back. To anyone, it would have looked like he was just keeping himself updated on the news.
However, the other’s comment made him withdraw a scowl, but only for a few moments. While the essay was from the beginning of the year, the blond didn’t think too much of the noticeable mistakes he’d made in the document. Leaning forward again, Garrett’s eyebrows furrowed before he glanced at the citation Danny had been referring to. Don’t get him wrong, he was still a freshman. He didn’t know about school stuff as much as he did other things. And, citations? When were they ever going to help with his assassin career? Oh, right –––– NEVER.
❝ Oh. Thanks. ❞
He knew the comment wasn’t supposed to sound nice, but he could play along. Garrett was good at acting, after all. He’d spent the last seven years in a giant acting class. It was quite sad, actually, how easily the boy could come up with a totally new persona within seconds. Give him a whole week, and he could have a whole background for them set up without a second thought. It was sick, what he was put through as a kid, and what he was still going through, but it was the way things were. The way it’d always be.
While making a few small changes to the essay, the blond felt the consistent clicking of Danny closing out of a bunch of tabs. It was because of his presence, wasn’t it? Good. That meant he was doing something suspicious. It just gave Garrett more of a reason to investigate more on his new mission. This one, however, wasn’t exactly an official mission. It was one he’d made up himself, and thankfully, Violet agreed to go along with it, but she was leaving a lot of the work up to him while she continued on with the rest of the hit list.
He turned his attention towards the goalie’s screen after a moment, oceanic hues falling upon the photography blog presented to him. For a moment, he panicked. If his picture was out there, it’d be easier for cops to pin him down, especially full body shots. He glanced at his teammate for a moment before shrugged, his cool demeanor never faltering as he looked more at the pictures now.
❝ Those are really good, though. And, yeah, I don’t care. I wouldn’t mind seeing some. Do you have them here? ❞
He could always wipe the pictures of himself from the internet within a few weeks. That was the joy of all the technology provided to him for his… work. Acting like he was interested would get him everywhere, so he’d go with it for now, as always.
❝ –––– So, you’re just really into photography? ❞
Certain that his new neighbour was paying enough attention attention to him, Danny simply nodded his head in affirmation. He wasn’t exactly certain how he should respond to someone highlighting the fact that he was an avid shutterbug, but confirmation seemed to be in order.
Rather than dwelling on the individual’s lack of conversational skills, however, Danny focused on his usb which held the mass storage of his recent untouched photos. Accessing the files with his simple password and pulling up the last couple weeks of practice, Danny scrolled through the insurmountable shots of one of the Defense’s compilation of shitty selfies. He really shouldn’t let that guy get a hold of his camera, but due to a few weeks of lost bets he really didn’t have a choice.
When photos that Garrett were in appeared in the folder along with the rest of the team goofing off in Coach’s absence, Danny slowed his efforts and scanned for the more impressive shots he’d managed of Garrett’s striking talents on the field.
“Here. You’re not in too many considering I was just messing around with focus and the focus was on someone else, but. Remember when that one guy tripped and slid into you and you jumped him with some mad air? I caught that at the perfect time, see--” Danny turned his screen so that Garrett could see then and pointed at his feet, “Total precision. Nothing blurred and action shot looks way cool.”
Danny hadn’t really noticed the picture before, but being able to check it out then made him appreciate the perfect opportunity to catch some of Garrett’s reflex stunts. The shot turned out better than he could have hoped, and with a bit of lighting touch up to fix the glint of the sun in the shot it could be a real bombshell photo.
“You sure you don’t model or something for a living? This would be perfect for the team calendar actually. It’s like you’re always ready for your close up-- See. This next picture proves it and you’re not even looking at the camera,” Danny bit his tonuge when he felt like he was talking too much about his hobby, but he couldn’t help but laugh at the way Garrett’s jaw dropped in the moment of dodging the live-body tripping hazard in the photograph.
“I mean, they’re not stellar pictures or anything, but-- If you like them I can fix ‘em up and send them your way. Could make one of them your facebook profile pic if you’d like. A lot of the guys on the team use my practice shots for that actually. They say it works with their athletic image. Looks better than all their strange selfies with bad angles anyway...”
Danny didn’t really know anything about Garrett come to think of it. He hadn’t been on the team for too long, of course, but Danny didn’t even have the guy as a friend on facebook yet. Didn’t know his last name. Had Danny already blew his impression though with ridiculous nerd stuff? He knew there were some die hard jocks on the team who spoke of very select few topics in conversation which, in all honesty, was far too boring for Danny. Jackson. But who was this guy who strolled into the team with rank skill from who knows where and a smile that made any other player grit his teeth on jealousy--
Oh yeah, Danny noticed their pissed off faces when Garrett pranced in with knew records they hadn’t imagined setting prior to that year.
School's been kicking my ass, so that's about as much as I can do around here for now, and for that I'm sorry. I mean, I'm doing well enough right now in school and keeping it together, but that's only because I've been staying off Tumblr.
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His lip stung and his cheek throbbed. He didn’t like fighting, but some of the other boys did and since they knew he wouldn’t tell anybody about whom it was, they hurt him when they felt like it.
Only his luck he had to run into one of the staff. He glanced up and whimpered softly, a small smile tugging on the corners of his lips as he registered the other’s presence and eyes on him. Hi.
The smile on the kid's face was too sweet to be flavoured with the blood on his bottom lip. His wary eyes, however, suited his frantic stature. The contrast between sudden change in expression and obvious physical state meant an explanation wasn't likely, and asking was ill-advised. Danny had no way of knowing immediately the very reason he wasn't about to get a reason for the disheartening marks on the resident's face because it was a profile he hadn't been given to read, but knowing what and why something had happened wasn't as important as, "Are you okay?"
“I—” Her heart beat loudly against her ears, fearful over the realisation that there was no way she would get away with not trying or eating anything. Eat, eat, eat. Her mind told her, her mouth watering with the idea of the promise of food. She knew she should say yes, that she should take in every single calorie presented to her, but the other side of her brain, the one that was wrong, it just stopped her. “M-maybe. I, I kind of already ate,” she lied, “but yeah, maybe.”
"Don't worry. I understand," The volunteer counsellor spoke with a voice encouraging in its softness and sympathetic in its purpose. It was a method Danny was trying desperately to associate consumption with pleasantries for the girl who has since she's arrived eaten almost nothing-- Enough that it might as well have been nothing. He knew there were workers getting fed up with her stubborn habits, and he didn't want their ill-temper to affect her personal choices. He wanted her to come to terms with the necessary decisions that should be made for favour of one's health, and he wanted her to feel like she was empowering herself by doing so-- Telling her what to do wouldn't make her want to eat more. The truth though was that Danny wasn't entirely sure what he was doing... He was just an apprentice. A trainee. A guy who was told what people are like and how he was supposed to deal with them.
” I know some people. I can get you some papers made — you’ll be just as legit as any of the other fuckers around these parts. Trust me, no one will even notice that a new person showed up. Everyone keeps to themselves. “
"Well, you know what you're doing better than I do. I had better go along with it, and... yeah, trust you on this. You always had it together, Stiles. You always had a plan-- Was always thinking. I wish I could keep it together like you do."
Erica studied the human in front of her, listening to breathing and catching the pace of his heart which seemed to be study, not nervous or panic, which was a good thing. She hated how attractive the man was but already told herself that she was pretty sure he was gay, despise what he may or may not answer. Erica giggled at his words, smiling at how cryptic he was being. She smiled at him. “You are more cryptic than Cheshire Cat, you have the smile for it too.” She laughed. “But thanks for the compliment doll face.” She smiled and shook her head. That’s fine with her though, he can keep his sexuality to himself. She’s learned from dealing with Seth that its not wise to poke around at co-workers.
"And thank you for admiring my obviously beautiful face," Danny lulled the words over his tongue with an air of confidence that most definitely meant he wasn't serious but most certainly was sincere in gratitude, "Cheshire was a mystery too, was he not? If that's so... Then the beautiful blonde lady asking me intruiging questions must be the curious Alice. What ever brings you to Wonderland, Jabberwocky Slayer?"
[ Derek tries not to act offended by the guy’s words. Just because he’s an athlete, doesn’t mean that he’s stupid. He’d just like to shut the door right now, but as soon as the other boy explains his problem to Derek, his brows lift in confusion. It’s RAINING in his room and it’s coming from his room? He has to say, he did shower just a second ago. Obviously. ]
„ Wait, are you saying my pipes have leaks? “
[ Derek steps back a few inches, holding his towel tighter to his waist. ]
„ If you’re right, I’ll come down & look what’s wrong by myself. “
"That's, uh, probably exactly what's happening. I lifted most of the cords off my floor, but the water hasn't stopped yet and I don't have room to lift all the towers... And I'm running out of, um, towels." The last word came from Danny's mouth quieter, awkwardly, and the fact that he was nervous about whatever was suddenly blantant, "Maybe now that you're done there though the water has finally stopped."
“Well, we could just talk, right? I could keep you company, and we could talk. I don’t need to eat if I’m not hungry, right?”
"Of course. I'm going to get you something, but you don't have to eat it. Just sit with me and maybe try it? See how it tastes? I don't want to be the only one with food, but it's okay if you're not hungry."
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“I’m not hungry.”
"Mallory, you see... I just don't want to eat alone. Will you have lunch with me so we can keep each other company?"
Volunteer Form Please fill out completely in blue ink
NAME: Daniel Konane Kai Mahealani PREFERS TO GO BY: Danny INSTITUTE OF STUDY: Community Uni MAJOR/MINOR/YEAR: Psychology/Art therapy/4th GENDER: Male DATE OF BIRTH: January 16th, 1994 DATE OF APPLICATION: January 22nd, 2015 AGE: 21
Goals and Expectations for the Volunteer Term?
I'd really like to take away from this experience a new understanding of the people I will be working to actively help heal for the rest of my life. I want to show people the beauty within themselves and how they can use their own life story and emotions to tell of themselves to the world. Ultimately, this volunteer opportunity isn't about me; it's about them and how I can play a role in helping them find balance and control over who they are as individuals and not who their patient files say they are.
Any prior history of mental illness yourself? If so, how was it treated?
Personally, I started sleep-walking early on as a child and with that came night terrors, sleep paralysis, and eventually insomnia. Medication wouldn't help, would only worsen the difficulty sleeping and the nightmares when I did sleep. I saw an Art Therapist and was able to project my inner distress onto paper in the form of words or pictures, in paint or pen or chalk... After a while I found the best thing for myself was to take pictures. It was a medium that allowed me to hold onto reality and cope with the nightmares. Through my art came a detailed diagnosis, and it became easier to work with people to talk me through stress, anxiety, and insecurity. To this day, I make sure to always spend time with my camera photographing the world I love to be awake in, but I would say that I am not cured. I still sleep-walk and rarely but occasionally suffer from the night terrors.
"You really think they’d leave something civil up on that wall?"
"I think the managers would prefer it over 'Erica likes to be pissed on'--."
"Just because I carry dead bodies into the woods doesn't mean I'm willing to clean the toilets."
"I kinda liked when the wall was saying nice things 'bout my smile. Why'd they have to go and paint over that?"
” It’s just physics and leverage. I’m not throwing the asshole across the parking lot. He’s throwing himself and I’m helping.”
"I hear your reasoning, and I applaud the passive perspective on the matter. All I'm saying is... All I was trying to say was that you're really good at what you're doing, and-- props. So thanks for helping the slob throw himself across the parking lot when he kept trying to come on to me and smashed thirty glasses onto the bar floor..."