darling, let's run

and i'm still a believer but i don't know why i've never been a natural all i do is try, try, try

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tokenhumantrio​:

I know that, logically. Probably a good thing we’re talking about it now, huh?

Sure, ask away.

Yeah, it probably is. …What are some of the things that still stick with you? I mean, the things that make you feel the most paranoid or anxious.

[tokenhumantrio]

Well, the paranoia is more... the alphas. Which is weird, because we're fine with Rollin and Rose. It's like that song though... [Stiles started to sing quietly.] I always feel like somebody's watching me.

The hardest parts are remembering the things that happened to my dad. That's usually what I have nightmares or attacks about.

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tokenhumantrio​:

Maybe? [Stiles bit his lip.] I kind of didn’t want to burden anyone, to be honest. Like I know we all went through it together so we’re all dealing with our own things, and the last thing I want is to add to that worry. But if you ever needed to talk, I’m here, you know that right?

I mean, there’s a lot, apparently. It’s more about finding which ones work for you. I haven’t really found anything that works for the paranoia, but coming out of a nightmare or a having panic attack? I’ll hold a piece of ice in my hand. It sounds weird, but the first time I tried it… it becomes so uncomfortable that it’s all you can focus on. Like it pulls you out of your head and into your body.

…I get what you mean. I feel the same way, I mean, I think I’ve felt that same way for a really long time. But…you aren’t a burden. Not to me, and not to anyone else, either. I don’t know if I would know the right thing to say if we talked about any of this stuff, but…I am here to listen. So I guess I’m just trying to say I’m here if you ever want to talk, too.

Really? I never would have thought of that, but that makes sense. I’ll have to try that one. …Can I ask you a question?

[tokenhumantrio]

I know that, logically. Probably a good thing we're talking about it now, huh?

Sure, ask away.

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tokenhumantrio​:

Yeah, I mean… it’s better than bottling it up, right? Granted if I ever slip I might end up in an institution. [Stiles chuckled to himself a bit.] Regardless, I’m slightly less jumpy than I was, and there are a lot of tricks to kind of get your brain to chill. It’s kind of more than just talking, it’s learning how to function with those things and not lose your mind.

Yeah, of course. I know we can’t ever actually talk to a therapist about everything that we’ve been through, but…do you think it would help if we talked to each other more about it? Just to kind of talk it out and everything? And if you ever ended up in an institution, we would all definitely come bail you out. …Can I ask about some of the tricks to chill your brain out, or learning how to function without losing your mind? 

[tokenhumantrio]

Maybe? [Stiles bit his lip.] I kind of didn't want to burden anyone, to be honest. Like I know we all went through it together so we're all dealing with our own things, and the last thing I want is to add to that worry. But if you ever needed to talk, I'm here, you know that right?

I mean, there's a lot, apparently. It's more about finding which ones work for you. I haven't really found anything that works for the paranoia, but coming out of a nightmare or a having panic attack? I'll hold a piece of ice in my hand. It sounds weird, but the first time I tried it... it becomes so uncomfortable that it's all you can focus on. Like it pulls you out of your head and into your body.

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tokenhumantrio​:

Nightmares, insomnia, paranoia, flashbacks, panic attacks… Yeah, we’ve all got it. Um, sort of? They don’t know that we were attacked by supernatural beings, I kind of…softened the details a bit.

I didn’t realize those were all symptoms of PTSD…how do you talk to your therapist about it? I mean, what do you say? And…does it help? Going to therapy, I mean, and talking about it…even in a partial way, with a professional?

[tokenhumantrio]

Yeah, I mean... it's better than bottling it up, right? Granted if I ever slip I might end up in an institution. [Stiles chuckled to himself a bit.] Regardless, I'm slightly less jumpy than I was, and there are a lot of tricks to kind of get your brain to chill. It's kind of more than just talking, it's learning how to function with those things and not lose your mind.

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tokenhumantrio​:

My therapist says yes. We all have PTSD, apparently.

Do we really all have PTSD? And wait…you…you have a therapist you can talk to about…all of this?

[tokenhumantrio]

Nightmares, insomnia, paranoia, flashbacks, panic attacks... Yeah, we've all got it. Um, sort of? They don't know that we were attacked by supernatural beings, I kind of...softened the details a bit.

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tokenhumantrio​:

Yeah, I definitely hear you there. I always feel like I’m being followed by something. That something is paranoia, apparently.

Does it count as paranoia if you live in a town where monsters have literally tried to kill you and all of your friends?

[tokenhumantrio]

My therapist says yes. We all have PTSD, apparently.

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tokenhumantrio​:

Ah, didn’t mean to. —You okay?

Yeah, sorry. I know nothing has happened in a while, it’s just…hard not to be jumpy in Beacon Hills sometimes. 

[tokenhumantrio]

Yeah, I definitely hear you there. I always feel like I'm being followed by something. That something is paranoia, apparently.

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—–Oh, hey! Sorry, you startled me!

[tokenhumantrio]

Ah, didn't mean to. ---You okay?

[tokenhumantrio]

ooc: sorry i haven't been on to play. work has been 😫

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tokenhumantrio​:

Rum and pineapple juice. We could turn this into a Valentine’s Day Luau. Think anyone brought swimsuits?

Maybe the witches can conjure some for us. Hey, maybe a pool, too!

[tokenhumantrio]

And a slip-n-slide. But a large one, because those little ones for kids do not work. Speaking from experience.

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tokenhumantrio​:

I try. [Cole rolled her eyes.] How do you forget about Valentine’s Day? Think she used that trick she learned in October on the really rude ones? Where she makes her eyes all glassy and sad, the lower lip quiver? Girl’s a natural, I swear.

And how are jerks who forget Valentine’s Day in relationships, while we’re over here in the Hangovers Over Heartbreak Club? None of it makes sense. [Ivy laughed.] I hope so. In an ideal world, no one would ever be mean to Cami, and in a slightly less ideal world, if they ever were, I would be there to put them in their place. But to be honest, that trick of hers is probably just as successful, if not more. 

[tokenhumantrio]

We have high standards, and their girlfriends have low standards?

I saw a guy almost cry last month after being an ass to her. She's good.

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tokenhumantrio​:

Me? Nah. I’ve got my girl, Ivy. I don’t need anything else. Speaking of… [Cami stood on her tiptoes to scan the crowd.] Have you seen her? I have flowers. Oh! One is for you! [She pulled a rose out of the bouquet she was hold and handed it to Katie.]

Yeah? I mean…totally not trying to pry, and feel free to tell me it’s not my business like at all, but…do you and Ivy…? I mean…is there like…more than friendship there? Oh! Oh wow, Cami! Thank you so much! This is so pretty!

[tokenhumantrio]

Oh, I've never really thought about it. I mean, she's my best friend... That's the goal, right? To spend your life with your best friend?

[runningwiild]

tokenhumantrio​:

Would you believe me if I told you that he compared his roses to cats? He’s pretty eccentric, but that’s why I love him. I might have cheated and pick a whole bouquet for the apartment the other day.

Good! I’m thinking of taking some illustration courses next semester. I mean, the goal is art museum curator, but how cool would it be to illustrate children’s literature as a side hustle?

That’s… disturbingly accurate, actually. They are both tediously needy and have plenty of sharp parts.  At least roses don’t destroy your curtains or toilet paper rolls.

I can’t say I’ve seen many children’s books, but I would assume you get to draw interesting things for them. Regardless, make sure to let us know if you do get your illustrations published. Rory will definitely want a copy. 

[tokenhumantrio]

I think you've been hanging around the wrong cats...

Really?! I'll make sure it's a signed copy!

[runningwiild]

tokenhumantrio​:

They are fresh! My Visual Culture professor has this huge rose garden, he let me pick them.

Impressive. Natalie says rose gardens are difficult to grow. I hope you picked enough to keep one for yourself.

Have you been doing well with your art?

[tokenhumantrio]

Would you believe me if I told you that he compared his roses to cats? He's pretty eccentric, but that's why I love him. I might have cheated and pick a whole bouquet for the apartment the other day.

Good! I'm thinking of taking some illustration courses next semester. I mean, the goal is art museum curator, but how cool would it be to illustrate children's literature as a side hustle?

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tokenhumantrio​:

I mean, the world would be ending if Lydia and Jackson weren’t. Also, lowkey love the idea of Isaac and Daria, and doesn’t everyone know about Duncan and Rollin? Why do they insist on hiding it? Honestly, it’s like a telenovela.

I’m not sure! But I do know they’re really cute together! What about you? Do you have a crush on anybody these days?

[tokenhumantrio]

Me? Nah. I've got my girl, Ivy. I don't need anything else. Speaking of... [Cami stood on her tiptoes to scan the crowd.] Have you seen her? I have flowers. Oh! One is for you! [She pulled a rose out of the bouquet she was hold and handed it to Katie.]

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tokenhumantrio​:

Of course! Honestly, I’d feel better knowing everyone was safe. Out of curiosity, where’s the other half of your little duo?

Me too. You’re the best, Cole. Thanks. Cami is… [Ivy scanned the crowd, spotting her best friend in no time.] Over there talking to Katie! She was stuck working at the cafe tonight, which was why she was late. Probably a bunch of guys who forgot Valentine’s Day desperately trying to get last minute cupcakes.

[tokenhumantrio]

I try. [Cole rolled her eyes.] How do you forget about Valentine's Day? Think she used that trick she learned in October on the really rude ones? Where she makes her eyes all glassy and sad, the lower lip quiver? Girl's a natural, I swear.

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tokenhumantrio​:

Nothing with vodka. [Stiles shivers, remembering the last time he drank too much.] Any recommendations?

Definitely not vodka. How do you feel about rum? There’s the classic rum and coke, and personally, I’m a fan of rum and pineapple juice. It’s like a hint of summer in the middle of winter.

[tokenhumantrio]

Rum and pineapple juice. We could turn this into a Valentine's Day Luau. Think anyone brought swimsuits?