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Harold Sohlberg, Moonlight, 1907

Update #2

I decided I’ll make a vlog. Although, I still feel a little embarrassed with the fact that I’ll show my face to the internet world. I think I’ll just dub over and probably show below chin level but not my whole face. I need to get use to that first or get into terms of showing my face.

Now, after planning all these, I realised that I am not really good at organising my ideas. I started writing an outline for my first video and it’s going all around the place. I need to make it concise and easy to digest for whoever will see my videos. Another is one of my everyday struggles; it’s time management. If I want YouTube to be a usual thing for me, I need to make time for getting footage, writing my outline for the video, then editing. It’s a long process but, hopefully, I’ll get use to it. Lastly, I need to think fast when it comes to generating content. I wasn’t the best person when it comes to being witty but I do, however, weird and out-of-this-world ideas that can probably make a dent for the viewers. I just don’t know how to present it.

So far, from all these baby steps I’ve made for content creation, it’s fun and I do hope I continue this.

#update writing

Update #1

Writing has never been my strongest suit. But, recently, I’ve taken an interest in making content for some reason. I think this can be an outlet for the negativity that I’ve been feeling these past weeks. So, I’ll start today and probably write more about the shitstorm in my life. I will think of a segue next time on how to start writing but I’ll just roll with this.

Recently, work has been very stressful because of the high expectations from me. I can’t seem to take a breather because of huge workload they dump on the newly hired people. Yes. I started last year, around September. It’ll be my 6th month once March starts. Agency work is really demanding. It would be understandable if they would consider teaching me the process of how to do things more efficiently. But it doesn’t work that way. Reality just doesn’t work that way. The best way for the agency to let me learn the ropes is for me to do the actual work. The problem is that if I fuck up, it’s obviously gonna be my fault. But what do I know? How is that gonna help? Probably to familiarise myself with analysing data (Google ads related) and effectively getting the huge account to have high returns. They expect me to be finish on a specific time and they tell me to communicate to them if I have difficulties finishing a deadline. I do tell them that it’s really hard for me to finish something if it’s a task I’ve never dealt with before. Expectations from reality is really harsh... also, doing this with a low pay.

This is good. For now. My rant just ended full stop so I’ll try my best to continue doing this. Hopefully, it makes me more comfortable in writing.