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I post whatever I feel like drawing, from anime to kpop, but mostly kpop, probably. 21 PT

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“I’m gonna make it simple for you. You got two choices: Yes, or...”

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sana hairflip

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I’ve been working on this piece that’s been taking me FOREVER to finish because I’m always finding something that needs to be reworked.

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death comes

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I’m alive!

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Ahhhh life feels so void of meaning, I’m feeling frustrated

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I’ll

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Baby

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So I haven’t been here in a while (1)

And there are a bunch of reasons for that which I won’t be talking about in dept. Had a thought this afternoon about how I’m going through a unique period in life which will never ever be repeated ever (you’re only 21 once, for example), so I thought it’d be interesting and kind of beautiful in a way to write down this particular phase of my life, in a sense freezing it in time forever so it won’t be forgotten.

I haven’t been doing that well in a while. For the past 3+ weeks I’ve pretty much been sitting in the living room in my jammies, switching between playing loads of Overwatch, napping and watching tv. Resting has been a battle for nearly 2 years. I’m sleepy and groggy all the time. I’ve lost most of my motivation for the things that I used to get excited over. Even drawing isn’t as enticing and fun as it used to. I pretty much don’t exercise at all now because I don’t have the drive and energy.

Some days I feel completely powerless and miserable, some days I’m just lazy and kind of passive, and other days I feel okay and hopeful. It is usually when I get to hang out with friends or play games with my bros that I feel most at ease, so there is something for me to appreciate and feel happy about at the end of the day, and that gets me going.

I’m going through the motions as I am able to while awaiting a cure or treatment for this. I never thought this would be how I’d be living my “wild” early 20′s honestly, the so called “best years of my life” have been extremely bittersweet so far, but I manage to keep my head up still, and I hope you do, too.

I ended up rambling way more than I expected to, but I hope it was worth your time, whomever you are.

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I’ve been absent for a long while if anybody hasn’t noticed yet haa

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Stefanie Michova (Beenzino's gf) liked a drawing I made on instagram

I feel so accomplished today.

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Stefanie liked another one!!

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Stefanie Michova (Beenzino's gf) liked a drawing I made on instagram

I feel so accomplished today.

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the warmest Ice Princess

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Nothing says summer like sunny days~

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snapback yul