torivikachu

she/her, 24 yo, Ukraine, serious lady lawyer at daylight, Hamilton's daddy at night

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ASSIGNED HORNY AT BIRTH by @that-veela-girl

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my therapist said she is very happy with me lately. am I....cured????

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sasunarusasu is one of those ships that hurt you forever. like follow the love story of these very gay ninjas for 698 episodes and then forget about it and relish in how miserable they are married to other people. sir?

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rereading my old posts. I'm so funny, people in my life just have no sense of humor

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came to the office too early and don't know what to do with myself (the list of 27 tasks I have written down do not count)

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I just watched the show "sirens" and the idea went completely over my head. I mean I had to google to figure out what the purpose of the show was. now I wonder if it was just me or did the show kinda suck in the way they progressed with the story and got the point accross? the whole metaphor of sirens went absolutely, completely over my head and I was watching the last episode like an idiot, trying to understand what is happening and where it all is going. it felt like a show made specifically about women for some reason, and I am all for the representation y'all but the idea got lost on me, and then the no answers in the end got me even more lost

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and that wasn't some open ending when you kinda suspect what's gonna happen so you can muse on whether what you think happened or not. it was like full dot dot dot dot dot where you have no idea what the fuck happened and what the fuck it even leads to. like,,,, is it like just a repetition of a pattern? who is Simone even? what is she doing? them trying to highlight Kiki being blamed for stuff her husband did was waaaaay to subtle to be the whole point of the show. it's like they had this idea for a moral conundrum but didn't know how to shape it so they did this. I'm a writer I know how this goes, sometimes I write poems around a single fucking word. the word was probably amazing if it got me that excited, doesn't mean the poem turns out good tho

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I've read people's opinions and it feels genius. but I feel like the last episode didn't do the unraveling. and for fuck's sake, a show that I thought would be about women, is just another show about a man???? despite women all the time on screen, the show is still somehow about a dude. ffs

I'm still 50/50 on this. yes, if you think back on all things that were pointed out, it's SUPER subtle but genius. but still, there had to be some better way to get us in on the real story in the last episode. it was enough for some people, I completely overlooked the point waiting for the ending to give me the answers. perhaps lazy on my part, not gonna lie, so maybe not the show's fault. still I feel like it was lost among all this flashiness

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I mean I got that sirens was a metaphor, so I wasn't really expecting there to be real powers, or even a cult, or some big murder mystery (I was rooting for it, and I was completely lost by the end, so I suspected it, but I still waited for smth else bc it was just way too obvious for a show that was made to be so complicated from the start), so doing that would be a waste and I applaud for that. and yet the end felt anticlimatic still. I was somehow able to reason with the choices made by the characters, but the context and the real idea behind the metaphor was still sooo lost on me

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I just watched the show "sirens" and the idea went completely over my head. I mean I had to google to figure out what the purpose of the show was. now I wonder if it was just me or did the show kinda suck in the way they progressed with the story and got the point accross? the whole metaphor of sirens went absolutely, completely over my head and I was watching the last episode like an idiot, trying to understand what is happening and where it all is going. it felt like a show made specifically about women for some reason, and I am all for the representation y'all but the idea got lost on me, and then the no answers in the end got me even more lost

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and that wasn't some open ending when you kinda suspect what's gonna happen so you can muse on whether what you think happened or not. it was like full dot dot dot dot dot where you have no idea what the fuck happened and what the fuck it even leads to. like,,,, is it like just a repetition of a pattern? who is Simone even? what is she doing? them trying to highlight Kiki being blamed for stuff her husband did was waaaaay to subtle to be the whole point of the show. it's like they had this idea for a moral conundrum but didn't know how to shape it so they did this. I'm a writer I know how this goes, sometimes I write poems around a single fucking word. the word was probably amazing if it got me that excited, doesn't mean the poem turns out good tho

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I've read people's opinions and it feels genius. but I feel like the last episode didn't do the unraveling. and for fuck's sake, a show that I thought would be about women, is just another show about a man???? despite women all the time on screen, the show is still somehow about a dude. ffs

I'm still 50/50 on this. yes, if you think back on all things that were pointed out, it's SUPER subtle but genius. but still, there had to be some better way to get us in on the real story in the last episode. it was enough for some people, I completely overlooked the point waiting for the ending to give me the answers. perhaps lazy on my part, not gonna lie, so maybe not the show's fault. still I feel like it was lost among all this flashiness

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I just watched the show "sirens" and the idea went completely over my head. I mean I had to google to figure out what the purpose of the show was. now I wonder if it was just me or did the show kinda suck in the way they progressed with the story and got the point accross? the whole metaphor of sirens went absolutely, completely over my head and I was watching the last episode like an idiot, trying to understand what is happening and where it all is going. it felt like a show made specifically about women for some reason, and I am all for the representation y'all but the idea got lost on me, and then the no answers in the end got me even more lost

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and that wasn't some open ending when you kinda suspect what's gonna happen so you can muse on whether what you think happened or not. it was like full dot dot dot dot dot where you have no idea what the fuck happened and what the fuck it even leads to. like,,,, is it like just a repetition of a pattern? who is Simone even? what is she doing? them trying to highlight Kiki being blamed for stuff her husband did was waaaaay to subtle to be the whole point of the show. it's like they had this idea for a moral conundrum but didn't know how to shape it so they did this. I'm a writer I know how this goes, sometimes I write poems around a single fucking word. the word was probably amazing if it got me that excited, doesn't mean the poem turns out good tho

[torivikachu]

I just watched the show "sirens" and the idea went completely over my head. I mean I had to google to figure out what the purpose of the show was. now I wonder if it was just me or did the show kinda suck in the way they progressed with the story and got the point accross? the whole metaphor of sirens went absolutely, completely over my head and I was watching the last episode like an idiot, trying to understand what is happening and where it all is going. it felt like a show made specifically about women for some reason, and I am all for the representation y'all but the idea got lost on me, and then the no answers in the end got me even more lost

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i've been 27 for 2 days and I already want to kill myself

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oh right... happy hamilton's death day, almost forgot

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its the night when i turn 27 and i'm laying in bed, cant sleep, somehow ending up writing a suicide note in my mind. i thought i was better, but this birthday hits hard and i cant even put it into words. i dont even know why or how my mind went there. had to stop myself and write this instead of indulging that train of thought. sorry if it triggers anyone, i just needed to write it down. i ve developed a coping mechanism of hitting a post button to get stuff outta my mind. hope it works this time too

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i'm late to the bear / man discussion, but I remembered when the war started and a guy told me that if russians stormed the house right now, at least they would rape me first so I'd have some more time to live. to me it feels like the same kind of argument

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ok but dreaming about a missile hitting right next to you and rolling from your bed irl to get away from it is a new kinda crazy

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so my hormonally imbalanced brain has recently decreed that it wants a baby. i'm like dude chill, I'm not even 27, there's literal war around, I' still building my career, still trynna figure out the clusterfuck of my physical and mental health, we're neck deep in debt, and yet, no reason works. the brain just screams BABYYYY

only relief is that i can't get pregnant the way my hormones are rn. yet in the last 6 months my doctors had me do so many blood tests for pregnancy (bc surprise surprise my symptoms are always weird so doctors always suspect pregnancy first). downside - I get depressed after each negative test.

i wanna die

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breaking bad more like breaking bold

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what I don't like about the ending of "YOU", is that they still gave him the voice in the end. the show ends on an important thought, but it is spoken by him. after giving do much development to the idea of taking away someone's voice, it would be fair to rob joe of his in the end. I was actually silently watching the last seconds in fear that they will, thinking 'no, after all that they wouldn't!'. and they did. damn