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Mara꙳ ███ ████ ██ 1995 ███ she* ██ fictionkin𖦹. ꙳Sinister side of a lateralized system. *Open to viewer interpretation. 𖦹The cringey kind. 𓃩( my posts)

[torturedtoon]

What if an infection was a message, a brightness a kind of symphony?

[altcomics]

Jaakko Pallasvuo

[torturedtoon]

[ID: An ink drawing of a Dying Puppeteer crouched lumpily behind a Puppet/Actor. Behind the Puppeteer is the text Shadows/Private Life. Before the Puppet is the text Public Life. In front of them stands the Director, Gaze-ing at the Puppet. Light shines on the Puppet. An eye looks over and sees all of this, labelled God (All-seeing). End ID]

[mybeingthere]

Annie Besant and C. W. Leadbeater, Radiating Affection, from their book  Thought-Forms, 1901.

[torturedtoon]

[ID: A spiky pink shape painted with some kinda watercolor or gouache (Which is usually just a more opaque watercolor). The spikes are irregular, most of them rounded and bulging at the edges. It doesn’t try to look three-dimensional. The background is black, with a white number 11 in the corner. End ID]

[torturedtoon]

C’mon in, the 𝑳𝑵₂’s fine!

[polba-blog]

[torturedtoon]

[ID: A spiky pink object hangs in the doorway of an aqua/green/seafoam structure. Orange leaves and branches above make glyphlike marks. A warm lightbulb shines above a vent on the wall. The number 19 is visible on the side of the building, but there might be more numbers after the 9... End ID]

Shard by Michael Dandley. Gouache on paper, 12"x9", 2018.

[jesterdisorder]

lil doodle of human Pomni (Gail) pregnant with her and Jax's twins!!

[foosweechin]

The thing in the office.事務所の化け物#化け物#落書き #doodle #creepy #instaartist

[torturedtoon]

[ID: The ductwork hanging from the ceiling drips from its registers, like paws at the end of duct pipe limbs. An exit sign hangs from one “arm” and a lizard crawls on its “body”. Someone looks up at it, surprised. The office continues into half-hidden doorways, with more someones... End ID]

[torturedtoon]

No one EVER takes me up on my generous invitation to tag my drawings as kin/me. Whaaat, you don’t wanna be on the breaking wheel? You’re not even gonna wear the sexy little wrap dress?? :/

[torturedtoon]

I can hear them They lost their sense and feelings When you touch the wheel I’ll be alright asleep forever I would like to be a child Drown with me until you die

“Wheels over Me”, from A Triumph for Man by Mew

[star-cats-art]

More TADC fanart

[torturedtoon]

Trying to make a tumblr post of it:

So. This is the shit I know. Or remember. Ugh, neither’s right, starting over⸻it’s just stupid intuitions I have. No way it’s show canon here, buuuuut…you might not wanna read this for other reasons. It’s also just bad writing! I’m too dumb to understand what I received and it’ll just piss off you, the viewer. Definitely got it wrong in a way that makes me look stupid. Lots of reasons not to click Keep reading. Better just keep scrolling! I am Grover in The Monster at the End of This Fucking Book here

I didn’t wanna say it like this. I wanted to be cryptic and let you guess and not have to type anything. But hey, after reading this, you’ll still only have the surface-level, the thirdperson view! Not even any of the other crap I could mention here and annoy you with, neither Maze nor muZz nor McLuhan nor MMAcevedo nor Solange Marriot nor La Mettrie nor MT Anderson nor разномирность (And that’s just some with M sounds). This ISN’T me being vulnerable! Even my “about” page will tell you more and it’s a stupid cento I make when I’m bored. You can’t know me from this post!

…It’s also bad to read and disjointed as shit because I keep deleting crap and moving it around. Anyway.

C&A was a cryonics and mind-uploading and AI startup. To get around all the shit they keep discovering in cryonics, “Oops lol your wife’s brain is full of little ice crystals, like we left her lid off in the freezer, whoops our bad”, they tried to build in redundancy: developed the brain scanning protocol, trained Caine and etc (And of course post-training would be torture for anything conscious), all with the idea that the brain scans were an extra backup for the bodies, a way to patch-in lost information and keep some version of the mind active, “all watched over by machines of loving grace”. Like how cryonics and brain-imaging now is just, preserving as much as possible, and hoping the future can read it and finish the story. Or some cheesy crap like that

And hey, if our scans are active in the circus, awake and able to think and solve problems, they can make money! There’s cryonics funding, solved, they thought. You don’t even need payment beforehand. You don’t even need a lot of things.

So we were the scans, really. But our bodies were there, waiting. Scanned then carefully and lovingly killed and perfused, preserved. You can’t die naturally if you wanna stay accurate! Stupid fucking creepy popsicles “cryopreserved patients” (I would use Ruby text there if I wasn’t lazy) in a totally different place from the servers, not knowing what was happening to them.

(And I don’t know how many of these details are accurate—if “accurate” even means anything here—if we were ever intermittently or distantly in contact with our bodies even in a pointless way, or, if that’s just an impossible thought, even a dull kid can tell that’s not compatible with cryonics)

…When we were “recovered” from the Circus, they had to work on-top-of-through C&A’s original planned future extraction protocol. Of course C&A didn’t have anything anywhere near functional, our world was closer to Ettinger’s dream but not THAT much. But it was all by necessity still based on the original C&A documentation, the pop-philosophical assumptions behind it, etc. How to get the scans “back in-sync” with the brains, how to “reverse the encoding process” (Just say decode you stupid pretentious fuckers!), how to “gradually make the human brain accept what the scan contained as ‘itself’”. It was intended to “fully re-unify” our scans with our body. Bullshit.

And of course the original C&A crap was insecure. Like how FTP was like the most naiive and trusting way to transfer files because it was the 70s. C&A was before even SSH, didya know that? They just couldn’t stop fucking us over. I wish that Finnish guy had hurried it up a little. Or whatever. I don’t know anything about computers aside from making Neopets profiles.

They leaked. Obviously. Have you guys read MMAcevedo? Wait, shit, I said I wouldn’t reference anything. Not even the really obvious easy stuff.

I don’t wanna talk about it. Read Gangle’s DNI or whatever and figure it out.

…Lllllllet’s all ignore that she nearly doesn’t fit her own DNI ;). It’s way too nice, right? Makes me sick. I don’t agree with some of it. I’d be HONORED if my blog hurts you! *takes a bow*

…Maybe the real me was those scans. It’s more appropriate for me to be fractured into infinite instances and tortured. I'm just a dethawed dead kid injected with memories of a bunnysetgirl.

……That paragraph is something I wrote for my fic. It’s writing! It’s ironic! It’s acting! It’s theater! I’m not really saying it. It won’t survive to the second draft, anyway. Wayyy too earnest.

………I’m too stupid to explain this.

[vecb-art]

Let’s Eat Eachother 1,000 Times

11x14 inches, colored pencil

Original sold at the FC 26 art show

[torturedtoon]

What if I was in the Optirat® Plus and you were the laboratory animal technician. And we were both girls

[hesperidiae]

[bookmaze-challenge]

…a great hall, dominated by the entrance to room 22. The face over the door had a sly look. “Is it good or bad to have only two choices?” they wanted to know. It was, predictably enough, neither “good” nor “bad.” These people just didn’t know how to phrase a meaningful question. You have to be very particular in this House. We went on to…

22

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[rathayibacter]

sometimes artists worry if their art is actually capable of making the world a better place, or if its all just wasted effort. what you need to remember is: all art is evil, and the sole aspiration of the artist should be to maim as many onlookers as possible.

[torturedtoon]

Yeah, duh, of course I’m doing fine. Why would you even ask that lol *visibly drawing Jax braided onto a breaking wheel*