I went to a work happy hour tonight which I don’t think I’ve ever done before at any job but I was joking with my work friends beforehand about not wanting to get too drunk in front of our boss which I literally had 2 drinks in the span of 2 and a half hours so no worries
and my boss was sitting across the table from me and I’m shy and awkward and don’t feel that comfortable around her even though she’s like a year older than me
but she wasn’t drinking at all because she’s pregnant which she told us tonight
and she’s really nice and a great boss but she makes me feel very insecure for some reason in a way I can’t really describe
anyways I can’t remember if it started with talking about my nail polish or what I was doing over the weekend but she said like “what do you do at night? or on the weekends?! like you live alone, I’m so intrigued!!”
......and it was kinda funny at the time and I just said like the normal stuff like chores and watch tv, etc but I’ve been thinking about it since I’ve been home (as I have to overthink every social interaction until I never want to speak to another human for the rest of my life) and like............
I’m still a normal person and I do normal person things but by myself. like I do the dishes and listen to music and sit on the couch and fold laundry but just for one person......
it was just a good reminder of why I don’t tell people things about my life or that I’m asexual because they treat you like an alien species just because you’re not married