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DBT Self-Help Resources: Ways to Describe Emotions

To be used with Emotion Regulation Worksheets 4, 4a

Also look at: Emotions List - Using an Emotions List to help Label an Emotion

Search results for Emotion Dysregulation - Definition of Emotion Dysregulation

Source: Marsha M. Linehan (2015) DBT Skills Training Handouts and Worksheets, Second Edition The Guilford Press

Transition is difficult. It is hard to be in a new place, with a new job, with new people, and a new faith community.

Transition is exciting. It is so fun to plan for the future and do grown-up things like buying a bed.

Transition is stressful. There are many unknowns as one’s life takes on a new direction.

I am in a season of great transition. And there are a plethora of feelings to accompany this time of transition.

#growing up #directio #work #job #millennial

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

Thomas Merton

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It is almost here!?

7 days of classes. 4 days of finals. 2 weekends. 2 sermons. About 20 assignments. 1 RA Event. 2 nights on desk. 1 apartment to clean.

Those are the things that stand between me and graduation. Oh, and let’s not forget the many, many emotions between now and May 7th.

I would be lying if I said it wasn’t all quite bittersweet. Yet, I am thankful for the sadness I feel in saying goodbye to this place. I’m sad to leave because NNU and Nampa were so good to me.

The friends. The roommates. The RDs. The professors. The fellow students. The Chaplains. My bosses. The kids I nannied. I kids I tutor. The classes. The trips. The plain rides. The car rides. And so much.

It has been a beautiful experience here at NNU. I could not have asked for a better place these last four years. While there were some extremely difficult moments, there is so much to be thankful for.

I am not the same person I was when I walked on this campus in fall of 2012, and for that I am grateful.

NNU, you have been good to me. So good, that it is hard to leave.

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It may well be that we will have to repent in this generation. Not merely for the vitriolic words and the violent actions of the bad people, but for the appalling silence and indifference of the good people who sit around and say, "Wait on time.

Martin Luther King Jr

Grateful

Today, I am grateful. I’m grateful for my diverse group of friends. They come from different backgrounds, are pursing different things in life, and each has their own beliefs about God and humanity. Yet, they all add something beautiful and inspiring to my life.

Today, I am grateful. I’m grateful for my frailty and weakness. While I want to have it all together, I don’t. And I usually don’t like that. Nevertheless, my few struggles have helped me love others better. My struggles have connected me more deeply, more profoundly to my fellow human beings. And for that I am profoundly grateful.

Today, I am grateful. Grateful for life. Grateful for breathe. Grateful to be here in this messy, painful, but beautiful world.

but I don’t deserve it...

When I read these types of things, I immediately think of all the reasons why this truth: that “I am the beloved child of the creator”, does not really apply to me. I think, “This doesn’t apply to me because...

I don’t deserve it.

I didn’t earn it.

I’m not good enough.

I’m too messed up.

I have too many problems.

I am broken.

I can be mean.

I can be proud.

I can be fickle.

And the list goes on and on with reasons why I’m unlovable and unworthy. The list goes on and on as to why God could not love me. (though I am quick to affirm that God is love, God loves everyone, and God loves you. And while I know that this logically means that God loves me, sometimes good reason alone is not enough.)

Recently though, I have been reminded of the need to simply accept, to simply accept the gracious gift of God’s loving presence in my life. I can never earn that love. I can never do enough to feel like I deserve to be God’s beloved. And even when I do not feel it or completely believe it for myself, God still looks at me with loving-kindness, faithfulness, and gentleness. And no matter how long my list of reasons that being God’s beloved does not apply to me, I cannot reverse or deny the love of God as demonstrated in the incarnate Christ.

Praise be to God for the gracious gift of his Son, who in becoming human, demonstrated his great love for us, a love so great that he would suffer and die.

A Full Year

It took me a few days to reflect and process last year. In thinking about 2015, the word full most accurately represents those 12 months from January to December.

2015 was full of travel. From a conference in South Carolina, to a large Nazarene youth gathering in Kentucky, to a road-trip to Oregon and Washington, to a summer in Texas, to trainings in Indianapolis, to visiting friends in KC...I was in 16 states over the course of 2015! Looking back on it all, I realize the amazing experiences that these travels afforded me. Some highlights of these trips included:

-meeting Nina Gunter (if you don’t know who this is, it is ok. You just aren’t as much of a Nazarene nerd as I am.)

-discovering the lovely coffee scene of KC, MO

-walking along the Oregon coast with a good friend

-breaking the Ramadan fast with a Burmese family

-speaking Spanish and eating homemade enchiladas

-helping a friend get ready for her wedding

-attending another friend’s wedding

2015 was also full of confirmation. I entered 2015 still doubting my call to full-time ministry. I felt disqualified to preach, teach, or be a spiritual leader. Yet, 2015 affirmed:

-my call to preach

-God’s giftings and graces in my life

-how much I had grown spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically, and relationally

-my next steps in pursuing an Mdiv and ordination in the Church of the Nazarene

2015 was full of surprises. Some of these were good surprises. Some of these surprises were difficult and devastating. These surprises included:

-being chosen as a junior/senior RA

-having my best friend visit for my birthday

-unexpected, painful circumstances at my school

-self-realizations that meant walking the hard path of forgiveness

2015 was so full. And while part of me hopes that 2016 is a little less eventful, I am thankful for the ways that I was able to live fully in 2015, as I learned to fully embrace joys and sorrows, loving more fully along the way.

Life is like a black hole...

Life is like a black hole

Pain and hurt

Spin in a vortex

of chaos

that threatens all life

yours and mine

The black hole

of violence

sucks in

victim after victim

and entices

perpetrator after perpetrator

with its promises of

a better tomorrow

The black hole

of fear

grabs my hands

and ties them up

so I can’t

help my neighbor

or open the door for

the stranger

The black hole

of despair

threatens existence,

meaning, self, future

With words

“You will never

be enough”

A black hole

threatens everyone

What’s your black hole?

I truly believe that we as the Church need to make more space for laments. We need laments in our communal worship. We need to lament in our daily lives when we are angry at God, questioning God, when it seems that God has not been faithful.

I lament. And I have found these songs to be helpful in expressing my cries to God. Some of them are questioning-wondering if God is affected by the pain in the world. Some are cries of rescue even though we cannot see God. Some lament the brokenness of the world and the disease of sin that so distorts and damages. May these songs help you lament as an individual and be a resource for incorporating lament into the life of your local church.

(Here are a few more that did not have artist endorsed videos: Rescue Me by The Brilliance, Lord Please Save Me by The Brilliance, and The Fall by Gungor).

did-you-know

English teacher Kaitlin Robbs created a vocabulary wheel that helps narrow down the exact word that best describes your feelings.

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