1349 – Day 2 – Glennborough Farm
Across the Irish channel, Elias and Ciara have been living on quietly. It has been months now since the plague swept through Glennborough, and slowly, things are righting themselves. Elias has even been to town again, only to return stunned with how lucky an escape they’ve had. Yes, they lost Gráinne, and they witnessed what happened to their neighbours, but it seems that Glennborough lost half its population in a matter of weeks. Thanks to his brother Joseph's visit they already know that his family, at least, survived mostly unscathed, although the same cannot be said for Lord Goth’s heir and his sons.
That is probably the hardest piece of news he brings back. Yes, he is certain that she knew many of those who succumbed to the plague, and he isn’t the only one to worry that it might happen again. But how does one tell one’s wife that her entire family, save one sister, is dead?
Elias doesn’t know how another man would do it, but he goes about it as gently as he can. The worst thing is that it doesn’t even come as much of a surprise to Ciara, who nonetheless weeps for all she has lost – including the opportunity to make things right with her parents. Her father treated her so cruelly, and yet, the thought that she’ll never find closure for what happened during her pregnancy with Órlaith hurts. And her mother! They lost so much time…
“Do you know what happened to Aoife?”, she asks tremulously, once she has gathered herself enough to think of anything other than all the things she’ll never get to say.
Fortunately, Elias thought to gather information about that, too. “Apparently, she works at the castle now. Although one of Eibhlín’s brothers told me that one of them might have designs on her..”
“So they survived, then?”
Elias tries not to pay attention to the bitterness in Ciara’s voice, but simply tells her that yes, indeed, it seems that if most of their good-sister’s family escaped the calamity. His wife accepts this, but is almost as quiet as little Domhnall for days after.
It is also around this time that she begins to feel nauseous more often than usual. When she discovers the cause, she is not quite certain whether to cry or laugh – apparently, her and Elias’ resumed, if infrequent, attempts to build a family weren’t without success. Despite her initial hesitation about the whole thing, she eventually came to the conclusion that yes, she would like to have more children as well. Their field is doing fine, and maybe, if they do this, they will be able to leave the terrible last year behind. And so it is that in the second quarter of 1349, Ciara finds herself with child once more.
Ciara keeps her news to herself for a little while, mostly so she can get used to the idea of a third child in her own time. Part of her is excited – she enjoys being a mother, hard as their lives may be much of the time. But she is also terrified that her joy may turn to ashes just as it did with Gráinne. She may have lived to adulthood if it wasn’t for the plague, but what if she loses this child to another such sickness, or to something else? Children die so easily. She doesn’t think she could bear another loss.
She finds it is difficult to be hopeful after witnessing what they did, or to believe that all things will turn out well. While she is glad to have survived, it also feels as if she cheated somehow, especially when she remembers the spells Elias wove to protect them. What if the Watcher takes umbrage with that? What if the next time, magic won’t be enough? What if, what if, what if. It almost drives her mad.
But the fact remains that she does want this child, and this eventually wins out even over her fear. Enough so for her to gather her courage and approach her husband.
Even if she hadn’t found it in herself to push past her fears, his reaction when she shares her news would have blown them away like grains of sand. He is ecstatic, asking her several times if she is in earnest. His reaction is so different from the last time that for a moment, Ciara actually wonders whether her husband has been replaced by a changeling.
There are the inevitable questions – when does she think she is due? Is she feeling well? Should they arrange for someone to come stay with them once her time draws near, so she has a woman to support her through the birth? His mother, as the new baroness, surely won’t have time, but they can find someone else. Eibhlín, maybe.
Ciara considers this for a moment, but eventually shakes her head. Her friend has her own children, and she is certain that she has experience enough, both with giving birth herself and from those births she attended. All she needs from him is moral support when the time comes.
After her joyful reaction when she announced her last pregnancy, Ciara honestly doesn’t even consider that Órlaith might be anything other than happy to hear about this one. Which makes her astonishment all the greater when her usually cheerful daughter proceeds to promptly burst into tears.
“I don’t want to be a big sister if they die anyway!”, she wails, in a way that makes Ciara remember that her little girl is still only eight years old.
She bends down to rub her daughter’s arms comfortingly until she looks up. Seeing the tears rolling down Órlaith’s face makes her heart ache, but she nevertheless does her best to smile comfortingly. “No one is dying, love, I promise.”
“But you told Uncle Elias this…this plague could come back anytime! I heard you!”
Cursing herself for her loose lips, Ciara presses on. “I did. It’s a possibility, I won’t lie to you. But it’s not a certainty. And you like playing with Domhnall and being a big sister, don’t you?”
“But Domhnall could die too!”, she whines, followed by yet more tears. Ciara sighs. She has sympathy for her daughter, truly she does, and she does want to comfort her, but what is she supposed to tell her? It’s not like she doesn’t share Órlaith’s fears. She doesn’t understand why the Watcher would do something like this, and that makes it difficult to fathom whether She might finish what She started, or whether this is the herald of something worse.
None of those thoughts are things her daughter needs to hear right now, so she decides to try a different tactic.
“All of us could die any day”, she says gently. Maybe affirming the girl’s fears will help. “But we can’t dwell on that. I am with child, and if it is to survive, I will need you to be very good and help me. Can you do that?”
“You know how exhausted I was in the later months when I was carrying Gráinne? It will be like that again. I’ll need you to keep an eye on Domhnall then, and to be very good and lend a hand around the house. Do you think you could do that? It would help me greatly.”
For a moment, Órlaith still looks unsure, and Ciara wonders if she was wrong after all, but then her daughter nods determinedly. “Yes, Mother. I can do that.”
“That’s my girl.” Ciara presses a kiss to her hair, and then hugs her tightly. Órlaith will have to grow up eventually; it’s just as well that she start now. After what she witnessed, Ciara isn’t sure she’ll ever look at life the same way again, anyway.
Terrible as facing these things is, once everyone in the family knows of the pregnancy and has had time to adjust to the news, life returns to its usual rhythm. True to her word, Órlaith throws herself into her chores with newfound determination, not only around the house, but also on the fields. It’s much to ask of an eight-year-old girl, but she seems to realize that a good harvest is vital to them having enough to eat, which in turn will increase her sibling’s chances of survival.
Once, Ciara even overhears her giving the hens a talking-to about how it’s their duty to lay plenty of eggs, so they have a surplus they can trade with. It makes her giggle so much that she has to step back from the window to avoid her daughter catching her eavesdropping.
While Elias and Órlaith are tending to the outdoor work, Ciara, slowly recovering from her initial pregnancy nausea, busies herself with keeping the house in order and seeing to Domhnall. He is still very quiet for a boy his age, but Ciara’s gentle encouragements and Órlaith’s persistent attempts to include him in her games are most certainly bearing fruit. At times, he is even the one to seek them out to show them something or talk to them! And he seems to prefer being near them as they work, which is a relief onto itself. No child should watch their entire family die, but Ciara has every hope that he will develop into a fine young man regardless, Watcher willing.
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