This is such a weird post to make and I don’t know if anyone cares.
I’ve more or less decided to move on from this account.
The answer as to why is pretty long.
This account, while it holds so much of me and so many great memories, has so many stains on it. I’m at a point that I want to move forward and not feel weighed down by the painful things that have happened on here.
I don’t know how many of you know about my struggle with my mental health. I have pmdd, which is like pms except more severe. Due to the effects of pmdd, I struggle with depression, anxiety, mood swings, extreme anger, and other severe things that I don’t want to mention here.
I can count at least five people I’ve fought with because of my pmdd. Five people. Five people that I can’t fix things with. Five people that I can never resolve things with.
It’s heartbreaking to me to know that I cause so much damage and hurt, mostly because I feel damaged and hurt. I make up stories in my head that aren’t true, I feel worthless, I feel hopeless and I hate myself so much that I want to destroy myself in whatever way possible.
When I look back at what I’ve done, I feel ashamed. I’ve taken steps to try to better myself so I don’t hurt more people. I still struggle but I’m trying my best to not let it ruin my life and hurt others.
This account is also where I’ve had people hurt me. I’ve been lied to, stalked, manipulated and sexually harassed. It always amazes me when I realized that I’m more affected by these things than I ever thought I was.
I had such a good speech in my head but I’ve forgotten most of it.
To put things shortly. I want to move on to a new chapter and I won’t be on this blog anymore. At least while I try to recover more.























