A MESS

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[tracker14]

Never felt more alone.

Everyone said they'll be there.

But they disappear.

Force to smile, to meet people i don't want to meet, act the way i need to be

When i'm reluctant to do so.

So where is my place?

Where can I be my true self?

I have no words when both of you argue in front of me

I tried to leave.

I tried my best to get away from this mess

Unlike the other, i'm forced to stay because i'm not good enough

Mentally tortured.

When i raised my voice i'm rude

When you do things i don't like, i need to endure

When i open up,

You told me to brush it off.

I'm not allowed to feel sad about petty things.

And my life is full with petty things.

I smile because it's rare to be able to.

And if that moment allows me to smile, i wouldn't hide that.

Fck you all that say you care

Fck you for saying "everyone have their own problems", "all of us look happy outside but not inside"

I don't get to eat with people because i'm second to none.

I'll be their companion when they have no one.

I gave up.

Gave up lurking for love i know i don't deserve.

Running away is easier. Always is. I don't care who i hurt because none of you care about me.

[tracker14]

After a long hiatus. 08062018

[hplyrikz]

[thisisme-noah]

dear you

[tracker14]

I'm sorry i'm rude. But, i learnt from the best.

[tracker14]

Selamat tahun baru! Happy new year! We are surprised by the news today. A girl we thought being kidnapped was actually safe with his boyfriend. So, upon that, lets learn. Learn the lesson. Don't just mock her around. Bcause, thing like this could happen to anyone. Don't hurt her mentally. Lagi pun, kita pun ada salah. Kenapa ada remaja mcm ni? Sebab takde siapa nk fahamkan dia. Tiada yang nak betul² nasihat. Wallahualam.

[jvkeryvn]

Reblog if you're a nobody on Tumblr but you're still very proud of your blog.

[aesthesicksloth]

[d-magx]

كلامك لا يعني شيئا عندما تكون أفعالك هي عكس ذلك “Your words mean nothing when your actions are the opposite.”

Translated by bandar-khader (via aqiilaah)

[tracker14]

Blood

Hari ini dia jog macam biasa keliling sungai. Heartless macam biasa juga. Lagu yang didengar, masih dalam lingkungan playlist dia yang biasa. Habis 3 pusingan berlari dan 1 pusingan berjalan untuk cool down, dia berdiri membuang pandangan pada tasik di depannya. Tenang tak berkocak. Macam muka dia. "Aris, jom jog!" Bahagia Yamin mengajak. "Aku dah jog tiga round dah. Jog la, kau." Aris senyum memandang Yamin. "Jahatnya. Lain kali tunggu la aku. Kesian aku ceni" Yamin memuncungkan mulut. "Tak kesian. Sikit pun tak" Aris senyum. Yamin lari satu pusingan dan berhenti lalu berdiri sebelah Aris. "Apa la yang kau tenungkan sampai nak terbelah tasik tu, aku tengok" Yamin bergurau. Aris masih diam. Yamin tenung Aris. Tangan dia kini cuba menggegarkam badan Aris. "Huh? Bila kau habis jog?" Aris terkedu. "Dah lama dah. Kau tu yang termenung sampai tak ingat dunia" yamin senyum segaris. "Kalau ada masalah, cerita. Kalau tak ada, jangan nampak macam banyak masalah" Yamin senyum sambil turut membuang pandang ke arah tasik didepannya. "Kau tau tak? Hidup ni tak lama?" Aris bertanya. Yamin pandang muka Aris lama². Apa punya soalan la budak ni tanya. "Tau" sepatah Yamin jawab. "Katakan, kalau kau mati, esok, menyesal tak?" Aris tanya lagi. Yamin senyum. Dia membuka mulut untuk jawab soalan tu. Tiba², Aris rebah. Darah keluar dari telinganya. Aris tersenyum kelat mengingatkan peristiwa 3 tahun lepas. Yamin.

[tracker14]

Kita ni manusia, memang pelupa. Jadi, saya nak ingatkan kembali. Tiada apa² alasan pun yang boleh nak 'justify'kan dosa yang kita buat. Paham? Sebab dosa, tetap dosa. Itu peraturannya. Bila kau kena maki, terima dengan hati yang terbuka. Mungkin itu kafarah dosa kau. Jangan nak buat cerita sedih pasal 'orang tak paham'. Takkan ada seorang makhluk pun yang ujian dia sama. Jadi, siapa je yang boleh betul² paham? So, in the end, sepatutnya, tak kisah la susah mana pun, kau tak patut bagi alasan and keep on buat dosa yang sama. Susah? Indeed memang susah. Tapi, kalau kau benar CINTA pada DIA, bukan ke, 'lautan api sanggup ku renangi', 'bukit bukau sanggup ku daki', dan 'i'll take a bullet for You'. And people, ayat² ni hanya sesuai untuk CINTA ALLAH AZZAWAJALLA. Bukan cinta manusia. Barangkali, penulis ayat² ini sebenarnya ingin tujukan pada Tuhan. Wallahualam

[tracker14]

Love❤❤

Bismillah. Before i proceed towards my title, it's very crucial for you guys to be open minded. To be honest, i'm the kind of person who aren't really into this love stuff. I just don't easily fall in love. And even if i do, i can forget the feeling easily. So, this isn't about me. I just thought how can someone fell in love? Well, you found someone very interesting and fall in love right away after a few meet. Hmmm. That's very.. i don't know, perhaps fairytale? So, my second thought is, why does people really confident that they will eventually marries their girl/boyfriend? For god sakes, you can't. You can't be too confident. Save your love for 'the one'. Anyway, I'm too lazy to proceed with what i really am saying. So, bye for now

[tracker14]

Don't make a promise that you cannot keep.

[tracker14]

Double standard between me and him

[tracker14]

That's why i said.. I am better off without you. Because your presence do not change many things though.

[tracker14]

Dah kalau semua nak pressure.. Siapa yang nak mendengar. Dan kalau mengeluh sikit kena cop munafik.. Mana pengharapan yang tinggal? Dan kalau semua usaha untuk berubah tu orang masih kata kita tak berubah... Mana pushing force utk kembali bangkit? Mana? Aku tau syurga itu dijanjikan. Tapi, aku pun hamba marhaen. Manusia biasa. Mana bisa berjalan sndiri. Sedang nabi pun ada khadijah dan abu bakar.

[tracker14]

There's more than what caught the eyes.

[tracker14]

Salah siapa? Aku tk pernah jejak hidup bercinta bercouple jadah. Dan salah siapa kalau aku terjebak sbb kwn sejantina ketepikan aku? Salah siapa? Deyd tunduk. Tak pernah pun dia terlintas nk bercinta sbb masih belum tiba masanya. Tp dh kalau.. A little flaw can wrecked ur whole friendship.. Siapa yg tk sakit kepala kan? Sayu dia memandang Nawal terbaring atas katil wad. Entah apa yg jd masa dia dengan Nawal pergi mid haritu. Dibuatnya Nawal tu demam teruk. "Hey, its been a while huh?" Sorang perempuan dengan baju sleevless indiana hemp tegur dia. "Whatever" nawal tak ambil pusing. Malas nk memandang tuan punya muka. "It's not that hard to say hi, kan?" Add senyum. "It's not that hard to say sorry right?" Muka nawal pucat tk beriak. Kalau ditoreh muka dia waktu ni.. Tak keluar darah gamaknya. Dan esoknya, Nawal demam. Sampai hari ni tak kebah2.

[alwanizolkifli]

Random.

[tracker14]

Tiada yg benar melainkan yg benar belaka