Never felt more alone.
Everyone said they'll be there.
But they disappear.
Force to smile, to meet people i don't want to meet, act the way i need to be
When i'm reluctant to do so.
So where is my place?
Where can I be my true self?
I have no words when both of you argue in front of me
I tried to leave.
I tried my best to get away from this mess
Unlike the other, i'm forced to stay because i'm not good enough
Mentally tortured.
When i raised my voice i'm rude
When you do things i don't like, i need to endure
When i open up,
You told me to brush it off.
I'm not allowed to feel sad about petty things.
And my life is full with petty things.
I smile because it's rare to be able to.
And if that moment allows me to smile, i wouldn't hide that.
Fck you all that say you care
Fck you for saying "everyone have their own problems", "all of us look happy outside but not inside"
I don't get to eat with people because i'm second to none.
I'll be their companion when they have no one.
I gave up.
Gave up lurking for love i know i don't deserve.
Running away is easier. Always is. I don't care who i hurt because none of you care about me.














