Can't believe it's taken me over 12 years to realise my partner lied to me about some pretty foundational things at the start of our relationship. Now I'm worried that he's been lying about other stuff too. I'm worried I'm omitting the truth on things as well. Like, I did somethings I'm not proud of over lockdown and any attempt to talk about it with him has put up barriers but as soon as I start to take defensive action to sort out what happened between us he either just refuses to talk about it or suddenly kicks it this mode where he's gonna make everything okay. He on every occasion that he's claimed he's going to fix things has not. He also didn't just say he didn't like my friends, he said that they were annoying in a way he couldn't stand and would never be able to get. This is the man who spent the first 10 years of our relationship literally refusing to thrust during sex and being scared of hurting me when I was literally begging for him to do just that and I have stayed through this soft boy 'they are all so mean to me.' bullshit. Look at yourself, let me stay grounded, or if you don't like my grounding, then please, I need to fuck off.

















