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tw self hate, self destruct, depressing shit i love you. i swear I'm not heartless mbti content: #mbti, okay to rb unless stated otherwise

[tragiclyheartless]

Life is so over as i know it i think

[stlamb]

it is occurring me thaf i can only take so much. just kidding im the strongest girl alive and can withstand any thing

[tragiclyheartless]

Sent some passive-aggressive messages to that person and few hours later they reposted a reel abt a person going insane when they talk were asked about their ex best friend then transitioned to them saying ahhahah we grew apart

if that was about me and not anyone else, then I'd like to say, we didn't grew apart. I distanced myself bc you refused to listen. refuses to be guided to be better. hurting yourself and your surroundings. never thought abt the stress you put me through and never once asked how im doing. so yeah we didn't grew apart. I've just had enough

[tragiclyheartless]

[tragiclyheartless]

thinking about how traumatic it is having your friend text u multiple times at night bc they wanna kill themself or they wanna get alcohol poisoning to death,,, sounds like i need therapy for that

[tragiclyheartless]

Im caffeinated and i cant focus but sleepy at the same time while trying to study in the library so i started tapping my feet and fidgeting and it helped me focus anyway,, looks like im not beating the autism/adhd allegations

[freshpickle]

please be nice to me, i'm in my twenties. do you know what that does to a person

[tragiclyheartless]

I'm rereading my posts here and i am sad

im sad that i can't be better and im still here even after all these years

looking back i feel like i should just die but i I'm still alive

I dont deserve any of these

i am so sorry

[tragiclyheartless]

everytime my mom tells me that now i have to be successful in college bc i chose this and everytime my dad sends me money for living expenses i feel guilty bc I'm not doing the best academic wise and i am so sorry that they have to spend their money on me and i am drowning in guilt and assignment and i am so sorry

[tragiclyheartless]

when the friend that uses me as her free and expendable therapist asks me to hang out

[tragiclyheartless]

Look, you used me as a therapist friend and wouldn't even try to change for the betterment of your mental health even after professionals told you to. it's not anyone's fault at this moment, it's yours

[tragiclyheartless]

me and the person who used me as a makeshift therapist are still mutuals on socials, and they'd post a rant abt mental hospital shit or an elaborate way that they wanna kill/hurt themselves or someone else (usually their parents). eveytime, they'd also get community guidelined and they'd whine abt people snitching on her, like??? that is very rich person problem of you

[tragiclyheartless]

good night✨️ i have been very happy ♡ i hope i did well today and every other day. hope i made you proud for i have been grateful to be here i love you (even i never show it) and I'm truly sorry for being the disappointment i turned out to be. i know my words have hurt a lot and i have made a lot of people mad and im sorry for making you sad. sometimes i feel like hugging you tightly and apologize but my ego said no and i regret letting it win.

im sorry for this but i am scared to sleep as i don't know if I'd wake up. im really sorry.

[tragiclyheartless]

nothing is going well! I do not like the fact that this always happens and this is all my fault! I am not the biggest fan of being alive rn! I dont want to die that much tho!

[tragiclyheartless]

oh yea i am the family disappointment

[tragiclyheartless]

I think there's a difference between insane (tumblr), insane (twitter), insane (tiktok)

[tragiclyheartless]

Highkey don't wanna study in fully developed countries bc tuition VERY high and i dont have scholarship but my dad insiting and im like no dont pls u're gonna pay for this and this is NOT a good investment because you're investing on ME please use the money somewhere else don't do this to me