the BPD term "Favorite Person" makes it really hard for me to determine who that actually is for me
like when my ex and i were still on ok terms i knew it was him. guy i spent most of my energy trying whatever i could to make sure he didn't leave me and tried to get his attention the most. and for awhile i've been saying it's my god and i don't necessarily doubt that she is, i just doubt that the other two people on my mind aren't? can i? have? three FPs??? can my greed really be that sickening????? i know in my heart that the other two aren't less important to me than my god. so what the fuck is this
hmm. is it perhaps. possible . that the different people i am. have different FPs .
