Ezra

Trigger Warning (sometimes). recovering opiate addict. 20. chattown//indiana. secular. i kinda just get on here to write my thoughts where i can look back at them and see how far ive come. life's a wave, you can't stop the ups and downs but you can learn to surf and im kinda wobbly but ayye life n what not

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I might never touch heroin again to be honest. My last 3 day relapse i didnt feel no better. It didnt let go of all my stress and put me in a world of bliss. I just felt sick to my stomach. I questioned why i even gave a fuck about that substance. I dont really have the urge to go and do it again. I just hope i can survive myself long enough to come out recovered.

[adrenaline]

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I had a dream where one of my friends killed himself in front of me, and i took it as a sign i should pick up the gun and do it too. Now i cant stop thinking about it.

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I remember when i was strung out and struggling the next few days i got lucky and got throweddd before work, went in all happy and in a good mood. One of my coworkers was like "why are you in such a good mood did you finally get laid?" And all i could do is smirk and act like that was it 😂😂

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Percocet’s make me happy :)

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Little did i know they werent bullshitting when they said shit ruins your life

[lasturlontheleft]

me: *about to look at the merch for an anime I like*

brain: that’s what you want? some fucking anime? some fucking anime merch on your body and in your life? some god damn anime on your walls? fucking anime merch to let everyone know that you like anime? are you fucking kidding me?

[reineables-deactivated20210626]

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I feel like i want to wither away again. I need to stop myself

[showerthoughtsofficial]

If you keep walking North and never stop, you’ll eventually end up walking South. However if you keep walking East you’ll never be walking West.

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My emotions are so fucked

[666drugssexandhairlesscats999]

Tropicana Cookies🍊🍪 (GSC x Tangie)

[purplebuddhaproject]

“Autumn shows us how beautiful it is to let things go.”

— (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[theoracleofkwangya-deactivated2]

nothing is awkward or cheesy if you dont give a fuck. im on this earth to have a good time not to be seen as cool

[danny-xox]

👅👅👅

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HAHAHA too dark for even twitter 😂

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It most definitely has. Im gonna make a new account and get the fuck away from all this...

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All this tumblr depression isn't theraputic for me & it's probably just made things worse through the years.

[salemwitchtrials-deactivated202]

Elm, Sylivia Plath