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The gentle touch Kaworu provided was soothing, and Shinji felt at ease and warmed by it. He was surprised by himself that he did not remove the hand, that he did not yell, that he did not reject the touch. But how could he? The touch was so nice, and Shinji was so thirsty for any sort of the thing.

When Kaworu took his hand and kissed his palm, Shinji blushed deeply. It was an incredibly warm sensation and he could feel himself melting. Red eyes smiled back at him, and for some reason, Shinji smiled back. Why was he allowing this man to touch him? To smile with him? To kiss him? A small room of confusion ran at the back of Shinji’s find, but he was swept up with other thoughts. Warm thoughts.

"I-it’s nice to meet you to Nagisa-kun" Shinji murmured, not removing his hand.

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'Nagisa-kun'?

Certainly, that was unexpected. Kaworu had thought that Shinji would use another term, considering they were not the same age. Not in this timeline, but if that was what Shinji wished, then the angel would do so. A chuckle came out of his lips before he smiled wider to the boy. As much as he wanted to be in the shore with Shinji right now, they had to move.

Releasing the fingers slowly, the angel returned his hands to his pockets and turned around, only his head still looking at Shinji. The crimson eyes never changing the warmth in them as another chuckle came out of his throat. Truly sinful. The boy didn't know the power he had on others, did he? Still, Kaworu loved him. He had for so long, it was natural to do it.

"Shall we get going, Ikari-kun?"

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He was ashamed to cry in front of this man, but he didn’t really care. The tears continued to flow and he let himself sob. He was afraid, so afraid. He was afraid of the past and present, and what the future could bring. He wanted to run from it all. But where was there to go? Where could he go?

His cries came to a slow. Shinji looked up in surprise. How did the man know what he was so scared of?

Shinji met the man’s eyes. Rei…..Then this was

"Nagisa Kaworu? I…I didn’t recognize you…"

The soft touch of their hands. It was somewhat comforting. Shinji rubbed his eyes.

"I-I see"

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The words caused him inner surprise but the smile remained there. Had Rei talked about him in his absence? Oh, his little sister must have missed him when he was away. And she was as adorable as Shinji. He would have to get back soon to NERV to see her, her state wasn't good but she was still healing.

"I arrived today, but Rei seems to have talked about me with you. It's good to know that."

Still caressing Shinji's hand with his thumbs, Kaworu thought how it would feel touching Shinji's hand with his lips? Would he tremble? Perhaps, but Shinji was beautiful in his shy and nervous behaviour, that way of his to hide from the world. Truly adorable. But at the same time, Kaworu knew he was strong. Shinji could be strong if he allowed himself to be.

Oh, he had thought that holding himself back was good but a small sin would be alright. Wouldn't it? Kissing softly the palm of the boy, Kaworu looked at the blue eyes and smiled. Crimson eyes full of adoration to show to the boy. It had been as soft as he had thought. Surely, this would have repercussions from now on but right now, the angel had no regrets.

"I'm Kaworu. Nagisa Kaworu. It is nice to meet you, Ikari Shinji-kun."

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Ah, that laugh. Shinji could listen to it forever it seemed. He had only just been fighting angels, but now he was by this man’s side, and his laugh was just so wonderful. His whole presence was. Shinji had to hold himself back from staring. What lovely silver hair.

Ah.

Disappointment. This man works with Nerv, doesn’t he? Who else would know his name? Shinji’s face falls a bit. Will this man be another person counting on him, forcing him to pilot Eva?

That’s right. Nothing really was a coincide was it? Was this man going to take him back to Nerv? More tests? Another angel attack? What else could they do to him? Shinji shivered at the thought.

What else could “seeing each other from now on” mean? This was just another person to scream out orders, to keep pushing the great burden that Shinji did not want.

He wanted to scream. He looked to the man. He opened his mouth to yell. Nothing came out. He began to cry.

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How many times he had watched the same expression on this boy? More than he would like to count, all of them caused by his own actions and words. Even now, in their circumstances, he still hurt Shinji. Suddenly, it felt like he was fifteen again and the scenario was one from a very similar seashore.

"We do not have to go back there."

Walking towards Shinji, Kaworu only got closer as his eyes continued showing warmth. Inside, he was desesperately trying to hold himself back together for Shinji's sake. He didn't want to see those beautiful cheeks stained in pain and hurt, much less because had caused him to start crying. Shinji deserved better, much better than him.

"I believe you meet my little sister today, right? Her name is Rei."

Kneeling to be on Shinji's eye level, Kaworu offered his warmth smile as he looked at the boy with adoration. That adoration that was meant for Shinji only. It had been so long since they had seen each other, and he didn't want this meeting to be like this, not when their time could be so short. Moving his hand slowly to touch Shinji's gently, Kaworu smiled.

"I am friend of Misato. How about we introduce ourselves again?"

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Rei!

Happiness.

Brother is here. Brother is at home now.

Giving a nod, Rei stays there quiet as she feels how the usual warmth envelops her quietly. Now that Brother is here, everything is alright. Him and Ikari-kun are the only ones who can make her feel this way. That is how things are. Brother. A soft, gentle and tiny smile appears on the lips of the First Child. Red eyes full of gentleness as she looks at Kaworu.

"Brother."

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"But… Brother, Captain Katsuragi called today. She said something about a dinner reunion."

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"Oh. I see!"

On one hand, there is the possibility of meeting with Shinji-kun. On the other hand, there is Misato's cooking.

"Then, we are staying at home!"

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Rei!

Happiness.

Brother is here. Brother is at home now.

"Brother."

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"Let's go and eat outside! I'll make you a salad, Rei!"

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The man’s voice was…pleasant, to say the least. It had a soft but elegant chime to it. It was soothing. Shinji thought that perhaps this man’s voice was more soothing than the seashore. But it’s not like he would say anything. The man was a stranger, and he was a nobody to him. They would part soon and never see each other again.

That thought…was it comforting too? No…it didn’t really matter. People came in and out of this city, though nowadays they mostly left. It was strange for Shinji to have a conversation with a stranger. It left him wondering why this man was on the beach.

But his eyes, in that brief moment that they exchanged eye contact, his eyes were the most wonderful. Shinji had never seen someone with red eyes before, but they were undoubtedly lovely. Shinji tried not to meet those eyes again - he didn’t want to accept the warmth - but he only found himself looking back like a child hungry for affection. His cheeks remained pink.

"H-how do you know my name?"

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Another melodious laugh was the answer to the question.

It would not be polite to say 'I have known you from a long time.' Would it? The Lilin were quite strange in their behaviors and they reacted in very interesting ways, time with Ritsuko had teach him that. His friend could care for others despite her cold and professional exterior from work. Though, if one showed her a cat, Ritsuko would smile softly.

"Everyone knows your name."

Shinji was truly tempting him to took his face and to kiss those blushed cheeks. What a torture, a sinful torture. Would Shinji tremble or run away from him if he touched his face for a moment? Questions and questions. But Kaworu only smiled, not changing his expression at all as he watched the soft pink in that lovely face. How cute. But this was Shinji he was thinking about.

Could anyone blame him for being slightly sinful around this boy?

"The Third Child. Ikari Shinji. I believe we will be seeing each other from now on."

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So many things could have been going through Shinji’s mind but he felt blank, empty. His thoughts were cold and his soul tired. It wasn’t something that could be remedied by a good night’s sleep, or even a lifetime of sleep. Dark circles outlined under his eyes. He was nauseous to his core. He always felt that way after a fight. It was strange to think that in some ways, the world was still going on while he was in the Eva.

It had been a hard battle. Misato had suggested a medical evaluation for him but he blew it off. He just wanted to get out of headquarters as soon as possible.

So when this man posed the question, Shinji didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. Be frustrated at its simplicity or be calmed by it?

But when he met the man’s red eyes it didn’t really matter to him. Some sort of odd calm washed over him. It didn’t really matter what he answered.

A slight blush came to his face, and without realizing it he began to answer. He nodded.

"Yea. I sometimes come here after battles"

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Kaworu let out another amused, soft chuckle.

"Indeed. Listening to the shore can calm you. I do it from time to time."

Cute as always. If it were for Kaworu, he would lean forward and kiss those blushing cheeks, slowly, caringly, to savor the taste but he knew that Shinji wouldn't like that. The shy behavior told him as much, and it was still adorable. The small boy he had met was a bit taller than before. He wondered how it would sound 'Kaworu-kun' in his voice. Adorable, probably.

But Shinji was still very beautiful. Yet the angel could sense how tired his soul was. The dark circles under his eyes being a sign that sleep had been deprived of the boy. From what Ritsuko had told him the Third Child was under the care of Captain Katsuragi. Misato was not a bad person, but Kaworu wondered in silence if she had noticed the amount of affection the boy needed.

Crimson eyes only continued to give warmth.

"Ikari Shinji-kun."

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Shinji had found his way to the beach after an exhausting hold at Nerv. He was eager to escape the metallic walls and stifling air of order, order, orders. He didn’t know where he wanted to go in the abandoned city, but somehow, he ended up at the seaside. The sun was setting and orange hues flooded the sky. Shinji entered the beach, his shoes digging into the sand. He kicked away a few rocks and stared lifelessly at the waters. What did the world hold for him now? He was just a tool to pilot the Eva and kill angels. Kill, kill, kill. So much blood, so much murder. Shinji shook and hugged his body. He was terrified of another battle. He was terrified of how much each battle took away.

As he traced the seashore, he noticed a humming sound. That was strange. Another person on this beach? Shinji looked up to see who it was.

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A song was good.

The young man kept his hands on the pockets of his robe as a playful smile appeared on his lips, the tone of the 9th Symphony of Beethoven resounding on his throat. Quite impressive the movement of the few days, he would have to check up on Ritsuko when he was back at the head quarters. The report had said that the commander had almost used Rei to pilot Unit 01.

The mere thought of his beloved sister in the infirmary brought a dark gaze in the crimson eyes. Rei did not deserve this but he had been gone, by the Committee's agenda, when the attack had happened in Tokyo-3. The simple thought of Rei with bandages was not a nice one, but the angel decided that now was not the time.

Noticing the presence that was near, Kaworu let out an amused chuckle as he looked at the face of the boy in front of him. Crimson eyes changed instantly to warmth. The Third Child. Shinji. It had been so long since they saw each other.

"Did you to come to listen to the shore, too?"

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