and I see how many times I’ve died. I embrace the next one.
A goodbye, a farewell is coming. it’ll be hard for all of us. it’ll be another suicide of old. it’ll be another birth of new. it is true that I’m longing for it. it is pattering in my veins. it is in my brain, my neurons, it is in every breath I take. I exhale nothing but change, nothing but discomfort, nothing but fear, nothing but love, nothing but hope, nothing but stars. nothing but life.
I’ll catch happiness, like I did it a hundred times before. I know where they keep it. I know where it sleeps. I know he wants another kiss from his lips. I know that cave with a bright ending. I know that hug coming from the sun.
Just like you died for me when you were alive, I’ll give up asking for understanding. I’ll give up asking for what people can’t offer me, once more. I’m good at giving up, remember?
Just let me say that it aches deep, but the train is calling my name. No way I’m gonna miss it. I’m homesick of the land I’ve never been.
This is before the inevitable end.
I’m not sure If I’ll be able to write within these emotions once more.
Be sure I loved you all. I believed in you. I’ll never forget you. Kissing you in agony, letting you go in cold. Although this is not easy, sun won’t let me be sorry. In Philadelphia, It’s always sunny
