Alchemist (AP)

Even we need friends, but the treason I've committed cannot be ever asked for forgiveness.

[trueether]

Give them chocolate..please. 

[revivedheroism]

Tatsumi: I trust love and trust everyone! Everyone deserves a fair chance. Paracelsus: *exists* Tatsumi: MMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMM

[trueether]

revivedheroism 

Today is the worst day.

Has never desired to drink more then this moment. 

[trueether]

Confused of all the hands being held. 

[dawntrailing]

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[dawntrailing]

Fate/Prototype: Fragments of Blue and Silver

The dead cannot return. That which hath passed is forever lost. No matter how great a miracle, It may only affect those who still exist.

[butteryplanet]

[trueether]

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[stealing-your-rhythm]

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[trueether]

unheroical 

 “     It’s strange to have this memory, but the others from the same war seem to retain their memory from it as well… I can’t say why it’s so.

…I knew him for little over a week before his weakened body could take no more after summoning me. He was used as a tool to summon me by the greed of other men. They wanted to use me as they had him. I to be their sword. He was but a child. He deserved a full life. Not hooked up to machines like some kind of battery, …They were the first to die. “ 

“ From what I’ve observed, some memories are just too precious to ever be forgotten...Strange isn’t it...when we are force to be erased and forget events of previous life..but perhaps that is simply a miracle        or a perhaps it is also a curse...

....In the end we are simply tools to be used, but some masters do not see us as such. 

You are correct. A child should deserve a full life, you avenged your master....and the mask...it is the face of you      No, it is the last essence of that child to you.   ...... You are a good friend to that child, Rider. “ 

[trueether]

unheroical

  “     You won’t be happy for very long…           It was a ‘gift’ – no wait… a tool, given to me in the last grail war I was in.           My master died in the clutches of evil men… This mask serves as a surrogate.           It stores mana that it siphons from– humans I’ve killed which it pours back into           me. “

“  I see.......        So the mask is in essence a part of your old master, then you are one of the few of us who still retrain their memories of their old masters.                               Was your previous master precious to you, rider? “

[trueether]

unheroical 

   “     The answer isn’t pretty.             Are you sure you want to hear it? ”

“ I suspect as much that it would not be pretty words, but if you will allow me to hear it, then I would be happy to listen. “ 

[trueether]

unheroical  

    “     It’s a rather rowdy bunch that tend to make such demands of me.              The sort of type that I wouldn’t be surprised if they try to force it               off of me one day. Not that it would matter. It’s likely they wouldn’t               know me by my face either way.                                                                     It’s better that way.”

“ Our new home is quite the rowdy type of crew. Many are curious and I suppose I would be no better with your words, but I also respect that you wear the mask for reasons,       so may I ask    what is the importance of your mask? It cannot simply be for reasons like the Hassans assassins mask. “    “

[trueether]

kamangir

   “Careful, Caster. I don’t need…” A glance down; casual, medical appraisal of his situation. A mortal blow for a man, but for a Servant? Sure, this could be fixed.. “Intestines, or blood, to fire a bow.”

Lowers self before to seek eyes level with Archer, tucking back strand of hair behind ear. “ Then shall I take it that if you need neither to continue on functioning, that you are refusing my offer to aid you? “

[trueether]

kamangir :

   “Whoops.” Messed up. Messed up bad.

“ That is quite the stella’r’ wound you’ve acquired there, Archer. “

[trueether]

unheroical

       “     It’s hard to keep such a mindset when practically everyone I meet                 more often than not, demands I remove it..”

“  Yes, perhaps it is quite troublesome that all request for you to remove it,  but in the end,                          the mask is your choosing to remove or not and those whom request it must     respect such of your wishes.  “  

[trueether]

unheroical :

        “     I just can’t help but wonder…                   Is it truly wrong to keep this mask on?                 I feel as if it’s my last tether separating this ghost of what                 I have become from the purity of who I used to be…                                           It’s not as if I’m the same man anyway...”

“ Forgive me for intruding on your words, Rider.   If the mask gives you comfort the is it so wrong that you wish to keep it on? “

[trueether]

Paracelsus guilt does not only exceed towards Misaya, it’s also factored towards others. ( Jekyll, Serenity, Arthur, Tatsumi. )  Manaka may have been able to charm him to her side, but it did not mean he was not conscious at the very least of what was happening and actions that he had been performing, even if he was unwilling.  

The Grail war broke really  him, Fate grand Order makes that very clear in the room conversation, he may act normal but his words just say so much to how much that war had done to him psychologically. 

He wants to be forgiven so badly, but he also keeps holding onto the guilt he feels, because Paracelsus truly believes that WHAT he had done cannot be so easily forgiven, even if others do forgive him. Somehow he’s just come to painfully accept that he cannot be forgiven at this point anymore that he just acts as normal as possible, smiling a hallow one that it’s just so distant it’s practically soulless.