Truelee Lovelee

I joined Tumblr because of the weight loss inspiration and because I'm obsessed with the before and after photos...eventually I would like to get there myself. 💗 New Start Date: 01.01.2019, SW: 170, CW: 160, GW: 145 💗 🌸 Original Start date: 11.21.16, Height: 5'10", SW: 223, First GW: 160✅, GW2: 145✅ LW: 141.8🌸

[trueleelovelee]

The graphic design on this is 💯. I ❤ it.

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03.08.2019

Sometimes I still feel like killing myself. I'm pretty sure I should.

[trueleelovelee]

02.25.2019

I'm feeling really bad about myself. I feel super fat. I'm scared out of my mind because I started a different version of my antidepressants today, and I don't want to gain any weight. I have binged the last two days after my vacation. I didn't exercise today. I'm scared I won't ever have the willpower to get to where I want to be. I'm filled with self doubt. I kind of hate who I am because I should have the willpower to get to where I want to be; I am an adult, not a toddler. I feel stupid and incapable. I feel ugly. I want to spend a bunch of money on clothes that I don't need with money I don't have- another example of my impulsiveness although this I can and do control. Small win. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I don't know how to change my thought processes. I'm tired and don't get enough sleep. I stay up later than I should for no apparent reason besides the fact that I don't want to go to sleep. Maybe there's a reason I don't want to go to sleep because I have nightmares every time I do. I wish I was normal. I wish that I was odd enough to embrace my eccentricities and express them. I was I could consolidate who I am and who I know I could be. I wish I could cleanse myself of everything that's holding me back but can't. I'm the only one that's holding me back. I wish I could cleanse myself of myself.

Rant over. I'm glad that I got to the heart of my anxiety though.

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the first five emotes on your recently used emojis describe you as a person ready set go

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🤣😂😊😉😕 Haha, story of my life.

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02.12.2019

There's about 20 lbs in between these photos. Before at around 140 and now at 160. I thought it would be interesting to compare. The left is July 2017 and the right from this evening. I'm actually a little impressed that it isn't hugely different because it feels that way. I kind of idolize my body before and I hate the one I currently have. I'm doing good with being consistent though. Day 5 down. It's always the first two weeks that are the most difficult. I can do this. I will stay dedicated and consistent. There's no reason I can't get back down to 140. I'm feeling good that I'm exercising again even if it's been less than a week. I'm feeling better already, and really, it's one day at a time. Each moment of good decision making is forward momentum. I shouldn't downplay it, but instead let it inspire me to continue making good decisions. I know I can do this.

[beforeandafterweightloss]

@johnboy5933 submitted:  I started this journey almost 6 months ago and was 237 pounds, I’m currently at 183 pounds and have never felt better. More Before & After pics HERE, or SEND in yours.  JOIN our newsletter for tips and exclusive content. New INSTAGRAM 😁 ❓ How’s he looking? Any before body doubles out there? ✅ Reblog and Like if he should be proud.

[trueleelovelee]

Damn. That's amazing progress!

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Catch & Release (Deepend Remix) - Matt Simons

Perfect song this morning to finish my workout. I used to listen to it all the time at my fittest.

[trueleelovelee]

Same fatness but I started exercising again. Day 4. Lol. I'm feeling like I can make this a habit again. I've been paying for a gym membership for months and haven't gone once because of my anxiety. I'm going to brave it tomorrow. Good luck to me...

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12 Steps For Self Care

If it feels wrong, don’t do it

Say exactly what you mean

Don’t be a people pleaser

Trust your instincts 

Never speak bad about yourself

Never give up on your dreams

Don’t be afraid to say “no”

Don’t be afraid to say “yes”

Be KIND to yourself

Let go of what you can’t control

Stay away from drama & negativity

LOVE

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01.09.19

First win of the day has been resisting the urge to get a breakfast burrito from my favorite coffee shop. Yay! 🤣

[trueleelovelee]

Are we crazy?

Livin' our lives through a lens

Trapped in our white picket fence

Like ornaments

So comfortable, we're livin' in a bubble, bubble

So comfortable, we cannot see the trouble, trouble

Aren't you lonely

Up there in utopia

Where nothing will ever be enough?

Happily numb

So comfortable, we're livin' in a bubble, bubble

So comfortable, we cannot see the trouble, trouble

Ah, so good

Your rose-colored glasses on

And party on (woo)

Turn it up, it's your favorite song

Dance, dance, dance to the distortion

Turn it up, keep it on repeat

Stumblin' around like a wasted zombie

Yeah, we think we're free

Drink, this one's on me

We're all chained to the rhythm

To the rhythm, to the rhythm

Turn it up, it's your favorite song

Dance, dance, dance to the distortion

Turn it up, keep it on repeat

Stumblin' around like a wasted zombie

Yeah, we think we're free

Drink, this one's on me

We're all chained to the rhythm

To the rhythm, to the rhythm

Are we tone deaf?

Keep sweepin' it under the mat

Thought we could do better than that

I hope we can

So comfortable, we're livin' in a bubble, bubble

So comfortable, we cannot see the trouble, trouble

Aha, so good (so good)

Your rose-colored glasses on

And party on (woo)

Turn it up, it's your favorite song

Dance, dance, dance to the distortion

Turn it up, keep it on repeat

Stumblin' around like a wasted zombie

Yeah, we think we're free

Drink, this one's on me

We're all chained to the rhythm

To the rhythm, to the rhythm

Turn it up, it's your favorite song (oh)

Dance, dance, dance to the distortion

Turn it up, keep it on repeat

Stumblin' around like a wasted zombie

Yeah, we think we're free

Drink, this one's on me

We're all chained to the rhythm

To the rhythm, to the rhythm (woah)

It is my desire

Break down the walls to connect, inspire

Ay, up in your high place, liars

Time is ticking for the empire

The truth they feed is feeble

As so many times before

The greed over the people

They stumblin' and fumblin' and we're about to riot

They woke up, they woke up the lions (woah)

Turn it up, it's your favorite song (hey)

Dance, dance, dance to the distortion

Turn it up (turn it up), keep it on repeat

Stumbling around like a wasted zombie (like a wasted zombie)

Yeah, we think we're free (ah)

Drink, this one's on me (ah)

We're all chained to the rhythm (we're all)

To the rhythm, to the rhythm (we're all chained to the rhythm)

It goes on, and on, and on 

It goes on, and on, and on (turn it up, it goes on and on and on and on)

It goes on, and on, and on (on and on and on it goes)

'Cause we're all chained to the rhythm

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“I am both worse and better than you thought.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals Of Sylvia Plath (via books-n-quotes)