I lie here looking at the sky, but not seeing anything, my eyes may as well be closed.
I remember nothing, there is an empty aching void where I know things should be, but now, now there is nothing. It concerns me, it worries me, but something in me says panic won't help, panic won't keep me and others safe.
Why am I worried about others?
I'm not sure but I know like I know that I have hands and feet and eyes and ears that being concerned and protective of others is part of who I am.
I'm not alone in my mind. That sounds like madness, but I feel something in me, like me, but primal, a predator, a powerful force of nature. No, not natural, supernatural.
There is my other in side me as well, and I know that it is the wolf part of me. How I know this, I don't know, it's instinctive, like breathing, like seeing and understanding the sky is blue. It's not a concious thought, but part of me and I know him and he knows me and we protect everyone together, that is our bond, that is how I can call on his/my strength.
I'm one of the strongest of my kind, but I don't rule by strength. I don't force my will on others. I ask, I lead, I hope for a better tomorrow and others follow with me. Again, these are not memories, or concious thoughts beyond a growing understanding, they are part of my core, part of who I am. Who I am going to be again, even without memories of where I come from.
I lift my hand to my eye level and flex my fingers, I feel strength in them, and hidden danger, ready to be called upon. I know the shift is there to be called if I need it, an instinctive ingrained response.
Sitting up, I don't feel sore or tired or groggy, what ever happened, it is like waking from a dream, I look around me and see other prone forms lying on the ground, something twinges in me past memory as I see some of the faces, but I can't recall who they are, or how they are connected to me, but I still want to protect them.
I pull myself to my feet, and turn slowly, taking in the meadow like space we are in, the massive wall I can see in the distance that seems to circle everything. Trees, flowers, grass, the scents are familiar, but foreign, like know what grass smells like, but smelling it in a new place for the first time.
There are buildings, maybe buildings is to strong, huts, cabins, around the place as well, from one a dark haired girl emerges and comes towards the group, I feel something pull inside me as I see her face, but it's confusing, almost indecipherable.
I look at her and I say "Hello... Hello, my name is Scott." I'm surprised at that, I didn't know my own name, but then I said it, like knowing how to do a handshake, and I know that it's me. It makes me smile for a moment.