He Is The Light

No longer broken

[wnq-writers]

“I Involuntarily and Uncontrollably Giggle and Titter when I see your Message”

— Writers

[wnq-writers]

“I think one of my favorite feelings is laughing with someone and realizing half way through how much you enjoy them and their existence.”

— unknown | @wnq-unknown

[truest-wishes]

That's the thing though, isn't it? You came into my life when I needed it the most, and I fell for you instantly. Now I have this constant fear that you are forever going to think that you're just a 'rebound' when in reality, you mean so much more to me; more than I thought was possible. Never have I thought of you as a 'rebound'. You are the love of my life - and I wholeheartedly believe that. I don't think I could ever get luckier - you are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

// excerpt from a book I will never show you // To Xuan, I love you. // 1:53a.m.

[shed-n-shine]

[truest-wishes]

I thought i knew what real pain felt like - after the chaos you put me through, after all those empty promises, broken wishes and invisible 'i love you's, i really thought I had known the true essence of pain; but I didn't.

// until i saw the way you looked at her // 12:49AM

[truest-wishes]

Nobody understood how much i loved him.

// not even him // 5:06PM

[wnq-writers]

The most beautiful dream of you now is just a nightmare.

domfnd (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

I cry in silence.
 I miss you in silence. 
I love you in silence. 
You can’t handle my noise.

aashiquidreams (via wnq-writers)

[peachesandcoffee]

i used to wait. wait every second for a maybe wait every day for something uncertain i used to wait for him. always waiting for the day he’ll say “i’m over it” the day future plans get fullfiled i hate waiting. waiting for him to say “let’s go together today” to make sure he got home safely. waiting for the day he’s ready. the day it doesn’t him hurt anymore. but all i got was “i like you but i’m sorry,” that turned into “she’s my new dream”

something you do that you no longer do (via peachesandcoffee)

[fairytales-arent-real-here]

[wnq-writers]

I don’t really know what’s hurting me more, losing you or never really having you.

Nidhi Bhasin (via wnq-writers)

[truest-wishes]

Of all the people that had to hurt me, why in God's name did it have to be you?

// You're still on my mind // A.K.

[truest-wishes]

We sat and talked for hours about marriage, and kids, and what it would be like to finally break the distance. What do I do with all of the forgotten 'i love you's, and'i miss you's? Of course I can't let go of them, but I don't want to keep them either. How the hell do you go from naming children to 'i hope you have a good life'? How the hell do you go from talking to each other every single second of the day to not even being able to even fucking look at a picture of you because it hurts too damn fucking much? Where do I find it in me to love someone else when I am still madly in love with you? Because it was always you. From 12 in the morning to 12 in the afternoon, it was you, you, you. How dare you rip my heart out like that? You didn't fucking deserve me. So fuck you.

// "just because i wasn't the best for you doesn't mean i'm not the best. It means you weren't the best for me" // 7:58PM

[truest-wishes]

They say "wait for the guy who opens the car door for you, who listens, who isn't afraid to show how he really feels, etc" but what if he's already here; waiting outside your door but he just doesn't get your heart racing, your blood rushing? What if he's the right guy but you're just too broken to let him in? What then?

// Excerpt from a book i will never tell you about // 1:33PM

[truest-wishes]

I know you can't read these words, and you probably never will; but I need to let it out somehow, even if they never reach your eyes. You broke me in every single way possible. You hurt me in a way no object, armory or person ever could. You are seared into my heart and mind and no matter how hard i try, the memory of you wont let me go - let me go, baby. You got your way, didn't you? You got me, you made me fall for you, you burnt me and then you left. You left me in the ashes of our relationship - ruined. If you're wondering, no, i do not want you back. But don't you ever dare think that I didn't or don't love you. Because i do. And i think i always will. You're my person. You're my person. You're my person. I've said that a hundred times over the course of our broken yet beautifully crafted relationship and I'll say it a hundred times more - because that's what you are. You; are my person. Don't you ever forget that. I loved you then. I love you now. As i promised. To the moon. To all the galaxies. To infinity and beyond. And beyond that. Your princess forever.

// a.k. Letters to the boy who broke my heart #1 // 4:37AM

[truest-wishes]

No. You know what, 'babe'? You fucked up my entire life. You turned me into this untrusting, scared, hurt, cold shell of the girl i was before. You made it so hard for me to fall in love because you came into my life, told me you loved me, promised me everything and then you fucking left. You can't do that to someone. You can't invade everything that I am and then leave. It fucking hurts and I am so angry. I'm angry because you SWORE you'd stick it out and make things okay and right but you left. So i'm not sad, I'm angry; i walk around with all this rage caged up inside me and one day I'm gonna explode and I don't know how to make it stop.

// you fucked up my life and I still love you // 1:59AM

[truest-wishes]

To the girl who will love him next; Remember that he's insecure - although he has no reason to be. So you have to constantly remind him of how great he is; because he's great. He really is. Remember that when he's mad, leave him alone for a while. He's a broken soul that needs time. But he'll come around eventually, you just need to give him some space. Remember that his passion is music and thats all he's ever wanted to pursue; his music. He wants to share his love for music with the world so please never ever try and stop him. He's not the best conversationalist but he's an amazing listener. He'll be your shoulder to cry on and your pillar of strength. You can always rely on him if you wake up, screaming in the middle of the night from a bad dream. He has this huge heart and a soul crafted by the Gods and oh my God will you love him. You'll love him so much. More than you ever thought you could love anyone. Keep him safe for me. He's a little reckless but he'll protect you. From anyone and anything and you'll never feel safer. You are going to have so much fun with him, doing the simplest of things. And trust me when i say this, if you have him, don't you ever let him go. Cause if you do, you'll never recover. Take it from someone who has loved and lost him.

// Love him. Love him for me. Take care of his heart for me. For us. I wish you all the happiness in the world. Goodbye, Sweetheart. I hope she makes you happy // 6:50PM //