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i am going to work on a New Pinned Post

but for now. uh.

hi im lillie. im 23. im obsessed with dr robotniks ring racers and homestuck. im a trans woman and my penis is MASSIVE like its at least 7 times the size of yours.

that last parts not true.

i like dave strider and karkat. i would die for them. (:33 < hi im nepeta and im literally in love with karkat)

i dont recommend being cis in my presence. could get pretty ugly.

i occasionally share music im working on with my tag #puppy music

if you are more experienced with music stuff...i would appreciate advice and such, as i am Very Early in my Learning.

nsfw blog is...out there...in the cosmos....

so its mostly a blog for me to talk about plurality and stuff these days but im also gonna post bullshit.

#puppy music #other tags will some day be added if i use them

i think any thoughts a8out the digital circus finale thats not coming from a trans woman is going to 8e fucking stupid 8ut thats just me.

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theres one scene that i keep thinking a8out in the digital circus finale

it kinda has me so88ing thinking a8out it right now.

it's so. fucking. powerful. to me.

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its like. i don't understand. num8ering things.

like. ooh this is a 7/10. that kind of thing.

this in particular is like, how could i possi8ly quantify the degree to which this resonated with me emotionally?

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i feel this way when i think a8out a lot of the art i love. and i think part of it is like. people are constantly trying to talk a8out media in some o8jective manner, and when i see that kind of thing i just. can't understand it. everything in art is a8out a feeling.

how do i quantify a feeling out of 10? i just don't think i can.

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theres one scene that i keep thinking a8out in the digital circus finale

it kinda has me so88ing thinking a8out it right now.

it's so. fucking. powerful. to me.

turnabouttestified

its like. i don't understand. num8ering things.

like. ooh this is a 7/10. that kind of thing.

this in particular is like, how could i possi8ly quantify the degree to which this resonated with me emotionally?

theres one scene that i keep thinking a8out in the digital circus finale

it kinda has me so88ing thinking a8out it right now.

it's so. fucking. powerful. to me.

i should pro8a8ly change my pinned to reflect the fact i'm vriska now

turnabouttestified

huh

wha

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still confused 8y this 8ut i will allow it to continue festering in my mind until the day i fucking expire i suppose

mousidy

on TME/TMA: being mistaken for a transfem and catching strays is not the same thing as actually being a transfem: the actual targets of transmisogyny

I know a lot of trans men want to be TMA reallllll bad because someone mistook them for a transfem once and called them a tranny, but the "Affected" in "TransMisogyny Affected" doesn't just mean you have been Affected by transmisogyny at some point--it means it affects you, inescapably, in uncountably many more ways than just random harassment, every minute of your damn life. and it worms into your brain and stays there, because you ARE the tranny they were talking about

you may be a tree near the target and catch the occasional stray, but you are not the target

mousidy

storyweavingspider

I had a really good example of this pop up on the bus a while back. TLDR an older cis woman accused of being transfemme was protected by several people, while I, visibly transfemme, was not when the same person started threatening me.

💬 11 🔁 1676 ❤️ 2448 · Transphobia is so fascinating sometimes because I just got an example of why “everyone is transmisogyny affected” is

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wizardgender

Reading this is chilling. It shines a glaring light on how so little people believe us that we need TME people to weigh in about catching strays just to have our lives acknowledged as real. That our voices carry so little weight merely for being transfem is frightening and it should freighten you too. You, TME person who's yet to understand all this, make this scary.

We know how this happens, how transmisogyny worms its way in, the thoughts that itch at the back of our minds that make TMA people so easy to doubt. I was programmed to think the same assumptions too, and when I dug inward I found the same dirt you will:

It's usually some vague thought or feeling along the lines of "what if the trans fems are lying or exaggerating about how badly they're treated because they're [almost like a man suddenly dropped into womens' skin merely shocked from experiencing misogyny for the first time]; or [weird feminine men desperate to have experiences of misogyny validated as a bizarre form of gender affirmation]; or [weird guilt-ridden men desperate to experience misogyny as some kind of repentance]; or [weird feminist men desperate to exert unique expertise over women]; or [men desperate to position themselves as 'more oppressed' so they can regain their lost sense of gendered power among the voices of women]; or [perverted men who just transitioned for sex reasons overreacting with anger about being treated like the weirdo they are]".

All of this thinking and the roots of ALL transmisogyny come from this fucked up assumption that we are in some way or another always still men. Transmisogyny tells the fiction that a "male essence" supposedly remains at our core and is either morally corrupt, innately digusting, or both. THAT is the lie of transmisogyny, the lie that no matter what we do or who we are, our lives before transition somehow hold some kind of fundamental, inescapable corrupting influence over us today.

It is bioessentialism at its most pure. People take one look at the sex characteristics that we can't escape and transport themselves into a made-up world where some horrid element of male gender must therefore still exist within us. They stop seeing us as men or women and instead begin defining our entire personhood as if we are wolves in sheep's clothing; misguided men at best, immoral freaks at worst. They throw at us all the baggage that comes with a person asking "what kind of man does that?".

We are not men. The easiest way to check for transmisogyny? Stop reacting to us as trans women, as transfems, or as women who are trans; and just react to us as women.

i think im sick of people pretending theres something wrong with things just to feel vindicated in disliking it.