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โจ1โฉ โ They are dreams, but Iโm too out of control, I lose myself in them, and Iโve already lost too much to let them take over. โโจ โจ2โฉ โ Sometimes human places create inhuman monsters. โ โจ3โฉ โ I'm not gonna hurt ya. I'm just going to bash your brains in. โ โจ4โฉ โ Monsters are real. Ghosts are too. They live inside of us, and sometimes, they win. โ โจ5โฉ โ The world's a hard place. It doesn't care. It doesn't hate you and me, but it doesn't love us, either. โ โจ6โฉ โ The tears that heal are also the tears that scald and scourge. โ โจ7โฉ โ Pull your act together and just go on. โ โจ8โฉ โ I had never dreamed there could be so much pain in a life when there is nothing physically wrong. I hurt all the time. โ โจ9โฉ โ Tough old world, baby. If you're not bolted together tightly, you're gonna shake, rattle, and roll before you turn thirty. โ โจ10โฉ โ Are you sure self-pity is a luxury you can afford? โ โจ11โฉ โ Truth comes out. In the end it always comes out. โ โจ12โฉ โ Living by your wits is always knowing where the wasps are. โ โจ13โฉ โ No matter where you go, the same asshole gets off the plane. โ โจ14โฉ โ We sometimes need to create unreal monsters and bogies to stand in for all the things we fear in our real lives. โ โจ15โฉ โ Thatโs your job in this hard world, to keep your love alive and see that you get on, no matter what. โ โจ16โฉ โ Human nature, baby. Grab it and growl. โ โจ17โฉ โ God wiped snot out of his nose and that was you. โ โจ18โฉ โ Run away. Quick. And remember how much I love you. โ โจ19โฉ โ How many times, over how many years, have Iโa grown adultโasked for the mercy of another chance? โ โจ20โฉ โ I was suddenly so sick of myself, so revolted. โ โจ21โฉ โ You listen to me. Iโm going to talk to you about it this once and never again this same way. โ โจ22โฉ โ But those pieces, theyโll never fit just the same way again. Never in this world. โ โจ23โฉ โ Dying is a part of living. You have to keep tuning in to that if you expect to be a whole person. โ โจ24โฉ โ Officious little prick. โ โจ25โฉ โ Iโve been sleepwalking again, my dear. โ The plants are moving under the rug. โ โจ26โฉ โ How I wish you were fear. โ โจ27โฉ โ But it was a dreadful kind of curiosity, the kind that makes you peek through your fingers during the scariest parts of a scary movie. โ โจ28โฉ โ All we have is time, you know. An eternity of time. Or shall we end it? Might as well. After all, we're missing the party. โ โจ29โฉ โ We all remember our pleasant dreams more clearly than the scary ones. โ โจ30โฉ โ The way things should be and the way things are hardly ever get together. โ โจ31โฉ โ Got to be regular if you want to be happy. โ โจ32โฉ โ But in a solitary life, there are rare moments when another soul dips near yours, as stars once a year brush the earth. โ โจ33โฉ โ He showed me his scars, and in return he let me pretend that I had none. โ โจ34โฉ โ Humbling women seems to me a chief pastime of poets. As if there can be no story unless we crawl and weep. โ โจ35โฉ โ It is a common saying that women are delicate creatures, flowers, eggs, anything that may be crushed in a moment's carelessness. ย โ โจ36โฉ โ If I had ever believed it, I no longer do. โ โจ37โฉ โ I thought once that gods are the opposite of death, but I see now they are more dead than anything, for they are unchanging, and can hold nothing in their hands. โ โจ38โฉ โ I cannot bear this world a moment longer. โ โจ39โฉ โ I have a better idea. I will do as I please. โ โจ40โฉ โ All my life has been murk and depths, but I am not a part of that dark water. I am a creature within it. โ โจ41โฉ โ You cannot know how frightened gods are of pain. There is nothing more foreign to them, and so nothing they ache more deeply to see. โ โจ42โฉ โ When we are young, we think ourselves the first to have each feeling in the world. โ โจ43โฉ โ When I was born, the word for what I was did not exist. โ โจ44โฉ โ But perhaps no parent can truly see their child. When we look we see only the mirror of our own faults. โ โจ45โฉ โ I will not be like a bird bred in a cage, too dull to fly even when the door stands open. โ โจ46โฉ โ This is what it means to swim in the tide, to walk the earth and feel it touch your feet. This is what it means to be alive. โ โจ47โฉ โ You threw me to the crows, but it turns out I prefer them to you. โ โจ48โฉ โ Yet because I knew nothing, nothing was beneath me. โ โจ49โฉ โ If now I am wise, it is only because I have been fool enough for a hundred lifetimes. โ โจ50โฉ โ You can teach a viper to eat from your hands, but you cannot take away how much it likes to bite. โ โจ51โฉ โ Give me the blade. Some things are worth spilling blood for. โ โจ52โฉ โ I have been old and stern for so long, carved with regrets and years like a monolith. But that is only a shape Iโve been poured into. I do not have to keep it. โ โจ53โฉ โ I wake sometimes in the dark terrified by my life's precariousness, its thready breath. โ โจ54โฉ โ Understanding the world is a matter of keeping very still and showing no emotions, leaving room for others to reveal themselves. โ โจ55โฉ โ Beneath the smooth, familiar face of things is another that waits to tear the world in two. โ โจ56โฉ โ The truth is, men make terrible pigs. โ โจ57โฉ โ My father has never been able to imagine the world without himself in it. โ โจ58โฉ โ This is the grief that makes our kind choose to be stones and trees rather than flesh. โ โจ59โฉ โ Witches are not so delicate. โ โจ60โฉ โ Those who fight against prophecy only draw it more tightly around their throats. โ โจ61โฉ โ I learned that I could bend the world to my will, as a bow is bent for an arrow. I would have done that toil a thousand times to keep such power in my hands. โ โจ62โฉ โ There's the story, then there's the real story, then there's the story of how the story came to be told. Then there's what you leave out of the story. Which is part of the story too. โ โจ63โฉ โ The best way of being kind to bears is not to be very close to them. โ โจ64โฉ โ Life is warped. I'm just in sync. โ โจ65โฉ โ Now it's a whisper from the past. โ โจ66โฉ โ But hatred and viciousness are addictive. You can get high on them. Once you've had a little, you start shaking if you don't get more. โ โจ67โฉ โ Why is it always such a surprise? The moon. Even though we know it's coming. Every time we see it, it makes us pause, and hush. โ โจ68โฉ โ Perfection exacts a price, but it's the imperfect who pay it. โ โจ69โฉ โ What is 'belief' but a willingness to suspend the negatives? ย โ โจ70โฉ โ I have scars, inside me. โ โจ71โฉ โ The dead are not entirely dead but are alive in a different way; a paler way admittedly, and somewhat darker. โ โจ72โฉ โ However dark, a darkness with voices in it is better than a silent void. โ โจ73โฉ โ Amazing how quickly the past becomes idyllic. โ โจ74โฉ โ It is another way of saying tough luck. To people you arenโt going to help out. โ โจ75โฉ โ I'm waiting, far off in the future. โ โจ76โฉ โ The only sure camouflage is unpredictability. โ โจ77โฉ โ There are so many of them, and each one of them is doing part of the killing, whether they know it or not. โ โจ78โฉ โ First rule: limit bloodshed by making sure that none of your own gets spilled. โ โจ79โฉ โ I long to swim in liquid moonlight. โ โจ80โฉ โ That's right, I donโt like to be summoned on trivial matters. โ โจ81โฉ โ The part that really made me happy was that you wanted me to be happy. โ โจ82โฉ โ Cut that part out of us: the grinning, elemental malice. Begin us anew. โ โจ83โฉ โ Where there are wars, there will be crows, the carrion-fanciers. And ravens too, the warbirds, the eyeball gourmands. And vultures, the holy birds of yore, old connoisseurs of rot. โ โจ84โฉ โ At last. It's you. โ โจ85โฉ โ No, you will not be cooked on a fire when you die. Because you are not a fish. โ โจ86โฉ โ Take what the moment offers. Donโt close doors. Be thankful. โ โจ87โฉ โ How many others have stood in this place? Left behind, with all gone, all swept away. โ โจ88โฉ โ Is it disapproval or extreme lust? With some men itโs hard to tell the difference. โ โจ89โฉ โ My hair was driving me crazy, but then โฆ I died. โ โจ90โฉ โ Seek and ye shall find, eventually. And you found. Youโre right, I donโt dispute that. Sorry. โ โจ91โฉ โ Everything digests, and is digested. โ โจ92โฉ โ My head was once a filing cabinet. Now itโs a flurry of papers, floating on a draft. โ โจ93โฉ โ You cannot keep bumping your head against reality and saying it is not there. โ โจ94โฉ โ I have a feeling that inside you somewhere, thereโs something nobody knows about. โ โจ95โฉ โ And if I donโt want to die, Iโve got to start living. โ โจ96โฉ โ The world is a beautiful place. Donโt forget that. And donโt miss it. โ โจ97โฉ โ I was fighting for my life. So I must not want to die. โ โจ98โฉ โ Somethingโs happening to me, through me, something dangerous and new. โ โจ99โฉ โ Itโs taken root, a poison tree; itโs grown, fanning out, vines winding round my gut, my lungs, my heart. โ โจ100โฉ โ Weโre interpreters. Weโre translators. โ โจ101โฉ โ Youโll notice Iโm not asking what made you this way. โ โจ102โฉ โ No family, happy or unhappy, is quite like any other. Tolstoy was chock-fulloโshit. Remember that. โ โจ103โฉ โ We lived in monochrome those nights. โ โจ104โฉ โ You live in a dream. Youโre a sleepwalker, blind. How do you know what the world is like? โ โจ105โฉ โ Do you know, if you rip off the fronts of houses, youโd find swine? โ โจ106โฉ โ I stand here in the dark: cold, utterly alone, full of fear and something that feels like longing. โ โจ107โฉ โ The definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again and expecting different results. โ โจ108โฉ โ Not to warm the flesh, but solely to please the eye. โ โจ109โฉ โ Selective emotional detachment. โ โจ110โฉ โ Not for me, or at least not today. โ โจ111โฉ โ Dead but not gone, watching life surge forward around me, powerless to intervene. โ โจ112โฉ โ Do I sound like a hillbilly saying that? โ โจ113โฉ โ Remember, youโve got your secret weapon. โ โจ114โฉ โ The dream drains away like water. The memory, really. I try to scoop it up in my palms, but itโs gone. โ โจ115โฉ โ My shadow stretches along the carpet, as though trying to detach itself from me. โ โจ116โฉ โ It curls away from me, like blood in water. โ โจ117โฉ โ Itโs been so long since I felt the rain. Or windโthe caress of wind. โ โจ118โฉ โ But snow I never want to feel again. โ โจ119โฉ โ Through adversity to the stars. โ โจ120โฉ โ No hero. No sleuth. I am locked in. I am locked out. โ โจ121โฉ โ Thinking hasn't gotten me anywhere so far. โ โจ122โฉ โ The face you give the world tells the world how to treat you. โ โจ123โฉ โ Sometimes I think illness sits inside every woman, waiting for the right moment to bloom. โ โจ124โฉ โ Women get consumed. โ โจ125โฉ โ Sometimes if you let people do things to you, you're really doing it to them. โ โจ126โฉ โ A child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort. โ โจ127โฉ โ Safer to be feared than loved. โ โจ128โฉ โ I ached once, hard, like a period typed at the end of a sentence. โ โจ129โฉ โ It's impossible to compete with the dead. I wish I could stop trying. โ โจ130โฉ โ I always feel sad for the girl that I was. โ โจ131โฉ โ Every time people said I was pretty, I thought of everything ugly swarming beneath my clothes. โ โจ132โฉ โ How do you keep safe when your whole day is as wide and empty as the sky? Anything could happen. โ โจ133โฉ โ See, there I am. I told you I lived. I told you I was. โ โจ134โฉ โ Sometimes I think I won't ever feel safe until I can count my last days on one hand. โ โจ135โฉ โ To refuse has so many more consequences than submitting. โ โจ136โฉ โ I'm here. I don't usually feel that I am. โ โจ137โฉ โ I'm tired of dying. โ โจ138โฉ โ What if you hurt because it feels so good? โ โจ139โฉ โ How confusing to live in the shadow of a shadow. โ โจ140โฉ โ Do you ever feel like bad things are going to happen, and you canโt stop them? You canโt do anything, you just have to wait? โ โจ141โฉ โ Sometimes my scars have a mind of their own. โ โจ142โฉ โ Everyone has their own version of a memory. โ โจ143โฉ โ Isnโt a smile a girlโs best weapon? โ โจ144โฉ โ My sense of weightlessness, I think, comes from the fact that I know so little about my past. โ โจ145โฉ โ Do what I want; I might like you. โ โจ146โฉ โ I feel sorry for Persephone because even when sheโs back with the living, people are afraid of her because of whereโs sheโs been. โ โจ147โฉ โ She has never told me she loved me, and I never assumed she did. โ โจ148โฉ โ The sight of it actually does something to you, makes you less human. โ โจ149โฉ โ It infects you. It ruined me. โ โจ150โฉ โ Your health is not a debt you just cancel. The body collects. โ โจ151โฉ โ Men love to put things inside women, donโt they? โ โจ152โฉ โ We can know only that we know nothing. And that is the highest degree of human wisdom. โ โจ153โฉ โ Nothing is so necessary for a young man as the company of intelligent women. โ โจ154โฉ โ The strongest of all warriors are these two โ time and patience. โ โจ155โฉ โ If everyone fought for their own convictions there would be no war. โ โจ156โฉ โ There is no greatness where there is not simplicity, goodness, and truth. โ โจ157โฉ โ The whole world is divided for me into two parts: one is she, and there is all happiness, hope, light; the other is where she is not, and there is dejection and darkness. โ โจ158โฉ โ Let the dead bury the dead, but while I'm alive, I must live and be happy. โ โจ159โฉ โ It's not given to people to judge what's right or wrong. People have eternally been mistaken and will be mistaken, and in nothing more than in what they consider right and wrong. โ โจ160โฉ โ You can love a person dear to you with a human love, but an enemy can only be loved with divine love. โ โจ161โฉ โ If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed. โ โจ162โฉ โ We are asleep until we fall in love! โ โจ163โฉ โ I simply want to live; to cause no evil to anyone but myself. โ โจ164โฉ โ Everything I know, I know because of love. โ โจ165โฉ โ Man cannot possess anything as long as he fears death. But to him who does not fear it, everything belongs. โ โจ166โฉ โ If there was no suffering, man would not know his limits, would not know himself. โ โจ167โฉ โ Yes, love, but not the love that loves for something, to gain something, or because of something, but that love that I felt for the first time, when dying, I saw my enemy and yet loved him. โ โจ168โฉ โ How can one be well...when one suffers morally? โ โจ169โฉ โ Kings are the slaves of history. โ โจ170โฉ โ God is the same everywhere. โ โจ171โฉ โ Pure and complete sorrow is as impossible as pure and complete joy. โ โจ172โฉ โ One must be cunning and wicked in this world. โ โจ173โฉ โ We love people not so much for the good they've done us, as for the good we've done them. โ โจ174โฉ โ When one's head is gone one doesn't weep over one's hair! โ โจ175โฉ โ For what, for whom, must I kill and be killed? โ โจ176โฉ โ He did what heroes do after their work is accomplished; he died. โ โจ177โฉ โ Life is too long to say anything definitely; always say perhaps. โ โจ178โฉ โ Everything ends in death, everything. Death is terrible. โ โจ179โฉ โ The distant and impossible suddenly became near, possible, and inevitable. โ โจ180โฉ โ How often we sin, how much we deceive, and all for what? โ โจ181โฉ โ The wolves should be fed and the sheep kept safe. โ โจ182โฉ โ When I was a child, adults would tell me not to make things up, warning me of what would happen if I did. โ โจ183โฉ โ My memory is a patchwork of occurrences, of discontinuous events roughly sewn together: the parts I remember, I remember precisely, whilst other sections seem to have vanished completely. โ โจ184โฉ โ Would it be worse to love someone who is no longer there, or not to love someone who is? โ โจ185โฉ โ Like mirrors stories prepare us for the day to come. They distract us from the things in darkness. โ โจ186โฉ โ It is not that I was credulous, simply that I believed in all things dark and dangerous. โ โจ187โฉ โ Sometimes you do things you regret, but there's nothing you can do about them. Times change. Doors close behind you. You move on. โ โจ188โฉ โ Love will be an impulse that will inspire and ruin in equal measure. โ โจ189โฉ โ He died alone. It don't matter a rat's ass whether there was anyone with him or not. He died alone. โ โจ190โฉ โ It was love, I knew, and it tasted like champagne in my mind. โ โจ191โฉ โ The end of the world is a strange concept. The world is always ending, and the end is always being averted, by love or foolishness or just plain old dumb luck. โ โจ192โฉ โ She was my dream; and if you touch a dream it vanishes, like a soap bubble. โ โจ193โฉ โ Daylight is always safe. โ โจ194โฉ โ If not for death, they'd be content to simply exist, but with death, well, their lives will have meaning. โ โจ195โฉ โ You want to know the future, love? Then wait. โ โจ196โฉ โ There are things in the darkness beneath us that wish us harm. โ โจ197โฉ โ Fairy tales are more than true. Not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be defeated โ โจ198โฉ โ But sometimes you leave blood on your instruments. โ โจ199โฉ โ I'd like to be a wolf. Not all the time. Just sometimes. In the dark. I would run through the forests. โ โจ200โฉ โ You've seen them. They have mouths that twitch, and eyes that stare, and they babble and they mewl and they whimper. โ โจ201โฉ โ They are not mad, or rather, the loss of their sanity is the lesser of their problems. โ โจ202โฉ โ Good a reason for writing as I know: releasing demons, letting them fly. โ โจ203โฉ โ That miserable state in which everything seems flat and of equal importance; when nothing matters, and in which reality seems scraped thin and threadbare. โ โจ204โฉ โ Someone had scrawled graffiti in black marker on the metal: JUST DIE, it said. Like it is easy. โ โจ205โฉ โ Winter started today. The sky turned grey and the snow began to fall and it did not stop falling until well after dark. โ โจ206โฉ โ Memory is the great deceiver. โ โจ207โฉ โ Silly things do cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an impudent way. โ โจ208โฉ โ I may have lost my heart, but not my self-control. ย โ โจ209โฉ โ If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. โ โจ210โฉ โ I always deserve the best treatment because I never put up with any other. โ โจ211โฉ โ But you know what I am. You hear nothing but truth from me. โ โจ212โฉ โ I have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other would have borne it. โ โจ213โฉ โ There are people, who the more you do for them, the less they will do for themselves. โ โจ214โฉ โ One half of the world cannot understand the pleasures of the other. โ โจ215โฉ โ Better be without sense than misapply it as you do. โ โจ216โฉ โ You must be the best judge of your own happiness. โ โจ217โฉ โ Were I to fall in love, indeed, it would be a different thing ; but I have never been in love ; it is not my way, or my nature ; and I do not think I ever shall. โ โจ218โฉ โ Indeed, I am very sorry to be right in this instance. I would much rather have been merry than wise. โ โจ219โฉ โ If I have not spoken, it is because I am afraid I will awaken myself from this dream. โ โจ220โฉ โ If a woman doubts as to whether she should accept a man or not, she certainly ought to refuse him. โ โจ221โฉ โ Faultless in spite of all her faults. โ โจ222โฉ โ A heroine whom no one but myself will much like. โ โจ223โฉ โ There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart. โ โจ224โฉ โ Full many a flower is born to blush unseen, and waste its fragrance on the desert air. โ โจ225โฉ โ I pity you. I thought you cleverer. โ โจ226โฉ โ Evil to some is always good to others. โ โจ227โฉ โ I certainly will not persuade myself to feel more than I do. โ โจ228โฉ โ She is loveliness itself. โ โจ229โฉ โ Time does not compose me. โ โจ230โฉ โ A man always imagines a woman to be ready for anybody who asks her. โ โจ231โฉ โ I do not find myself making any use of the word sacrifice. โ โจ232โฉ โ I am quite enough in love. I should be sorry to be any more. โ โจ233โฉ โ I must tell you what you will not ask, though I may wish it unsaid the next moment. โ โจ234โฉ โ I examined my own heart. And there you were. Never, I fear, to be removed. โ โจ235โฉ โ With all your little faults, you are an excellent creature. โ โจ236โฉ โ You have another long walk before you. โ โจ237โฉ โ The child's laughter is pure until he first laughs at a clown. โ โจ238โฉ โ What is marriage but prostitution to one man instead of many? โ โจ239โฉ โ Out of the frying pan into the fire! โ โจ240โฉ โ We must all make do with the rags of love we find flapping on the scarecrow of humanity. โ โจ241โฉ โ She sleeps. And now she wakes each day a little less. โ โจ242โฉ โ And, oh, God . . . how frequently I weep! โ โจ243โฉ โ From the coffin of your madness there is no escape. โ โจ244โฉ โ I am feeling supernatural tonight. I want to eat diamonds. โ โจ245โฉ โ All the same there is a chance that if we keep on shaking our chains, one day, some day, the clasps upon the shackles will part. โ โจ246โฉ โ It was sad music fit to make you cut your throat. โ โจ247โฉ โ Nothing is more boring than being forced to play. โ โจ248โฉ โ Amongst the monsters, I am well hidden; who looks for a leaf in a forest? โ โจ249โฉ โ Wherein does a womanโs honour reside? In her vagina or in her spirit? โ โจ250โฉ โ Perhaps...I could not be content with mere contentment! โ โจ251โฉ โ Have you ever stared stark failure in the face? The trick is to outstare it. โ โจ252โฉ โ Sometimes it seems that the faces exist of themselves, in a disembodied somewhere, waiting for the one who will wear them, who will bring them to life. โ โจ253โฉ โ I have the febrile gaiety of a being without a past, without a present, yet I exist. โ โจ254โฉ โ I felt myself turning, willy-nilly, from a woman into an idea. โ โจ255โฉ โ She looks wonderful, but she doesn't look right. โ โจ256โฉ โ The one-eyed man will be King in the country of the blind. โ โจ257โฉ โ I raised you up to fly to the heavens, not to brood over a clutch of eggs! โ โจ258โฉ โ I love to hear my bones rattle. Thatโs how I know Iโm alive. โ โจ259โฉ โ I learnt, first, as the birds do, from the birds. โ โจ260โฉ โ Inside and outside match exactly, but both are badly wrong. โ โจ261โฉ โ During the less-than-blink of time it took the last chime to die, there came a vertiginous sensation. โ โจ262โฉ โ I fear a wound not of the body but the soul, an irreconcilable division between myself and the rest of humankind. โ โจ263โฉ โ I fear the proof of my own singularity. โ โจ264โฉ โ Still nothing could calm the fearful storm in my erupting skin. โ โจ265โฉ โ Petersburg, loveliest of all hallucinations. โ โจ266โฉ โ A breathless second between black forest and the frozen sea. โ โจ267โฉ โ I'm beginning to feel totally cut off from the world. โ โจ268โฉ โ What does this all mean? Where are we? โ โจ269โฉ โ Sometimes I bleed. โ โจ270โฉ โ If you see a ghost, you say "hello". โ โจ271โฉ โ The war is not over. โ โจ272โฉ โ You're not going. You left us once already. โ โจ273โฉ โ You canโt go! โ โจ274โฉ โ I loved you, but that wasn't enough, was it? โ โจ275โฉ โ If you're dead, then leave me in peace. โ โจ276โฉ โ The only thing that moves here is the light, but it changes everything. โ โจ277โฉ โ I won't ask for forgiveness for something I didn't do! โ โจ278โฉ โ Sometimes the world of the living gets mixed up with the world of the dead. โ โจ279โฉ โ Death of a loved one can lead people to do the strangest things. โ โจ280โฉ โ Sooner or later, they will find you. โ โจ281โฉ โ They're everywhere - they say this house is theirs. โ โจ282โฉ โ You're always teasing me, and telling lies. I'm sick of it. โ โจ283โฉ โ Others will come. Sometimes we'll sense them. Other times, we won't. โ โจ284โฉ โ No crying now. No crying. Stop that. Here. Look what an awful face you've got when you cry. โ โจ285โฉ โ You listen to me. I've seen them too. โ โจ286โฉ โ You'll see. There are going to be some big surprises. There are going to be... changes. โ โจ287โฉ โ Why did you go and fight that stupid war that had nothing to do with us? Why didn't you stay like the others did? โ โจ288โฉ โ Your place was here with your family. โ โจ289โฉ โ So you say you know this house well? โ โจ290โฉ โ I wasn't expecting you so soon. โ โจ291โฉ โ What's the matter? Has the cat got your tongue? โ โจ292โฉ โ You mean they just vanished? Into thin air? โ โจ293โฉ โ No door must be opened without the previous one being closed first. โ โจ294โฉ โ Here, most of the time, you can hardly see your way. โ โจ295โฉ โ Whatever you do, don't open the curtains. โ โจ296โฉ โ Now, come on. Eyes closed. โ โจ297โฉ โ We start off with high hopes, then we bottle it. We realise that weโre all going to die, without really finding out the big answers. โ โจ298โฉ โ By definition, you have to live until you die. Better to make that life as complete and enjoyable an experience as possible, in case death is shite, which I suspect it will be. โ โจ299โฉ โ I chose not to choose life. I chose somethinโ else. โ โจ300โฉ โ And the reasons? There are no reasons. โ โจ301โฉ โ Love does not exist, it's like religion, made to control you. โ โจ302โฉ โ After all, we're not fucking stupid. At least, we're not that fucking stupid. โ โจ303โฉ โ You fucking knew that fucking cunt would fuck some cunt. โ โจ304โฉ โ Everything in the street today seems soft focus. โ โจ305โฉ โ What does that make us? The lowest of the low. โ โจ306โฉ โ Take your best orgasm, multiply the feeling by twenty, and you're still fuckinโ miles off the pace. โ โจ307โฉ โ Itโs as if everything is a copy of what you knew before, similar, yet somehow lacking in its usual qualities, a bit like the way things are in a dream. โ โจ308โฉ โ Itโs all okay, itโs all beautiful; but I fear that this internal sea is going to subside soon, leaving this poisonous shite washed up, stranded up in my body. โ โจ309โฉ โ It cuts me up. It confuses me. โ โจ310โฉ โ It's not funny laughter. This is lynch mob laughter. โ โจ311โฉ โ Protect me from those who wish to help us. โ โจ312โฉ โ They mean well, and they mean well to me, but there's no way under the sun that they can appreciate what I feel, what I need. โ โจ313โฉ โ The pit of melancholy is a bottomless one, and I am descending fast. โ โจ314โฉ โ Living like this is a full-time business. โ โจ315โฉ โ Iโll stand or fall alone. โ โจ316โฉ โ We are no wiser now than at the start. โ โจ317โฉ โ This is pathetic, and fucking boring. โ โจ318โฉ โ Death is usually a process, rather than an event. โ โจ319โฉ โ We're ruled by effete arseholes. What does that make us? โ โจ320โฉ โ We are all acquaintances now. โ โจ321โฉ โ The problem is that this beautiful ocean carries with it loads of poisonous flotsam and jetsam. โ โจ322โฉ โ Life is beautiful. I'm going to enjoy it, and I'm going to have a long life. โ โจ323โฉ โ The grim reality of impending death can be talked away by trying to invest in the present reality of life. โ โจ324โฉ โ There must be more to life than this. โ โจ325โฉ โ We all see what we want to see. โ โจ326โฉ โ Statistically speaking, you're more likely to be killed by a member of your own family or a close friend, than by anyone else. โ โจ327โฉ โ What am I living for and what am I dying for are the same question. โ โจ328โฉ โ Maybe that's what love is: it's being pissed off. โ โจ329โฉ โ You can forget who you are if you're alone too much. โ โจ330โฉ โ Any religion is a shadow of God. But the shadows of God are not God. โ โจ331โฉ โ Human understanding is fallible, and we see through a glass, darkly. ย โ โจ332โฉ โ We must be a beacon of hope, because if you tell people there's nothing they can do, they will do worse than nothing. โ โจ333โฉ โ Everyone wants to feel like a princess, and princesses are selfish and overbearing. โ โจ334โฉ โ We shouldn't have been so scornful; we should have had compassion. But compassion takes work, and we were young. โ โจ335โฉ โ How easy it is, treachery. You just slide into it. โ โจ336โฉ โ Amazing how the heart clutches at anything familiar, whimpering: Mine! Mine! โ โจ337โฉ โ All creatures know that some must die ; that all the rest may take and eat. โ โจ338โฉ โ Is this the image of a god? My tooth for yours, your eye for mine? โ โจ339โฉ โ Without the light, no chance; without the dark, no dance. โ โจ340โฉ โ Why are we designed to see the world as supremely beautiful just as we're about to be snuffed? Do rabbits feel the same as the fox teeth bite down on their necks? Is it mercy? โ โจ341โฉ โ Love is useless, it leads you into dumb exchanges in which you give too much away, and then you get bitter and mean. โ โจ342โฉ โ Maybe sadness is a kind of hunger. Maybe the two go together. โ โจ343โฉ โ Now I can see how that can happen. You can fall in love with anybody -- a fool, a criminal, a nothing. There are no good rules. โ โจ344โฉ โ If you really want to stay the same age you are now forever and ever, try jumping off the roof: death's a sure-fire method for stopping time. โ โจ345โฉ โ You couldnโt leave words lying around where our enemies might find them. โ โจ346โฉ โ I'm fine, for the moment. And the moment is the only time we can be fine in. โ โจ347โฉ โ Because if you can't wish, why bother? โ โจ348โฉ โ It's better to hope than mope! โ โจ349โฉ โ Reality has too much darkness in it. Too many crows. โ โจ350โฉ โ In any case, time is not a thing that passes, itโs a sea on which you float. โ โจ351โฉ โ I know Iโm deceiving myself, but I prefer to deceive myself. I desperately need to believe such pure joy is still possible. โ โจ352โฉ โ Too much God and you overdose. God needs to be filtered. โ โจ353โฉ โ Behind my eyelids I saw an animal. It was golden colour, with gentle green eyes and canine teeth, and curly wool instead of fur. It opened its mouth, but it did not speak. Instead, it yawned. โ โจ354โฉ โ โWhy can't I believe?โ I asked the darkness. โ โจ355โฉ โ Everyoneโs too sad for everything. โ โจ356โฉ โ If you canโt stop the waves, go sailing. โ โจ357โฉ โ I would like to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only. I would like to be that unnoticed and that necessary. โ โจ358โฉ โ Men are afraid that women will laugh at them. Women are afraid that men will kill them. โ โจ359โฉ โ In the end, we'll all become stories. โ โจ360โฉ โ I am inadequate and stupid, without worth. I might as well be dead. โ โจ361โฉ โ If you knew what was going to happen, if you knew everything that was going to happen nextโif you knew in advance the consequences of your own actionsโyou'd be doomed. You'd be ruined as God. โ โจ362โฉ โ If you can't go through an obstacle, go around it. โ โจ363โฉ โ Stupidity is the same as evil if you judge by the results. โ โจ364โฉ โ Time in dreams is frozen. You can never get away from where you've been. โ โจ365โฉ โ Male fantasies, male fantasies, is everything run by male fantasies? โ โจ366โฉ โ We still think of a powerful man as a born leader and a powerful woman as an anomaly. โ โจ367โฉ โ If I love you, is that a fact or a weapon? โ โจ368โฉ โ You fit into me like a hook into an eye. โ โจ369โฉ โ Knowing too much about other people puts you in their power, they have a claim on you, you are forced to understand their reasons for doing things and then you are weakened. โ โจ370โฉ โ Farewells can be shattering, but returns are surely worse. โ โจ371โฉ โ Women have curious ways of hurting someone else. โ โจ372โฉ โ This is the one song everyone would like to learn: the song that is irresistible: the song that forces men to leap overboard in squadrons. โ โจ373โฉ โ Get rid of death. Make it be spring. โ โจ374โฉ โ You are innocent as a bathtub full of bullets. โ โจ375โฉ โ I am the space you desecrate as you pass through. โ โจ376โฉ โ Favour me and give me riches, destroy my enemies. Save me from death. โ โจ377โฉ โ She is a raw voice loose in the rooms beneath me. โ โจ378โฉ โ Isn't the moon warm enough for you, why do you need the blanket of another body? โ โจ379โฉ โ This is a torch song. Touch me and you'll burn. โ โจ380โฉ โ If you look long enough eventually you will see me. โ โจ381โฉ โ I would like to sleep with you, to enter your sleep as its smooth dark wave slides over my head. โ โจ382โฉ โ I would like to give you the silver branch, the small white flower, the one word that will protect you from the grief. โ โจ383โฉ โ But some people can't tell where it hurts. They can't calm down. They can't ever stop howling. โ โจ384โฉ โ How else can we live, these days, except in the midst of ruin? โ โจ385โฉ โ What am I living for and what am I dying for are the same question. โ โจ386โฉ โ Gods always come in handy, they justify almost anything. โ โจ387โฉ โ We loved with a love that was more than love. โ โจ388โฉ โ Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before. โ โจ389โฉ โ The boundaries which divide life from death are at best shadowy and vague. Who shall say where the one ends, and where the other begins? โ โจ390โฉ โ There is no exquisite beauty without some strangeness in the proportion. โ โจ391โฉ โ Never to suffer would never to have been blessed. โ โจ392โฉ โ Believe only half of what you see and nothing that you hear. โ โจ393โฉ โ And all I loved, I loved alone. โ โจ394โฉ โ Years of love have been forgot, in the hatred of a minute. โ โจ395โฉ โ The best things in life make you sweaty. โ โจ396โฉ โ There are some secrets which do not permit themselves to be told. โ โจ397โฉ โ Anything is better than this agony. โ โจ398โฉ โ You fancy me mad. โ โจ399โฉ โ I hear all things in the heaven and in the earth. โ โจ400โฉ โ Who dares insult us with this blasphemous mockery? โ โจ401โฉ โ Leave my loneliness unbroken! โ โจ402โฉ โ A more than fiendish malevolence, gin-nurtured, thrills every fibre of my frame. โ โจ403โฉ โ The fury of a demon instantly possessed me. I knew myself no longer. โ โจ404โฉ โ Let my heart be still a moment. โ โจ405โฉ โ You call it hope โ ย It is but agony of desire. โ โจ406โฉ โ Who has not, a hundred times, found himself committing a vile or silly action for no other reason than because he knows he should not? โ โจ407โฉ โ To die laughing must be the most glorious of all glorious deaths! โ โจ408โฉ โ The beating of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage. โ โจ409โฉ โ Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practise to deceive. โ โจ410โฉ โ I have been happy, though in a dream. โ โจ411โฉ โ Nevermore. โ โจ412โฉ โ The truth is, I am heartily sick of this life. โ โจ413โฉ โ I am convinced that every thing is going wrong. โ โจ414โฉ โ The scariest monsters are the ones that lurk within our souls. โ โจ415โฉ โ And if I died, at least I will have died for you! โ โจ416โฉ โ It is impossible to say how first the idea entered my brain; but once conceived, it haunted me day and night. โ โจ417โฉ โ Hurt and humiliation โ But this, I can not take. โ โจ418โฉ โ The walls in there have ears. โ โจ419โฉ โ This is for your ears only. โ โจ420โฉ โ What is it? You have me scared. โ โจ421โฉ โ Whoever isnโt for us, is against us. โ โจ422โฉ โ You are just a body; to be dumped, disposed of like a carcass, left out for the birds to feed on. โ โจ423โฉ โ The dead will have to forgive me. โ โจ424โฉ โ From now on and no matter how your mind may I change, I will not accept your help. โ โจ425โฉ โ If death comes, so be it. There will be glory in it. โ โจ426โฉ โ Live, then; and live with your choice. โ โจ427โฉ โ I am doing what has to be done. โ โจ428โฉ โ Nothing is going to stop the ones that love you from keeping on loving you. โ โจ429โฉ โ Worst is the man who has all the good advice, and then because his nerve fails, fails to act in accordance with it, as a leader should. โ โจ430โฉ โ Only a loony would walk himself into this. โ โจ431โฉ โ Why do you need such fences and defences? โ โจ432โฉ โ Enough. Do not anger me. โ โจ433โฉ โ The gods, you think, will side with the likes of him? โ โจ434โฉ โ Watch it. You are over stepping. โ โจ435โฉ โ I warn you. You should keep a civil tongue. โ โจ436โฉ โ There is no such thing as an oath the can not be broken. โ โจ437โฉ โ Every now and then, the things youโd hardly let yourself imagine, actually happen. โ โจ438โฉ โ And you stand over this? This is the truth? โ โจ439โฉ โ The bigger the resistance, the bigger the collapse. โ โจ440โฉ โ Iron thatโs forged the hardest, snaps the quickest. โ โจ441โฉ โ Even the wildest horses come to heel when they are reined & bitted right. โ โจ442โฉ โ Thatโs how guilt affects some people. They break and everything comes out. โ โจ443โฉ โ Will it be enough for you? To see me executed? โ โจ444โฉ โ So you know something no one else knows? โ โจ445โฉ โ They know it too. They are just too afraid to say it. โ โจ446โฉ โ If you die, how will I keep on living? โ โจ447โฉ โ There was a star riding through clouds one night, & I said to the star, 'Consume me'. โ โจ448โฉ โ How much better to sit by myself like the solitary sea-bird that opens its wings on the stake. โ โจ449โฉ โ Alone, I often fall down into nothingness. I have to bang my head against some hard door to call myself back to the body. โ โจ450โฉ โ I am made and remade continually. Different people draw different words from me. โ โจ451โฉ โ For this moment, this one moment, we are together. ย โ โจ452โฉ โ Come, pain, feed on me. Bury your fangs in my flesh. Tear me asunder. โ โจ453โฉ โ I am as neat as a cat in my habits. โ โจ454โฉ โ Everything falls in a tremendous shower, dissolving me. โ โจ455โฉ โ I am the foam that sweeps and fills the uttermost rims of the rocks with whiteness; I am also a girl, here in this room. โ โจ456โฉ โ We are cut, we are fallen. We are become part of that unfeeling universe โจ457โฉ that sleeps when we are at our quickest and burns red when we lie โจ458โฉ asleep. โ โจ459โฉ โ These moments of escape are not to be despised. They come too seldom. โ โจ460โฉ โ Up here my eyes are green leaves, unseeing. โ โจ461โฉ โ The moment is all; the moment is enough. โ โจ462โฉ โ I do not want to be admired. I want to give, to be given. โ โจ463โฉ โ I am not one and simple, but complex and many. โ โจ464โฉ โ And if you are dead, I shall weep. โ โจ465โฉ โ But beauty must be broken daily to remain beautiful. โ โจ466โฉ โ But our hatred is almost indistinguishable from our love. โ โจ467โฉ โ I desired always to stretch the night and fill it fuller and fuller with dreams. โ โจ468โฉ โ Life is a dream surely. โ โจ469โฉ โ I think sometimes I am not a woman, but the light that falls on this gate, on this ground. I am the seasons, I think sometimes, January, May, November; the mud, the mist, the dawn. โ โจ470โฉ โ Oh, I am in love with life! โ โจ471โฉ โ I have been knotted; I have been torn apart. โ โจ472โฉ โ There was no freedom in life, and certainly there was none in death. โ โจ473โฉ โ I do not know. I do not know myself sometimes, or how to measure and name and count out the grains that make me what I am. โ โจ474โฉ โ I ride rough waters, and shall sink with no one to save me. โ โจ475โฉ โ I am above the earth now. I am no longer upright, to be knocked against and damaged. โ โจ476โฉ โ I see it all. I feel it all. โ โจ477โฉ โ Death is woven in with the violets. Death and again death. โ โจ478โฉ โ We have been walking for hours it seems. But where? I cannot remember. โ โจ479โฉ โ If we were all on trial for our thoughts, we would all be hanged. โ โจ480โฉ โ When you are in the middle of a story it isn't a story at all, but only a confusion; a dark roaring, a blindness, a wreckage of shattered glass. โ โจ481โฉ โ Murderess is a strong word to have attached to you. It has a smell to it, that word; - musky and oppressive, like dead flowers in a vase. ย โ โจ482โฉ โ Sometimes at night I whisper it over to myself: Murderess, murderess. It rustles, like a taffeta skirt across the floor. โ โจ483โฉ โ If the world treats you well, you come to believe you are deserving of it. โ โจ484โฉ โ If I am good enough and quiet enough, perhaps after all they will let me go. โ โจ485โฉ โ Itโs not easy being quiet and good, itโs like hanging on to the edge of a bridge when youโve already fallen over; you donโt seem to be moving, just dangling there, and yet it is taking all your strength. โ โจ486โฉ โ There is no fool like an educated fool. โ โจ487โฉ โ There are many dangerous things that may take place in a bed. โ โจ488โฉ โ I am afraid of falling into hopeless despair, over my wasted life, and I am still not sure how it happened. โ โจ489โฉ โ Underneath it all is another feeling, a feeling of being wide-eyed awake and watchful. โ โจ490โฉ โ And underneath all that is another feeling still, a feeling like being torn open; not like a body of flesh, it is not painful as such, but like a peach; and not even torn open, but ripe and splitting open of its own accord. ย โ โจ491โฉ โ The small details of life often hide a great significance. โ โจ492โฉ โ Guilt comes to you not from the things you've done, but from the things that others have done to you. โ โจ493โฉ โ I wonder, how can I be all of these different things at once? โ โจ494โฉ โ It is always a mistake to curse back openly at those who are stronger than you unless there is a fence between. โ โจ495โฉ โ Some call this "Eve's curse," but I think that is stupid because the real curse of Eve was having to put up with the nonsense of Adam. โ โจ496โฉ โ I don't know why they are all so eager to be remembered. What good will it do them? There are some things that should be forgotten by everyone, and never spoken of again. โ โจ497โฉ โ I would never blame a human creature for feeling lonely. โ โจ498โฉ โ If they want a monster so badly they ought to be provided by one. โ โจ499โฉ โ Itโs as if I never existed, because no trace of me remains, I have left no marks. And that way I cannot be followed. It is almost the same as being innocent. โ โจ500โฉ โ Today you wear your habitual expression of strained anxiety; you smell of violets. โ โจ501โฉ โ Of course you have always been an idealist, and filled with your optimistic dreams; but reality must at some time obtrude. โ โจ502โฉ โ I wonder what would become of me, and comfort myself that in a hundred years I will be dead and at peace. โ โจ503โฉ โ For it is not always the one that strikes the blow that is the actual murderer. โ โจ504โฉ โ There is a โdo thisโ or โdo thatโ with God, but not any โbecauseโ. โ โจ505โฉ โ If you have a need and they find it out, they will use it against you. The best way is to stop from wanting anything. โ โจ506โฉ โ They say, why donโt you ever smile or laugh, we never see you smiling, and I say I suppose I have gotten out of the way of it, my face wonโt bend in that direction any more. โ โจ507โฉ โ I was shut up inside that doll of myself, and my true voice could not get out. โ โจ508โฉ โ I see what youโre after. You are a collector. You think all you have to do is give me an apple, and then you can collect me. โ โจ509โฉ โ If you want to be an asshole, it's a free country. Millions before you have made the same life choice. โ โจ510โฉ โ Then there's the future. Sheer vertigo. โ โจ511โฉ โ Nature is to zoos as God is to churches. โ โจ512โฉ โ After everything that's happened, how can the world still be so beautiful? โ โจ513โฉ โ There's something to be said for hunger: at least it lets you know you're still alive. โ โจ514โฉ โ These things sneak up on me for no reason, these flashes of irrational happiness. It's probably a vitamin deficiency. โ โจ515โฉ โ Toast cannot be explained by any rational means. Toast is me. I am toast. โ โจ516โฉ โ You canโt buy it, but it has a price. Everything has a price. โ โจ517โฉ โ As a species were doomed by hope, then? You could call it hope. That, or desperation. โ โจ518โฉ โ I am not my childhood. โ โจ519โฉ โ Human beings hope they can stick their souls into someone else and live on forever. โ โจ520โฉ โ โI'll make you mineโ, lovers said in old books. They never said, โI'll make you me.โ โ โจ521โฉ โ How much is too much, how far is too far? โ โจ522โฉ โ Expectation isn't the same as desire. โ โจ523โฉ โ Why not cut to the chase? โ โจ524โฉ โ Maybe there aren't any solutions. Human society, corpses and rubble. โ โจ525โฉ โ I thought you didnโt believe in God. โ โจ526โฉ โ I need at least the illusion of being understood. โ โจ527โฉ โ What change would have altered the course of events? In the big picture, nothing. In the small picture, so much. โ โจ528โฉ โ You are only looking at the dirt under your feet. It's not good for you. โ โจ529โฉ โ I like to keep only the bright side of myself turned towards you. ย โ โจ530โฉ โ Grief in the face of inevitable death. The wish to stop time. The human condition. โ โจ531โฉ โ So many crucial events take place behind peopleโs backs, when they arenโt in a position to watch: birth and death, for instance. โ โจ532โฉ โ Would you kill someone you loved to spare them pain? โ โจ533โฉ โ When the waterโs moving faster than the boat, you canโt control a thing. โ โจ534โฉ โ Don't be so fucking sentimental. โ โจ535โฉ โ Wrong, as usual. โ โจ536โฉ โ Why do you want to talk about ugly things? โ โจ537โฉ โ I understand why serial killers send helpful clues to the police. โ โจ538โฉ โ Take your time, leave mine alone. โ โจ539โฉ โ You will hear thunder and remember me. โ โจ540โฉ โ If you were music, I would listen to you ceaselessly. โ โจ541โฉ โ I seem to myself an accidental guest in this dreadful body. โ โจ542โฉ โ Call me a sinner, mock me maliciously. โ โจ543โฉ โ I, from the very beginning, seemed to myself like someone's dream or delirium. Or a reflection in someone else's mirror. Without flesh, without meaning, without a name. โ โจ544โฉ โ I knew the list of crimes that I was destined to commit. โ โจ545โฉ โ The future ripens in the past, so the past rots in the future. โ โจ546โฉ โ You are untranslatable into any one tongue. โ โจ547โฉ โ I was hoping my silence would fit yours. โ โจ548โฉ โ See, we were never about butterflies. All about us is unearthly and radiant. โ โจ549โฉ โ You do not know just what you've been forgiven. โ โจ550โฉ โ I need to slaughter my memory. ย โ โจ551โฉ โ Forgive me that I appeared to you in waking dreams. โ โจ552โฉ โ I will condemn, I will forget, I will give comfort to the enemy. โ โจ553โฉ โ I know beginnings, I know endings too, and life-in-death. โ โจ554โฉ โ Wild honey smells of freedom. But gold smells of nothing. โ โจ555โฉ โ You are three times more beautiful than angels. โ โจ556โฉ โ I will kill you without spilling your blood on the ground, not touching you with my hand, not giving you one glance. โ โจ557โฉ โ You invented me. There is no such earthly being. โ โจ558โฉ โ Youโre late. Way too late. Iโm glad to see you, nonetheless. โ โจ559โฉ โ Forgive me that I felt forsaken. Forgive me that I kept mistaking too many others for you. โ โจ560โฉ โ Real tenderness canโt be confused, itโs quiet and canโt be heard. โ โจ561โฉ โ What else lived in that house besides us? โ โจ562โฉ โ How unhappy we are together! โ โจ563โฉ โ I defend not my voice, but my silence. โ โจ564โฉ โ Without love, I'm more at ease, I'm sure. โ โจ565โฉ โ I've got no more tears or explanations. โ โจ566โฉ โ Iโm not complaining. Happiness is not for me. โ โจ567โฉ โ Are you not the only tie between good and evil, earthly pits and paradise? โ โจ568โฉ โ In the morning we shall find out who has died in the night. โ โจ569โฉ โ I was not a lovable child, and I've grown into a deeply unlovable adult. โ โจ570โฉ โ The truly frightening flaw in humanity is our capacity for cruelty - we all have it. โ โจ571โฉ โ I have a meanness inside me, real as an organ. Slit me at my belly and it might slide out, meaty and dark. โ โจ572โฉ โ I am not angry or sad or happy to see you. I could not give a shit. You don't even ripple. โ โจ573โฉ โ I was raised feral, and I mostly stayed that way. โ โจ574โฉ โ I can feel a better version of me somewhere in there - hidden behind a liver or attached to a bit of spleen. But the meanness usually wins out. โ โจ575โฉ โ I felt something loosen in me, that shouldn't have loosened. A stitch come undone. โ โจ576โฉ โ Everyone who keeps a secret, itches to tell it. โ โจ577โฉ โ Coffee goes great with sudden death. โ โจ578โฉ โ I should just listen to my gut and then do the opposite. โ โจ579โฉ โ โSmile, it can't be that bad!โ Yeah, actually, it can, jackwad. โ โจ580โฉ โ Everything bad in the world already did happen. โ โจ581โฉ โ Youโre going to find peace? Like knowing is somehow going to fix you? โ โจ582โฉ โ Instead of asking yourself what happened, just accept that it happened. โ โจ583โฉ โ Homesick for a place I've never been. โ โจ584โฉ โ Worries find you easily enough without inviting them. โ โจ585โฉ โ It is always consoling to think of suicide. It's what gets one through many a bad night. โ โจ586โฉ โ Do you understand this is serious? โ โจ587โฉ โ Sometimes it feels good to fuck with something. Instead of always being fucked with. โ โจ588โฉ โ How could you kill something you cared enough to name? โ โจ589โฉ โ Draw a picture of my soul, and itโd be a scribble with fangs. โ โจ590โฉ โ We have the same chemicals in our blood: shame, anger, greed. Unjustified nostalgia. โ โจ591โฉ โ I appreciate a straightforward apology the way a tone-deaf person enjoys a fine piece of music. โ โจ592โฉ โ The phrase fuck you may not rest on the tip of my tongue, but itโs near. Midtongue. โ โจ593โฉ โ Nothing to it but to do it. โ โจ594โฉ โ There are a lot of people who deserve a lesson, deserve to really understand, that nothing comes easy, that most things are going to go sour. โ โจ595โฉ โ If ifs and buts were candies and nuts weโd all have a very Merry Christmas. โ โจ596โฉ โ Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. โ โจ597โฉ โ What does it do to a girl who knows her mother is a murderer? โ โจ598โฉ โ That mean old bitch across the street bit it. โ โจ599โฉ โ Survival is a talent. โ โจ600โฉ โ Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret. Itโs you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever. โ โจ601โฉ โ Who has the courage to burn themselves? โ โจ602โฉ โ Is insanity just a matter of dropping the act? โ โจ603โฉ โ Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? โ โจ604โฉ โ You need to be well fed, clothed, and housed to have time for this much self-pity. โ โจ605โฉ โ When I am supposed to be awake, I am asleep; when I am supposed to speak, I am silent. When a pleasure offers itself to me, I avoid it. โ โจ606โฉ โ There is thought, and then there is thinking about thoughts, and they don't feel the same. โ โจ607โฉ โ In a strange way we are free. We've reached the end of the line. We have nothing more to lose. โ โจ608โฉ โ The world wonโt stop because we arenโt in it anymore. โ โจ609โฉ โ I can't answer the real question. All I can tell you is, it's easy. โ โจ610โฉ โ I am lighter, airier than Iโve been in years. โ โจ611โฉ โ I am not dead, yet something in me definitely is. โ โจ612โฉ โ You meant that as an insult but I am taking it as a compliment. โ โจ613โฉ โ What life can recover from that? โ โจ614โฉ โ It's a fairly accurate portrait of me. It's accurate but it isn't profound. โ โจ615โฉ โ Pull yourself together! There's nothing wrong with you. โ โจ616โฉ โ It's quiet. It's likeโ I don't know. It's like falling off a cliff. โ โจ617โฉ โ Once you start parsing a face, it's a peculiar item: squishy, pointy, with lots of air vents and wet spots. โ โจ618โฉ โ I lost him. I did it on purpose. โ โจ619โฉ โ Itโs a mean world. Thereโs nobody to take care of you out there. โ โจ620โฉ โ Reality is getting too dense. โ โจ621โฉ โ I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favourite word. โ โจ622โฉ โ I can't come up with reassuring answers to the terrible questions you raise. โ โจ623โฉ โ A spring day, the sort that gives people hope: all soft winds and delicate smells of warm earth. Suicide weather. โ โจ624โฉ โ Twenty-five chocolate chip cookies would be the perfect dinner. โ โจ625โฉ โ A thought is a hard thing to control. โ โจ626โฉ โ Life demands skills I donโt have. โ โจ627โฉ โ Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did. We wish the sun could make us young and beautiful. Most of all, we wish that everyone we knew could be brightened simply by our looking at them. โ โจ628โฉ โ It never stops, even at night, itโs my lullaby. โ โจ629โฉ โ Love blurs your vision; but after it recedes, you can see more clearly than ever. โ โจ630โฉ โ This is the kind of thing you see if you sit in the darkness with open eyes. โ โจ631โฉ โ I have done something wrong, something so huge I can't even see it, something that's drowning me. โ โจ632โฉ โ Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. โ โจ633โฉ โ Hatred is easier. Hatred is clear, metallic, one-handed, unwavering; unlike love. โ โจ634โฉ โ Potential has a shelf life. โ โจ635โฉ โ Donโt move. Stay like that, let me have that. โ โจ636โฉ โ I have come to the edge, of the land. I could get pushed over. โ โจ637โฉ โ Never pray for justice, because you might get some. โ โจ638โฉ โ It disturbs me to learn I have hurt someone unintentionally. I want all my hurts to be intentional. โ โจ639โฉ โ We have been shark to one another, but also lifeboat. That counts for something. โ โจ640โฉ โ This is what I miss, not something thatโs gone, but something that will never happen. โ โจ641โฉ โ I am not good. I know too much to be good. I know myself. I know myself to be vengeful, greedy, secretive and sly. โ โจ642โฉ โ You are amazing. Amazing and agonising and almost lethal. โ โจ643โฉ โ In my dreams of this city I am always lost. โ โจ644โฉ โ I don't know where these feelings have come from, I donโt know what I've done. โ โจ645โฉ โ I am not the centre of your story, you are. ย โ โจ646โฉ โ Iโm mad because youโre an asshole. โ โจ647โฉ โ It's enormously pleasing to me, walking away. It's like being able to make people appear and vanish, at will. โ โจ648โฉ โ There is never only one of anyone. โ โจ649โฉ โ I can't do this without feeling I'm acting. โ โจ650โฉ โ I am prepared for almost anything; except absence, except silence. โ โจ651โฉ โ Iโm losing my appetite for strangers. โ โจ652โฉ โ You wear your cravings on the outside, like the suckers on a squid. You want it all. โ โจ653โฉ โ Knowing too much about other people weakens you. You are forced to understand their reasons for doing things. โ โจ654โฉ โ I have lost confidence: perhaps all I will ever be is what I am now. โ โจ655โฉ โ Echoes of light, shining out of the midst of nothing. It's old light, and there's not much of it. But it's enough to see by. โ โจ656โฉ โ Whoever cares the most will lose. โ โจ657โฉ โ Young women need unfairness, itโs one of their few defences. ย โ โจ658โฉ โ Time has gone on without you. โ โจ659โฉ โ Don't let the bastards grind you down. โ โจ660โฉ โ Who can remember pain, once itโs over? Pain marks you, but too deep to see. Out of sight, out of mind. โ โจ661โฉ โ Better never means better for everyone. It always means worse, for some. โ โจ662โฉ โ There is more than one kind of freedom. Freedom to and freedom from. โ โจ663โฉ โ Remember that forgiveness too is a power. โ โจ664โฉ โ I am not your justification for existence. โ โจ665โฉ โ I want to be valued, in ways that I am not; I want to be more than valuable. โ โจ666โฉ โ If it's a story I'm telling, then I have control over the ending. โ โจ667โฉ โ All you have to do is keep your mouth shut and look stupid. It shouldn't be that hard. โ โจ668โฉ โ Truly amazing, what people can get used to, as long as there are a few compensations. โ โจ669โฉ โ I want everything back, the way it was. โ โจ670โฉ โ You can't help what you feel, but you can help how you behave. โ โจ671โฉ โ Nothing changes instantaneously: in a gradually heating bathtub you'd be boiled to death before you knew it. โ โจ672โฉ โ To want is to have a weakness. โ โจ673โฉ โ There isn't even an enemy you could put your finger on. โ โจ674โฉ โ The past is a great darkness, filled with echoes. โ โจ675โฉ โ Ordinary is what you are used to. This may not seem ordinary to you now, but after a time it will. It will become ordinary. โ โจ676โฉ โ I wish this story were different. I wish it were more civilised. I wish it showed me in a better light. โ โจ677โฉ โ The night is mine, my own time, to do with it as I will, as long as I am quiet. As long as I don't move. As long as I lie still. โ โจ678โฉ โ By telling you anything at all I'm at least believing in you. โ โจ679โฉ โ Whatever is silenced will clamour to be heard. โ โจ680โฉ โ Don't worry about forgiving me right now. There are more important things. โ โจ681โฉ โ Keep the others safe. Don't let them suffer too much. If they have to die, let it be fast. โ โจ682โฉ โ The body is so easily damaged, so easily disposed of, water and chemicals is all it is, hardly more to it than a jellyfish, drying on sand. โ โจ683โฉ โ The world is full of weapons if you're looking for them. โ โจ684โฉ โ Nobody's heart is perfect. โ โจ685โฉ โ One false move and I'm dead. โ โจ686โฉ โ Watch out. I've got my eye on you. โ โจ687โฉ โ Fear is a powerful stimulant. โ โจ688โฉ โ I couldn't afford to lose you. โ โจ689โฉ โ Name one hero who was happy. ---- You canโt. โ โจ690โฉ โ I feel like I could eat the world raw. โ โจ691โฉ โ We are like gods at the dawning of the world. โ โจ692โฉ โ I could recognise him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world. โ โจ693โฉ โ There are no bargains between lion and men. I will kill you and eat you raw. โ โจ694โฉ โ You can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature. โ โจ695โฉ โ He is a weapon, a killer. Do not forget it. โ โจ696โฉ โ Some men gain glory after they die, others fade. โ โจ697โฉ โ I am made of memories. โ โจ698โฉ โ Will you come with me? โ โจ699โฉ โ I wish I had let you all die. โ โจ700โฉ โ It is right to seek peace for the dead. You and I both know there is no peace for those who live after. โ โจ701โฉ โ Bury us. Let us be free. โ โจ702โฉ โ Go. He waits for you. โ โจ703โฉ โ Nothing could eclipse the stain of this dirty, mortal mediocrity. โ โจ704โฉ โ I know I have told you of this. โ โจ705โฉ โ I don't know how you remember them all. I swear they look the same to me. โ โจ706โฉ โ Perhaps you should get some new stories, so I donโt fucking kill myself of boredom. โ โจ707โฉ โ I yearn for the darkness and silence of the underworld, where I can rest. โ โจ708โฉ โ There is no honour in betraying your friends. โ โจ709โฉ โ There is no answer. Whichever you choose, you are wrong. โ โจ710โฉ โ Divine blood flows differently. โ โจ711โฉ โ How is there glory in taking life? We die so easily. โ โจ712โฉ โ This is what I will miss, I think. I will kill myself rather than miss it. โ โจ713โฉ โ How long do we have? โ โจ714โฉ โ Do you think we fight hopeless wars? โ โจ715โฉ โ There is no law that gods must be fair. โ โจ716โฉ โ I do not fear ridicule. I never have. โ โจ717โฉ โ You were always better with words than I. โ โจ718โฉ โ Who can be ashamed to lose to such beauty? โ โจ719โฉ โ When you see beauty in desolation it changes something inside you. โ โจ720โฉ โ That's how the madness of the world tries to colonise you: from the outside in, forcing you to live in its reality. โ โจ721โฉ โ The shadows of the abyss are like the petals of a monstrous flower that shall blossom within the skull and expand the mind beyond what any man can bear. โ โจ722โฉ โ Silence creates violence. โ โจ723โฉ โ Some questions will ruin you if you are denied the answer long enough. โ โจ724โฉ โ There are certain kinds of connections that are so deep that when broken you feel the snap of it inside you. โ โจ725โฉ โ Nothing that ever lived and breathed was truly objectiveโeven in a vacuum, even if all that possessed the brain was a self-immolating desire for the truth. โ โจ726โฉ โ We all live in a kind of continuous dream. โ โจ727โฉ โ You can either waste time worrying about a death that might not come or concentrate on whatโs left to you. โ โจ728โฉ โ What can you do when your five senses are not enough? โ โจ729โฉ โ We will neither be what we had been nor what we would become once we reach our destination. โ โจ730โฉ โ Perhaps my only real expertise, my only talent, is to endure beyond the endurable. โ โจ731โฉ โ When you are too close to the centre of a mystery there is no way to pull back. โ โจ732โฉ โ I long ago stopped believing in promises. Biological imperatives, yes. Environmental factors, yes. Promises, no. โ โจ733โฉ โ I look not for shooting stars but for fixed ones, and I try to imagine what kind of life lives in those celestial tidal pools so far from us. โ โจ734โฉ โ I hesitated for just a moment. Some part of me wanted to see the creature, I think. If so, it was a very small part. I ran. โ โจ735โฉ โ I donโt require any of this to have a deeper meaning. โ โจ736โฉ โ All of this speculation is incomplete, inexact, inaccurate, useless. โ โจ737โฉ โ We donโt have real answers, because we still donโt know what questions to ask. Our instruments are useless, our methodology broken, our motivations selfish. โ โจ738โฉ โ This part I will do alone. Donโt follow. โ โจ739โฉ โ People my entire life have told me I am too much in control, but that has never been the case. I have never truly been in control. โ โจ740โฉ โ Has there always been someone like me to bury the bodies, to have regrets, to carry on after everyone else was dead? โ โจ741โฉ โ I loved them, but I didnโt need them, and I thought that was the way it was supposed to be. โ โจ742โฉ โ Places can impress themselves upon me, and I can become part of them with ease. โ โจ743โฉ โ There is no one with me. I am all by myself. โ โจ744โฉ โ Pretending often leads to becoming a reasonable facsimile of what you mimic. โ โจ745โฉ โ I think you're confusing suicide with self-destruction, and they're very different. Almost none of us commit suicide, whereas almost all of us self-destruct. โ โจ746โฉ โ What did you eat? You had rations for only two weeks. You were there for nearly four months. โ โจ747โฉ โ Something here is making giant waves in the gene pool. โ โจ748โฉ โ I need to know whatโs inside. โ โจ749โฉ โ These aren't decisions. They're impulses โ โจ750โฉ โ What do you think I do when youโre away? Do you think Iโm out in the garden pinning, looking up at the sky? โ โจ751โฉ โ If I know whatโs happened I can save their life. โ โจ752โฉ โ They either went crazy or something in here killed them. โ โจ753โฉ โ Something is coming through the fence! โ โจ754โฉ โ Nothing is written in the stars. Not these stars, nor any others. No one controls your destiny. โ โจ755โฉ โ People who claim that they're evil are usually no worse than the rest of us. โ โจ756โฉ โ Happy endings are still endings. โ โจ757โฉ โ We believe in all sorts of things that aren't true; -- we call it history. โ โจ758โฉ โ Does the devil ever struggle to be good again, or if so is he not a devil? โ โจ759โฉ โ In the lives of children, pumpkins turn into coaches, mice and rats turn into men. When we grow up, we realise it is far more common for men to turn into rats. โ โจ760โฉ โ Girls need cold anger. They need the cold simmer, the ceaseless grudge, the talent to avoid forgiveness, the side stepping of compromise. ย โ โจ761โฉ โ Love makes hunters of us all. โ โจ762โฉ โ There is much to hate in this world and way too much to love. โ โจ763โฉ โ You confuse not speaking with not listening. โ โจ764โฉ โ As long as people are going to call you a lunatic anyway, why not get the benefit of it? It liberates you from convention. โ โจ765โฉ โ The eye is always caught by light, but shadows have more to say. โ โจ766โฉ โ Not everyone is born a witch or a saint. Not everyone is born talented, or crooked, or blessed; some are born definite in no particular at all. โ โจ767โฉ โ We are a fountain of shimmering contradictions, most of us. โ โจ768โฉ โ The wickedness of men is that their power breeds stupidity and blindness. โ โจ769โฉ โ I know you don't want to hear this but someone has to say it! You are out of control! โ โจ770โฉ โ Even at the very worst - there is always choice. โ โจ771โฉ โ Maybe the definition of home is the place where you are never forgiven. So you may always belong there, bound by guilt. And maybe the cost of belonging is worth it. โ โจ772โฉ โ Cross a man and you struggle, one of you wins, you adjust and go on -- or you lie there dead. Cross a woman and the entire universe is changed. โ โจ773โฉ โ That was such a wonderful time, even in its strangeness and sadness. Life isn't the same now. It's wonderful, but it isn't the same. โ โจ774โฉ โ I don't care for approval, and I don't mind doing without. โ โจ775โฉ โ It's where I live. A permanent state of bereavement. This is nothing new. โ โจ776โฉ โ Always the bridesmaid, never the bride. Always the godfather, never the god. โ โจ777โฉ โ The world unwraps itself to you, again and again as soon as you are ready to see it anew. โ โจ778โฉ โ Evil is an act, not an appetite. Everyone has the appetite. If you give in to it, that act is evil. The appetite is normal. โ โจ779โฉ โ How many haven't wanted to slash the throat of some boor across the dining room table? ย โ โจ780โฉ โ Even God used silence as a strategy. โ โจ781โฉ โ I learned failure early and mastered it. โ โจ782โฉ โ It isn't whether you do it well or ill, it's that you do it all. โ โจ783โฉ โ This is why you shouldn't fall in love, it blinds you. Love is a very wicked distraction. โ โจ784โฉ โ Wisdom is not the understanding of mystery. Wisdom is accepting that mystery is beyond understanding. That's what makes it mystery. โ โจ785โฉ โ Wrong takes an awful long time to be proven, in my experience. โ โจ786โฉ โ Such brightness, as you know, decays brilliantly. โ โจ787โฉ โ I take responsibility only for the future, not the past. The past can't hurt you the way the future can. โ โจ788โฉ โ Tell me to mind my own business, tell me to go fuck myself, to piss off, go on, say it, but donโt tell me nothingโs wrong. โ โจ789โฉ โ The truth isn't a thing of fact or reason. It is simply what everyone agrees on. โ โจ790โฉ โ One can't make peace with another by force. โ โจ791โฉ โ I am a forgettable leaf on a tree. โ โจ792โฉ โ That's all I want; --- to do no harm. โ โจ793โฉ โ I only believe in the opposite of luck, whatever that is. โ โจ794โฉ โ Human beings are not born once and for all on the day their mothers give birth to them, life obliges them over and over again to give birth to themselves. โ โจ795โฉ โ Youโre too young to know that the heart's memory eliminates the bad and magnifies the good, and thanks to that we manage to endure the burden of the past. โ โจ796โฉ โ Love, no matter what else it might be, is a natural talent. You are either born knowing how, or you never know. โ โจ797โฉ โ Whatever you do, you will be sorry all the rest of your life. โ โจ798โฉ โ There is no God worth worrying about. โ โจ799โฉ โ The only regret I will have in dying is if it is not for love. โ โจ800โฉ โ Wisdom comes to us when it can no longer do any good. โ โจ801โฉ โ Think of love as a state of grace, not the means to anything, but the very end in itself. โ โจ802โฉ โ Only God knows how much I love you. โ โจ803โฉ โ There is no greater glory than to die for love. โ โจ804โฉ โ Nothing resembles a person as much as the way he dies. โ โจ805โฉ โ Take advantage of it now, while you are young, and suffer all you can, because these things don't last your whole life. โ โจ806โฉ โ Today, when I saw you, I realised that what is between us is nothing more than an illusion. โ โจ807โฉ โ I have waited for this opportunity for more than half a century. โ โจ808โฉ โ I want to be myself again, to recover all that I was obliged to give up. โ โจ809โฉ โ The only thing worse than bad health is a bad name. โ โจ810โฉ โ This soup tastes like windows. โ โจ811โฉ โ Why do you insist on talking about what does not exist? โ โจ812โฉ โ One has to live a long time to know a man's true nature. โ โจ813โฉ โ No, not rich, I am a poor man with money, which is not the same thing. โ โจ814โฉ โ My heart has more rooms than a whorehouse. โ โจ815โฉ โ That may be the reason he does so many things, so that he will not have to think. โ โจ816โฉ โ Love if it exists, is something separate: another life. โ โจ817โฉ โ Things did not go as badly for me as they would for you. โ โจ818โฉ โ There are things you do only for love. โ โจ819โฉ โ Iโll have plenty of time to rest when I die. โ โจ820โฉ โ There is no innocence more dangerous than the innocence of age. โ โจ821โฉ โ You treat me as if I were just anybody. โ โจ822โฉ โ The symptoms of love are the same as those of cholera. โ โจ823โฉ โ There is no law, human or divine, that you have not ignored. โ โจ824โฉ โ Why is it that I feel I've known you so many years? โ โจ825โฉ โ Stuff your eyes with wonder, live as if you'd drop dead in ten seconds. See the world. It's more fantastic than any dream made or paid for in factories. โ โจ826โฉ โ It doesn't matter what you do, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that's like you after you take your hands away. โ โจ827โฉ โ We need to be really bothered once in a while. How long is it since you were really bothered? About something important, about something real? โ โจ828โฉ โ There must be something, something we canโt imagine, to make a woman stay in a burning house; there must be something there. You donโt stay for nothing. โ โจ829โฉ โ If you hide your ignorance, no one will hit you and you'll never learn. โ โจ830โฉ โ If you drown, at least die knowing you were heading for shore. โ โจ831โฉ โ You can't make people listen. They have to come round in their own time, wondering what happened and why the world blew up around them. โ โจ832โฉ โ It was a pleasure to burn. โ โจ833โฉ โ I'm antisocial, they say. I don't mix. It's so strange. I'm very social indeed. It all depends on what you mean by social, doesn't it? โ โจ834โฉ โ Being with people is nice. But I don't think it's social to get a bunch of people together and then not let them talk, do you? โ โจ835โฉ โ Do you notice how people hurt each other nowadays? โ โจ836โฉ โ Who knows who might be the target of the well-read man? โ โจ837โฉ โ I don't talk things. I talk the meaning of things. โ โจ838โฉ โ I'll hold on to the world tight some day. I've got one finger on it now; that's a beginning. โ โจ839โฉ โ I just want someone to hear what I have to say. And maybe if I talk long enough it'll make sense. โ โจ840โฉ โ That's the good part of dying; when you've nothing to lose, you run any risk you want. โ โจ841โฉ โ Someday we'll build the biggest goddamn steamshovel in history and dig the biggest grave of all time and shove war in it and cover it up. โ โจ842โฉ โ You're not like the others. I've seen a few; I know. When I talk, you look at me. โ โจ843โฉ โ You're afraid of making mistakes. Don't be. Mistakes can be profited by. โ โจ844โฉ โ When they give you lined paper, write the other way. โ โจ845โฉ โ The sun burnt every day. It burnt time. โ โจ846โฉ โ We have everything we need to be happy but we aren't happy. Something is missing. โ โจ847โฉ โ I feel I'm doing what I should've done a lifetime ago. โ โจ848โฉ โ I'm not afraid. Maybe it's because I'm doing the right thing at last. Maybe it's because I've done a rash thing and don't want to look the coward to you. โ โจ849โฉ โ Good God, who were those men? I never saw them before in my life! โ โจ850โฉ โ How do you get so empty? Who takes it out of you? โ โจ851โฉ โ It must be right. It seems so right. โ โจ852โฉ โ To everything there is a season. Yes. A time to break down, and a time to build up. A time to keep silence and a time to speak. โ โจ853โฉ โ It's my game. And no one can help me. Not even you. โ โจ854โฉ โ What makes earth feel like hell is our expectation that it should feel like heaven. Earth is earth. Dead is dead. Youโll find out for yourself soon enough. โ โจ855โฉ โ Death is a long process. Your body is just the first part of you that croaks. Beyond that, your dreams have to die. Then your expectations. Your anger and memories must die. Your ego. Your pride and shame and ambition and hope. โ โจ856โฉ โ Help me give up my addiction to hope. โ โจ857โฉ โ Life is short, death is forever. โ โจ858โฉ โ Hope is something really tough and tenacious you have to give up. Itโs an addiction to break. โ โจ859โฉ โ If the living are haunted by the dead, then the dead are haunted by their own mistakes. โ โจ860โฉ โ We all wish to be pursued. We all long to be desired. โ โจ861โฉ โ All the demons of hell formerly reigned as gods in previous cultures. No it's not fair, but one man's god is another man's devil. โ โจ862โฉ โ I can become someone else, not out of pressure and desperation, but merely because a new life sounds fun or interesting or joyful. โ โจ863โฉ โ It's my petty fear of personal rejection that allows so many true evils to exist. My cowardice enables atrocities. โ โจ864โฉ โ You fucked up. Game over. So just relax. โ โจ865โฉ โ The greatest weapon any warrior can carry into battle is absolute certainty of her eternal soul. โ โจ866โฉ โ If killing you will end my existence as well, be it. Small loss. Such a life, as your puppet, is not worth living. โ โจ867โฉ โ I might be a touch of a sadist and a little bit jejune but at least I'm not a victim, not any longer. I hope. โ โจ868โฉ โ Dying seems like the greatest weakness, and in a world where people say you're lazy for not shaving your legs, then being dead seems like the ultimate character flaw. โ โจ869โฉ โ Any concept of right versus wrong, is merely a cultural construct relative to one specific time and place. โ โจ870โฉ โ To prove that I exist I must kill you. โ โจ871โฉ โ I'd say that my life has been a way-too-long case history of chasing rainbows. โ โจ872โฉ โ The world is a battle for attention, a war to be heard. โ โจ873โฉ โ Every garden looks beautiful in May. โ โจ874โฉ โ When we neglect to fear such brittle monstrosity, we render it powerless. โ โจ875โฉ โ My taste for power continues to grow, as does my ability to accrue it. โ โจ876โฉ โ Such language! Why don't you just take a dump in my ears? โ โจ877โฉ โ Youโd be foolish to count on people displaying high standards of honesty. โ โจ878โฉ โ Depending on her mood, she can be more frightening than any demon or devil you might ever run across. โ โจ879โฉ โ Cross your fingers! Maybe death won't happen to you. โ โจ880โฉ โ Do not die while wearing cheap shoes. โ โจ881โฉ โ Old habits die hard. โ โจ882โฉ โ It's our attachments to a fixed identity that torture us. โ โจ883โฉ โ What do I think I am? In a thousand words; I don't have a clue. โจ884โฉ โ If I am to be saved it is because your love redeems me. โ โจ885โฉ โ All I wanted was to be loved for myself. โ โจ886โฉ โ I have tasted all the happiness the world can offer. โ โจ887โฉ โ Shall we pity him? Shall we curse him? โ โจ888โฉ โ You have a heart that can hold the entire empire of the world. โ โจ889โฉ โ Look, I am not laughing now, crying, crying for you. โ โจ890โฉ โ Tonight I gave you my soul, and I am dead. โ โจ891โฉ โ You are afraid of me! And yet I am not really wicked. Love me and you shall see! โ โจ892โฉ โ Are people so unhappy when they love? --- Yes, when they love and are not sure of being loved. โ โจ893โฉ โ Your soul is a beautiful thing. No emperor received so fair a gift. The angels wept tonight. โ โจ894โฉ โ Blood!...Blood!... That's a good thing! โ โจ895โฉ โ Now I want to live like everybody else. I want to have a life like everybody else. โ โจ896โฉ โ You will be the happiest of women. And we will sing, all by ourselves, till we swoon away with delight. โ โจ897โฉ โ I should be as gentle as a lamb; and you could do anything with me that you pleased. โ โจ898โฉ โ I am going to die of love, I am dying of love. That's how it is. I loved you so. I still love you so. โ โจ899โฉ โ I am dying of love for her, I tell you! If only you knew how beautiful she was when she let me kiss her. โ โจ900โฉ โ He fills me with horror but I do not hate him. How can I hate him? โ โจ901โฉ โ Holy angel, in Heaven blessed, my spirit longs with thee to rest. โ โจ902โฉ โ Nothing is colder or more dead than my heart. โ โจ903โฉ โ I had loved an angel and now I despise a woman. โ โจ904โฉ โ Our lives are one masked ball. โ โจ905โฉ โ Why do you condemn a man whom you have never met, whom no one knows and about whom even you yourself know nothing? โ โจ906โฉ โ He would commit murder for me. โ โจ907โฉ โ If I don't save her from the hands of that humbug, she is lost. But I shall save her. โ โจ908โฉ โ We will go from here together or die together. โ โจ909โฉ โ Your fear, your terror, all of that is just love and love of the most exquisite kind, the kind which people do not admit even to themselves. The kind that gives you a thrill, when you think of it. โ โจ910โฉ โ Destiny has chained you to me forever. โ โจ911โฉ โ You must never ask me that. โ โจ912โฉ โ Are you afraid that you will change your mind? โ โจ913โฉ โ You must come and fetch me in my dressing room at midnight exactly. โ โจ914โฉ โ The holes in your life are permanent. You have to grow around them, like tree roots around concrete; you mould yourself through the gaps. โ โจ915โฉ โ I have never understood how people can blithely disregard the damage they do by following their hearts. โ โจ916โฉ โ Thereโs something comforting about the sight of strangers safe at home. โ โจ917โฉ โ I have lost control over everything, even the places in my head. โ โจ918โฉ โ Itโs possible to miss what youโve never had, to even mourn for it. โ โจ919โฉ โ Thereโs nothing so painful, so corrosive, as suspicion. โ โจ920โฉ โ When did you become so weak? โ โจ921โฉ โ I donโt know where that strength went, I donโt remember losing it. I think that over time it got chipped away, bit by bit, by life, by the living of it. โ โจ922โฉ โ Letโs be honest: women are still only really valued for two thingsโtheir looks and their role as mothers. โ โจ923โฉ โ Sadness gets boring after a while, for the sad person and for everyone around them. โ โจ924โฉ โ Iโm playing at real life instead of actually living it. โ โจ925โฉ โ Iโve just got to let myself feel the pain, because if I donโt, if I keep numbing it, itโll never really go away. โ โจ926โฉ โ I am not the girl I used to be. I am no longer desirable, Iโm off-putting in some way. Itโs as if people can see the damage written all over me, can see it in my face, the way I hold myself, the way I move. โ โจ927โฉ โ Who was it that said following your heart is a good thing? It is pure egotism, a selfishness to conquer all. โ โจ928โฉ โ Itโs impossible to resist the kindness of strangers. โ โจ929โฉ โ Sometimes I catch myself trying to remember the last time I had meaningful physical contact with another person, just a hug or a heartfelt squeeze of my hand, and my heart twitches. โ โจ930โฉ โ I have to find a way of making myself happy, I have to stop looking for happiness elsewhere. โ โจ931โฉ โ How did I find myself here? I wonder where it started, my decline; I wonder at what point I could have halted it. Where did I take the wrong turn? โ โจ932โฉ โ Now look -- Now look what you made me do. โ โจ933โฉ โ Itโs okay, whatever you did, whatever youโve done: you suffered, you hurt, you deserve forgiveness. โ โจ934โฉ โ Theyโre what I lost, theyโre everything I want to be. โ โจ935โฉ โ You broke me and I broke us. โ โจ936โฉ โ Iโve been the fool. If he does it with you, heโll do it to you. โ โจ937โฉ โ Iโd never realised, not until now, how shameful it is to be pitied. โ โจ938โฉ โ Sometimes, I donโt want to go anywhere, I think Iโll be happy if I never have to set foot outside the house again. โ โจ939โฉ โ I donโt believe in soul mates, but thereโs an understanding between us that I just havenโt felt before, or at least, not for a long time. โ โจ940โฉ โ There can be no greater agony, nothing can be more painful than the not knowing, which will never end. โ โจ941โฉ โ Being the other woman is a huge turn-on, thereโs no point in denying it: youโre the one he canโt help but betray his wife for, even though he loves her. Thatโs just how irresistible you are. โ โจ942โฉ โ I feel a rush of gratitude so strong, it feels almost like love. โ โจ943โฉ โ You donโt know how determined I can be. Once Iโve made my mind up, Iโm a force to be reckoned with. โ โจ944โฉ โ The more I want to be oblivious, the less I can be. Life and light will not let me be. โ โจ945โฉ โ You donโt have to be afraid of being alone. Itโs not the worst thing, is it? โ โจ946โฉ โ I have felt this way before. On a larger scale, to a more intense degree, of course, but I remember the quality of the pain. You donโt forget it. โ โจ947โฉ โ If he thinks Iโm going to sit around crying, heโs got another thing coming. โ โจ948โฉ โ I donโt like to lose. Itโs not like me. None of this is like me. I donโt get rejected. Iโm the one who walks away. โ โจ949โฉ โ I donโt remember anger, raging fury. I remember fear. โ โจ950โฉ โ I canโt sleep. I havenโt slept in days. I hate it, hate insomnia more than anything, just lying there, brain going round, tick, tick, tick, tick. โ โจ951โฉ โ Maybe the courage I need has nothing to do with telling the truth and everything to do with walking away. โ โจ952โฉ โ Iโm not beautiful, and I canโt have kids, so what does that make me? Worthless. โ โจ953โฉ โ Failure cloaked me like a mantle, it overwhelmed me, dragged me under and I gave up hope. โ โจ954โฉ โ Itโs an odd thing to say, but I think this all the time; I donโt feel bad enough. โ โจ955โฉ โ Some battles arenโt worth fighting. โ โจ956โฉ โ I never felt guilty. I pretended I did. I had to. โ โจ957โฉ โ I never meant for any of this to happen, we fell in love, what could we do? โ โจ958โฉ โ What bothers me most is that I havenโt got to the end of my story, and I canโt start over with someone else, itโs too hard. โ โจ959โฉ โ A person is, among all else, a material thing, easily torn and not easily mended. โ โจ960โฉ โ It isnโt only wickedness and scheming that make people unhappy, it is confusion and misunderstanding. โ โจ961โฉ โ Falling in love can be achieved in a single wordโa glance. โ โจ962โฉ โ Though you think the world is at your feet, it can rise up and tread on you. โ โจ963โฉ โ Iโve never had a momentโs doubt. I love you. I believe in you completely. You are my dearest one. My reason for life. โ โจ964โฉ โ It might hurt, it is horribly inconvenient, no good might come of it, but it is what it is to be in love. โ โจ965โฉ โ It was always an impossible task, and that was precisely the point. โ โจ966โฉ โ Come back, come back to me. โ โจ967โฉ โ In my thoughts I make love to you all day long. โ โจ968โฉ โ The truth is I feel rather light headed and foolish in your presence and I donโt think I can blame the heat. โ โจ969โฉ โ Beauty occupies a narrow band. Ugliness, on the other hand, has infinite variation. โ โจ970โฉ โ Is there any meaning in my life that the inevitable death awaiting me does not destroy? โ โจ971โฉ โ However, withered, I still feel myself to be exactly the same person Iโve always been. โ โจ972โฉ โ Hate is a feeling as pure as love, but dispassionate and icily rational. โ โจ973โฉ โ Iโm going mad. Let me not be mad. โ โจ974โฉ โ Is everyone really as alive as I am? โ โจ975โฉ โ Every now and then, quite unintentionally, someone teaches you something about yourself. โ โจ976โฉ โ Something has happened, hasnโt it? โ โจ977โฉ โ I like to think that it isnโt weakness or evasion, but a final act of kindness. โ โจ978โฉ โ Is it possible that I am, in the modern term, in denial? โ โจ979โฉ โ How could anyone presume to know the world through the eyes of an insect? โ โจ980โฉ โ Not everything has a cause. Some things are simply so. โ โจ981โฉ โ Iโll be quite honest with you. Iโm torn between breaking your neck here and throwing you down the stairs. โ โจ982โฉ โ How old do you have to be before you know the difference between right and wrong? โ โจ983โฉ โ It was never meant to be read. โ โจ984โฉ โ If I fell in the river, would you save me? โ โจ985โฉ โ That was an incredibly bloody stupid thing to do. โ โจ986โฉ โ I want to thank you for saving my life. Iโll be eternally grateful to you. โ โจ987โฉ โ Iโm very, very sorry for the terrible distress that I have caused. Iโm very, very sorry. โ โจ988โฉ โ Donโt call me that! โ Please donโt call me that. โ โจ989โฉ โ It may be the wrong decision, but fuck it, itโs mine. โ โจ990โฉ โ Like patience, passion comes from the same Latin root: pati. It does not mean to flow with exuberance. It means to suffer. โ โจ991โฉ โ No one ever really gets used to nightmares. โ โจ992โฉ โ I still get nightmares. In fact, I get them so often I should be used to them by now. Iโm not. โ โจ993โฉ โ Sublime is something you choke on after a shot of tequila. โ โจ994โฉ โ Some people reflect light, some deflect it, you by some miracle, seem to collect it. โ โจ995โฉ โ Beautiful women are always drawn to men they think will keep them beautiful. โ โจ996โฉ โ The ruminations are mine, let the world be yours. โ โจ997โฉ โ You will fulfil a promise I made years ago but failed to keep. โ โจ998โฉ โ Darkness never satisfies. Especially if it takes something away which it almost always invariably does. โ โจ999โฉ โ I want something else. Iโm not even sure what to call it anymore. โ โจ1000โฉ โ What can I say, Iโm a sucker for abandoned stuff, misplaced stuff, forgotten stuff, any old stuff. โ โจ1001โฉ โ Is it possible to love something so much, you imagine it wants to destroy you only because it has denied you? โ โจ1002โฉ โ Itโs just silent, no sound at all. Itโs like somethingโs waiting. โ โจ1003โฉ โ I guess Iโm hoping the weapons will make me feel better, grant me some kind of fucking control. โ โจ1004โฉ โ Oh and something else: โ Fuck you. โ โจ1005โฉ โ God Iโve never been afraid like this. โ โจ1006โฉ โ I miss you. I love you. Thereโs no second Iโve lived that you canโt call your own. โ โจ1007โฉ โ Iโm so tired. Sleepโs been stalking me for too long to remember. Inevitable I suppose. โ โจ1008โฉ โ Not seeing the rip doesnโt mean you automatically get to keep clear of the Hey-Iโm-Bleeding part. โ โจ1009โฉ โ These days fantasies flourish and die like summer flies. โ โจ1010โฉ โ Yeah I know, I know. This shitโs getting ridiculous. โ โจ1011โฉ โ โFuckโ and 'fall forโ have very different meanings. The first one you do as much as you can. The second one you never ever, ever do. โ โจ1012โฉ โ Itโs a nice idea but it reeks of hope. False hope. โ โจ1013โฉ โ Itโs, wellโฆone thing in two words: fucked upโฆvery fucked up. Okay three words, four words, who the hell caresโฆvery very fucked up. โ โจ1014โฉ โ Do you think I could spend the night at your place? ย โ โจ1015โฉ โ Any fool can pray. โ โจ1016โฉ โ I feel like I havenโt slept in months. My neighbours are scared of me. โ โจ1017โฉ โ Iโve lost my mind? Maybe, maybe, maybe. Maybe Iโm just really drunk. โ โจ1018โฉ โ Perhaps by cleaning out my system Iโll come to a clearing where I can ease myself into peace. โ โจ1019โฉ โ I should be dead. Why am I still here? โ โจ1020โฉ โ Fuck if I know. Your guess is as good as mine. โ โจ1021โฉ โ You are my flesh. You are my bones. I know you too well. I read you too perfectly. โ โจ1022โฉ โ Not all complex problems have easy solutions. โ โจ1023โฉ โ Do you believe in God? I donโt think I ever asked you that one. โ โจ1024โฉ โ We all create stories to protect ourselves. โ โจ1025โฉ โ Are you kidding me? This place is scary. โ โจ1026โฉ โ These days the only thing that gets me outside is when I say: Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck you. Fuck me. Fuck this. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. โ โจ1027โฉ โ You like that crap because it reminds you of you. โ โจ1028โฉ โ You may suddenly realise things are not how you perceived them to be at all. โ โจ1029โฉ โ The two hardest tests are the patience to wait for the right moment and the courage not to be disappointed with what we encounter. โ โจ1030โฉ โ People never learn anything by being told, they have to find out for themselves. โ โจ1031โฉ โ Be crazy! But learn how to be crazy without being the center of attention. Be brave enough to live different. โ โจ1032โฉ โ You are someone who is different, but who wants to be the same as everyone else. And that in my view is a serious illness. โ โจ1033โฉ โ God chose you to be different. โ โจ1034โฉ โ Why are you disappointing God with this kind of attitude? โ โจ1035โฉ โ You have two choices, to control your mind or to let your mind control you. โ โจ1036โฉ โ Everyone is indeed crazy, but the craziest are the ones who don't know they're crazy; they just keep repeating what others tell them to. โ โจ1037โฉ โ Haven't you learned anything, not even with the approach of death? ย โ โจ1038โฉ โ If people don't like it, they can complain. And if they don't have the courage to complain, that's their problem. โ โจ1039โฉ โ Nothing in this world happens by chance. โ โจ1040โฉ โ I want to continue living my life the way I dream it, and not the way the other people want it to be. โ โจ1041โฉ โ Be like the fountain that overflows, not like the cistern that merely contains. โ โจ1042โฉ โ Collective madness is called sanity. โ โจ1043โฉ โ Consider each day a miracle - which indeed it is, when you consider the number of unexpected things that could happen in each second of our fragile existences. โ โจ1044โฉ โ You say they create their own reality, but what is reality? โ โจ1045โฉ โ Many people don't allow themselves to love because there are a lot of things at risk. A lot of future and a lot of past. โ โจ1046โฉ โ Death frees from the fear of dying. โ โจ1047โฉ โ The danger of an adventure is worth a thousand days of ease and comfort. โ โจ1048โฉ โ The happier people can be, the unhappier they are. โ โจ1049โฉ โ Life is always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act. โ โจ1050โฉ โ It's best to accept life as it really is and not as you imagined it to be. โ โจ1051โฉ โ You don't seem mad at all. โ โจ1052โฉ โ Weโre allowed to make a lot of mistakes in our lives, except the mistake that destroys us. โ โจ1053โฉ โ Youโre what you are, not what others make of you. โ โจ1054โฉ โ Am I cured? โ โจ1055โฉ โ Real love changes and grows with time and discovers new ways of expressing itself. โ โจ1056โฉ โ A lot of people think something is right, and so that thing becomes right. Is that it? โ โจ1057โฉ โ They think they're normal, because they all do the same thing. โ โจ1058โฉ โ I didn't know that other โmeโs existed inside me, โMeโs that I could love. โ โจ1059โฉ โ I have no idea what's awaiting me. โ โจ1060โฉ โ What will happen when this all ends? โ โจ1061โฉ โ I know that you are capable of great deeds. โ โจ1062โฉ โ A loveless world is a dead world, and always there comes an hour when one is weary of prisons, of one's work, and of devotion to duty, and all one craves for is a loved face, the warmth and wonder of a loving heart. โ โจ1063โฉ โ The truth is that everyone is bored. โ โจ1064โฉ โ I feel more fellowship with the defeated than with saints. Heroism and sanctity don't really appeal to me, I imagine. โ โจ1065โฉ โ If there is one thing one can always yearn for, and sometimes attain, it is human love. โ โจ1066โฉ โ Who would dare to assert that eternal happiness can compensate for even a single moment's suffering? โ โจ1067โฉ โ It's not easy. I've been thinking it over for years. โ โจ1068โฉ โ While we loved each other we didn't need words to make ourselves understood. โ โจ1069โฉ โ People are more often bad than good. โ โจ1070โฉ โ I don't believe in heroism; I know it's easy and I've learned that it can be murderous. โ โจ1071โฉ โ What interests me is living and dying for what one loves. โ โจ1072โฉ โ In fact, nobody is capable of really thinking about anyone, even in the worst calamity. โ โจ1073โฉ โ Nothing in the world is worth turning one's back on what one loves. โ โจ1074โฉ โ Again and again there comes a time in history when the man who dares to say that two and two make four is punished with death. โ โจ1075โฉ โ There are more things to admire in men then to despise. โ โจ1076โฉ โ It is in the thick of calamity that one gets hardened to the truth - in other words, to silence. โ โจ1077โฉ โ What on earth prompted you to take a hand in this? โ โจ1078โฉ โ Your code of morals? What code, if I may ask? โ โจ1079โฉ โ I'm fumbling in the dark, struggling to make something out. But I've long ceased finding anything. โ โจ1080โฉ โ No doubt our love is still there, but quite simply it is unusable, heavy to carry, inert inside of us, sterile as crime or condemnation. โ โจ1081โฉ โ Iโm not happy to go, but one needn't be happy to make another start. โ โจ1082โฉ โ I am incapable of suffering for a long time, or being happy for a long time. Which means that I am incapable of anything really worth while. โ โจ1083โฉ โ I should have found the words to keep her with me. โ โจ1084โฉ โ We can't stir a finger in this world without the risk of bringing death to somebody. โ โจ1085โฉ โ The evil that is in the world comes out of ignorance, and good intentions may do as much harm as malevolence, if they lack understanding. โ โจ1086โฉ โ There are always flies and itches. Thatโs why life is difficult to live. โ โจ1087โฉ โ The best protection against anything is a good bottle of wine. โ โจ1088โฉ โ There is no peace without hope. โ โจ1089โฉ โ It's enough for me to be sure that you and I exist at this moment. โ โจ1090โฉ โ There is always something left to love. โ โจ1091โฉ โ A person doesnโt die when he should but when he can. โ โจ1092โฉ โ Things have a life of their own. It's simply a matter of waking up their souls. โ โจ1093โฉ โ Tell me something: why are you fighting? โ โจ1094โฉ โ I've come to realise only just now that I'm fighting because of pride. โ โจ1095โฉ โ One minute of reconciliation is worth more than a whole life of friendship. โ โจ1096โฉ โ It's better than not knowing why you're fighting. Or fighting, like you, for something that doesn't have any meaning for anyone. โ โจ1097โฉ โ Holy Mother of God! โ โจ1098โฉ โ A person does not belong to a place until there is someone dead under the ground. โ โจ1099โฉ โ I was born a son of a bitch and I'm going to die a son of a bitch. โ โจ1100โฉ โ Bad luck doesn't have any chinks in it. โ โจ1101โฉ โ I plead youth as a mitigating circumstance. โ โจ1102โฉ โ Get those bad thoughts out of your head. You're going to be happy. โ โจ1103โฉ โ Children inherit their parents' madness. โ โจ1104โฉ โ I'll turn to ashes in here but I won't give this miserable town the pleasure of seeing me weep. โ โจ1105โฉ โ You would be good in a war. Where you put your eye, you put your bullet. โ โจ1106โฉ โ Men demand much more than you think. โ โจ1107โฉ โ Even the craziest and most persistent love is just a temporary truth. โ โจ1108โฉ โ If weโre alone you can whisper in my ear any crap you can think of. โ โจ1109โฉ โ You have taken this horrible game very seriously and you have done well because you are doing your duty. โ โจ1110โฉ โ We have the right to pull down your pants and give you a whipping at the first sign of disrespect. โ โจ1111โฉ โ What worries me is not your shooting me, because after all, for people like us it's a natural death. โ โจ1112โฉ โ What worries me is that you've ended up as bad as they are. โ โจ1113โฉ โ It is characteristic of men to deny hunger once their appetites are satisfied. โ โจ1114โฉ โ Dying is much more difficult than one imagines. โ โจ1115โฉ โ If you have to go crazy, please go crazy all by yourself! โ โจ1116โฉ โ We have still not had a death. โ โจ1117โฉ โ How awful, the way time passes. โ โจ1118โฉ โ You may be in command of your war, but I'm in command of my house. โ โจ1119โฉ โ I missed you every hour. โ โจ1120โฉ โ You know what the worst part was? It caught me completely by surprise. โ โจ1121โฉ โ Iโve risked my life for you. โ โจ1122โฉ โ The problem with wanting is that it makes us weak. โ โจ1123โฉ โ I love you, even the part of you that loved him. โ โจ1124โฉ โ Iโm sorry it took me so long to see you. โ โจ1125โฉ โ I never really belonged anywhere. โ โจ1126โฉ โ Thanks for being my best friend and making my life bearable. ย โ โจ1127โฉ โ Thanks for finding me. โ โจ1128โฉ โ You and I are going to change the world. โ โจ1129โฉ โ Iโve been waiting for you a long time. โ โจ1130โฉ โ Iโm not used to people trying to kill me. โ โจ1131โฉ โ Youโre shaking. โ โจ1132โฉ โ There's nothing wrong with being a lizard. Unless you were born to be a hawk. โ โจ1133โฉ โ Make me your villain. โ โจ1134โฉ โ Just you and me. Itโs always just you and me. โ โจ1135โฉ โ Do you blame me for every mistake I made? For every dumb thing Iโve said? โ โจ1136โฉ โ Well, if it gets too bad, give me a signal. โ โจ1137โฉ โ Did you tell him what I showed you in the dark? โ โจ1138โฉ โ Did you miss me when you were gone? โ โจ1139โฉ โ What is infinite? The universe and the greed of men. โ โจ1140โฉ โ Youโre interfering with my plan. โ โจ1141โฉ โ Too much champagne? โ โจ1142โฉ โ I hope you donโt expect fairness from me. It isnโt one of my specialties. โ โจ1143โฉ โ There is something more powerful than any army. Something strong enough to topple kings. Faith. โ โจ1144โฉ โ All you said was that I had to kill you. You didnโt say how. โ โจ1145โฉ โ What is she? Sheโs everything, you dumb son of a bitch. โ โจ1146โฉ โ Sheโs an ugly little thing. No child should look like that. Pale and sour, like a glass of milk thatโs turned. โ โจ1147โฉ โ I wouldnโt make that mistake again. โ โจ1148โฉ โ Itโs a great honor, to save a life. You saved many. โ โจ1149โฉ โ In this world, there are things you can only do alone. โ โจ1150โฉ โ What seems like a reasonable distance to one person might feel too far to somebody else. โ โจ1151โฉ โ If you really want to know something, you have to be willing to pay the price. โ โจ1152โฉ โ Why should you be interested in me? โ โจ1153โฉ โ I have been told I've got a darkish personality. A few times. โ โจ1154โฉ โ It's not as if our lives are divided simply into light and dark. There's shadowy middle ground. โ โจ1155โฉ โ I'll write to you. A super-long letter, like in an old-fashioned novel. โ โจ1156โฉ โ The spotlight doesn't suit me. I'm more of a side dish. โ โจ1157โฉ โ The ground we stand on looks solid enough, but if something happens it can drop right out from under you. ย โ โจ1158โฉ โ So once you're dead there's just nothing? โ โจ1159โฉ โ If only I could fall sound asleep and wake up in my old reality. โ โจ1160โฉ โ Is action merely the incidental product of thought, or is thought the consequential product of action? โ โจ1161โฉ โ Nobody can shake off their own shadow. โ โจ1162โฉ โ The silence is so deep it hurts. โ โจ1163โฉ โ I may not look it, but I can be a very patient guy. โ โจ1164โฉ โ Killing time is one of my specialities. โ โจ1165โฉ โ You can't fight it. โ โจ1166โฉ โ Tell me something,โdo you believe in reincarnation? โ โจ1167โฉ โ I canโt understand nothingness. I canโt understand it and I canโt imagine it. โ โจ1168โฉ โ I can hardly breathe, and my whole body wants to shrink into a corner. ย โ โจ1169โฉ โ I do have a few things wrong with me, but those are strictly problems I keep inside. โ โจ1170โฉ โ I can't take it any more, I can't go on any more. โ โจ1171โฉ โ You don't really have it together. โ โจ1172โฉ โ Is it against the law for me to know it? โ โจ1173โฉ โ I keep having the same dream. โ โจ1174โฉ โ Are you asking because you really want an answer? โ โจ1175โฉ โ I hate this! I don't want to be changed this way! โ โจ1176โฉ โ No contradictions, no irony. They do everything according to numerical formulas. โ โจ1177โฉ โ Want to hear the rest? If youโre not interested, I can stop. โ โจ1178โฉ โ If I didnโt have these memories inside me, I wouldโve snapped a long time ago. I wouldโve curled up in a ditch somewhere and died. โ โจ1179โฉ โ I donโt know what youโre feeling. I wonโt even pretend. โ โจ1180โฉ โ What are you doing here, honey? โ โจ1181โฉ โ You're not even old enough to know how bad life gets. โ โจ1182โฉ โ You don't understand me. โ โจ1183โฉ โ All wisdom ends in paradox. โ โจ1184โฉ โ It is love that overthrows empire. Love that binds two hearts together, come hellfire & brimstone. โ โจ1185โฉ โ I have lost my gift. โ โจ1186โฉ โ Winter is the season of alcoholism and despair. โ โจ1187โฉ โ The seeds of death get lost in the mess that God made us. โ โจ1188โฉ โ They're just memories now. Itโs time to forget. โ โจ1189โฉ โ The time has to be right and the heart willing. โ โจ1190โฉ โ The world, a tired performer, offers us another half-assed season. โ โจ1191โฉ โ Capitalism has resulted in material well-being but spiritual bankruptcy. โ โจ1192โฉ โ Grief is natural, overcoming it is a matter of choice. โ โจ1193โฉ โ I want out of that decorating scheme. โ โจ1194โฉ โ With most people suicide is like Russian roulette. Only one chamber has a bullet. โ โจ1195โฉ โ You never get over it but you get where it doesn't bother you so much. โ โจ1196โฉ โ Don't waste your time on life. โ โจ1197โฉ โ I'm a teenager. I've got problems! โ โจ1198โฉ โ Adolescents tend to seek love where they can find it. โ โจ1199โฉ โ Obviously, you've never been a thirteen-year-old girl. โ โจ1200โฉ โ It was a mistake. โ โจ1201โฉ โ It seemed like we were supposed to feel sorry for everything that ever happened, ever. โ โจ1202โฉ โ Buffeted but not broken. โ โจ1203โฉ โ Shit. What have kids got to be worried about now? โ โจ1204โฉ โ If they want trouble, they should go live in Bangladesh. โ โจ1205โฉ โ I can't wait until I get out of here. โ โจ1206โฉ โ When she jumped she probably thought sheโd fly. โ โจ1207โฉ โ I do not think the patient truly meant to end her life. Her act was a cry for help. โ โจ1208โฉ โ You're a stone fox. โ โจ1209โฉ โ It was love at first sight, at last sight, at ever and ever sight. โ โจ1210โฉ โ Light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. โ โจ1211โฉ โ He broke my heart. You merely broke my life. โ โจ1212โฉ โ I'm sorry to have deceived you so much, but that's how life is. โ โจ1213โฉ โ Words without experience are meaningless. โ โจ1214โฉ โ I loved you. I was a monster, but I loved you. โ โจ1215โฉ โ Come just as you are. โ โจ1216โฉ โ If a violin string could ache, i would be that string. โ โจ1217โฉ โ Perhaps, somewhere, some day, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again. โ โจ1218โฉ โ What's so dreadful about dying is that you are completely on your own. โ โจ1219โฉ โ Don't touch me; I'll die if you touch me. โ โจ1220โฉ โ You took advantage of my disadvantage. โ โจ1221โฉ โ I walk in a maze I cannot get out of. โ โจ1222โฉ โ Life is just one small piece of light between two eternal darknesses. โ โจ1223โฉ โ Imagine me; I shall not exist if you do not imagine me. โ โจ1224โฉ โ There is no harm in smiling. โ โจ1225โฉ โ There is no point in staying here. There is no point in staying anywhere. โ โจ1226โฉ โ There is nothing more atrociously cruel than an adored child. โ โจ1227โฉ โ I am so tired of being cynical. โ โจ1228โฉ โ Come to live with me, and die with me, and everything with me. โ โจ1229โฉ โ This is the only immortality that you and I may share. โ โจ1230โฉ โ I loved her more than anything I had ever seen or imagined on earth, or hoped for anywhere else. โ โจ1231โฉ โ I was despicable and brutal, and turpid, and everything, mais je tโaimais, je tโaimais! โ โจ1232โฉ โ Years of secret suffering has taught me superhuman self-control. โ โจ1233โฉ โ Solitude is corrupting me. I need company and care. โ โจ1234โฉ โ I've missed you terribly. โ โจ1235โฉ โ I've been revoltingly unfaithful to you. โ โจ1236โฉ โ It doesn't matter a bit, because you've stopped caring anyway. โ โจ1237โฉ โ What makes you say I've stopped caring for you? โ โจ1238โฉ โ Nowadays you have to be a scientist if you want to be a killer. โ โจ1239โฉ โ The sun climbs high in the sky, then starts down. People come, then go. โ โจ1240โฉ โ Tell me, have you ever thought of killing me? โ โจ1241โฉ โ I can not believe you are the same human being. โ โจ1242โฉ โ Just how urgent is it? โ โจ1243โฉ โ It is time for you to be going. โ โจ1244โฉ โ How is it you know something like that? โ โจ1245โฉ โ I donโt mind. Your mess is my mess. โ โจ1246โฉ โ Everybody has one thing they do not want to lose. โ โจ1247โฉ โ Iโll be late tonight, so donโt wait up for me. โ โจ1248โฉ โ Nothing Iโve tried to do by myself has ever come off. โ โจ1249โฉ โ I am not catching you in the middle of anything important, am I? โ โจ1250โฉ โ Some things are forgotten, some things disappear, some things die. โ โจ1251โฉ โ My biggest fault is that the faults I was born with grow bigger each year. โ โจ1252โฉ โ To get irritated is to lose our way in life. โ โจ1253โฉ โ A friend to kill time is a friend sublime. โ โจ1254โฉ โ I don't really know if it's the right thing to do. โ โจ1255โฉ โ Faster cars and more cats run over? Who needs it? โ โจ1256โฉ โ Most of everything you think you know about me is nothing more than memories. โ โจ1257โฉ โ Your fate is and will always be the fate of a dreamer. โ โจ1258โฉ โ Youโre loads better than you think you are. โ โจ1259โฉ โ Youโre only half-living, the other half is still untapped somewhere. โ โจ1260โฉ โ The song is over. But the melody lingers on. โ โจ1261โฉ โ You are extraordinary. โ โจ1262โฉ โ We tend to fool ourselves into thinking that time is our size, but it really goes on and on. โ โจ1263โฉ โ It could be five years or ten years or one month. It's all the same. โ โจ1264โฉ โ Iโm forever realising things too late. โ โจ1265โฉ โ Iโm not complaining when I say my life is boring. โ โจ1266โฉ โ Weakness is something that rots in the body. โ โจ1267โฉ โ Coming from your mouth, it has the ring of truth, but I doubt anyone would believe me if I told them. โ โจ1268โฉ โ You can't expect something unreal to last anyway, can you? โ โจ1269โฉ โ A wise man does not step betwixt the beast and his meat. โ โจ1270โฉ โ So, kill me. Tell the others I attacked you so you killed me. โ โจ1271โฉ โ Should never have come here. โ โจ1272โฉ โ Hard to guess my tastes. โ โจ1273โฉ โ Canโt it wait until the morning? โ โจ1274โฉ โ Youโll find temper tantrums wonโt help you here. โ โจ1275โฉ โ It must have taken courage to return. โ โจ1276โฉ โ It all sounds grimly dystopian. โ โจ1277โฉ โ I am not afraid of you! โ โจ1278โฉ โ All this could be avoided! โ โจ1279โฉ โ You consider me a murderer? โ โจ1280โฉ โ Gross way to die. โ โจ1281โฉ โ What sparks wars? The will to power, the backbone of human nature. โ โจ1282โฉ โ My life amounts to no more than one drop in a limitless ocean. Yet what is any ocean, but a multitude of drops? โ โจ1283โฉ โ Our lives are not our own. We are bound to others. โ โจ1284โฉ โ I believe there is another world waiting for us. A better world. And I'll be waiting for you there. โ โจ1285โฉ โ You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn't mean you're defective - it just means you're human. โ โจ1286โฉ โ Power, time, gravity, love. The forces that really kick ass are all invisible. โ โจ1287โฉ โ Unlimited power in the hands of limited people always leads to cruelty. โ โจ1288โฉ โ Truth is singular. Its 'versions' are mistruths. โ โจ1289โฉ โ Dreams are all I have ever truly owned. โ โจ1290โฉ โ Your version of the truth is the only thing that matters. โ โจ1291โฉ โ I believe death is only a door. One closes, and another opens. โ โจ1292โฉ โ By each crime and every kindness, we birth our future. โ โจ1293โฉ โ The healthy can't understand the emptied, the broken. โ โจ1294โฉ โ Lying's wrong, but when the world spins backwards, a small wrong may be a big right. โ โจ1295โฉ โ The weak are meat the strong do eat. โ โจ1296โฉ โ Do whatever you can't not do. โ โจ1297โฉ โ What precipitates outcomes? Vicious acts & virtuous acts. โ โจ1298โฉ โ I remain thankful to God for all his mercies. โ โจ1299โฉ โ You can maintain power over people, as long as you give them something. Rob a man of everything, and that man will no longer be in your power. โ โจ1300โฉ โ Power. The ability to determine another man's luck. โ โจ1301โฉ โ Pain is strong, aye - but friends' eyes, more strong. โ โจ1302โฉ โ Perhaps those deprived of beauty perceive it most instinctively. โ โจ1303โฉ โ Why ask a question whose answer would demand ten more questions? โ โจ1304โฉ โ You canโt lie to your soul. โ โจ1305โฉ โ Why would I want to do a thing like that? โ โจ1306โฉ โ We start off with high hopes, then we bottle it. โ โจ1307โฉ โ Better to make life as complete and enjoyable an experience as possible, in case death is shite, which I suspect it will be. โ โจ1308โฉ โ Iโm not running away, Iโm moving on. โ โจ1309โฉ โ The reasons? There are no reasons. โ โจ1310โฉ โ Some people are easier to love when you donโt have to be around them. โ โจ1311โฉ โ Love does not exist. โ โจ1312โฉ โ Fuck that โregretsโ bullshit. โ โจ1313โฉ โ How does it make you feel? โ โจ1314โฉ โ Itโs horrible how we always die alone, but no worse than living alone. โ โจ1315โฉ โ Choose us. Choose life. โ โจ1316โฉ โ You fucking knew that fucking cunt would fuck some cunt. โ โจ1317โฉ โ Iโm more of a warrior than youโll ever be. โ โจ1318โฉ โ What does that make us? The lowest of the low, the scum of the earth. โ โจ1319โฉ โ You donโt have to run away. ย โ โจ1320โฉ โ I tried to stop because it was only causing pain. I couldnโt. โ โจ1321โฉ โ Iโm not going to get crushed. โ โจ1322โฉ โ I love doubt in a woman. Itโs nearly as sexy as determination. โ โจ1323โฉ โ Take your best orgasm, multiply the feeling by twenty. โ โจ1324โฉ โ Youโre a mess. โ โจ1325โฉ โ I know that itโs never left you alone. โ โจ1326โฉ โ Are you asking me or telling me? โ โจ1327โฉ โ You just get used to all the shit. โ โจ1328โฉ โ You canโt afford a conscience in this life. โ โจ1329โฉ โ None of us are saints and scapegoats are always handy. โ โจ1330โฉ โ Doing things doesnโt hurt you; you get hurt by avoiding them. โ โจ1331โฉ โ What was that? โ โจ1332โฉ โ Protect me from those who wish to help us. โ โจ1333โฉ โ You canโt love yourself if you want to hurt things like that. โ โจ1334โฉ โ What happens when people open their hearts? โ โจ1335โฉ โ Nobody likes being alone that much. โ โจ1336โฉ โ I donโt go out of my way to make friends, thatโs all. It just leads to disappointment.โ โจ1337โฉ โ Donโt feel sorry for yourself. Only assholes do that. โ โจ1338โฉ โ You need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. โ โจ1339โฉ โ I want you always to remember me. โ โจ1340โฉ โ Despite your best efforts, people are going to be hurt when itโs time for them to be hurt. โ โจ1341โฉ โ What stays in your heart will stay; keep them, and what vanishes will vanish. โ โจ1342โฉ โ All I want in this world is you. โ โจ1343โฉ โ I want the two of us to begin everything from the beginning. โ โจ1344โฉ โ No truth can cure the sorrow we feel from losing a loved one. โ โจ1345โฉ โ What a terrible thing it is to wound someone you really care for and to do it so unconsciously. โ โจ1346โฉ โ If youโre in pitch blackness, all you can do is sit tight until your eyes get used to the dark. โ โจ1347โฉ โ Iโve had enough hurt already in my life. More than enough. Now I want to be happy. โ โจ1348โฉ โ People leave strange little memories of themselves behind when they die. โ โจ1349โฉ โ Stop eating yourself up alive. Things will go where theyโre supposed to go if you just let them take their natural course. โ โจ1350โฉ โ When your feelings build up and harden and die inside, then youโre in big trouble. โ โจ1351โฉ โ When you fall in love, the natural thing to do is give yourself to it. โ โจ1352โฉ โ If I have left a wound inside you, it is not just your wound but mine as well. โ โจ1353โฉ โ Hey, what is it with you? Why are you so spaced out? You still havenโt answered me. โ โจ1354โฉ โ People are strange when youโre a stranger. โ โจ1355โฉ โ The dead will always be dead, but we have to go on living. โ โจ1356โฉ โ You donโt get it, do you? โ โจ1357โฉ โ I am a flawed human being - a far more flawed human being than you โจ1358โฉ realise. โ โจ1359โฉ โ At least let me know whether or not I hurt you. โ โจ1360โฉ โ All of us are imperfect human beings living in an imperfect world. โ โจ1361โฉ โ Iโve never once thought about how I was going to die. โ โจ1362โฉ โ So Iโm not crazy after all! โ โจ1363โฉ โ I miss you terribly sometimes, but in general I go on living with all the energy I can muster. โ โจ1364โฉ โ Will you wait for me forever? โ โจ1365โฉ โ I donโt want our relationship to end like this. โ โจ1366โฉ โ When am I going to be able to talk to you? I want you to tell me that much, at least. โ โจ1367โฉ โ It hurts not being able to see you. โ โจ1368โฉ โ Iโm not totally mad at you. Iโm just sad. โ โจ1369โฉ โ The world is an inherently unfair place. โ โจ1370โฉ โ Life frightens me sometimes. I donโt happen to take that as the premise for everything else though. โ โจ1371โฉ โ Iโm a real bargain, donโt you think? If you donโt take me, Iโll end up going somewhere else. โ โจ1372โฉ โ Weโre all kind of weird and twisted and drowning. โ โจ1373โฉ โ Donโt you think it would be wonderful to get rid of everything and everybody and just go some place where you donโt know a soul? โ โจ1374โฉ โ Youโre not telling me anything I donโt know already. โ โจ1375โฉ โ He who controls the past controls the future. He who controls the present controls the past. โ โจ1376โฉ โ If you want to keep a secret, you must also hide it from yourself. โ โจ1377โฉ โ We shall meet in the place where there is no darkness. โ โจ1378โฉ โ Until they become conscious they will never rebel. โ โจ1379โฉ โ Power is not a means; it is an end. โ โจ1380โฉ โ They are not interested in the good of others; they are interested solely in power, pure power. โ โจ1381โฉ โ Now you begin to understand me. โ โจ1382โฉ โ In the face of pain there are no heroes. โ โจ1383โฉ โ Big Brother is watching you. โ โจ1384โฉ โ Power is tearing human minds to pieces and putting them together again in new shapes of your own choosing. โ โจ1385โฉ โ Itโs a beautiful thing, the destruction of words. โ โจ1386โฉ โ The choice for mankind lies between freedom and happiness and for the great bulk of mankind, happiness is better. โ โจ1387โฉ โ Your mind appeals to me. It resembles my own mind. โ โจ1388โฉ โ Reality exists in the human mind, and nowhere else. โ โจ1389โฉ โ We do not merely destroy our enemies; we change them. โ โจ1390โฉ โ How can I help it? How can I help but see what is in front of my eyes? โ โจ1391โฉ โ You must try harder. โ โจ1392โฉ โ Confession is not betrayal. โ โจ1393โฉ โ What you say or do doesnโt matter; only feelings matter. โ โจ1394โฉ โ If they could make me stop loving you โ- that would be the real betrayal. โ โจ1395โฉ โ Of pain you can wish only one thing: that it should stop. โ โจ1396โฉ โ To die hating them, that will be freedom. โ โจ1397โฉ โ No one ever seizes power with the intention of relinquishing it. โ โจ1398โฉ โ What can you do against the lunatic who is more intelligent than yourself? โ โจ1399โฉ โ To keep them in control is not difficult. โ โจ1400โฉ โ So long as they are not permitted to have standards of comparison, they never even become aware that they are oppressed. โ โจ1401โฉ โ The consequences of every act are included in the act itself. โ โจ1402โฉ โ The essential act of war is destruction, not necessarily of human lives, but of the products of human labour. โ โจ1403โฉ โ Stupidity is as necessary as intelligence, and as difficult to attain. โ โจ1404โฉ โ I hate purity, I hate goodness! I donโt want virtue to exist anywhere. I want everyone to be corrupt to the bones. โ โจ1405โฉ โ The past is dead, the future is unimaginable. โ โจ1406โฉ โ You know the answer already. Everyone knows it. โ โจ1407โฉ โ You donโt give a damn what they suffer. All you care is yourself. โ โจ1408โฉ โ It is not easy to become sane. โ โจ1409โฉ โ No emotion is pure anymore, because everything is mixed up with fear and hatred. โ โจ1410โฉ โ They say that time heals all things โ- they say you can always forget. โ โจ1411โฉ โ The object of waging a war is always to be in a better position in which to wage another war. โ โจ1412โฉ โ I sold you and you sold me. โ โจ1413โฉ โ You do not exist. โ โจ1414โฉ โ How does one man assert his power over another? By making him suffer. โ โจ1415โฉ โ Obedience is not enough. Unless he is suffering, how can you be sure that he is obeying your will and not his own? โ โจ1416โฉ โ Everything else we shall destroy โ everything. โ โจ1417โฉ โ Two and two makes five. โ โจ1418โฉ โ Facts, at any rate, can not be kept hidden. โ โจ1419โฉ โ The past is whatever the records and the memories agree upon. โ โจ1420โฉ โ So long as human beings stay human, death and life are the same thing. โ โจ1421โฉ โ If both the past and the external world exist only in the mind, and if the mind itself is controllableโwhat then? โ โจ1422โฉ โ The lie became the truth. โ โจ1423โฉ โ It is like swimming against a current that sweeps you backwards however hard you struggle. โ โจ1424โฉ โ Turn round and go with the current instead of opposing it. โ โจ1425โฉ โ Itโs only after weโve lost everything that weโre free to do anything. โ โจ1426โฉ โ I donโt want to die without any scars. โ โจ1427โฉ โ This is your life and itโs ending one moment at a time. โ โจ1428โฉ โ You know how they say you only hurt the ones you love? Well, it works both ways. โ โจ1429โฉ โ You are not your job, youโre not how much money you have in the bank. You are not the car you drive. Youโre not the contents of your wallet. โ โจ1430โฉ โ You are not special. โ โจ1431โฉ โ Youโre not a beautiful and unique snowflake. Youโre the same decaying organic matter as everything else. โ โจ1432โฉ โ The things you used to own, now they own you. โ โจ1433โฉ โ Today is the sort of day where the sun only comes up to humiliate you. โ โจ1434โฉ โ Maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves. โ โจ1435โฉ โ Only after disaster can we be resurrected. โ โจ1436โฉ โ Everything is evolving, everything is falling apart. โ โจ1437โฉ โ Weโve all been raised believe that one day weโd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we wonโt. โ โจ1438โฉ โ Donโt you have other things to do? โ โจ1439โฉ โ Prove youโre alive. If you donโt claim your humanity you will become a statistic. โ โจ1440โฉ โ You have been warned. โ โจ1441โฉ โ If you donโt know what you want, you end up with a lot you donโt. โ โจ1442โฉ โ Itโs not love or anything, but I think I like you, too. โ โจ1443โฉ โ If I could wake up in a different place, at a different time, could I wake up as a different person? โ โจ1444โฉ โ Why did I cause so much pain? โ โจ1445โฉ โ The lower you fall, the higher youโll fly. โ โจ1446โฉ โ Maybe self-improvement isnโt the answer, maybe self-destruction is the answer. โ โจ1447โฉ โ May I never be complete. May I never be content. May I never be perfect. โ โจ1448โฉ โ Everyone smiles with that invisible gun to their head. โ โจ1449โฉ โ We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens. โ โจ1450โฉ โ The girl is infectious human waste. โ โจ1451โฉ โ I want to destroy everything beautiful Iโll never have. โ โจ1452โฉ โ On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero. โ โจ1453โฉ โ If you could be either Godโs worst enemy or nothing, which would you choose? โ โจ1454โฉ โ It is like youโre never really awake; but youโre never really asleep. โ โจ1455โฉ โ Worker bees can leave. Even drones can fly away. The Queen is their slave. โ โจ1456โฉ โ A moment is the most you could ever expect from perfection. โ โจ1457โฉ โ The people youโre trying to step on, weโre everyone you depend on. โ โจ1458โฉ โ You have to give up! โ โจ1459โฉ โ Reject the basic assumptions of civilisation, especially the importance of material possessions. โ โจ1460โฉ โ Without pain, without sacrifice we would have nothing. โ โจ1461โฉ โ You have to realise that someday you will die, Until you know that, you are useless. โ โจ1462โฉ โ A tiger can smile. A snake will say it loves you. โ โจ1463โฉ โ Lies make us evil. โ โจ1464โฉ โ If you died right now, how would you feel about your life? โ โจ1465โฉ โ You always kill the one you love. โ โจ1466โฉ โ Maybe we should always assume the worst. โ โจ1467โฉ โ Put a gun to my head and paint the wall with my brains. โ โจ1468โฉ โ Which is worse? Hell or nothing? โ โจ1469โฉ โ A minute of perfection is worth the effort. โ โจ1470โฉ โ Youโre going to die, tonight. You might die in one second or in one hour, you decide. โ โจ1471โฉ โ Lie to me. Tell me the first thing off the top of your head. Make something up. โ โจ1472โฉ โ I donโt give a shit. I have a gun. โ โจ1473โฉ โ I know who you are. I know where you live. โ โจ1474โฉ โ Tomorrow will be the most beautiful day of your life. โ โจ1475โฉ โ My philosophy of life is that I can die at any moment. And the tragedy of my life is that I do not. โ โจ1476โฉ โ Everything is so far away, a copy of a copy of a copy. You canโt touch anything and nothing can touch you. โ โจ1477โฉ โ There are a lot of things we donโt want to know about the people we love. โ โจ1478โฉ โ We just had a near-life experience. โ โจ1479โฉ โ If people think you are dying, they give you their full attention. They listen instead of just waiting for their turn to speak. โ โจ1480โฉ โ I am nothing, and not even that. โ โจ1481โฉ โ This isnโt really death. โ- Weโll be legends. We wonโt grow old. โ โจ1482โฉ โ Stop trying to control everything and just let go. Let go. โ โจ1483โฉ โ The amazing miracle of death, when one second youโre walking and talking, and the next second youโre an object. โ โจ1484โฉ โ Only if weโre caught and punished can we be saved. โ โจ1485โฉ โ I never thought about how important the sky was until I didn't have one. โ โจ1486โฉ โ Dreams are like that: they go in and out of memories and scenes, but they're never real. They're never real, and I hate them because they aren't. โ โจ1487โฉ โ Power isnโt control at all โ power is strength, and giving that strength to others. โ โจ1488โฉ โ A leader isnโt someone who forces others to make him stronger. โ โจ1489โฉ โ A leader is someone willing to give his strength to others that they may have the strength to stand on their own. โ โจ1490โฉ โ In the end, we are alone. โ โจ1491โฉ โ It is like a piece of my soul is lost, empty. โ โจ1492โฉ โ If my life on Earth must end, let it end with a promise. Let it end with hope. โ โจ1493โฉ โ Sorry? Sorry isn't enough. โ โจ1494โฉ โ Every single thing I ever loved is beyond my reach now. Everything I ever wanted. Everything I ever was. โ โจ1495โฉ โ Will you stay with me? โ โจ1496โฉ โ A leader doesn't make pawns - he makes people. โ โจ1497โฉ โ Do you hear that? The pulse of life from your heart, the slow in-and-out from your lungs? Even when you are silent, even when you block out all noise, your body is still a cacophony of life. Mine is not. โ โจ1498โฉ โ It is the silence that drives me mad. The silence that drives the nightmares to me. โ โจ1499โฉ โ There is nothing between us but rain. There is nothing between us at all. โ โจ1500โฉ โ I like a little chaos. โ