aw, hell.

call me TV. she/they. 30s. multi-fandom, sometimes-artist, queer as hell.

[tvversionperson]

I guess I’m active enough now that a pinned post is warranted? Idk, hi!

You can call me TV. I’m a 30-something hella queer nerd and possible unconfirmed cryptid. Sometimes I draw and apparently I also write now.

This is a multi-fandom trash heap, but some of my main interests are: Dragon Age, Baldur’s Gate 3, The Locked Tomb, Mass Effect, Resident Evil, animation, art of all kinds

I’m also very into the horror genre as a whole and reblog related stuff not infrequently; those posts will always be tagged with “horror” if you’d like to avoid (I specifically also tag for body horror and gore as needed). 🖤

I enjoy critical analysis and discussion of media; I do not enjoy uncritical hate of a fandom/character/etc., so there will be none of that here.

My ask box is generally open and I love to chat with folks. OC asks make my entire day. :3

Specific tags:

Dragon Age OC: Adele Hawke OC: Adelaide de Riva OTP: sweet like honey - Lucanis Dellamorte X Adelaide “Rook” de Riva

Baldur’s Gate 3 OC: Dire, resist Dark Urge drow rogue OTP: we are more than what they made us - Astarion X Dire

Cyberpunk 2077 OC: Valerie Hart

I occasionally reblog US events/politics, please feel free to mute for your sanity like I wish I could lolsob.

[drivin-ski]

moon & bat circling the trees, 2020

[mixupmycota]

if you are a child or teen on this platform you may get valuable information from heeding these words:

avoid the big fish in this pond. do not seek to become one. avoid the fandom aunts, the "big name fans", the One Discord Server.

consider that how someone treats the people they despise and whether you're brave enough to disagree with them, should they turn that conduct on you. and if it requires a significant amount of bravery to think about telling them they've been a bastard, you may want to reconsider being in that relationship.

there will be people on here who will suicide bait you for being happy. they are very sad people and it is not your job nor your responsibility to engage with them. it's up to them to decide to do differently.

try to decouple your sense of self-worth from metrics. the number can never go up enough. i have a project that's >90% positive feedback and over 200,000 downloads and that does nothing for me on my day to day. it's nice if other people like the thing, but it's worth examining why you're creating and sharing in the first place and figuring out what you actually want.

do not treat the dsm like a holy text that must never be questioned

do not go in on sexual or gender identity based taxonomics

do not be cruel to people you deem lesser than you

remember that you can practice and improve pretty much any skill, and there's no such thing as unskilled labour

[quasi-normalcy]

Mel Brooks on taking studio notes:

[dughole]

i wish he would come down from heaven & kill every instagram fitness liquid diet ozempic green juice low calorie food blogger

[mini-moss]

Indigo nights 🌌

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[ventismfsblog]

[crow-keys]

Let us go then, you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky

[tvversionperson]

i had almost forgotten what it was like to get into a new fandom and scroll the tag looking for neat things only to encounter some of the most asinine posts made by people with the media literacy of a toad

[cheeriely]

Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me

[biglawbear]

I finished reading The Lord of the Rings for the first time in my life. With all of *vague gesture at everything* this going on.

I Am Not Okay

[biglawbear]

You have to understand. I watched the movies maybe once as a kid when they came out twenty years ago. I've somehow avoided learning like anything about these books my entire life. Literally everything about these books was a complete unknown and surprise to me. Totally blank slate going on. I barely even knew how it ended.

Holy shit.

[biglawbear]

Frodo didn't complete his task. Sam literally carried him up Mount Doom. And when he got to the end, he couldn't throw the Ring away.

But for Gollum biting it off with his finger, it wouldn't have been destroyed.

So Frodo's journey saved the world nonetheless.

And it broke him.

It was too much for him to bear. He could no longer live in the Shire or live in Middle-Earth. He wasn't of the world anymore. He had to go to the Undying Lands.

He took on the task that no one else would. He saved the world. Everyone got a happy ending. Aragorn became King, Sam rebuilt the Shire, Merry and Pippin became heroes. They all lived in renown.

But Frodo had the hardest task of all. No one else would do it. A simple hobbit who came by the Ring by chance. Not a King, not an immortal. Not a wizard. No power save his will and his friends. And he did it and saved everyone.

And he never got to rest. He never got to remain in peace. The task destroyed him. It was too much.

But there was no other way. Nobody but a simple hobbit could bear the ring all the way to Mount Doom and resist its power so long. Not a man, not an elf, not a wizard; they would have succumbed. Gandalf knew this, which was why he chose the hobbits in all his designs.

It's amazing that one of the precedent setting works in the fantasy genre holds up so well because it subverts what ultimately became the genre's core tropes. The hero was not the King, or a chosen one. In fact, the hero not being the King was a key point that allowed Aragorn to distract Sauron and allow the task in the first place. The hero was someone unassuming but courageous, who did the thing because no one else would, even though it was just by chance he came upon it.

But Frodo couldn't resist the Ring completely. He wasn't superior to anyone else in that way. And in the end it left him broken. The burden crushed him. No one else could do it, and in the end, he couldn't either. He wasn't so special that he was invulnerable.

I'm not okay. Holy fuck you guys.

[biglawbear]

It's been a week and I'm still not over this, I'll never get over this.

Something that I've been thinking about, as I struggle with depression and anxiety and *another vague gesture at everything* is that LOTR does not criticize Frodo for being broken. It does not shame him or deny him what he needs.

The task was too much and it broke him and that's okay. His friends nonetheless take care of him and let him go with understanding. The book doesn't treat it as a bad thing.

This seems to be a theme throughout the books. The characters rest and heal. They spend time recovering in Rivendell, Fangorn, Lorien, Ithilien. It's treated as good and necessary. They don't heroically endure endless torment from the second they set out until they're done.

And in Gondor's march from Minas Tirith to Mordor, Aragorn recognizes that some of the very few men he's taking with him don't have the heart to go to battle against the Enemy. And he says that's okay. He gives them other tasks the they can do. They hold other strategic points. They aren't shamed for not going all the way, or kicked out, or told that they aren't manly or whatever. Their limitations are recognized and respected. The task was too big and it was okay that they couldn't do it.

I don't know man. I've held on through some absolutely crazy shit. White knuckled through mental health crises when my doctors were begging me to take a break, to go to the hospital before I hurt myself. My therapist has tried to slow me down and tell me that I've been going through it and it's understandable that I am feeling some kind of way. Even one of my colleagues remarked that I've had an absolutely fucking wild career and that I've seen more as a lawyer of seven years than she has as a lawyer of forty. But I've gotten it into my head that I have to be strong, I have to be independent.

Fuck me, man, I'm currently white knuckling through life and hanging on by a fucking thread. A few weeks ago I was about an hour away from checking myself in to a mental health facility until my best friends swooped in to help me. And then I went right back to work.

And then I read this book. This fucking brilliant and beautiful book written by a man who had seen the horrors of war and spilled it all over the page. And I read it for the first time as an adult with full understanding and experience of what it all means. And it hits me like a fucking truck.

And it says that you can't endure everything. That at some point you need to rest and heal. That if you take on too much you will break. And that all of that is okay.

How am I supposed to move on with my life after reading this?

[homunculus-argument]

This counts as vent art.

[kashlat2]

And we all still die

What will you leave behind?

[nateeseart]

[anthonyhurd]

He Brings Me Flowers - 18x24” acrylic on canvas. Available.

[bearlyfunctioning]

Comic #355 : Chronic pain is isolating - Website links here ~ Here's a comic for the spoonies, the suffering and the lonesome. Let's take ibuprofen together 🐻💊 That's right it's a double length comic! I had a lot to say that wouldn't fit in 4 panels 🥲

[molabuddy]

i love when a character is very clearly going through their own shit badly and is able to be sympathised with yet they are also being awful to others and hurting people who don't deserve it, and the narrative is showing how they got here but not letting them off the hook for being cruel just because they are hurting.

i dont like ☝ what happens when you introduce this type of character to a large fandom

[molabuddy]

especially if she is a woman