Almost Is Never Enough (Sequel to Skinny Love; Edward Cullen x black reader)
You were in your room getting ready for bed, clothes and robe hanging on the door for tomorrow; you were graduating from high school tomorrow. No more would you be subjected to the stares your classmates gave you when it was time to go over slavery in History, no more hearing your white classmates and teachers butcher black slang in order to “relate” to you. Your acceptance letter to NYU was taped to your vanity mirror, and in a little less than two months, you’d be moved into your dorm, ready for a fresh start. Edward had decided to go to Dartmouth, six hours away from you and you didn’t know how to feel about it. You had grown used to seeing Edward every day, and now you’d have to settle for FaceTiming every weekend.
There was also this feeling like the two of you had last minute words you had to say to each other that went past the “I’ll miss you” talk. Even though you had a cup of herbal tea at your side, you still found it too hard to relax. You kept tossing and turning in bed, and eventually gave up on sleep and threw the covers off you and grabbing your phone, but you didn’t need to; you heard a tapping sound at your window and knew who it was. The only person who’d ever be at your window at almost 10 p.m. Edward.
“What are you doing here?” You asked him, giving him space to climb inside. “Alice said you might want to talk. That we have to talk.” All those feelings you had dismissed about Edward, you realized what they were now. It was love; you were in love with him. You had never been in love before so you didn’t know what it felt like, you only knew that you loved being in his company, and that fierce protectiveness whenever other girls approached him?
It was jealousy. The two of you talked… and talked… and talked until you had everything out in the open. He loved you, but he also came to the realization that he wasn’t in love with you. His past relationship with Bella still haunted him, and even after all this time, Edward still wondered if she was truly safe; he didn’t want to put you in that same situation. You, on the other hand, had never been in love before so you didn’t really had anything to compare it to, only ever having movies and tv shows go off of. “Edward, if you’re still hung up on Bella, then what’s the point of being with me? I’m not gonna be some distraction, I deserve better than that.”
“And you do.” As he kept going on and on about Bella, you could feel your heart breaking and you didn’t want to hear anymore. “You know what Edward? Just get out. Leave.” You realized that every time you turned down a guy that you were interested in, you were wasting your time, thinking that Edward was going to say that he was in love with you, but he wasn’t, and you probably missed out on some amazing guys who would’ve treated you like a queen. You spent an entire school year on someone who was still hung up on his ex girlfriend.
That was his loss. By the time he had left, and you finally felt like you were ready for bed, it was almost one in the morning. You wouldn’t waste anymore time on Edward Cullen; tomorrow was your day, you had gotten into your dream school and later that day you would be going shopping for your dorm with your mom. Life was good, and it was going to be even better now that Edward was out of your life.
a/n: sorry if this wasn’t the happy ending you were hoping for, i wanted to try something new
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