Profile of Sean Azzariti
"Every day, and absolutely, I love cannabis. I may or may not be high right now."
"@Seanazzariti hi, kinda random but I was wondering if I could email you about a project for my school? It would be really appreciative" Could that tweet have been any more awkward? This is the tweet I had sent to Sean Azzariti to see if he would be willing to be interviewed by me. I had never really expected to get Sean's attention by this tweet, it was a long shot. If I had known I would have gotten a response I would have put a little more thought into it.
Sean Azzariti is a former United States Marine who suffers from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. In the past couple of months he has been in the news for the work he has been doing in Colorado advocating for legalization of cannabis. Sean's work has been a huge success, not only has he been a huge part of the legalization movement but he also has brought to light the issue of PTSD, and finding effective alternative methods of treatment.
Sean had first enlisted into the United States Marine Corps on August 22, 2000. At the age of nineteen he left for boot camp. When he had first enlisted it was something he was very motivated to do. "I served for 6 years from August 2000-October 2006." Sean deployed to Al-Qaim Iraq in 2003, and Al-Asad Iraq in 2005. It was not until a year after his return home that he noticed something had been off with him. Not everyone who experiences a trauma will develop PTSD, but because of the heightened amounts of stress, trauma and emotions, experienced while in the military, the risk of developing PTSD is greatly escalated.
I asked Sean, not knowing if he would be willing to talk on the subject, about what the most rewarding and not so rewarding aspects of his military service were and some of the difficulties he faced. "At the time, it all seems rewarding. You really think that you're doing good for all, and not really thinking much about if what you're doing is right or not." He also said, "You're at war, in a country where you can't really tell who is your ally, and who is your enemy. Living with the constant threat of being killed, or having one of your brothers or sisters hurt, or worse, really takes its toll on you." Sean mentioned being shot at, bombed, and the loss of his friends and fellow soldiers.
Something Sean said really stuck out. He said, "In the early to mid 2000's most of America was quite patriotic, and for me anyways, it was easy to just accept all of the "thank you's" and not really think of the consequences of what we were really doing over there." Oftentimes we go about, thanking veterans for their service. In our minds we are thanking them for protecting us and our country, but when we thank them does this drudge up the past for them? Military service is a soul battering experience, especially for Sean and many other veterans who suffer from PTSD. For these men and women, it can be much harder to deal with these simple "thank you's".
Reading that specific response from Sean, my stomach felt like it had dropped to the floor, in one of my initial emails to Sean I had thanked him for his service. At the time I had thought I was being polite, now I feel as if I unknowingly insulted him in some way.
"It wasn't until about a year or so that I really realized something was off with me, and started to seek treatment." PTSD is not just something you can go to the doctors for, take a pill, and be all better. It takes a lot of strength for someone to be able to work through those memories. Sean's list of medications he was first prescribed is as long as a grocery list. Doctors had only prescribed to treat the symptoms, not fix the problems. "It wasn't until 2009 that I went on temporary disability, and had to see a therapist 5 days a week, for 4-6 hours a day to finally get my PTSD under control."
It was not until he left the military and returned home that Sean had started to use cannabis regularly. He used cannabis in combination with his medications for PTSD. Sean also spent a lot of time on research to figure out what strains of cannabis worked best for the PTSD symptoms he was suffering from. Once he had figured out which strains worked, he began to substitute cannabis for the prescription pills he was taking, until he no longer needed the prescriptions at all. For Sean, cannabis alleviates his symptoms of PTSD without making him into a person incapable of functioning properly. That was exactly what the prescription pills he was taking were doing to him. To Sean, cannabis is a lot of things. The experience is hard for him to explain but it helps him heal, to laugh, to sleep, and to break the ice in social interactions when the time is right.
In 2007, once Sean had become familiar with cannabis and realized it worked for him he attempted to obtain his medical marijuana license. This is how Sean's activism began. Sean had not been familiar with the laws in Colorado at the time, he had no idea that PTSD was not a qualifying ailment. "I was denied, and pretty disheartened by that, and asked myself thequestion "How many veterans is this happening to?", and how many of them are ending their quest for cannabis with that denial?" Shortly after he began reaching out to activists and organizations such as MPP and SAFER. He began advocating in Colorado for veterans and cannabis use for people suffering from PTSD. Sean knows that everyone is going to be different and cannabis will not work for everyone suffering from PTSD. But he thinks that it is something that is definitely worth trying as an option to help treat PTSD symptoms over prescription pills.
Sean believes that PTSD should have been covered by medical marijuana policies in the first place and that the 'fight' should have never happened. But he thinks that marijuana being completely legalized in the state of Colorado was for the best. His ultimate goal is to help make cannabis available to not just every veteran with PTSD, but anyone suffering, or anyone that it could benefit in general. People over the age of 21 now have safe, legal access and he hopes that in the near future that cannabis can be provided safely for everyone in the world.
On January 1, 2014, Sean has watched this journey come full circle in Colorado. Sean made the first legal purchase of cannabis in the state; his total purchase was $59.74. "It was pretty intense to have the whole world watching you do something legally for the first time. It was a feeling I really can't describe other than amazing." For Sean it was the culmination of what people have been fighting years and years for, even way before his time. Work Cited "Sean Azzariti Personal Interview." E-mail interview. 16 Jan. 2014.
-Ally Small












