jay mccarrol's hyperballad cover

i have matt johnson's bpd and nathan fielder's autism so i'm basically canadian

[txwnie]

bad intro post bc i don't know how these work ★

— nico, genderqueer gay + any pronouns

— 17 years old and "just" eight months away from my 18th bday

— white uruguayan, eng / esp

— bpd + autism + depression warrior (all diagnosed!!) + chronically ill, sometimes i talk about it and project on characters

— very passionate about film, lost media, comedy and psychosexuality. i want to be a director and screenwriter, so expect me to be annoying

— i also am a huge music fan, and my favorite artists are fiona apple, björk, the beatles, charli xcx, phoebe bridgers, mitski, sophie, geordie greep and madonna

— my fav movies are secretary, perfect blue, mulholland drive, inland empire, melancholia, the truman show, the favourite, a real pain, but i'm a cheerleader!, bugonia and many others

— meanwhile, my fav tv shows are the rehearsal, community, ntbts, arrested development and some other stuff too

— currently hyperfixated on nirvana the band the show !! sometimes i draw and write so maybe expect fanart and fanfiction from me. also i like rpf

— follow me on letterboxd , serializd and aoty :D

and that's it... this sucks LOL here's my topsters i guess

[txwnie]

I'M SO FUCKING STUPID I JUST REALIZED ALL THE EPISODES OF THE SHOW ARE NAMED "THE B____" BECAUSE OF "THE BAND". I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE ALL OF THEM ARE NAMED THE BSOMETHING UNTIL NOW

edit: THE WEBSERIES TOO ALL EPISODES ARE THE BSOMETHING EXCEPT FOR THE RIVOLI

[txwnie]

Jay figure here thanks so much for the worry, the truth is it’s not that bad and when we hang out I still enjoy myself, I just don’t allow myself to be dragged into whatever cause of my own devotion to them. Trust when i say codependent friendships are mutual in their dependence. It’s why I love ntbts so much cause it’s like oh these guys will never let go and that’s awesome. But in the movie when the cn tower push happens i was like omg…I been pushed from so many towers forever lol it’s funny how talented Matt is at sublimating boundary pushing behavior into comedy/dramedy really.

oh hai again anon!! well i'm very glad you're doing well then :] AND I AGREE WITH YOU!! i think in general comedy is a very underrated genre at the moment of portraying the many faces of mental health, and i think matt definetely uses the extents of how ridiculous you can be as long as you're funny as a way of showing how extreme feelings can be in a great way. i actually think this is a very topic to discuss you're so cool anon

[hattedjanitor]

he's using matt like a party trick

[txwnie]

I’m a jay figure and i had to distance myself from my Matt cause irl it’s actually nerve wrecking to be in a friendship like that . We still hang out but can never go back. I think about it whenever i watch ntbts

oh okay hello first ask ever!! #yasss

on the actual reply, i'm very sorry to hear that anon. even if i joke about being matt and my relationship with my fp and stuff, i know and can imagine how tiring it is to be on the receiving end, and overall i'm glad that you found the courage of distancing yourself from them. in fact, i'm planning to distance myself from "my jay" once we are no longer in the same class, and even if it scares the fuck out of me this only solidifies my decision so thank you in a way. i hope you can find a more calm yet more fulfilling friendship and sending you my best wishes <3

[okdidireallyneedtoknow]

matt represents you and jay represents the unknowable other. everyone knows this!

[txwnie]

i used to be very into anime shows and games that had yuri on them so this is my official list of each mattjay era as a yuri ship (you don't have to know the ships to like this because is just awwwwww mattjay as anime girls so kawai)

monisuki, misakoko and the literal yuri jesus and damien, madohomu

(also yes they're in order of who is supposed to be who)

[txwnie]

my best friend (my fp who's a musician and has known me since childhood) wants to watch ntbtstm with me (person with bpd who wants to be a filmmaker). is this like watching ladybird with your mom but worse? let's discuss!

[diningchairs]

this…this is mattjay to me

i always interpreted phoebe’s lyrics as saying she’s a liar because she changed her mind. but for mattjay i view it more like, “i wanted to see the world through your eyes, then you betrayed me so i changed my mind….but actually just kidding, IM LIAR and I DO want to see the world through your eyes because i love you”

[nirvannathebandrpf]

why are you as a man looking at your best friend like that

[txwnie]

we all can't possibly be literally matt. someone HAS to be literally jay

[cobalt-42]

as someone too young to have really used a phone to call people i'm a little impressed(?) by this thing jay does. i mean it's something real. only a guy who actually talks on the phone and touches his face a lot could hit this move

[txwnie]

once per year someone on tiktok will pretend that bo burnham is coming back and everyone will believe them and i'm TIREDDD

[txwnie]

i suck at talking to people to the point that i can barely talk with even my best friends but i have to take three pills every day and none of them are for mental illness so i think i have bigger fish to fry

[pizzahero]

bo burnham, matt johnson and nathan fielder are my holy trinity

[bipjaymccarrol]

aight heres the recent stuffs devil emoji im gay

[txwnie]

i just had an insanely funny idea for a jay edit...... stay tunned