Tyllie

She/her 19

[tyllie]

Something about me:

Hi, I’m Tyllie, I’m from the Czech republic and I listen to Slipknot, Korn, the Murderdolls, Linkin Park, ADEMA, Marilyn Manson, Type O Negative (I’m starting to, okay?), Nirvana, Rammstein and Palaye Royale. I love music (it absolutely isn’t obvious you dumb b*tch😭), piercings, dyeing my hair (sorry if I wrote it incorrectly), collecting vinyls, so far I have Nirvana’s Nevermind, Korn’s Follow the Leader, Palaye Royale’s Death or Glory and NIN’s Pretty Hate Machine, I love cats, especially the wobbly ones or the tuxedo colored ones. I love the Decayed Brigade. They’re my biggest inspo for sliding. Especially Trudat, Fryboy, Archer and Jet.🫶

I have anger issues, mixed anxiety depression syndrome so expect some venting. Beginner scare actress/slider, I hate spiders, bugs, biology, physics, chemistry. I forgot to mention that I’m aro- 😭😭

I love Lokius and Stucky. My Marvel era is back.

Daughter of @pig-covered-in-grayblood

Thank yewwww for readinnggggg

[tyllie]

I need help.

We just went to a ballet performance with my school, right? There were some romantic moments in there, and they disgusted me. The idea of romance disgusts me, but… I’m into someone…?

Is that possible? I’m fucking confused. That man has me blushing and giggling, but when I see romance, I gag.

What even is that?

[tyllie]

Dude, my handwriting is… pretty but hard to read. I love it. I feel expensive when writing.

Here’s the song :D

[tyllie]

Bro, I’m gonna be a 100% serious, I’m so down bad for that man.

This cover? This version of The Beetles’ song? Yeah, that’s how I fucking feel. Bro. That man has me in a damn chokehold. Half Czech, Half American, 6ft (around 180cm), funny, there’s a 7 or 8 year age gap (FUCK) and he’s my damn teacher.

Trust me, I’m pissed off, I’m pissed that I want him but idc.

[tyllie]

So… it’s been a while.

I’ve got a couple of updates.

I stopped taking my antidepressants. They made my shit bigger than a 200kg adult man and I was constantly clogging the fucking toilet (they fucked my guts up)

I realized my mother was mentally abusive (it seems, because telling your child you wish you would’ve aborted them was absolutely something a mother should say, that’s not even the tip of what she’s said btw)

I’m still madly in love with my teacher and made a playlist of songs that remind me of him or how I feel. (That bitch has eight hours already. I’m worried)

My laptop is fucked, I can’t do shit on that thing and I spent 26€ on Resident Evil 2 and 4 remakes. Can’t even play it.

There’s something wrong with me because my period cramps are worse than ever. Is it a hormonal imbalance?

- And I found out (thanks to my psychiatrist) I have “disharmonious personality development”. Kinda makes sense because of all shit I went through.

So that’s that.

[tyllie]

I hate being a woman.

I’m on my period, my periods are usually painful, but this one? I feel like performing surgery on myself, pain meds aren’t doing shit, I can barely lay down without cramping the fuck up and when I stand, my iron deficient ass almost collapses.

What have I ever done to deserve the curse of not only a painful period but also the heaviest flow in my family?

I missed school yesterday, I’m missing school today, I feel violently ill, like I’m about to projectile vomit everywhere, shit myself, like I have a fever, even though my forehead’s freezing cold.

[tyllie]

I have that man one more time.

You know what? No point in hiding it anymore. I’m an aromantic who fell in love. With my fucking teacher. It’s not my fault he’s a very nice man. I need him. I need him so bad.

What does one do in this situation? I can’t make a move. He has a girlfriend. We need to still be a little formal to him, even though he doesn’t really care.

Just a little cherry on top, he looks like these following songs:

(Trust me, there’s more, but these came to my mind at the moment)

[tyllie]

Fuck.

I saw that man.

That teacher. Fuck. He’s so gorgeous. A man doesn’t need to have abs, or muscles to be hot. He is kinda tall (like 180 to 185cm tall.

He has a little bit of muscles (just some bits).

I know, it’s so wrong. I know, it’s wrong, he’s a teacher. He has a girlfriend. I know. I know all of that.

[tyllie]

I seriously need help though.

First of all, I’m in Volt (left winged, liberal political party that cares about Europe, feminism, human rights, animal rights, the environment, and just is progressive in general.)

I’m an editor, but I’m overwhelmed with school, personal life and it’s just way too fucking much.

I had to miss 2 meetings because I needed to finish a presentation, that is not done because I got too overwhelmed. It’s due today.

We filmed 2 videos for Volt on friday and fucked up both of them. My phone slipped so it’s lopsided, the second has a bit of my finger there for a split second.

Second of all, I’m still going crazy over that fucking teacher.

Third, body dysmorphia. I usually feel good about how I look but goddamnit, I feel fat, unlovable, unworthy, disgusting, ugly. Just genuinely everything bad.

Fourth, I’m pressuring myself to get the best grades I can even though it’s fucking up my mental health. I need good grades to get accepted to college. I hate that. I hate saying that I have to force myself.

[tyllie]

I need all gay people to help me with this one

I think I have a crush. On my goddamn teacher.

He’s 26, I’m almost 19. He’s an English History teacher (teaches world history but in English). He’s super sweet, funny, lets us joke, treats us like we’re equal as him (so no authority bs).

He’s so goddamn hot he had the homophobe in our class flirt with him yesterday. He looks so identical to RE4 remake Leon it’s not even fucking possible.

Well, why am I confused and freaked out? I’m aromantic. I shouldn’t be like “oh my god- oh shit- oh fuck, oh goddamn he’s in here and he’s hot.” He has a girlfriend. I know, it’s so fucking wrong. It’s so fucking wrong to be like this.

What the fuck do I do? I know that the idea of dating, the idea of romance disgusts me, but this man is absolutely gorgeous.

What do I do? I’m having a fucking crisis.

[tyllie]

Bro? 2026 Tyllie will be something else, I’m telling you. Imma be like Antonio (they’re fucking amazing, horny as shit but amazing, check them out on tt)

Again, dirty fucking rant so no minors (I will haunt you)

- Damn, because, the way I’d let RE2 remake Leon ride my 9inch cock? Not even funny (I don’t have one but IDC).

- Because the way he sounds when he’s fucking low HP? Brother? He sounds like he’s being fucked in the ass.

- RE4 remake Leon? That dude, can ride my thigh and I can choke him and call him a good boy like Ada did. (FUUUUUUCK)

- RE6 Leon can sit on my fucking face and suffocate me. I won’t give a fuck.

- RE6 Leon can ride me with those fucking seductive ass hips of his.

- RE9 Leon can fuck my brains out, call me a whore, hold a knife to my neck, I DON’T CARE.

just one chance. PLEASE.

[tyllie]

So, I’m new to the Resident Evil fandom but one thing is for certain. I love it.

If you don’t want a very ✨detailed✨(horny) rant? Well, scroll.

So, FUCK OFF, MINORS!!! Not a safe space.

~I need Leon to bend me the fuck over and fuck me ‘til my brains drip out of my fucking ears.

~I need him to choke me with his fucking biceps.

~I need him to fuck me against a fucking wall so hard we’ll break it down.

~I need him to yank my hair, call me a whore, ANYTHING.

~I need him to make those whining and whimpering noises (the ones he does when he’s low HP).

~I need him to bite me so hard, I’ll cry.

~I need him to fucking do anything.

~I need him to paint my fucking walls white.

LEON SCOTT KENNEDY, the fucking man you are

The way I’d-

You know what? That’s enough. That’s enough horny.

But I need him.

Tyllie out✌️

[tyllie]

Also? My teacher looks like Leon fucking Kennedy. I fucking hate that. That’s the reason I’m playing this shit.

[tyllie]

So I downloaded a RE2 Demo, because there’s a fucking sale on steam and I wanted to see, what I’m getting muself into. Well, as soon as I left the fucking hall, the fucking floor creaked behind me and I almost PISSED myself. Well- I’ve never played a horror game before. But uhhhh… I’m trying, okay? I’m panicking.

[tyllie]

I forgot I actually was working on this bs

It’s just traced (ik it’s not really art but I’m learning)

Video where the idea came from^

[tyllie]

I hate the school I go to. Don’t claim you care about mental health if someone’s struggling, you have ALL paperworks claiming the students can have a higher tolerance of absence, shouldn’t peak infront of the class and claim that you “lost one of them”. You’re not fair. You treat us like we’re fucking animals. Like we don’t matter. I have every grade from all subjects. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU WON’T CLASSIFY ME BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE 70% OF ATTENDANCE??? Everybody has their struggles, yes. My fucking eating disorder (I have binge eating disorder) got fucking worse, my moodswings are worse, I sometimes forget to take my antidepressants because all they want to do is tests, they don’t care about our well-being. No. We’re like robots. We have to do this, we have to show up, deadline this, deadline that. The school presents itself as a perfect safe space. It kind of was like 3 years ago (when the school opened), but since then, this is our 4th principal. Everything changed. So many sweet, nice teachers left, now we have teachers that nobody likes, that can’t teach. I don’t have any motivation to finish but I know because this place is expensive I have to. Do I have some friends? Yes. Is it enough? No. It’s like I’m in a sea of people who don’t know sympathy, don’t understand boundaries, nothing. The worst thing is; I’m scared I’ll meet my mother around here. She works (idk if she still does) right around the corner from here, where she kidnapped me to, and I’m currently no contact with her.

Sorry for the rant. I don’t have many people I can tell this. I don’t want to overwhelm my friends.

[tyllie]

Someone just talked shit about me behind my back. Wanna know who?

My

Fucking

THERAPIST.

🤩