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Absence, Aether, Phantom or Morgan. It/she/void/he/star, please. I’m an adult.

Fictive alter in a DID system. This is a blog for me only, the system’s main is @vanlowetaxidermy. It’s much more lively there.

My header is by @/sparrow-hawk.

#Absence of herself #< My text post tag #Cazavor #< Aesthetic tag for my favorite headmate #Stellaris #< Space-related tag #On mimicry #< Figure out for yourself

I don’t want to be here. Why did they let me start fronting again? I want to go back to the tunnels.

#Absence of herself #I don’t. Feel good.#I want to sleep but I can tell from the mood of being awake that I’ll have nightmares.

I keep trying to will myself to go hang out with our friends so the Convict can enjoy being around them and I can’t do it. Maybe I’m just evil and there is too much hate in my heart.

#Absence of herself #He will just have to miss his ‘shift at the nonsense statement factory’ as he calls it.

orpheuslament

blood splattered surgical gloves are a sort of lingerie in a way

arttla

never knows what to say anymore

#Current mood as they say #On mimicry

I think that ‘fuck came back wrong what matters is you came back’ post is the only arrangement of words that has ever gotten me to understand why they did all of that to me.

#It doesn’t make anything better or make me not angry. But it makes Alex less of a mystery.#I still don’t think he would’ve liked what he got. If he’d gotten to know me outside watching me go through the sim.#But I can see where he would want to try.#Absence of herself

jame7t

tumblr is like an abandoned space station & you all are the thing in the vents

#Smiles.

laterkiss

everytime i want something i should be shot in the head

laterkiss

wanting to get shot in the head for wanting something is also wanting

prompts-in-a-barrel

"You don't know me. I'm not the same person anymore."

"That's okay. I'll get to know you again."

californiannostalgia

#…Oh.

Looking at my penchant for glowy and wiry machinery. Perhaps I’m not so far above my nature as I’d like to think.

#Typhon lures would work on me. to be quite honest.#Absence of herself

aliennachos

#Giggles and smiles

Just realized that within our lifetime I will wake up and it will be Monday, March 15, 2032. What am I meant to do with that.

#Absence of herself #This is meaningless without context but it is deeply and viscerally upsetting to me.

I feel like I’m stuck in someone else’s skin but it’s adhered so well that if I thrash and try to get out too much it hurts more to peel off than to stay in

#Absence of herself #This is about source but also about systemhood #I’m not Morgan. But I am. But I’m not.

I think Prey is a very plural narrative on some levels. I lack the presence of mind currently to explain it but it’s there.

#Absence of herself #Something about the transferrence of identity and the multiple recursive iterations of oneself I think #The idea of trying to atone for actions that weren’t yours and that you would never do #The holes in your memory. The lack of trust in people who should be able to be trusted.#There is so much of it.#Someone ask me about this after we have slept. Assuming I’m still around.

The fact that seeing my source material played adds another layer to its surreality fascinates me. Nothing is real. Except me, of course. Reality is a simulation, within a simulation, within a video game, but the alien creature being subjected to that simulation in order to replicate the personality of the real person whose experiences it’s based on? That’s 100% real and it hates everyone that has ever lived

#Absence of herself #And also my gun that doesn’t exist. He’s real. Do with this what you will.

Watching the Convict pause Prey to go stare hauntedly at his reflection after hearing the volunteer trapped in Psychotronics go “I know my life ain’t worth two dead crickets, but nobody deserves this”

#Absence of herself #You would wouldn’t you?

Does anyone else want hair like yours. Hands like yours. Fingers that curl in the cold like yours.

#Absence of herself

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