Damn wazzam! It’s been too long world.
Been awhile since I blogged!? Where do I even start to explain how life has been.
I mean honestly I been in survival mode since the infamous year of 2020. During these tremulous times I haven’t had much creativity or any urges to write up anything. I find myself Leaning more towards vlogging in this new era of quick content. NGL I would say Vlogging is definitely the new wave, But there’s something about the power of words that fulfills me with that sense of gratification. I’d Like to think of it as a time stamp in the journal that is my life.
The year 2024 has low key been a hell of a year! Being the hip hop head that I am, we witnessed possibly the biggest chain of events in rap battle history! 2 of the biggest and best rappers of this generation going head to head for that proverbial rap crown, KDOT vs Drizzy was something we won’t soon forget. Ain’t gonna lie I most definitely had a horse in the race lol that was thee King Kendrick Lamar. Kung fu Kenny’s artistry as not just a musician, but a creative is unmatched. Hence this blogs point of interest leading us to Juneteenth 2024. This years Juneteenth just so happened to be the same day as the Kenny and friends pop out show!? Coincidence!?…It was almost as if KDOT the rap prophet and the hip hop culture as a whole won the rap civil war, all with the unity and pride of celebrating FUBU (For Us By Us) all puns intended.
Hella excited, I was also set to reconnect with someone I haven’t hung out with in probably over 6 years. Whom might you ask was the link up? None other than the infamous Shizz. My Muse, My 1st Love, the 1 that got away Shawn…she’s HER. With both of us relocating from Philly, (Me to NC) and She (PDX to the BK) was within my arms reach closer than she’s been in years. Which was pretty wild because all imma say is…it’s funny how GOD works these types of things out.
Now you might ask. What does any of this have to do with each other!? Shizz invited me to a Mesego Concert which just so happens to be on the same day as the KDOT Pop out!? And I ain’t gonna hold you, ya Boy was definitely trying to (get to the yams). I was feeling a lot of things TBH…anxiety, reluctancy, and regret just to name a few but mainly apprehension…as Kendrick Lamar-Growing Apart (To Get Closer) cues in my playlist.
Upon arrival in Brooklyn, heading up the elevator to HER apartment floor was pretty nerve wracking to say the least. Mind racing I quieted the storm that was my intrusive thoughts. I had to get my shit together and remind myself to just be me…that’s always good enough. As the elevator climbed floor by floor the more nervous I got. I’m here…as she met me at the door, I was thinking to myself while she talked with her oh so stoic tone (she was as beautiful as I remembered HER). It’s funny because she hates that I zone out when she talks, but what she doesn’t know is that whenever I do, I’m admiring her in real time lol. Awkwardness aside the 1st 5 min was…interesting. We had to feel each other out…get to know each other all over again. But this go around I was introduced not only to the Brannew HER but also to her energetic and overprotective Dog Copper (Her labradoodle). Initially growling at me, it wouldn’t be long before he took a liking to me! To be honest I think he could sense that I had pure intentions with HER so we hit it off pretty quick. He liked me so much that on the 1st night I stayed, he didn’t leave my side lol. Even when Shizz called him to be by HER’s, Copper stayed with me. Is it safe to say that was a Good sign so far or nah!? Shiiid I’d like to think so…I also admired how protective he was with HER in my absence. Good Dog Copp.
Today’s the day…Heading out to the event, my subconscious was wildly reminiscent. Heart racing I was almost in disbelief that I was actually sitting across from HER as we hitched a ride in the Uber. As we rode along a few friends called to check up on me. Playing in her Hair, I reassured the homies that I was ok. It gave us a bit more comfort-ability with each other. Good to know that She still responds to my intimacy. We vibed…then before you know it we arrived. I peeped the scene and I gotta say, it was almost indescribable. It was like the perfect time of day. The hour golden as the sun shined on all these dope ass individuals in cohesion with the same goal in mind, championing the feeling of freedom. The best Juneteenth I’ve probably ever partook in! A celebration for our ancestors from our people. After toning down my admiration I set my sights on HER. I was in Awe…The Sun shined on Shizz as if Oshun herself was standing before me. She was stunning…right then and there old feelings flooded back into my heart while we vibed out to the music in what seemed like just US in a crowded venue full of people. It was as if nobody was around us…all I saw was HER. It was Perfect…we Danced. Eyes closed, my head tilted opposite of HER exposed Neck. She welcomed me without saying a word. It seemed like our rhythm was more in sync than we had ever been in before…we just Danced. Time stood still for a moment, A calming yet understanding silence. At times no words were needed to be said…same as with the rest of this Blog.
Moral of the story…”What’s Understood Doesn’t always need an explanation” it is what it is.
We just lived in that moment, I mean who really knows if it would be the 1st of a new chapter or the last in the book that is our years long relationship. They say communication save relations, I can tell but I can never right my wrongs unless I write them down forreal…as Kendrick Ft Drake (Poetic Justice) cues in my playlist.
Good talking to yall and HER…Again
See yall soon, Sincerely Tyquill
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