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1. What keeps them up at night?
Watching his mother slip from his grasp and fall into the core of his crumbling planet ; learning that one day can be the difference between being part of a species with six billion members and being part of one that is endangered ; watching the man who had consumed his soul die, separated from him by a piece of glass ; knowing loss and pain and fear and trying so hard to avoid them that he numbs himself to everything.
( but he meditates nightly for hours, and that clears his head -- at least, it allows him to push the things that trouble him away and keep them from clouding his mind. none of it matters when he's waking up at four in the morning because his dreams are filled with his mothers face. he'll never forget the fear in her eyes when she realized she was going to die ; will never forget that her last words were at attempt to help him. if anything keeps him up, it's not the thoughts themselves -- it's the fear of them, because his dreams are the only things he can't control. )
2. What is their favourite sound?
The sound of the Vulcan lute has always been comforting, but the hum of the Enterprise's engines has become a constant for him after spending so much time on board -- they're a way of measuring the situation ; he can recognize unexpected shifts and tell if things are well or not.
3. What do they do if they are stuck outside in the rain?
He doesn't hate the rain, but he doesn't enjoy it -- his body temperature is lower than humans' ( 91 degrees Fahrenheit ), and he's from a desert planet. Rain fascinates him, as do thunder storms, and he'll watch them if he has the time, but only from inside. If he's outside he tries to seek shelter and dry clothes as soon as possible, but if he has no choice he continues in his task.
4. Do they preferred to be in open or closed spaces?
He has loved the desert since he was a small child ; the seemingly endless expanses never failed to sooth his troubled heart. The desert reminds him of home ; he prefers open, flat land -- and not only because it offers good visibility. His people evolved to survive in the desert, so he's best suited to places similar -- his body's functions serve him best then.
5. If you were to pull out the first book on their bookshelf, what would it be?
His books are alphabetized for easy access ; he doesn't own that many, only a few bookcases, and he keeps them in his apartment on Earth. The first book is thick, forty years old and leather bound, with pages that have been softened over time by touch. On the first page is an inscription that reads, ' Amanda Grayson, 2229.' It is the journal she kept for the first year before his birth and the next five, her writing small but neat.
6. Are they musical/ do the enjoy listening to music?
Certainly. He plays the aforementioned Vulcan lute and has a definite appreciation for music ; music is numerical but ethereal nonetheless, a mix of the right brain and the left. Fitting, for a man who is half Vulcan and half not.
7. Are they religious/ do they believe in a higher power?
No. He doesn't. He believes in science, in free will, in man's ability to determine their fates for themselves. Does he believe in an afterlife? He believes in the katra.
8. Do they have any false perceptions of themselves?
None false. He's squarely rooted in his views of his ability ; he knows his capabilities and his weaknesses. In terms of his sense of self he's uncertain -- but never wrong, because he's never sure enough to be so.
9. If they had a therapist, what’s the first thing they would tell them?
About the loss of Vulcan, without emotional detail, followed by a statement about the lack of necessity regarding his involvement in therapy.
10. If your muse were a colour, what colour would they be?
Light blue. Blue for calm and clarity, blue for sadness and deep grief, blue for the expanses of his mind and how lost he can become, blue like the ocean, waves rough then calm, tugging him farther and farther from land, and blue for the color of Jim Kirk's eyes, pulling him back after so long at sea.
11. Are they vain? Does any aspect of their external appearance hugely matter to them?
He's not vain. Vulcans aren't prideful creatures, and pride is not an emotion he expresses or feels. He's confident in his abilities, which leads to others unfamiliar with his people and customs assuming he's vain, but he's only acknowledging the truth. He finds it foolish to feign modesty.
* fxmily tagged me in this as well, so I'll tag people & post questions of my own when I answer theirs !!!
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