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river erikson / i'm spiraling up past the stars, i'm not burning out, i'm not afraid to f a l l, not afraid anymore.

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lennon.

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river nodded, biting into his plump lip after feeling lennon’s thumb trace past it. he couldn’t put into words how much he appreciated the male’s understanding, and how much he prioritized river’s needs before his own. of course, had river been in control he wouldn’t have had it as such, but he couldn’t deny how much he loved feeling like he was important, especially with this. he found himself wishing that this was his first time, since it would have been truly special, but he couldn’t dwell on the past and the what could have beens. all he had was the present. “ok. so, i guess i’ll bottom then. if t-that’s okay.”

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lennon.

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when confronted with lennon’s question, it was clear that while river knew what he was doing, he hadn’t still thought about everything. he knew that lennon had asked him, giving him total control over what it was that he wanted to do, but he didn’t want to pick whatever it was that lennon didn’t want to do. not that lennon would ever use the words didn’t want and sex in the same sentence, but he just wanted to make sure that the boy would enjoy the experience with him. “oh, uh... well,” he began, “i, uh... i d-didn’t think about that, i g-guess. i’m okay with whatever it is y-you want,” he said, meaning every word, just hoping that his apparent nerves didn’t make lennon think otherwise.

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lennon.

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river knew what he was avoiding by doing this, what he was saving himself from saying by doing this. not to say that it wasn’t what he wanted, but he knew how out of character this was for him. but that added to the reason of why he wanted this. he wanted to just stop thinking and just follow his gut for once. he lifted his arms and felt the fabric leave his body, before bringing his hands back to his tattooed body. he held him close, close enough for him to bury his lips into his neck, kissing and sucking against the skin because he knew how much he liked that. and with every second of passion, every noise they made, every kiss that happened, river felt more and more like he knew what he was doing, and he definitely liked it.

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lennon.

river used his voice easily, which seemed to give slight more reassurance to the male that everything would be… well.. good, hopefully.. still, lennon wasn’t used to be careful. of being sentimental. he was desensitized to being used. he didn’t mind meaningless, rough, even painful fucking. but that degree was so far off from how he’d ever be with river. “i don’t.. want you to end up regretting being with me. ever. i really dont know if i could handle that..,” he murmured out his worries slightly, though moved his lips to nip slow but harsh at his neck, not wanting to stop any given contact.

river wasn’t scared. not as scared as he thought he would be. as much as he was worried about being good for lennon, he knew that lennon loved him. he knew that no matter what happened, lennon wouldn’t leave him. at least, it was what he believed at the moment, and there wasn’t anything that could tell him otherwise in this moment. he listened as the boy went on, muttering words spilling out before his lips were covered by river’s skin. he bit his lip and moaned softly, before the meaning behind lennon’s words had settled into river’s brain, which caused him to grab the boy’s face so they could look at each other. “hey... i could never regret you, len. never.” he smiled softly, his eyes moving towards lennon’s lips, kissing him once more before tugging the boy’s shirt over his head.

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lennon.

lennon stared at the other as he oh so easily spoke of what he wanted. it was… well, it didn’t help lennon to not feel all that more puzzled. he remembered how river spoke about losing his virginity – the heartbreak he went through once again, so he couldn’t help but question as to why the male would trust him enough with this sort of topic. “river..,” he started out softly, though it was so.. it took a lot for the male to argue the topic. “are you sure about that..?” lennon managed to ask out, though dipped to close the distance between them with another heated and slow kiss.

river moaned into the kiss, thinking back to how different this felt from the last time. how julian didn’t need to be asked twice, but was ready to jump in the second river said yes. he thought about how the scent of alcohol infused every moment, making it sloppy and messy, but that’s how river thought it was how it should be. yet this was different. slow and careful, passionate and gentle, the opposite of what it was the first time. that’s how he knew this was what he wanted. he nodded at first, before speaking into the silence. “yeah, i’m sure. this is what i want.”

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lennon.

as lennon felt himself be pulled down, he let himself easily hover over the other, hands now moved on both sides of the other to keep his own body propped up as he kept their lips attached. slowly though, he pulled the small contact away just so he had enough room to look at the male. oddly enough, he could feel a specific organ begin to ache. “what do you want..?” lennon questioned out softly, voice dimmed down to a whisper as – well, it wasn’t as if they did this all too much. “do you just want to make out..? cuddle..? less..? more..?”

river was so caught up in the moment, he wasn’t sure how much time had passed since they had started kissing. all he realized was that lennon had pulled away and the two had stopped, but only to ensure that they were both on the same page. river knew in his soul what he wanted. his entire body screamed to be closer to lennon’s even though there was minimal between them at the present time. still, he knew what he wanted, what his hormones were telling him that he needed. “i want you,” he said, eyes locked straight onto him. “i want to have sex with you.”

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@becketthouston: @River_Erikson wait i dont get it

@becketthouston: @River_Erikson wAIT I ACTUALLY DO I LOVE IT !!

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston see it's great!!! although i apologize if i offended any christians with that joke!

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston i love twitter but sometimes people can get a lil cray

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lennonffs:

lennon found himself unable to respond to the question considering, well, river’s lips became slightly sidetracked with his own. lennon reminded himself to bring up later that he didn’t mind – that he could keep the lyrics as lennon had everything else practically memorized by now, and merely stared down at the paper due to not wanting to look river in the eye… but at this point, the past anxieties didn’t matter since lennon was easily to devote himself into the simple intimacy, a hand moving to clench over the material of River’s shirt, wanting to keep the male as close as he allowed, really.

as river’s lips kept exploring lennon’s, he thought about how much love was shared between the two. how much more special this was for him, even though the two weren’t technically anymore than friends. that didn’t change the fact that lennon showed him how much he cared for him through the song, and river wanted to show it back. and while he thought back to how poor his judgement was with julian, but this was different, right? at least, that’s what he told himself as he wrapped his arms around lennon’s neck, pulling him down on top of him.

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@becketthouston: @River_Erikson yo if music doesnt work out at least i have a career in stand up comedy !! idk what is it???

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston please, you're gonna be the greatest musician comedian of our generation

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston it's christian bale!!! ba dum tss!

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lennon.

lennon let river intertwine their fingers, licking over his lips slightly as he listened to the other speak, ultimately shrugging off the so called ‘gift’. it wasn’t that big of a deal. they were singers. songwriters. he doubted it was a rarity to do for others. “just – like, since around the holidays and stuff,” he murmured out, green hues dropping it’s gaze slightly, but ultimately picking back up. and, with going on impulse, lennon leaned in once against to attempt to have their lips connect at least once more. 

“well, it was really good. and i want to keep the lyrics if you’ll let me. unless you still need them or something. i just want to be able to show freya. but still. i totally get if you still need them or whatever.” the words continued to flow from his lips, before he turned his gaze back towards lennon, the words stopping once he realized that the boy was leaning in, his breath stopping as he felt their lips connect. only this time, he didn’t let this one slip by quickly. he sunk into the kiss, bringing his free hand up to his face, wanting to keep this one going for a little bit longer.

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@becketthouston: @River_Erikson omg ty !! omg people would probably boo me but like a fan told that one to me today & i was like !!

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston i wouldn't boo!! plus we can totally think of more jokes for you to say

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston like what do you call it when batman skips church?

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@becketthouston: @River_Erikson YACHTS up doc !!!! get it !!!!! like bugs bunny !!!

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston i LOVE that!! i've never heard that one too omg

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston do you tell jokes at your shows? bc you should totally start

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imessage ✉ river.

moira: maybe, they don't.

moira: wherever you want to go, riv.

river: still, it's weird.. it's like thinking i'm wearing pants but i'm actually wearing a skirt

river: maybe their other bird friends tell them what colour they are, even though they wouldn't really understand what blue means.. i still just hope they know

river: wherever? like disneyland?

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lennon.

lennon liked to pride himself on being at least a tad difficult to fluster up, yet here river was, so effortlessly making the boy feel more timid than usual. which was odd considering river was his best friend – and was meant to feel easily comfortable with him in whatever situation. though, it took one quick, simple kiss to let the usual pale skin conjure up to a light shade of pink, green hues meeting up with the male in front of him. it was way… way too short in lennon’s opinion, but he was slightly scared to admit such a thing. “you’re ridiculous..,” he commented out softly. “you get overly pleased with everything.”

“you wrote me a song? a great song, at that. how am i supposed to react to something like that?” he said, sitting next to him and grabbing his hand, intertwining their fingers with one another. it was in times like this that he realized exactly how much he needed lennon. how much he was always there for him, always going above and beyond to put a smile on the boy’s face. he also realized how much he never wanted things to change between them, that the fame wouldn’t get in between the times where they could just sit with other another and just be. “how long were you working on that, by the way? i still can’t believe you put all that together.”

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@becketthouston: @River_Erikson i swear its a joke !!!!!! that would be mean if it wasnt a joke :-(

@becketthouston: @River_Erikson yachts !!

@River_Erikson: @becketthouston ok good! um yachts who???

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lennon.

lennon did absolutely feel vulnerable, but it was river after all. he had seen him in… worse cases. all this happened to be was vocally expressing plenty of the situations they encountered. the song didn’t really pinpoint any which event, and more or less wrapped around the emotion of vulnerability. expressed the difficult and slight complications lennon had come across since meeting the other male. the words. the notes. all of it was delicately picked out, including such pieces that currently could not be demonstrated due to the lack of an instrument, but the perk of it was that the song didn’t need the steady beat to carry on either. the song easily came to an end in soft notes. “now you know me, for your eyes only. for your eyes only…for your eyes only.” once finished, the male let his gaze leave the paper, and his fingertips lightly and aimlessly brushed over the watch attached to his wrist as his voice fell completely silent.

the second that it was over, river’s hands came together to give the boy a round of applause, before he crawled over and pulled the boy into an even tighter embrace than the first time around. “ that was amazing, len. honestly, the best thing anyone has ever done for me. ” he smiled as he pulled back, keeping his hands on the side of his face keeping his eyes locked in his green hues, before he pulled him in for a quick kiss. he almost wanted to tell him that he loved him, but for whatever reason seemed to stop him, he chose not to, instead telling him, “ you’re amazing, you know that? you truly are the greatest guy i’ve ever met. ”

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lennon.

it was difficult to not let a smile break through, exposing his cratered dimples as the other rambled on. it was a useful quality, really. hell, if they were both on the quiet side, he doubted their conversations would go very far.. so, suppose river’s rambles was just always something he liked. found it cute, so to speak. he watched the other bite on his lower lip, rolling his ideas at the idea that river probably genuinely was attempting to shut up. lennon reached into his pocket, slowly unfolding the piece of paper – which wasn’t all that neatly organized. it had the scratched out lyrics. and all the flip side, had slight adjustments to the actual music. “it’s meant to be played on piano,” lennon noted out, flickering his green hues to the male before back to the paper that he sat off to the side. lennon straightened himself out slightly, not wanting slouching to impact his voice. “if I could fly, i’d be coming right back home to you. i think i might give up everything, just ask me to..,” he started out before carrying out through the verse with the slow melody – though mainly started with his gaze planted on the sheets – or the floor, not exactly wanting to get caught up with the idea that he was literally singing a song for river.

river nodded towards the male as he told him that it was meant to be sung over a piano, already imagining what the intro might sound like, even though he had yet to hear an actual note come from the boy. it wasn’t until he heard the first line that he felt all the anxiety slip from his body, his slight bounce waning away, allowing him to just sit and listen. he listened to every lyric, every note, his eyes never leaving the boy who’s eyes never left the paper. he had only heard the beginning of the song so far, but he knew that it was the most beautiful thing that he had ever heard. not only did it feel completely real, but he was getting a glimpse into how lennon really felt, the parts of himself that he never showed to anyone. that’s why when he sang, i’m completely defenseless, he knew he meant it. and he knew how hard it was for him to open himself like this, even if it was for him. he was just in complete awe, his attention locked on him as the song went on.