✩ i'm an 19-year-old engineering student in my second year at cllg
✩ my hobbies include reading, listening to music, sketching, crafting, thrifting, self-improvement and spending time w friends
✩ my main focus in life is my career, interpersonal relationships and personal improvement
✩ this blog will be my digital diary where i can hold myself accountable to my goals and inspire others to achieve their dreams too
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posts masterlist ♡
making a study schedule
3 types of goal setters
7 memorizing techniques
4 active study methods
the 80/20 method
study tips
study mantra
ur sign to be disciplined
why manifest?
2024 ins & outs
improving friendships
quit brainrot. unfollow trolls. read essays. go down rabbit holes. have a calendar. maintain a todo list. read old books. watch old movies. turn on dnd. walk with intent. eat without youtube. chew more. train without music. plan for 15 mins. execute. organise your desk. take something seriously. read ancient scripts. act fast. find bread. eat clean. journal. save a life. learn to code. read poetry. create art. stay composed. refine your speech. optimise for efficiency. act sincere. help people. be kind. stop doing things that waste your time. follow your intuition. craft reputation. learn persuasion. systemise your day (or don't). write. write. write. write more. iterate violently. leave your phone at home. walk to the grocery store. talk to strangers. feed the dogs. visit bookstores. look for 1800s novels. experience art. then love. sit with a monk and offer them lunch. don't talk shit about people. embody virtue. sit alone. do something with your life. what do you want to create? turn off your mind. play. play a sport. combat sports. notice fonts in trees. fall in love. notice patterns on a table. visualise it. talk to people with respect. don't hate. be loving. be real. become yourself. cherrypick your qualities. discard the useless. rejections aren't permanent. invite what aligns. accept what does not. read great people. be different. choose different. do great work. let it consume you. lose your mind. value your time. experience life.
it’s your bad habits ⋆ your distractions ⋆ your insecurities ⋆ your lack of discipline ⋆ your procrastination ⋆ your ego ⋆ your fears ⋆ your broken routine ⋆ your addictions ⋆ the person you don't want to be anymore
"reprogram your brain for consistency, not intensity"
Log: 17th March
regular housekeeping tasks
research work 2P
read journal papers
evening walk
Cut the dopamine supply.
Work in short, controlled bursts (20-30 minutes max) — even when you feel like working longer.
Leave tasks unfinished.
This forces your brain to stay engaged in the background without burning out.
Delay gratification.
After each session, step away. Don’t check results or keep pushing.
Low-dopamine environment.
Limit phone use, social media, and even music that triggers a dopamine spike.
so i have lab exams and assignments this week, and figured i might as well keep track of everything i need to hand in/study for
from being a vaguely hopeful highschooler to becoming a frustrated college student, i've come far, but let's see if we can get all this done and dusted by the end of the week, and retain my sanity in the process.
chem lab & java lab 1, dsd submission (tue)
trw lab, dsd software review (wed)
java lab 2 (thur)
dsd lab (fri // the worst of all)
beyond that i can't remember any assignments or quizzes due this week, but if i remember any ill come back and edit the post.
ALSO, i j went back and checked my old posts and realized the last time i posted something on this account was when i had lab exams for sem 1, it's definitely a pattern lmao
chem lab exam went decent, i reviewed notes JUST before the exam and it came in clutch (don't do that though pls). in java lab i attempted the mcq mostly to my satisfaction, and out of the 2 coding questions i passed all testcases for 1, and for the 2nd one i passed 5 out of 8 testcases, so i should hopefully get decent marks for that. after that i came back to my room, made a rather late submission for the dsd* labwork on my uni website and then started learning verilog. i made satisfactory progress on that, so overall a productive day.
so i attended all classes today (which im proud of) even though i woke at 7.30 and ran to class by 8 and barely survived between my sleep deprivation and the oppressing heat. math class which extends 20 mins beyond class timing EVERY day, finished 5 mins early today. after my regular classes and my japanese extra class i studied for my dsd review and finished it, bought groceries, studied for my trw* exam and gave it satisfactorily, if i do say so myself. after that i spent like 2 hours with my friend who had her birthday today and then came back to my room to study for my java exam tomorrow. wish me luck xx
i forgot to update for thursday and friday, but yeah for my java exam, i passed all testcases for a 25 mark q, but couldn't pass the testcases for a 15 mark q. anyway, after that i meant to study for dsd lab exam but i got tired real quick and started listening to music and stayed up till late and was rather cooked in the exam the next day, but it's alright, it's over now. after that all i did was hangout w friends and go to consecutive sleepovers for 3 days. classes start again from tomorrow and theory exams are in 2 weeks, wish me luck :(
so i have lab exams and assignments this week, and figured i might as well keep track of everything i need to hand in/study for
from being a vaguely hopeful highschooler to becoming a frustrated college student, i've come far, but let's see if we can get all this done and dusted by the end of the week, and retain my sanity in the process.
chem lab & java lab 1, dsd submission (tue)
trw lab, dsd software review (wed)
java lab 2 (thur)
dsd lab (fri // the worst of all)
beyond that i can't remember any assignments or quizzes due this week, but if i remember any ill come back and edit the post.
ALSO, i j went back and checked my old posts and realized the last time i posted something on this account was when i had lab exams for sem 1, it's definitely a pattern lmao
chem lab exam went decent, i reviewed notes JUST before the exam and it came in clutch (don't do that though pls). in java lab i attempted the mcq mostly to my satisfaction, and out of the 2 coding questions i passed all testcases for 1, and for the 2nd one i passed 5 out of 8 testcases, so i should hopefully get decent marks for that. after that i came back to my room, made a rather late submission for the dsd* labwork on my uni website and then started learning verilog. i made satisfactory progress on that, so overall a productive day.
so i attended all classes today (which im proud of) even though i woke at 7.30 and ran to class by 8 and barely survived between my sleep deprivation and the oppressing heat. math class which extends 20 mins beyond class timing EVERY day, finished 5 mins early today. after my regular classes and my japanese extra class i studied for my dsd review and finished it, bought groceries, studied for my trw* exam and gave it satisfactorily, if i do say so myself. after that i spent like 2 hours with my friend who had her birthday today and then came back to my room to study for my java exam tomorrow. wish me luck xx
so i have lab exams and assignments this week, and figured i might as well keep track of everything i need to hand in/study for
from being a vaguely hopeful highschooler to becoming a frustrated college student, i've come far, but let's see if we can get all this done and dusted by the end of the week, and retain my sanity in the process.
chem lab & java lab 1, dsd submission (tue)
trw lab, dsd software review (wed)
java lab 2 (thur)
dsd lab (fri // the worst of all)
beyond that i can't remember any assignments or quizzes due this week, but if i remember any ill come back and edit the post.
ALSO, i j went back and checked my old posts and realized the last time i posted something on this account was when i had lab exams for sem 1, it's definitely a pattern lmao
chem lab exam went decent, i reviewed notes JUST before the exam and it came in clutch (don't do that though pls). in java lab i attempted the mcq mostly to my satisfaction, and out of the 2 coding questions i passed all testcases for 1, and for the 2nd one i passed 5 out of 8 testcases, so i should hopefully get decent marks for that. after that i came back to my room, made a rather late submission for the dsd* labwork on my uni website and then started learning verilog. i made satisfactory progress on that, so overall a productive day.
This schoolyear is already nearing the end, and all of my 'I will study' promises dissapeared long ago. I'm not a bad student, but I'm lazy. Procrastinating studies makes me also procrastinate hobbies and things I enjoy, prompting me to use my phone instead. Not the ideal way of living as a teenager. I also suffer from anxiety and tend to overthink. I dont have many friends, but dread spending time alone, because of that I my summers are spent scrolling away. However, this summer I dont want to do that.
The goal
Glow up inside & out. Enjoy life everyday, learn to push through hard moments, and look forward to the future. Become my ideal self, the type of person I would look up to. Learn to spend time alone, as well as learn to treat others more kidnly and welcome them into my life with joy.
Rules I will follow
· spend atleast 1 hour everyday focusing on hobbies
· workout atleast 2 times a week
· always do all of my homework
· use my panner
· start writing in my diary again
· create and follow a morning/night routine
· follow a simple sincare routine
· eat clean and well while enjoying treats every now and then without any guilt
Please don’t ever abandon yourself again. Especially not in the name of trying to be seen, heard, and validated by a temporary connection. Stop holding on to things that don’t demonstrate respect for your value. You deserve so much better.
so i have lab exams and assignments this week, and figured i might as well keep track of everything i need to hand in/study for
from being a vaguely hopeful highschooler to becoming a frustrated college student, i've come far, but let's see if we can get all this done and dusted by the end of the week, and retain my sanity in the process.
chem lab & java lab 1, dsd submission (tue)
trw lab, dsd software review (wed)
java lab 2 (thur)
dsd lab (fri // the worst of all)
beyond that i can't remember any assignments or quizzes due this week, but if i remember any ill come back and edit the post.
ALSO, i j went back and checked my old posts and realized the last time i posted something on this account was when i had lab exams for sem 1, it's definitely a pattern lmao
When it comes to friendship, always remember one truth: friends are attracted to you through your personality and attitude, not by pleasing or submitting to others. It doesn’t matter if you're disliked or isolated. As long as you haven't harmed anyone, isolation is not necessarily a negative thing. Never feel inferior or think it's your fault, and never force yourself to fit in with others.
Sometimes, isolation means independence. It often marks the turning point between personal growth and a group of people standing still. The key is that even when isolated, you remain firm in being yourself and in being your own friend. As Mr. Lu Xun said, "wolves always walk alone, while cows and sheep walk together". During times of solitude, you can calm your mind, block out external distractions, and focus on your own growth, living a freer and more authentic life.
Sweetheart remember, not being able to make friends is definitely not because your personality isn’t good enough it's out of ur control. it's just that you haven’t met the person who truly connects with and understands you. Be patient and steady. What you want may be slowly approaching you.
Amazing facts we were never told growing up that will absolutely blow your mind and hopefully empower you a bit too.
Menopause Is Rare
We all know that every species is main purpose, speaking in evolutionary terms, is to reproduce. So, if we really think about it, then why does menopause exist?
Humein bachpan se directly or indirectly yahi sikhaya jaata hai ki we women are only good for breeding. Our main purpose is baccha paida krna. Especially in our society, we are still expected to not continue our jobs, not continue studying, basically drop everything and be a housewife and push out babies.
But guess what? Only 5 species in total experience menopause. And the theory for that is that menopause is the nature's way to slow you down. To limit reproduction. So that women can pass down knowledge and caregiving. This is linked to evolution of intelligence, culture and complex society.
So, the next time someone says ki ladkiya toh baccha paida krne ke liye hoti hai, hit them with this.
Sperm Quality Affects Pregnancy Outcomes
Sperm isn’t just about fertilization. It affects placenta formation, embryo development, and the immune response of the pregnant person’s body.
Poor sperm quality has been linked to higher miscarriage risks, preeclampsia, and even developmental disorders later in life.
AND! Men’s age affects all this—just like egg quality declines, sperm does too. We just don’t talk about it.
We were always told that the whole child-rearing process is solely ours. Bss 2 minute ka kaam hai ladko ka and that's it. The child grows in our belly and the whole process is something only we have to go through.
WRONG!
This just takes out responsibility from the men. In reality, just like we have to go threw the whole 9 month period of growing a baby in our womb, men have to take care of themselves before pregnancy. The whole pregnancy depends on the quality of sperm. Jitna dhyan humein rkhna padhta hai during pregnancy, men should do the same before pregnancy. Cause their sperm health determines how smoothly the pregnancy would go and also the baby's health.
Male and Female Bodies React Differently to Diseases and Medication
I guess most of us know this one. But medical research has mostly been done for male bodies, even for conditions that affect women more. This is why, till date, we have no proper birth control pills or better solutions for PCOD/PCOS and other female related issues.
If you search the net right now, it will still say that all these diseases are incurable which is untrue. No one has bothered to actually do proper medical research on women.
The pills that they give us for such issues does more harm than good in the long run but we are just never warned about it.
Male Birth Control Exists—But Was Stopped Due to Side Effects Women Face Daily
This one just blew my mind man. There has been a lot of tries with male birth control pills. And one was so damn successful also. 320 man were taken for this study. The sperm count went down significantly when they used that pill but it was stopped because some men reported they faced acne, mood swings and fatigue.
Meanwhile, these are side effects women have endured for decades on the pill.
The Uterus Can Contract in Response to Emotional Stress
That pain during anxiety or heartbreak? Real.
Emotions trigger physical responses in the uterus—like tension, cramping, and bloating. That’s why stress can delay or worsen periods.
