*Midnight rant*
I'm disappointed with myself right now, cause i got this opportunity but I wasted it because I was too arrogant and lazy. I realized how much I lack and how much I rely on chances to the point I don't give my best. I wanted to change and improve myself but right now i feel shit, sad, dejected, jealous, angry at myself, disappointed and i feel like I let my parents down.
But I want to try again, this time I'll try my best and give it my all, I want to let go my fear of failure and finally see what my limitations are...and though I'm scared and sad now, i really wanna try my best this time. I just really hope I'll be consistent this time and actually push through this.











