Corner of memories

For the corner memories

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Journaling so its became true

FAMILY

Perfect family that I will have, we gonna live on the village or a country side just somewhere near a big city. My husband had a stable remote job that he can stay at home and we do something that we like together freely.

He is compassion, he has a hobby and focus on something really matter. He worry less and have calmness in his mind.

We have small house with a big garden where we grow bougenville flowers, spices and tree,

We own two dogs, one small and big one. We feed stray cat and give them love whenever they around our house.

We always walk everyday, doing some weight excercise, meditate and pray.

At this point, I havent imagine that I have my own son or daughter. But I guess I am willing to adopt. I don't want my kid to experience some bad things like mine.

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Mind

Starting to get ambitious again to chase your dreams is an amazing feeling. Feelings when you have a big desire for places you want to visit. Excited to have that travel blues again after your wonderful trip. I can not stop.

The feelings when you are on that airport escalator. Seeing the gate of the world.

Having an ambition makes me focus more on my life. Collected memories that only exist in my MIND forever, just until I died.

Just simple memories like a junction of the street. Public stations, Shops, and city lights.

China I will be there in the meantime.

Lukla, for seeing that Everest will wait for me.

Australia will be easy in some phase of my life.

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Chase your dream.

Places and Destinations is my dream.

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I need to meditate better

I don't know why i felt blue now. Like I want to cry but I don't. My nose are hurt, like I holding tears.

I'm alright.

Today I was thinking about the nasty human beings. How nasty human is, how nasty I am.

We are filled by lust, greed, hate and material possessions. Never enough.

I don't want to be one of them. Please God, made me feel enough. Made me feel enough. I embrace and grateful about your memories that keep coming back on mind. It was simple beautiful memories. From all the place that came from my reality and dreams.

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Unexpectedly Japan & Vietnam. Rejected Australia

Haven't written any memos since lot of colorful unpredictable things happened. Such a surprise but its something I manifested before, at least once in my life. It will always happening.

I visited Japan last April 24, something unbelievable that can ever happened to my life but it is! Under the fully cherry blossoms tree of Hirosaki castle, it is all magical blooming.

Try the onsen on the cold midnight rooftop at Aomori, I saw the moon is brightly shine that night. I can not believe that things happening to my life, but it is.

Go back to Bali with fully beautiful memories of Japan, then my Australia visa got rejected lol. It's upsetting me a lot at least for 3 days in cry hahaha. I get over it because I booked my trip to Vietnam already with John, after 6 months of long distance relationship.

Dragon Jaws mountain in Sapa is an accidentally place that we visit. The most memorable one that so beautiful and will stay in my mind forever and ever. Stay with him along the trip, get in some uncomfortable situation where the weather is super humid hot under the summer peak of Vietnam. Get scammed and harassed by street seller LOL. But from this journey I am actually so ready and getting curious for further challenges in our relationship. I love it.

Future, I don't know you yet but all my manifestation it will came true and I will be okay too.

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I was countless dreaming about John. It is been 3 days in a row already, dreaming about him. Whenever also he is around

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I am looking for a variations.

Scared of overwhelming stamina. I wanted emotional freedom, yet I insist on trapping myself underneath people who are not secure enough to grant it.

One way or another, I am going to have let go.

Pleasure doesn’t have to be expensive.

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John

Today under the sun of Bingin, John and beautiful pool was in front of me. Weather was really nice with the shadow of the tree and flowers. I said to him "My life here is beautiful, this is my everyday life. And all I want the most is a new place to be with you".

Shell a new challenges is needed for your life. Go out this cage and see the world.

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A guy named Steffan

There is a German guy named Steffan. Arrived in this island just one night ago. Feel amazed with the breeze of Balangan beach. He is talking loud with somebody else and with his friendliness I thought he is somebody that lived in Bali on a long term.

Living on this earth for 35 years. 19th of April. Germany living in Munich, the most expensive city in German they said. He is shaking of nervousness, whenever I am in calm. Seeing this beautiful Uluwatu around just for one moment sunset. He is delightful.

Working and studying a bachelor's degree of economic engineering. Something that I never thought it's existed. Seems smart brain also with his glasses.

Behind it all there is smiley eyes embrace golden retriever attitude. He is excited on the water, jumping and diving. He is full energy of Joy.

I know he has interest in me, I am sure. But I have doubted any Germany man for their trust and commitment. I understand his situations also. Another 2 years of hustling, if it is meant to be it will be.

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12/12/2023

I was sitting in my front desk of Amara. Doing some possible creative content that my boss trust me to do. It was fun and easy for me and lately I was thinking to do it more for serious way. Digital Nomad they said. Why not? little that I know now.

There is three coincidence that happens recenlty;

After the 3rd of nice tarot card about my future career, then I ask what should I do with my current job. It is appear black hole card written 'Death'. It is meant what I meant to be. I do want to quit, and destiny stronger it up.

When I was working doing my content at the Bali Blue cafe. I met the girl that seems curious in me and say hi. She is so nice and misheard me something that turns out she said "So you going to Australia too" with not even once I said or told her about that. I clap my boss leg and said "How did she know I was going there, Pak this is my destiny".

And also by today, two of my nice guest on the hotel came by and suddenly tell her life story. It's Violett and Helen that end up we became friends on Instagram. Helen told me she was enjoying riding around Uluwatu and it's remind her of journey when she travelled around 3 country of Vietnam, Cambodia, and Laos. She was 35 years old, riding motorbike with no helmet for 3 weeks. They are traveling around with tight budget. Because she just quit her job and need to saved a lot for her life.

I was amazed on that moment. I said, I am currently almost on that situations.

December is my last day on work and I also thinking to be more free like she did. She said to me, you do not need to be afraid of anything. I am more younger that she is when it is happens. And lol I never ever ride that far in my life. What a life.

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Another new scenes for the new year!

Hi Shell how are you??

You've been not visiting this page lately because life is so busy and fun HAHA. For this you sacrifice yourself too! I know how it feels to be that tiring and so much bored that hoping everything can be change to a different life scene :D

Let's congrats what you are became now HAHAHA big cheers on you Shell. Really! Almost two years of dedications that you give for yourself without any stop line at all!

2023 here is the year that let you be in the most beautiful prison of ULUWATU <3

This is the messages if you maybe questioned your decisions.

It is 6th of December 23, two days after you are asking for leaving your current lovely company.

You are sitting in your front office desk the weather is humid like every day as usual. You are getting sweat during the day.

You have doe eyes because of your tiredness.

On the outside mirror you never be proud for what you looked. Let's maintained that on the future.

And you got same hundreds of same scenes every day.

Even we need to be less ungrateful haha, you keep getting along with your current circle nicely. You ask for resignation on a nice way. Pak Gernot is kind with you ahahaha I do not know he's truly *but who is care LOL.

You are getting along with Bu Nadia and Faiza still. Bu Ben is still on good mantains, but you need to understand her side too hehehehe. *Life of others is not as pretty as it may seem* You met bu Jas maybe there is still some changes to get along or she do not care at all hihihi.

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Need and want to read some book to distract my life from a mobile phone

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03 August 2023

So yesterday was my day off, after I doing work for 11 days straight. The last time I got day off before was that time I felt really sick, my kinda mentally and probably also on period mood (?)

Ubud again was always really nice. I never get over it. As you know my truly favorite place in Bali. I started to passed by the wonderful Ubud market. Visit local cafe that i just passed by, called Cafe Hibiscus. Ordered their passion fruit juice, then the owner aproach me lol. Keep flirting to became his daugter in law then say random stuff of politic HAHA.

Mitha was arrived after that, waiting for me in front of Ubud market. She is Ubudian that need to be prayed her canang in her dad house. So i just walked by for 10 minutes to her house, lovely. Watch truly balinese culture, now as a good friend of mine.

I don't want to forget this memory. With that all beautiful picture that we take together with her.

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02 May of my 24th.

It was 02 May of my 24th in my life. Unprecedented - predicated has happened. A new job offer come through me, she is asking me to became her personal assistant. Manage their villa.

It said unpredicted because I thought I would be prepared to went abroad. To Australia, turns out it is not yet for this moment.

Also last couple weeks I was get an US job offer too for J1 visa. It is actually open up my opportunity and my sight for all the possibilities to went abroad.

And it was predicted because I actually manifested this. I do tell people that I work on that place, when my previous company ask me where I go.

Now I just need to prepared myself.

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Never forget this place for ever.