Tsukasa-kun, you alright? I want to mentally check up on you. Sorry I wasn’t online earlier
I don't wanna feel. Feeling is too painful. And painful leads to... Less good places...(Scissors and pain killers, if you get me) :/
It'd be easier if I just couldn't feel °–•
But alas. I've found comfort in the art of puns. Writing and laughing at my own puns. Most of them I'm not willing to share because they have to do with my first language, but just know that I'm doing better right now. Better than my earlier delusional state. And trying to sleep :3
Also, don't be sorry! It's not your fault, and if anything, I'm actually glad you weren't online earlier. I feel like I would've probably hurt you if you were online earlier.
And that thought scares me.
I don't want to hurt you. You're really important to me.
If you're ever feeling threatened by me, you can just feel free to leave the conversation.
If you ever feel uncomfortable, you could tell me or leave.
I don't want to force you to stay. You don't deserve to be hurt.
Also, I'm saying all of this because there was another time where I was in a state similar to that and I ended up threatening/trying to manipulate my friend(s).
I still have no idea why they even want to be around me after that, but if they want to stay, that's their choice.
I really hope I'm not keeping you awake now by replying to this so late. I'll be heading to sleep soon, so good night.
And if you see this when you wake up, then good morning ;3
Also, yes I'm a bit better now :3
